You
Disclaimer: I don't own Carth or his angst. So don't sue me!
This chapter is going to contain a song from Evanescence, 'You' hence the title. Oh, wait a sec, I don't own the song 'You' either! It belongs to the amazing and talented Evanescence.
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Sitting on the edge of their -no his- bed, Carth put his head in his hands. It was like Telos all over again. The love of his new life was gone. The only sign of her ever being there was a small note that was lying innocently on his pillow.
That small, harmless looking note, had caused the end of his world.
In it, was the messy script that only one person had.
Revan.
Or as he had called her, Amy. It was the name the Jedi Council had given her after they'd saved her. It fit her better than Revan. Revan was a name filled with hatred and murder. Amy was soft, pretty and fun, just like her.
But, now she was gone. She might never come back from this mission that she and the Jedi Council had agreed on. The thought of never seeing her again made Carth shudder and caused tears to fill his eyes.
He sighed looking out the window it was twilight. Amy's favourite time of day.
Carth reached into one of the pockets in his jacket, and pulled out a neatly folded piece of paper. It wasn't Amy's note, no. It was the note that could've changed his life in a completely different way.
It was the poem that he'd written for Amy, professing his love and asking her an important question.
With shaking hands, Carth unfolded his love letter, and read the words he'd written for his love.
...
My dear Amy,
I can't keep you out of my mind, and I wrote this poem to show you, just how much I love and need you.
The words have been
drained from this pencil. When
we're together, I feel perfect. Amy, marry me? So many nights I cried myself to sleep.
Sweet words that I want to give you.
And I can't sleep,
I need to tell you,
Goodnight.
When I'm pulled away from you, I
fall apart.
All you say is sacred to me.
Your eyes are so
blue,
I can't look away.
As we lay in the stillness
you
whisper to me.
Promise you'll stay with
me.
Oh you don't have to ask me.
You know you're all that I
live for,
you know I'd die just to hold you.
Stay with you.
Somehow I'll show you,
that you are my night sky.
I've
always been right behind you.
Now I'll always be right beside
you.
Now that you
love me, I love myself.
I never thought I would say this,
I
never thought there'd be,
You.
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Tears fell from Carth's eyes, blurring the intricately written words, causing the ink to run down the page.
He couldn't understand how she couldn't take him with her. It would be better to die side-by-side with her, than to sit here waiting for her return. It was torture. He couldn't function without her. It was like his heart had been ripped out and trampled by a pack of angry kath hounds. He felt like a shell of his for more self. Hollow and empty without his Amy.
He remembered the last sentence in her letter, "You probably hate me right now, but I have a favor to ask. No matter what, I need you to defend the Republic from the Sith. Do what I couldn't do. And just remember that, Carth, I love you."
Shaking his head, he thought, "As if I could ever hate her." It was insanity. But he would do this for her.
Even if it killed him.
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Okay so here is the next angst chapter! This will be the last chapter if you guys don't review... Because the last chapter could be a fluff moment of Revan's return... So, give me your thoughts. Just press that little periwinkle coloured button on the left!
-Leslie
