*So it was suggested I write the story a bit different so it'd be easier to understand I hope you guys like the chapter, tell me what you think!!!*
Connection, Acceptance
"Amy" Ricky said softly, Amy quickly found herself again and became nervous upon hearing Ricky's voice "Oh … hey Ricky!" Amy said happily and still very nervous. Ricky smirked looking down at Amy; Amy was nervous and showed no signs of trying to hide it. "May I have this dance?" Ricky asked holding his hand out "…" Amy stood silent shocked.
Amy stood before Ricky stunned, she looked around eagerly for something to distract her and found nothing. Ricky stood before her still holding his hand out his face almost pleading for her to take his hand. Amy had no choice she hesitated, twitching her hand before raising it and resting it in the palm of Ricky's hand.
"Yeah … it's only a dance right" Amy smiled, trying to hide her nervousness to her dismay she failed Ricky let out a short chuckle while walking her onto the dance floor where the crowd was slow dancing to the music.
"Amy you really got to learn how to relax you know that?" Ricky said stopping and analyzing Amy.
Amy stood before Ricky waiting for him to make a move, waiting for him to take her other hand and pull her close to him and move along with the music. She stood awkwardly before him and he stood before her still analyzing. Her reaction shocked both him and her, the mood got to her, and unknowingly she squeezed Ricky's hand tighter, scaring herself and surprising him. Ricky took advantage of the reaction and grabbed Amy's other hand and they began to swing along to the music.
"Amy you're dancing just like the way you were when you kissed me, stiff" Ricky laughed a little into Amy's ear.
"Well excuse me for not being used to this" Amy said smugly turning away from Ricky.
"Amy, relax please? I'm really trying, I'm trying to help us move a few steps forward, and I'm trying to put us in a better place and move on from band camp can you please TRY and work with me?" Ricky said emphasizing on trying.
Amy turned her attention from the rest of the crowd and focused on Ricky's face which was inches apart from hers "You can't be serious move on from band camp? Ricky what we did at band camp is going to be with us forever we made proof of that when we found out John was coming into this world! How am I just supposed to put this behind me huh!? Can you tell me? Can you tell me how-"Amy had tried to get a few words in but Ricky cut her off, by now the two were just aimlessly spinning around.
"Amy we made proof of band camp, we did but we're proud of that proof aren't we? We're proud of John aren't we? We're proud of having John-"Ricky began to get more angered as he asked more questions.
"Yes Ricky, I am proud of John, I am so proud of him. I'm so proud of having him! It's just the way he …" Amy stopped thinking back to the night.
"The way he what, the way he was made, the events that happened that night that made him? Are you going to put everything on me for the rest of our lives!?" Ricky said pulling his head away so he could see Amy face to face, still managing to keep a decent dancing pose nice enough to fool the crowd that they were having a good time no matter how bad it looked. "I'm sorry Amy, I'm sorry; I could tell you that a million times and you still wouldn't accept my apology, you still would see me as the monster that destroyed everything in you perfect little world! Stop hating me, stop blaming me, stop putting everything on me; and save some of it for yourself you could've left and you stayed!"
The song was nearing its end the band hit the final note and both Amy and Ricky stopped moving and looked at each other. A deep moment between the two both Madison and Lauren could tell something was going on, Ashley glancing over every few moment once Grant would take his attention elsewhere.
"Something big is going on between them … really big" Lauren said her expression blank.
"Yeah … I don't know what it is but the way they're looking at each other right now it's just so … I don't know, real" Madison said drawn into Amy and Ricky's moment.
"What do you think Ricky that I don't blame myself for anything I did that night? That-that maybe if I had of made better decisions I would probably not be so miserable and-and so … so" Amy stopped they were still standing in the middle of the dance floor and they were beginning to argue. If the volume of their voices were to go just a bit louder the crowd would be in on everything they were saying.
"Look at them down there … how did things get so messed up?" Ben thought to himself, "Amy was supposed to be with me, I'm sure she knows … knew that. I was supposed to be the perfect father and husband in her life but … I guess someone somewhere thought otherwise." Continuing to speak to himself he looked amongst the crowd from his window, his eyes full of worry and misery.
Adrian came up behind Ben quietly and stood behind him for a moment, trying to figure out how she was going to announce that she was in fact pregnant with Ben's child "Ben …" Adrian said catching her breathe after saying his name tears began to slowly make their way down her face, "I guess it's safe to say that we're no better than Ricky and Amy" Adrian gasping for air at the end and holding her stomach.
Ben stood in the window his posture stiff, his face came from worry to shock to emotionless, listening to Adrian cry behind him he had put all of his attention back onto one spot in the crowd, he looked at her at the girl he had fallen head over heels for, the girl that he let go of; his first love, the one person he'd thought he'd marry and be a loving husband and father too, he looked at Amy "I'm sorry Amy, I'm sorry for everything I guess this really wasn't meant to be between us after all" Ben thought to himself leading a single tear to streak down his face "I love you Amy, I love you always" Ben said before turning towards Adrian, walking up to her and embracing her. "We'll figure this out" Ben said his voice weak from the pain and guild that had swept over him in that instance, "We'll figure this out" Ben said before breaking down with Adrian.
"Yeah Amy maybe I do think you don't blame yourself for anything since it seems to me like you save most of the blame for me!" Ricky said before walking off the dance floor attempting to leave Amy there.
Amy stood in her place for a moment before quickly following after Ricky, "I blame myself everyday! Every day after John was born I blamed myself for what I was putting myself through after he was born, me being exhausted, cranky, behind in school, jeopardizing my future, ME! I blamed myself! How-how dare you tell me that I'm not taking the blame for anything!" Amy followed Ricky to Leo's front yard; they were out of sight from any of the wedding guest.
"Then why do you hate me Amy? And be honest, don't lie and tell me you hate me because of what happened at band camp!" Ricky said turning before Amy.
"I hate you because of how you acted after I found out I was pregnant, I hate you because the first day of school I expected to see you there being … I don't know that guy I knew in band camp! I should've figured you were-you were a player when that girl came up to us when you were introducing yourself to me! I hate you because you didn't even care I was pregnant at first and now you're full ride you'll do anything!? I hate you because I thought I understood at least some of you at band camp, when-when" Amy couldn't finish what she was going to say she began to cry in the middle of her final sentence.
"You can't be serious Amy! You hate me because you can't understand me? I CAN'T UNDERSTAND YOU! You're the only girl that's made me this crazy and I'M TRYING IM REALLY, REALLY TRYING! And you keep spitting in my face like I mean nothing like I haven't tried to redeem myself, why can't you just grow up and look at everything I've done and admit it's worth something!? Ricky said his voice raising here and there in the middle of his reprieve, he strained to hold back the tears behind his eyes.
Amy shook her head a little looking at Ricky and thinking of what he just said her face was still running with tears "I-I … I don't know … I don't know anymore" Amy said looking around at her surroundings as she spoke. "I really don't know" Amy said weakly, she lifted her hands in defeat and instead of dropping them she brought her arms around Ricky's neck and hugged him. "I'm sorry" Amy said crying into Ricky's shoulder.
Ricky had lost his train of thought when Amy hugged him, he was astonished she was finally apologizing for what she didn't clarify but she apologized for something and to him that was a start. Ricky's breath became ruffled and a few tears became known to the world on his face, Ricky grabbed Amy's waist and to him it was the most relieving moment he'd have experience in his life ever since being taken into foster care.
George walked over to Ashley who was sitting at a table with Grant, "Ash, where's Ames?" George asked uptight
"I don't know, last time I saw her, her and Ricky were dancing and then they both disappeared" Ashley said a bit concerned
George "Oh no not again; you don't think they're you know … having sex do you?" George said getting concerned
"Dad Amy is foolish sometimes but give her some credit, she is a teenage mother and she's doing quite a good job at that and I think being a teenage mother to one is all she can handle right now" Ashley said sarcastically
"You know I think I saw them going towards the front Mr. Jurgens" Grant said butting in.
"Humph! You better hope your right buddy boy, you've already got my daughter talking about birth control pills and if I found out you've done anything with her I'm going to make sure I get you and I'll neuter you myself! I'll make sure you can't operate anything down there!" George had begun to get frustrated
"Dad … dad come on let's go find Amy" Ashley said trying to calm George before he said something dumber "I'll be right back" Ashley said to Grant
"Should I come with you?" Grant asked half-witted, standing up
"Do you want to give my father a better motive to … hurt you?" Ashley said reassuring Grant
"Yeah … I'll wait right here" Grant said sitting back down
"Anne we're going to go check up on Amy and … Ricky" George said walking up to Anne stopping before pronouncing Ricky's name coldly.
"Well did you find out where they are?" Anne asked worried.
"Yeah Grant over there thinks he saw them head for the front. I swear if he's wrong I'm going to-"George had tried to finish until Ashley interrupted.
"Let's go dad!" Ashley said interrupting her father.
Anne turned sitting at her table worried, Kathleen was sitting across from her not knowing what was going on; George and Ashley headed for the front.
"Madison … Madison! Look!" Lauren yelled at Madison
"What-what?!" Madison looked around and spotted George and Ashley headed for the front of Leo's house.
"Where are they going? Should we follow?" Lauren asked
"Where did Ricky and Amy run off to?" Madison asked
"I bet they know, let's go!" Lauren implied.
"Where are the running off to?" Jesse asked standing next to Jack
"Probably … girl stuff, I never know what goes on when those two get together …" Jack said watching Madison and Lauren follow Ashley and George.
"You make a good point there Jack, you make a good point" Jesse said sipping his champagne.
"Hey Jack" Grace said walking up to Jack
"Oh hey Grace, what a … what are you up to?" Jack asked nervous if Madison might see them.
Grace caught sight of what Jack and Jesse were starring at "huh? I wonder where they're running off to."
"They better not be in the back seat of his…" George had tried to explain his fears until Ashley pushed him back "Whoa Ash! Why so pushy!?" George asked surprised.
"Shh! Look!" Ashley whispered loudly to George pointing towards Amy and Ricky.
"Hey what's going … Oh my God!" Madison said walking up behind George and Ashley.
"What is it?" Lauren asked confused, Madison pointing aimlessly towards Amy and Ricky, Lauren gasped at the sight stunned by what she saw.
"What did I miss?" George asked clueless to what's going on.
"What did we miss indeed" Ashley said with a satisfied tone.
*So what do you guys think Amy and Ricky are doing? We know they were hugging but what do you think they might be doing now that shocked their little audience? Hope you guys liked the chapter and the new style of writing please review tell me what you think 3*
