A/N: Soo like, I'm barely getting reviews, but since I rly enjoy writing this story, I'll post up the last chapter for the day. (: Thanks to jchamberz & MissAuthor123 for your cute, little reviews & whoever's reading! It's much appreciated!

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- Shad's POV-

I got home from a long day of practice, only to be greeted by Kayla standing by the door in one of my button-up shirts. I sighed and made my way over to her to hug her and give her a kiss. We been on the low on and off since me and Christina hit 4 months. After that whole honeymoon stage, me and Christina just got.. boring and lifeless. Dont get me wrong, I loved that girl. It's just that, she got too caught up with work and fam, that I started to do my own thing with ball and stuff. She just wasnt the same girl who threw herself at me, and gave me everything.. like in the beginning. Our relationship was just getting more dull as the day went by. Shorter conversations on the phone. Delayed responses to text messages. It just wasnt there anymore. But I couldnt let her go bcos like I said, I still loved her.

"Where have you been?" Kayla pouted.

"Practice, where else?" I said in an obvious tone. I went up to my room and sat on the bed, throwing my duffle bag down on the floor. She followed behind me and sat next to my spot on the bed as I went to take my shower for a quick minute. When I came out, she was flipping through channels.

"Christina called." She said in a snobby tone.

"How long ago?"

"Just a couple seconds ago."

"I gotta call her back." I mumbled and sighed.

"When are you gonna let her go? Im tired of lying about us. Keeping us on the low." Kayla looked at me. I put my finger to my lips to signal that she had to be quiet before Christina picked up.

"Hello? Hey babe."Kayla rolled her eyes and laid back down on my bed. "Hows everything? Oh, I see. Nah, Im good.. Just tired. You went to the beach? Aw, I see. Sounds relaxing." Silent Pause. "Huh? Oh, you need to go? Alright. Alright. Yeah, love you too. Bye." I hung up and threw my phone on the bed.

"You rly need to let her go. Its either me or her. You pick."

"Kayla, dont start." I started fixing my duffle bag when she scoffed. It was folllowed by and 'Oh my god.' I looked up at her, confused.

"What?"

"I guess this just makes your pick even easier." She nodded towards the TV. I saw a picture of Christina, the four guys, her sisters and Rodney walking along the town of Malibu. Then there were pictures of her on someone's back, a picture of her looking down at him, and a picture of them watching the sunset. The rage grew inside of me. "Looks like your babygirl got someone else on the low, too."

"Kayla, just shutup for one minute." I continued to watch the tv. Logan Mitchell and a "close friend." Dating or not? The boys of Big Time Rush and Rodney Lewis were spotted walking around the town of Malibu with close friends and Rodney's fiance, Felicia Vega, but a particular BTR heartthrob was later spotted talking a romantic walk along the beach, watching the sunset with a "close friend." Logan Mitchell, huh. I knew them boys was up to no good. I took the remote and switched the TV off.

"So, what? You're just gonna leave it?"

"It's been a day. I aint worried about that shit right now. If it keeps popping up, then I'mma have to do something." Whatever was going on, had to come to an end. In due time, I had Kayla anyways. Christina knew better than to mess with me.

- Christina's POV -

As Wednesday approached, the family just stayed at home, watching movies in the theater room. Today was Thursday. Only two more days till the wedding. Tomorrow was the pre-party. Me and my sisters ran errands for the party going on tmo. Not too much alcohol, as Mama & Felicia said. They werent trying to deal with anyone having hangovers on the day of the wedding. When we got home, we ate dinner and took a swim until it hit nighttime. Everyone was in the pool until late, but I figured I got out earlier than the rest to call Shad. I hadnt rly had a full conversation with him since after I called him from the beach. I didnt know what was going on & I was gonna figure it out.

"Where are you going, Christina?" James said swimming over to the edge where I was.

"Up to my room. I think Im done for the night." I said squeezing the water out of my hair.

"Aw, party pooper!" Carlos yelled before James pushed him down into the water and swam away. Then Logan swam to my area.

"You're going up to the room alrdy?"

"Mhm."

"But we didnt even get to the jacuzzi yet." I laughed.

"Oh hush, boyfriend remember?" He rolled his eyes.

"Right..." He sheepishly looked away.

"I'll be up in my room if you need me though."

"Well, I guess I'll keep you company in a bit."

"Take your time." He smiled at me and swam away. Kendall splashed water at me as I walked by and I glared at him. Before stepping into the shower, I put Frank Ocean's CD on my radio. After 15 minutes, I put on my plaid pajama shorts, slippers and white vneck longsleeve on. I grabbed my phone and sat on my balcony, knees up to my chest.

"Hello?"

"Hey Babe."

"Oh, Hey."

"I havent talked to you in what seems like, forever. You been busy?"

"Uh huh." He said indifferently. I rolled my eyes. I ws rly getting tired of it.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothin', why?"

"No srsly, Shad. You act like I cant tell if something's wrong." It was quiet for a moment.

"Whatsup with this dude I see you havin' pictures with on TV?" I rose my eyebrow until I finally remembered. The beach w/ Logan.

"He's just a good friend."

"Yeah, he definitely is. Since you're all up on his back and everything. Taking walks along the beach and shit."

"Woah, calm down. Im being honest right now Shad, and if you cant believe me, then you dont trust me." It was quiet again. "So you dont trust me? After all this time. What have I done to you?"

"Nah it aint even that, just tell me how you would feel if you seen me and another girl on tv?"

"Okay, i get what you're saying but it's not like I'm gonna stop trusting you." He sighed.

"Just drop it."

"No, Shad. I'm tired of all this. We barely been talking lately, then you have the nerve to hop on my ass about some damn pictures with some good friends."

"Aye, just calm ya' ass down. I said drop it. It's fine." It was silent until he spoke up again. "Christina, It's fine. I overreacted. I believe you. Just drop it pls. I dont wanna do this right now." I rolled my eyes and sighed.

"Fine. But Im just gonna talk to you later." He sighed.

"I love you, Christina."

"Yeah, me too." I ended the call. It was getting tiring. And for once in my life, I rly didnt wanna deal with Shad. It was just too much.

If I had 20 million dollars in a vault somewhere, baby,

It wouldnt matter anyway.

Cos the doctor told me that I'm dyin' slowly,

So, I guess I gotta love you while I'm here, baby.

I rested my chin on my knees, looking out onto the water. Tears started to escape my eyes. Why are you crying, Christina. You know damn well that boy wasnt any good in the first place. Everything was starting to make sense. & Maybe I was starting to accept the fact that he was no good. But even if he was up to no good, I couldnt let him go.

Did you know? The news said that the sky is fallin',

the globe is warmin',

my country's war-ing,

the leaders are lyin',

time is runnin', lower & lower babe..

"Christina?" I quickly wiped my tears and turned my head, seeing Logan making his way to the other seat on the balcony. I gave a small smile and he did so in return. He looked at me for a minute as he sat down, looking worried. Crap, he knows. "Hey, whats wrong?"

"Nothing, nothing." Silence.

I know we just met, but baby, could you love me quickly?

I want you to love me like you know the world's about to end, baby, quickly.

"Whatever it is, you know you could tell me.."

"It's just Shad." I looked out into the view. "Everything about this relationship is just becoming.. too much. He saw the pictures, by the way."

"Im sorry."

"Dont be."

"..You deserve better." He bluntly said. I looked at him with my eyes watering up.

"..I know."

"Then why are you letting him do this to you, Christina."

"Bcos I love him."

"Are you sure you do? Or are you just afraid of being on your own." Silence.

"I dont know."

"I rly dont like seeing you this way, especially when you KNOW you deserve better."

"Logan, I just cant let him go."

"You cant or you dont want to?" I shrugged. "All I know is that.. if he doesnt step up to the plate someone else will and treat you the way you deserved to be treated."

"Oh yeah, someone totally will." I said sarcastically. "And who would that be."

"Me." He said softly. I looked at him and he kept his gaze on me. "Christina, I dont know what it is about you, But since I saw you again, I developed feelings for you. & I know right now is probably not the right time to be telling you this, but you gotta hear it from me sooner or later. You rly dont deserve him, and if it wasnt a crime, I'd murder him for treating you the way he does bcos someone as beautiful and great as you deserves way better than that." I started to cry. "Pls dont cry." He leaned over to wipe my tears. "Whatever you wanna do with your life, I'm fine with it. Just make sure you recognize your own happiness."

His words stung me. But they replayed in my head over and over again. Just make sure you recognize your own happiness.

I sighed and finally stopped crying. "Thank you."

"It's nothing, rly. Can you smile now?" I smiled. "There you go. That's more I like it." I giggled and we continued to talk until the rest of the boys joined us in my room to join our random conversation. It went on for hours until we started to yawn, finally calling it a night between the 5 of us.


Finally, the All White Pre-Party for Felicia and Rodney had come. Everyone looked flawless, having fun, eating and talking to each other. As the party progressed, everyone had their share of drinks. We all knew our limit though. Once we felt tipsy it was done with. We danced around by the pool area, my uncle blasting music everywhere by playing the sickest mixes. It was fun to see everyone having fun like this. After last night, me and Logan had gotten a bit more flirtier than usual. We would always play fight with each other, "accidentally" lock hands, say flirty things to each other, and give each other flirty looks. Our flirting was on a whole other level and it definitely felt better than dealing with Shad. Dont get me wrong, he was still in the back of my head, but I wasnt gonna bug if he wasnt gonna try either. Our final test.

Anyways, on the dance floor, I danced with all the guys. Giving more time with Logan though, cos he definitely knew how to dance. It was a huge turn on. We were all pretty tipsy, but still conscious enough to know our surroundings. Carlos on the other hand..

"Oh my GOD, I am DRUNK." Carlos slurred as he stumbled over to me and Logan. "Oh oh, Woops. Dont mind me, Keep dancing." He stumbled away, yelling.

"Carlitos are you drunk?" I heard my mom say. "NO, NEVER THAT MOTHER DEAREST." He yelled back. Me and Logan laughed as he hugged my waist and rested his chin on my shoulder. Our dancing slowed down due to the song, until my uncle played something up beat again. We started dancing again until James pushed him off and turned me around to dance on him.

"NOT COOL." Logan yelled in front of us. The dancing between me and James started to get intense as each up and down movement got rougher. He started moving our hips into circular movements. We were alternating sides and I eventually had to keep my stance up by putting my hands on my knees.

"James, calm down!" I laughed, yelling. Kendall put an arm up on Logan's shoulder as they watched us, laughing.

"You're just gonna let him do that?" Kendall said, laughing.

"What the hell?" Amanda said turning around, looking at me and James dancing. I guess James mouthed something to Logan bcos as soon as I felt James push me to the front, Logan turned me to dance on him once more. He started dancing the same exact way as James, just a little bit rougher.

"You guys are gonna keep her butt aching for days." I heard Kendall say to James. James was catching his breath and they started laughing at us dancing. After a bit, we finally stopped, catching our breaths.

"You guys are so foul!" Amanda said laughing. I started dancing on her and she put her hands on my back to push me off. "Ew, Christina. Stop!" I laughed and we made our way to get more drinks. As the night continued, we calmed ourselves down, sipping on more drinks, having snacks and talks around the fire pit. We had to quiet down by 11 due to the closeby neighbors, so we started cleaning up until me and Kendall found Carlos laying down on the grass.

"Oh Carlitos." Kendall said as we both looked down at him. I bent down to wake him up.

"Carlos, you need to get up off of the grass, honey." His eyes fluttered open.

"I think Im gonna be sick." Our eyes widened.

"Kendall give me a plastic bag!" I shrieked.

"Uhhh...HERE!" He handed me the half full garbage bag. I looked at him like he was crazy. "Sorry! Unless you want him to throw up on the precious grass your sister needs tmo then I think it'll do." I put the opening of the bag in front of Carlos and he began to cough heavily, making him throw up. James, Logan, Amanda, Rodney and Felicia walked over.

"Oh my god, did he drink too much again?" Felicia said, smacking her hand to her forehead.

"Apparently." After he stopped throwing up, James helped him up and him and Kendall put his arms over their shoulders.

"I.. drank.. everything! HOLY CRAP." Carlos slurred as they carried him.

They took him to the bathroom upstairs while me and Logan threw out the trashbags in the front of the house. Then James came down the steps.

"Is he okay?" I asked.

"Yeah, he just needs to throw everything up though. He might be in there awhile. He keeps asking Kendall to tell him a story." Me and Logan laughed.

"Hey, on the other hand, we were good on the dance floor today." James looked at me and Logan. Then he looked back at me. "So, who's a better dancer? Me or Logie?" Logan scrunched his eyebrows at him, while James smiled with his thumbs up. I laughed and made my way up the stairs.

"Wouldnt you guys like to know.. Welp, thats too bad." I said turning and making my way to my room. "Aw come on!" Was all I heard from behind me. After I changed into comfier clothes, I plopped on my bed and turned the tv on. I looked at my phone that I left on the dresser. 3 missed calls, 2 new text messages. All from Shad. I sighed. His first text was him saying hi. Then his second text was more.. on the upset side.

Alright, I mean I guess you could ignore me. That's cool. Whatever Christina, hit me when you come to your senses.

I scoffed. When I COME to my senses? Rly. I shook my head in frustration and answered his text.

I was partying with the family. Sorry if that was such a bad thing, maybe if you paid more attention next time you'd remember what I was up to.

So you couldnt bring your phone around and hit me up? Thats bullshit Christina.

No, I chose not to. Why? Bcos I didnt wanna deal with you. Call me bullshit or whatever you want, just remember that Im not always gonna be here to take your shit. When you stopped trying, I figured I might as well too. Goodnight Shad.

Oh its like that? Whats been up with you lately? It's that Logan dude aint it?

I threw my phone to the side after putting it on silent, letting it receive all the texts and calls Shad attempted. I crawled in bed, and watched The Notebook. Just then, Amanda walked in and got in bed next to me. She looked half asleep. Probably sleepwalking and she didnt even know.

"Hi." She softly said. I chuckled.

"Yes babygirl?"

"Can I sleep with you tonight? I miss sleeping with you." She cuddled up under the blankets.

"Sure."

"Yay. So hows Shad?"

"Eh. Idk. Truthfully, Im getting tired of it.. I just dont know how to let him go."

"Thank the Lord. Why dont you know how to let him go?"

"Bcos. As cliche as it is, I rly just cant." I turned up the volume to the movie.

"Come on Christina, you know you cant always hold on. There's better fish in the sea, I promise! Waaay better fish in the sea." You got that right, little sis.

"I know. I just.. I dont know. We'll see where it takes us. I havent rly been trying to talk to him cos lately hes just been getting on my nerves. I dont want that negativity right now."

"Mhm.." She sleepily said.

"Its just too much. Like, how could our relationship end up like-" I turned to her as she snored. She was sound asleep. I smiled and kissed her on the head. It made her cuddle towards me and I continued to watch Tv. But then the light from the hallway filled the entrance into my room, once again.

"Okay, whoevers opening my door rly needs to be the first one to learn how to knock." Logan smiled, walking in in his vneck and basketball shorts.

"Sleepover? Why didnt you tell me?" He jumped onto the other side of my bed.

"Oh please, dont even try. Amanda always slept with me before, So i have no problem with her climbing in my bed. You .. on the other hand."

"Mean!" He quietly shrieked and sat up.

"But, did you need something?"

"Just wanted to say goodnight, miss I know how to drive guys crazy with the way I dance." I laughed and hit him on the chest with the remote. "Owie..." He pouted.

"Woops, the remote slipped. Goodnight Logan." I laughed.

"HAHA, very funny. Goodnight Christina." We looked at each other for awhile, until he smiled and brought his face closer. I looked at him get closer, when he cracked a smile and kissed me on the forehead. "Haha, you thought you were gonna get to kiss these?" He laughed, pointing at his pink lips and I rolled my eyes.

"No. Like it matters."

"Why wouldnt it?" He stood up and fixed his shirt. "But, I dont think you can handle alllllll this." He emphasized 'all.' "You cant handle alllll this." He pointed his finger up and down his body.

"Ooohkay, I think it's time for you to get to bed." I laughed, holding up a pillow to threaten him.

"Fine, fine. Bye." I smiled as he stomped out like a little kid.

I didn't smile bcos of the way he acted.

I smiled bcos he made me feel something that I have never felt with Shad.


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