Lois had spent half the night awake after her meeting with Emil and it was praying on her mind. Lois had decided to tell Clark everything tonight. After all they were always honest with each other, especially since they became a couple.

She planned to go over the farm and make him dinner. She warned Emil that he may get a phonecall so he could explain things to Clark. Everything was in place until her cell bleeped with a message alert. It was Clark, he was texting from the airport to say that Tess had asked him to go to Star City with her for a conference.

Tess was not exactly top of Lois' Christmas card list especially on hearing that she was behind the kidnapping and the mind machine fiasco. She definitely had an obsession with Clark. Quite why, Lois had never worked out.

Lois was fascinated with Clark because she loved him, but why was Tess so interested in a farmer from Hicksville. Maybe she fancied him. Lois knew Clark had no feelings for Tess but was a little uncomfortable by the way he listened to everything she asked of him.

It would just have to wait until tomorrow night. Lois texted Clark back to let him know she was going to stay at the Farm that night to keep Shelby company.

Her mind drifted to conversation must have had with Tess

Clark: This isn't your battle.

Tess: So you admit that it's yours. Clark, don't you see that I'm doing this all for you?

Clark: For me?

Tess: Yes.

Clark: You're so delusional, you put together a small army to make some fictional prophesy come true.

Tess: Clark, the mark of a true hero is somebody who's willing to sacrifice his own personal morality to help keep the world safe.

Clark: No one has the right to choose who lives and dies. I was beginning to think that you were different from Lex. I was wrong.

Tess: The difference... is that he turned his back on you. But I still believe. I understand... ...that if everyone was more like you, the world would be a better place. But the truth is that that's out of your hands now.

The mystery was deepening. There was obviously something between Tess and Clark. Why was Clark a hero in Tess' eyes. What had he done. Lois was puzzled. She had to find out more and the best way to do that was to try and focus on the memories which could give her answers. She concluded that these memories that she recalled were being triggered by what she was thinking about at the time.

Emil asked if she would meet for lunch. Lois liked and trusted him. There was something about him. When she arrived at the coffee shop in Metropolis he was already tucking into a sandwich. He asked Lois what she wanted. She was not hungry, so she had a coffee.

"So, anymore flashes." Emil inquired.

"Just one, involving a conversation between Clark and Tess and she was calling him a hero." Lois replied.

"Oh, I see." Emil reacted, trying to pretend it was news to him.

Lois could see that Emil was nervous –the bead of sweat running down his forehead was a surefire sign that he was letting on more than he knew.

"Emil, could you tell me again how you and Clark met. You knew him before my recent admission to hospital didn't you?" Lois was determined to get some answers.

"Ok, yes I have known Clark for about a year." Emil admitted.

"How did you meet him? Why,?" Lois pressed the matter further.

"Lois, I cannot answer any questions about my relationship with Clark. I have a duty to respect patient confidentiality as you so rightly pointed out yesterday." Emil smiled.

Emil was right. Lois had no right to ask him to betray Clark's confidence. It did not matter, she would find out. She managed to trigger a memory.

Clark: Chloe. Look, I don't like you going outside alone, not when Doomsday could be so nearby.

Chloe: Clark, it's just outside. Trust me, if he comes back, I'll holler.

Emil: I know all that she's been through must be taking its toll, but I think something else is going on with her.

Clark: Why would you say that?

Emil: Her feelings for Davis Bloome may be stronger than she's telling you. Last week, she came to me, desperate to cure him.

Clark: She didn't tell me that.

Emil: Well, that's not surprising, Clark. When it comes to affairs of the heart, everyone uses secrets and lies to protect the ones they love.

Emil noticed that Lois was in a trance.

"Lois, are you ok?"

Lois snapped out of it and looked at Emil.

"Don't worry you do not need to tell me anything, I have just had a flash of you, Clark and Chloe discussing Davis Bloome. It seems I can pick and choose which memories to see."

Emil was worried. It would not take long for Lois to figure out everything about Clark and his heritage. Maybe that would not be such a bad thing, he could see how deep Clark's feelings ran for Lois and she could handle all his secrets. It would be better when Lois could tell Clark about her memory flashes and then perhaps he would tell her of his accord.

"When are you telling Clark?" Emil asked outright.

"You were right last night. I had planned to tell Clark tonight but he is on his way to Star City with Tess and won't be back until tomorrow afternoon. I am not going to tell him over the phone." Lois suggested.

"Ok, I'm glad you finally have seen sense."

After her meeting had concluded, she headed back to the Farm. The drive back always reminded her of her time living with Clark, she decided to play some Whitesnake. They were one of those groups that had songs to match every mood. Not that Clark agreed, he always moaned when she put their greatest hits on in the car. He obviously had no appreciation for good music and could not understand her obsession with whitesnake. Well it was his loss. Just then she found her mind wandering...

Lois: Oliver's history. Actually, Mrs. K, can you give us a couple minutes?

Martha: Yeah. Um, I-I'll be upstairs.

Lois: Here we find ourselves - all alone. Wow. How did I never notice what big, strong hands you have?

Clark: What's going on, Lois?

Lois: Well, you know me. I'm not very good with words, so... people don't think Whitesnake sings power ballads, but they do.

Clark: You made me a mix cd.

Lois: Yeah. I will kill you if you tell anyone this, but... there is nothing that I love more than slow-dancing with some big, strong arms around me... just like yours, Smallville.

What the hell was going on. She worked out that must have happened when Clark and her were under the influence of the dodgy meteor laced lipstick, but what was Clark doing remembering what was happening. He swore that he could not remember a thing. Maybe it was a repressed memory and the 'mind-swop' had brought it to the front of his mind. She decided to see what else happened on that night.

Lois: Nothing screams romance like a dusty newspaper office. Come on. You can do better than this.

Clark: I was planning on it.

Lois: Not that I'm complaining, but isn't this a little sudden? I mean, all this time, one kiss, and all of a sudden, you like me? No, I mean it. This is for real, isn't it?

Clark: Oh, yeah, this couldn't be more real.

Lois: Wait. Wait. Wait a minute. Wait. I knew I'd kissed you before - in the alley. You're Green Arrow.

Clark: Hardly -I was just pretending to be so you wouldn't know it was Oliver.

Lois: Oliver? Oh, my God. All those times he disappeared.

Lois: What is my deal with emotionally unavailable weekend warriors? Thank God I finally found a normal guy.

Clark: What do you mean "normal"? Oliver's not even in the same league as me.

Lois: You don't have to be macho just for me. I like the dorky farm-boy thing

Clark: Dorkier than a hood and a quiver? Just because I don't wear a costume and splash my face all over the papers -

Lois: Clark! So what if your signature move is driving a tractor? I think it's adorable.

Clark: You know, Lois, I think that it's time for you to meet the real Clark Kent.

The 'real' Clark Kent. Lois was starting to wonder if she knew Clark at all. Everyone else seemed to know more about him than she did. And was she hearing right when she heard that Clark had pretended to be Green Arrow. So it was Clark who had kissed her in that alley. She was so embarrassed, as she had told Clark to his face how good a kisser he was.

Lois needed to know more. She was going to find out everything about her boyfriend. Maybe it was the nosey reporter within her making her determined to seek the truth, but then she realised if she was going to pursue a future with Clark she needed to know everything about him. He was obviously keeping secrets but what were they?

Lois arrived back at the Farm and decided to relax and see if she could trigger some more memories. She sat on the couch and closed her eyes. Soon she was seeing Chloe and Clark walking down main street having a discussion...

Chloe: Yeah. And for the cherry on top, you get to tell Lois the truth and still know her reaction.

Clark: All of this made one thing very clear, Chloe - Lois can never know who I really am.

Chloe: Clark, is it safe to say that maybe another benefit from protecting your secret getting to protect your getting hurt?

Then the scene flashed to one of Clark and Kara talking in the barn...

Kara: So, did your adventure with Lois end with you telling her your secret?

Clark: Not exactly. All I ever wanted was to keep Lois away from my secret. But yesterday, that nearly got her killed.

Kara: You want your cousin's two cents? Lois can handle it. She's tough... and strong. You wouldn't have let her get so close if you didn't think so, too.

Clark: I was beginning to miss these family lectures.

Kara: I'm leaving Smallville.

Then onto Lex and Clark in some sort of what looked like an ice structure.

Lex: It's a brilliant disguise, Clark. You don't even need a mask.

Clark: I'm not your enemy, Lex. I've never done anything to hurt you.

Lex: You didn't trust me. With everything you had, with everything you could do, did you ever think about what we could have accomplished together? I would have helped you become a hero.

Clark: When have you ever thought of anyone but yourself?

Lex: Right now. I'm doing this for the world. I have to protect the human race.

Clark: This is my life. You have no right to control it!

Lex: It's my birthright! After all my sacrifices, after all the pain, I finally understand. I was being prepared for a much greater destiny. Everything led me to this moment.

Clark: And we're both here. We're in that moment. And what happens next is your choice. But no one is controlling you, Lex. No one is forcing you to do this.

Who was Clark – some sort of savior. No he wasn't, he was Clark from a farm in Smallville. But why was everything referring to him as some sort of hero...
She needed to delve further.

Clark was really upset about not seeing Lois for two days. But this was made worse by the fact he had tried to call her, but the phone kept going to answerphone. He needed to hear her voice. Tess was starting to annoy him with these last minute requests to go away. Things were strained between him and Tess to start off with.

After all she had kidnapped Lois from the hospital and tried to get hold of her memories, all under the pretence she was doing it for him and to save mankind. This excuse was starting to wear a little thin. All Tess cared about was power.

He knew he should have reported her for shooting Stuart but she was his link to the whereabout of Zod. He tried to phone Lois again when he reached Star City but he got no reply. He decided to try and ring her as the Blur.

A groggy sounding answered the phone. "Hi, Blur"

"Lois, are you ok? You sound out of it?" The Blur asked with concern

"No, I'm fine. I was just asleep on the couch when you rang." Lois explained.

"As long as you are ok?" The Blur said

"Well, you could come and save me from myself and the thoughts I am having." Lois said without thinking. What was she doing saying things like that to a man she hardly knew.

"Oh, its nothing. I have just found out something about someone close which have left me puzzled and frankly upset." Lois stated.

"Anything I can help you with?" Blur asked in a panic. Did she mean him? What had she found out? He tried to delve further but Lois was not letting on.

"Look, it is a bad time at the minute, can we talk later." Lois said abruptly and hung up.
Lois went back into Clark's memories.

It was a scene at the Farm house. Chloe and Clark were having a heated discussion

Chloe: Lois stopped by and found Shelby here alone with a dishful of food. Now, don't worry - I covered for you. But you should know that you're now on her radar.

Clark: Thanks. I'll be more careful next time.

Chloe: Dressed like that? Clark, what if I was Lois? She would take one look at you and realize that Clark Kent is The Blur.

Clark: I told you - there is no Clark Kent.

Chloe: No disrespect to your Kryptonian calling, but... coming back to feed the dog is about as human as it gets. Are you still reaching out to Lois as The Blur?

Clark: She told you?

Chloe: You're supposed to be training with Jor-El. Does he know you're still talking to her?

Clark Kent is the Blur - no way. Lois had been through all this a few weeks ago when she accused Clark of having a double identity, but this theory was disproved when the Blur called her in the presence of Clark.

However Lois was sure that she heard Clark's voice when the Blur's voice modifier had that technical blip. How could she have been so naive – the Blur used a voice modifier, anyone could have impersonated him for that call. Her bets were on Chloe being the person on other end of the phoneline. After all her cousin seemed to be leading quite a double life. Everyone seemed to be leading a double life.

Lois was angry. She had dealt with her anger weeks ago when she first came up with the idea. Then, she had understood why Clark needed to keep it a secret from her and knew that he would tell her when he felt it was the right time.

However Clark had lied to her face when she asked him directly if he was the Blur. Why couldn't he tell her. Lois was starting to doubt herself again. Clark was not the Blur.

She decided to test the theory.

She picked up her phone and dialled Clark. He picked up.

"Clark, where are you?" Lois sounded desperate

"Star City, Lo. Why what's wrong?" Clark panicked.

"Clark, I need you now..." Lois pleaded

Before Lois had a chance to finish her sentence, Clark was standing in the kitchen with a wide eyed panic look in eyes. His expression soon changed to one of confusion and he realised he had revealed his secret.

"Lois, what... Let me explain." His eyes were begging for a chance to explain but Lois looked mad

"You lied to me. You told me you weren't the Blur. You looked into my eyes and denied it." Lois ranted.

"I can explain Lois, please sit down."

"Explain, explain about what – how everyone knew about your secret identity – Oliver, Lex, Clark, Chloe and Kara. "

"Lo..."

"Don't 'lo' me. You seem to tell anyone who wants to listen, apart from your girlfriend."

Lois was red with anger. "I bet you didn't even tell Lana. Is that why she left?"

Another memory came into her mind...

Clark was in the barn as Lana approached up the stairs

Lana: Clark, please. I don't want to hurt you.

Clark: Lex already took care of that. Did you talk to Dr. Grohl? Can he help us?

Lana: No.

Clark: I'm gonna do everything I can to fix this, Lana. I will find a way for us to be together.

Lana: Clark, he tried everything. He can't reverse the process. I love you. I always will. I know what I need to do with my life now. Life is... so precious... so beautiful. And to be able to protect that, that's an amazing gift. I know you feel the same way. What we have is beautiful. Clark, we made our choice on that roof. And I know we would do it again. Because both of us are driven to do this, even if we can't do it together.

Clark: Don't leave. Don't leave again, Lana. Even if we can't be together, I want you in my life.

Lana: That's where you're stronger than me. To... to see you... on the street every day... And not be able to touch you...

Clark was kissing Lana passionately, trying to hold onto her like his life depended on it. Lana pulled away from him.

Lana: Clark.

Lana: Goodbye, Clark.

Lana: That night at the cemetery, when I introduced you to my mom and dad, you told me that I would never be alone... that my mom would always be watching over me. If we're in each other's hearts, Clark, I will always be with you. No matter what. I love you.

Clark: I love you.

Lois' life fell apart when the realisation hit her. Lana and Clark had never fallen out of love. Lana left because she had to. Clark still loved her...

Clark did not know what to say. He needed to calm her down. He noticed when Lois went into a trance. Seconds later she came out of it and her expression changed to one of deep hurt...

"You bastard, you still love her. Lana had to leave. That scene in the barn when Lana left, you collapsed. You were devastated." Lois shouted

"How do you know about that?" Clark said with a shocked expression. He needed to convince Lois it was her he loved, Lana was history.

"So you're not denying it then..." Lois screamed. "We are over, do not come near me ever again, you disgust me..."

Lois ran out the house, her heart broken. Clark did not have the strength to follow her. He crumpled to the ground in tears...