AN: OK I would just like to thank everyone that's worked with me through this story working their asses off to give me the chapters needed. I would like to thank AJ and Jetters for giving me their characters for the portion of the chapter they were in and once again AJ you pulled through for me thank god I was getting worried when I couldn't reach you freaking Songfather I love you like the psycho brother I never had. XD ;) enjoy
oh oh I would also like to say that I'm very disappointed in my reviews, or lack there of I think I made it very clear that you should give Terri love and you didn't just because your not in a chapter doesn't make you any less responsible for supporting your fellow characters -huffs-
OH AND WARNING: THIS POV CONTIANS WATERBOARDING AS WELL AS MANY OTHER TORTURING DEVICES SO IF YOU HAVE A WEAK STOMACH PLEASE SKIP OVER THE PARTS I GUIDE YOU THROUGH IF YOU THINK YOU CAN BARE THROUGH IT THEN YOU THROWING UP IS SOOOO NOT MY FAULT THOUGH I MUST SAY THEY ARENT AS GRAPHIC AS I FIRST THOUGHT THEM TO BE
Song for this POV/Chapter
Sitting in the dark, I can't forget.
Even now, I realize the time I'll never get.
Another story of the Bitter Pills of Fate.
I can't go back again. I can't go back again...
But you asked me to love you and I did.
Traded my emotions for a contract to commit
And when I got away, I only got so far. The Other Me Is Dead.
I hear his voice inside my head...
We were never alive, and we won't be born again.
But I'll never survive with Dead Memories in my heart.
You told me to love you and I did. Tied my soul into a knot and got me to submit.
So when I got away, I only kept my scars. The Other Me Is Gone.
Now I don't know where I belong...
We were never alive, and we won't be born again.
But I'll never survive with Dead Memories in my heart.
Dead Visions in your Name.
Dead Fingers in my Veins.
Dead Memories in my Heart
Quote:
I've never tired to block the memories though some are painful. I dont understand people who hide from they're past. Everything you live through makes you the person you are now.
~ Sophia Loren
Trista's POV:
As soon as the water meets my face I struggled with myself not to freak out. She was more cruel then I thought. How else would she allow me to be put through this that demon. My heart speeds up and my breathing becomes harder to hold. I feel as though I'm falling through a black hole. I feel hopeless and lost and I pray for help and its with these pleas that I realize I've been transported to my worse nightmares, my memories.
AND WEAK STOMACHS THERE IS NOTHING TO SEE HERE JUST KEEP MOVING CALMLY TO THE SAFE SIGN THANK YOU ALL.
352 AD
I cry, wishing to lie in a ball. Come on just kill me! Kill me please. I haven't done anything wrong. Why are they asking me such horrid questions? So I make dolls for a hobby that now makes some one a witch? I look at the chains attached to my arms and legs. I close my eyes. This is one of their many methods. Trying to get me to tell them where my supposed coven is. I don't have one, I refuse to let them go after another poor person who was at the wrong place at the wrong time. No even if I did that I wouldn't get to leave. I new that before the screams started down the hall.
"SHE DID IT, SHE CURSED ME." I hear a poor woman cry. I stop breathing listening in closer. "She seduced my husband!" I shake my head. Is a mans unfaithfulness really cause enough to send a woman to hell? Why would anyone allow anyone to be placed anywhere near this hell, this nightmare? I guess someone who is mad, in pain and praying for death just as much as I was. Someone with a weak soul as my mom would say.
"Name!" I hear a man bark out. They were all men. Women were too weak to handle this. Weak in body, heart and soul. No men die here only women. Its sick I suppose. One woman helping to kill another.
"Elizabeth Rose! She lives in my village!" The woman informed.
"Good girl, Mary-Anne. Now dispose of her." The man ordered. She gave any other away she got the hanging or the gallows.
"NO! NO!" The woman cried. "PLEASE DON'T." Shut up, shut up you soulless woman no one cares for you here no one cares for weak souls, or stupidity.
"Hang her!" I hear footsteps and struggling, one form the woman and another one of chains. I freeze when I realize its me. I cant sit still, I need my knives, my sword.
A man comes in and I look at the ceiling. I bite my tongue as he starts turning the lever round and around. The stretcher. They do it slowly, the turning, build up the intensity I guess. But soon I was hearing cracks in my bones for being in one place for long. I bite my tongue tighter as I feel a slight strain in my muscles. They stop.
"Now girl tell me who your leader is!" The man taunted me. He was just another sick freak who loved to hear a woman's scream. I spit in my face as I do everyday he asks. He growls and start turning it again. It starts to hurt.
He stops again. "Tell me who it is now!" he's tone isn't so nice as the first time, another everyday occurrence. He wont stop now that he's in it just for my screams. He turns it again more slowly. I grimace as the pain intensifies and I close my eyes praying. "Don't you dare curse me devil woman! Open your eye now!" I do as I'm told because he has his ways of keeping them open. Ways I don't want anything to do with he turns it three more times. I count by the squeak it makes when it hits a certain point. Three more times and I'm shocked and I must smile slightly.
"What are you smiling at wench?" he snaps as he stops.
"I haven't screamed yet." I bite throw my teeth. "I'm starting to think your losing your touch."
"You wish." He spins in 2 more quick times and it rewarded with my screams at last.
"Je voudrais pouvoir vous maudis, vous l'homme le mal! Je souhaite les âmes des morts qui vous revient de vous emmener en enfer." I crackle. Mad with the pain and mad with the need to get out of here even if it was from a coffin. He stops where he is and releases the chains as another man walks in. On to the next method.
I walked. The rest of these wouldn't be the same. I could never expect what was coming. I'm strapped into another table legs and arms. I heard a squeaking noise. Rats. I think about this. I was used to rats, I mean they infested out home so I wasn't so afraid. I start to relax. They place the rats on my stomach. I don't make a noise. I take a deep breath and give the men a 'is this it?' glance. They answer its and they hold torches up to the cage. Oh god, oh god. I watch as the eyes look through me. We stay like that and soon as they start to feel the heat their small bodies tense and they start to squeak, loudly. I nod to them, if I die I die. They grow quite and thats when I feel them. I yell out as they start biting and I scream and thrash around no matter how hard I lock my nerves down. They don't start I can feel the marks they make.
I shake my head at myself as I feel my tongue get loose. No I can handle this they can kill me this way but I will not break. I'm not weak. I am not afraid of them, I am not less then them. The pain soon after that becomes so unbearable that I have to lie my head back. I start to feel myself in a river diving deeper and deeper. I know any minute I'll pass out. I know they will stop when they realize this too. Suddenly my world blackens.
I feel myself being dragged. Its been a few weeks or hours since the rats. I had gained markings all along my stomach. Its so easily done. I was weak and flimsy... I hadn't eaten in months, or was it days. I couldn't remember., and that thought made me lose all hope in myself and the human race. I'm hooked up to another table. I remember when it used to seem cold. I no longer felt the difference. Moments later a strange man is pinching my nose. I start wiggling my nose trying to free it from its hold. He only squeezed it harder. My face was covered from my forehead to my nose in a wet cloth so he couldn't see me roll my eyes. but I was scared. i felt as though this was different. Like this was the end of who I was.
They evaluated my legs so they were above my chest. Suddenly water is getting pour over my mouth. I was so shocked. It had been so long since I'd felt water against my lips. I open my lips gratefully but they pour it quicker, the water pours in quicker, to fast for me to drink. I gag trying to get it out. I start to struggle subtly at first. I couldn't breath. take the water way I wanted to scream. i hear the men laugh at my weak attempts. Get me out I begged in my head. I feel isolated and alone. I struggle harder.
OK PEOPLE WITH WEAK STOMACHS YOU MAKE RESUME HOLDS UP SAFE SIGN
Soon time during this the black behind the cloth turned a bright white. I open my eyes to see me on a brightly lighted cliff side. I the wind blows and I hear a whisper. Soft I could see myself just imagining it. I hear it again a bit louder. "Trista." I hear the voice under its breath. A velvet filled males voice, a voice that I'd heard before. One who comforted me and became my friend. "Listen to my voice. Allow me to change you please. Will you allow me to let you live?"
"Yes." I hear my voice weak. I feel a sting in my neck. "Where do I know you from?"
"I am your conscience Trista. You know me I'm your ultimate adviser. I am where you are. I'm anything and everything you will for me to be. Forever."
Suddenly his voice transfers into my own through my mind. "i will always know your past and hold your hand through the necessary future." I feel something press against my lips and open my mouth to feel a warm liquid run down my throat. I drink it greedily.
"Never again will you have to deal with those men, not unless you truly felt you needed to." I look around. Everything was sharper, clearer, I cold hear the water and scrambled up to my feet faster than my mind could catch up to it. It was amazing. That was my life and I never looked back.
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Bar in 1218, Vince
I walk into the bar in mens clothing, it was very suggestive, with tight fitting pants and a corset top. A perfect hunting uniform. I was fine, I had hunted earlier in the day so I was doing a different kind of hunting. I needed some fun. I was a few hundred years old many women get married and yet I haven't ever flirted. Not even when I hunt. It got me laughed at a lot. By Sita. I love around so find the girl in question, in the corner in a crimson dress surrounded by men. As per usual. I look down at my outfit and move to the center of the tavern to a clear area.
As song starts up and I move my hands move from my hips and run them along the black accents of my corset top, up my neck and over my head. I stomp three times and twirl around in a circle before stomping once with both feet again. I kick on foot.
I walk up to a man at the bar and run my hand down his arm before taking his hand and leading him back to his spot on the dance floor. I pull him flush to me and wrap a leg around his hip and dipped backwards. He places his hand on my back pushing me back so that we were flush together. He looks behind me and I know hes trying to get Sita jealous.
I groan softly and he looks down at me and he looks embarrassed as though he see the hurt in my eyes I look away from him and push him away. I spin around and around on the spot. I stop when I get dizzy and lift my face to the light,hands above my head, as the song comes to an end. I smile.
I gasp in surprise as some one grabs me around me and pulls my back flush against against his chest. I stiffen slightly as his mouth kisses just below my ear. We move as one dancing close together as the make shift dance floor filled. His lips moved to whisper in my ear. "You shouldn't dangle your self like meat. You make yourself look easy."
I spin around to smack him. He grabs it and hold it to his chest. "Stop trying to gain other peoples admirers, there are plenty of these folks who could easily be yours without all this crap going on." he says so only I hear him.
"Oh would I gain the attention of men like you?" I look him over, that wouldn't be a bad thing. He was quite handsome.
"Quite possibly, lucky you." I roll my eyes and step from him. He grabs my arm and pulls me flush against his chest again.
"You have go to give a woman some space." I smile slightly not sure whether I was moved by his advances.
He smirks and nods but doesn't move. I step to the side and move toward the door behind him. He moves to the the side to stop me with his shoulder. We walk counter clockwise our shoulder never disconnecting. His eyes held unto mine and it was as though his eyes had a power that over road my own. I was unable to speak, my voice caught in my throat. His lips lifted slightly on the side. We moved in sync to face each other again. He grab the back of my neck and pulled my face to his, leaning down as though to kiss me.
I blush and moved, spinning backwards to avoid him. My back was to him once again, and he responded much the same. This time, however, when my back met his chest I slid, slowly, down his body keeping out bodies touching at all times and looked up to him as I moved back up. I look around when I am firmly in place. The crowd was parted just enough to see the man I had been dancing with begging at Sita's feet and for once I didn't mind.
He turned me towards him. He picked up my legs wrapping them around his waist and dipping me back, moving his hand you the front of my corset. His hand wrapped behind my neck and pushed me up so our faces were inches apart.
This dance was full of want and desire, and all around need for the other. It was with that I realized, I am not Sita, I cannot have one nightstands and not feel guilty. I loved to quickly, even now I thought I felt something. Something that would be destroyed by lust if I let it. I look up into the gentleman's eyes.
"I'm not sure for whom I do this, whether it you or I, but I cannot continue you must understand, at lest I hope you do." I bow and stand. "I am just Trista, I cannot deny who I am."
"I am Jack and I cannot allow you to do anything unwanted." He bows as well. "I hope that my company was enjoyable."
"I wouldn't dream of anything better." I walked out after taking one last look at the man Sita was currently sitting on, I knew this wouldn't be the last time I saw him.
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