There Is No Love Without Pain

Chapter 3

Grapenut01 – Mrs. Lovett

BellatrixBlackLovett – Benjamin Barker/ Albert Lovett

Benjamin's fists clenched tight as he got nearer to that pig of a man. He couldn't describe how much he hated this man, the word just wasnt there. How could he do that to his pet, how? Killed a baby, if anything it was his baby too..though it's not like he'd care. His jaw tightened as he made his way through the pie shop and into Mrs. Lovett's small living room, thats were he found the pig throwing gin down his throat. How could he just sit there, while his wife was still bleeding and becoming weaker by the minute? He couldn't stop himself, a fist came forward and landed onto Albert's nose causing him to jump back and stumble into a wall.

''Wha' the bloody 'ell was that for 'ya posh idiot!?'' roared Albert getting to his feet and lunging for Benjamin whilst throwing his gin bottle and him.

''Thats for your wife! You have no bloody idea do you!?'' Hissed Benjamin jumping forward onto Albert and kicking at his legs. ''Scum of the Earth!'' he spat and kicked out as much as he could, wanting this man to feel a speck of pain that Mrs. Lovett had.

Albert screamed and threw Benjamin into the bookcase causing it to topple over and crash to the floor ''How dare 'ya! How dare 'ya come into my 'ouse an' threaten me!'' he snorted throwing a punch at Benjamin Barker making him double over in pain.

She sniffled hearing the commotion and got up shakily, still clutching her stomach, stumbling her way into the parlour gasping. "Stop i'! Leave him alone Alber'!" she yelled shoving him away. "Wha's he ever done t'you tha' ya don' deserve?!"

''Don' tell me wha' to do!'' spat Albert kicking her to the floor ''Or 'ya get another few punches in tha' face of yours!''

''Dont you dare touch her ever again!'' cried Benjamin putting his arms in front of Nellie to protect her from futher harm and started to use his legs to kick out when he could.

She winced falling down and shaking her head more attempting to get back up. "Ya leave him alone! He's go' himself a wife t'look after. Unlike you." she spat glaring at him holding onto Benjamin as she swayed perilously.

Albert stopped and looked at Nellie and Benjamin. He started to laugh out loud, wheezing slightly ''Ohh I see!'' he coughed ''Ya like 'im dont 'ya Nellie. I's all so clear now''. He punched Benjamin down and grabbed Nellie's arm tightly ''Well 'ya anit having 'im, cos 'ya mine!'' he laughed and tightly placed his lips on to hers, ignoring her screams.

''I told you not to touch her!'' screamed Benjamin picking himself up off of the floor and throwing a punch at Albert. He wanted him dead. He wanted him gone for good!

She turned her head away. Shaking her head shoving against him stumbling away as Ben punched him and fell back into him. "M'sorry Mr.B." she murmured softly leaning into him, looking away.

For once in his life Benjamin Barker forgot he had a wife. At this moment in time he wanted Nellie. He held onto her arms as she fell into him, allowing one of his arms to wrap around her thin, boney waist. ''Touch her again and I'll get you thrown into the nut house, you hear me!'' he screamed at Albert. Quickly he scooped Mrs. Lovett into his arms and left the room, taking her to her bedroom and lying her down. He looked her over for visable damage and any signs of blood ''Did he hurt you? Because if he did I'll go straight back in there pet and give him another whack!''

She shook her head clinging to him tight trembling like a leaf. "Ya shouldn' worry abou' me. S'nuthin' new. He isn' the firs' bloke t'him me. B-bu' would ya help me t'the bath? I-i can' stan' all this blood." she said softly still attempting to accept the fact her child was gone.

Benjamin looked deep into her dark eyes and saw so much pain in them. He nodded and helped her off get off her bed then carried her to the bath room. He sat her on a chair and the bath filled up with hot water causing the room to become hot and steamy. When it was full he helped her take off her clothing, though he tried not to look, her skirts were covered in dry blood making a horrid smell fill is nose. He closed his eyes as he lowered her into the bath, though he couldnt help seeing visable ribs and spine..this man had done more to her then he first thought.

She blushed as he helped her undress and get into the tub. She sighed softly laying back in the water it slowly turning a very light pink as it started washing the blood away. "M'sorry abou' all this." she murmured softly grabbing a cloth and gently starting to scrub herself clean.

''Its fine pet, really'' sniffed Benjamin looking at some of the paintings on the wall ''Like I said when I first met you, I'm here for you no matter what it is'' he turned when she wasnt looking to get a better look at her damaged body. He gagged as bones poked through her skin as she moved. He was quick to change the subject ''Nellie, you cant stay with him anymore. Please, your going to end up dead!''

She shook her head wincing, washing the soap away once she was satisfied. "I can' leave him. Would probably be be'er off dead anyways. Then he'd have killed his wife an' child. He'd have nuthin' lef'." she murmured staring into the water.

''Nellie, don't talk like that, please'' whispered Benjamin letting his head drop ''He doesnt deserve you. You need someone who's gunna take care of you'' he couldn't help but lift is head eagerly. He shock his head and got a towel from a cupboard ''Time to get you out I think'' he said shutting his eyes and opening the towel waiting for her to step into it.

She sighed and pulled the plug, getting up shakily, holding onto him and stepping into the towel pressing close against him leaning in and biting her lip before kissing him gently.

He pulled back and looked deep into her eyes. She did love him, he knew it. He brushed back her wet hair and lent into her, kissing her back lightly not wanting her to hurt anymore. He wrapped his arms softly around her, not wanting her to flinch or become scared anymore.

She whimpered softly holding him tighter and kissing him again more desperately, needing to feel loved, no longer caring if he belonged to another woman, or that she was another mans. It was just the two of them in the world for all she cared about.

''Ohh my dear pet'' sighed Benjamin ''Why couldn't he love you like I do?'' he picked her up, letting her legs wrap around him. He softly sucked and kissed at her neck. He didnt want to hurt her, he didnt know what to do. He was married to Lucy.

She held onto him trembling and buried her face in his neck. "D-do ya mean i'? Ya really do love me?" she asked softly tilting her head to the side pressing his head closer to her neck.

He sat down into a chair and kissed the upper of her cheast ''Course I love you Nellie. From the moment I met you my pet. I'm so scared he's gunna hurt you again..'' he let is rans run up her back, feeling scars and flesh wounds as he did ''I'm not hurting you am I?'' he asked seeing her flinch.

She shook her head some. "I's no' yer faul'. Jus' a bi' fresh is all. Ya haven' done anythin' t'me."

He let his head drop onto her cheast ''Nellie, what do you want me to do?'' he sighed running his hands over her legs. He didn't want to scare her. He didnt want to see her cry.

She echoed his sigh laying her head ontop of his. "Ya don ' have t'do anythin' ya don' wan' love." she murmmered softly.

His stomach knotted ''I want you Nellie. I just dont want to hurt you'' he shuddered, a small tear leaving his eye. He lent her back and nipped at her cleavage and ran his hands across her neck.

She shook her head standing up and holding the towel around herself. "No' in here." she murmured softly, hesitantly reaching forward taking his hand.

For a few moments Benjamin hesitated, he had a wife whom he loved dearly. But this woman had him in a spell. He shock the thoughts from his mind and took her hand in his, kissing her neck as he stood up.

She sighed, smiling softly and squeezing his hand she lead him to the bedroom and shut the door behind them, locking it and pushed him down to sit on the bed hesitantly letting her towel fall to the floor, knowing she could never compare to his blue-eyed bride but maybe he could pretend she was his wife.

His eyes went to the bones and cuts, the damage. Yet, she was beautiful. She had what was left of curves and plump breast, if anything she beat Lucy. He dropped his head and wrapped his arm around her stomach placing soft kisses onto it ''Does it hurt pet?'' he asked pulling her down to lie next to him ''You dont have to do this if you dont want to..''

She shook her head leaning over him, unbuttoning his shirt and slowly kissing him lightly. " I do. I-I do...so much." she whispered pushing his shirt off. "Jus'... go easy love."

He grinned and kissed her on her lips ''I give you permission to hit me if I hurt you pet'' he smirked into her mouth. He ran his hand up her side, showering her neck in kisses. Not wanting to hurt her he placed her onto his lap were he slowly kissed and nipped his way across her breasts.

She shook her head tilting it. "I wouldn' do tha' to ya Ben." she said softly unbuckling his trousers and quickly removing the rest of his clothes before rolling onto her back and pulling him on top of her.

He kept his weight on his arms not wanting to fall onto her. Thoughts flicked threw his head thinking whether or not he should be doing this. Nellie has just lost a baby, this is hardly the best way to go about it. Yet, he loved her. Body and Soul. He trailed his tounge across her belly to her breast were he slowly sucked at her dark nipples.

She moaned softly, her hand in the air debating whether or not to touch him, biting her lip to stay quiet and then suddenly feeling very nervous. "I-I have never done this... no' with someone I care abou'." she admitted timidly.

Benjamin kissed her forehead and shock his hair ''Nellie pet, look what he has done to you. Please leave him'' He pulled her from underneath him and sat her up ''If this scares you too much Nellie maybe we should stop'' he muttered pushing himself to the edge of the bed and scooping up his dicarded clothes.

She shook her head starting to cry, shakily reaching for him. "P-please don'.... don' leave me''.

Benjamin sighed and dropped his clothing back to the floor. He rolled across the bed and scooped Nellie into his arms ''What are we to do with you pet?'' he whispered placing a kiss on the top of her head. He mentally counted the cuts he could feel on her body as he stroked her body, making sure to get Albert back for each and everyone.

The more she flinched the madder he became, no woman should be so scared by a mans touch. He lay her down on his cheast and whispered deep into her ear ''I'll never do such a thing Nellie..never forget that.'' Such a beauty. ''Nellie, what if I get him to leave? What if I get the police onto him? He's not allowed to do this to you!''.

She shook her head whimpering softly clutching to him. "Tha' won' work. He's frien's with the Judge. Before we go' married he'd... 'loaned' me t'the Judge an' Beadle''

''Oh my dear pet'' sighed Benjamin placing kisses on to her neck ''Why wasn't I here to rescue you. Why..'' His fingers trailed over her back, causing her to shiver. He sat up and placed her into his lap once more, kissing her upper chest. He didn't care about what she looked like anymore. She was his Nellie Lovett..his pet. And he loved her for it.

She sighed softly, she'd never felt anything like what he was stirring up inside of her. She hesitantly reached forward laying a hand on his shoulder tentatively, not wanting to upset him.

He let her put the weight onto his upper arms, though there was nothing to her. He lay back letting her lean over him. He ran his hands down her neck along her back, kissing and nipping at her arms as he did so.

She shivered some, a bit confused as to why he would want her on top but leaned down pressing her lips against his lightly, lingering there savoring the taste and feel of his lips.

He didnt want to hurt her. He would kill himself if he did. He shivered as her lips touched his, it was as if he could feel the damage that had been placed apon then..they needed a proper kiss. His hands cupped the bottom of her breasts slowly, not wanting to scare her. He whispered in her ear who much he loved her, how much she ment to him. ''My dear, dear pet'' he moaned into her mouth, stealing another kiss.

She gasped softly leaning into his touch without thinking and moaning softly pressing closer to him. Unable to fight it as her instincts told her he wouldn't hurt her and kissed him back pressing against his lips desperately holding his shoulders tighter.

Groaning he let his hands run up the inside of her leg, stopping here and there to make sure she was comfortable and felt safe. Her nails dug deep into his flesh but he didn't care, it gave him a taste of what she'd gone through ''If you want me to stop then just say pet'' he breathed heavily, unable to control his lust for her. He chewed at her lip, checking she was ok before letting his tounge explore her mouth.

She shook her head vehemently. "No. No... I-I've never.... jus' don' stop. Please." she said softly kissing him back and pshing her own tongue into his mouth moaning louder. She pulled away some breathing heavily. "I need ya so bad Ben." she said even softer, almost afraid to even say it.

He got his orders and took them. He let one of his hand play with her left breast while the other ran up her inner thigh. He stopped, just incase, before letting his fingers trail over the top of her silky folds. She was torn and ripped, he could feel it. He stopped himself from screaming out by placed his mouth around her neck, sucking and nipping lightly ''Nellie..I need you too'' he moaned, plucking at her heart strings.

She whimpered softly feeling his fingers exploring her. It stung a bit but she couldn't say anything. He would stop if she did. And stopping was the very last thing she wanted now. She could barely stop herself from bucking up into his hand moaning his name.

Benjamin smirked has he saw her lowering her body onto his hand. He bite harder into her neck, muttering sweet nothing into her ear. Slowly he let his fingers slide into her. He saw the how much pain she was in when she let out a stiff whimper and her body flinched at his touch ''Nellie love, I dont want to hurt you..I can feel what he's done to you'' He wanted to stop, truely, but somthing inside him wanted to carry on..he needed her more than anything else.

She shook her head more letting out a soft whimper. "No. Please, please Ben. I-I'll do anythin' ya wan'. Jus'... please, please don' stop. I-I don' think I could take i'." she whispered softly clutching to him. "Please Ben."

''You dont have to do anything Nellie. I just what you and you only, no fancy tricks alright pet..'' He held his breath as he placed himself slowly back inside her, screwing his eyes to prevent himself from seeing the pain she was in. He kisses her shoulders and began to slowly move his fingers deeper into her ''I love you Nellie..'' he murmmered.

She hissed softly, holding him tighter and laying down over him burying her face in his neck trembling some kissing him lightly. "I-i know.... bu' don' stop. No ma'er wha'. Please. Jus' don stop. I need someone who loves me. Even jus' once."

She needed him as so, he could see it. Pulling his fingers out he gentally turned her round so his body was over his. He trobbed against her inner thigh, lustful and yet scared at the same time. He made sure she was ready before letting his body part enter hers. He felt her flich and contract against him, wanting more. ''Oh my pet..'' he groaned ''...how you have been messed about''.

She winced as he finally pushed into her, the pain was worse but she finally felt the bit of pleasure, sharing such an intimate thing with someone who cared for you and that you loved in return. Maybe it truly was a beautiful thing after all.

He let her wrap her legs around him, allowing himself to deepen her futher. He breasts moved with him as he slowly upped his pace. Groaning he buried his face into her cleavage ''Nellie..'' he gasped, waiting for her to join ''..I need some help here pet. But if you hurt then dont!''.

She bit her lip and buried it further into his neck whimpering softly. She should have known it wouldn't be good. "M'sorry..." she said starting to cry more. "W-we can stop if ya wan'."

''No dont cry pet...hush now'' He kissed away her tears and began to move faster, letting the pleasure fill her. He wasnt going to let her get embrassed like that, this time she deserved a proper piece of someones heart. He licked her breasts and ran boths hand smoothly over her stomach. He still wasnt sure if her belly was in pain. ''Bloody hell Nellie'' he groaned feeling her tighten around him.

He couldnt stay still. He picked her up and placed her agaisnt the wall, the cold surface making them both shiver. He placed his head onto her neck, letting tears fall onto her shoulders has is pase increased and his lust filled him up. He bent backwards, wanting more, wanting her to do whatever she could.

She hissed louder at the feel of the wall against her back and whimered as he leaned away thinking she must've done something wrong and turned her head away waiting for the blow she figured would be coming.

Benjamin shock his head, she was afraid ''No pet, no!'' he gasped placing his hands onto her cheeks, kissing at her lips ''I will never lay a finger on you, I promise. Please dont be scared of me'' He whispered to her, murmmering reasuring words of comfort between showering her in kisses. He stroked her neck feeling her pulse against his fingers, it was extremely quick. ''Do you fear me Nellie, do you want me touching you?'' he asked looking deep into her eyes.

She sobbed more collapsing against him, crying harder shaking her head. "I-I can' give ya wha' ya wan'..." she shut her eyes tight as tears streamed down her cheeks, freezing as the door opened up and Albert came in holding his head.

That was it. This man repulsed Benjamin so much. He had destroyed this beautiful woman he held in his arms to a point that couldnt be fixed easily. Out of the corner of his eye he saw it, his glistening little friend that was hidden in his coat pocket, the way he could rid this man from Mrs. Lovett once and for all. He quickly kissed his pet on the neck before throwing her onto the bed. He quickly dodged Alberts punches and dived for his coat, ripping his razor from its pocket. Snapping it open he spun round and tore open Albert neck letting blood trail over the floor. After he finished he fell to the floor whimping, only looking up when he felt Mrs. Lovett's hand on his shoulder. What had he done?

She gasped curling up on the bed looking away as he killed Albert. She got up shakily, laying a trembling hand on his shoulder. "B-ben? ?"

''What have I done Nellie?'' he whispered wrapping an arm around on of her leg ''I killed him.. I kill-'' the sobs hit him before he was able to finish. He tightened his grip on her leg and curled up in a ball. Blood covered his razor, he hissed and threw it across the room, screaming at Nellie.. begging for forgiveness.

She frowned in shock and hesitantly patted his head, feeling quiet confused. "Th-there's nuthin' t'be sorry for though. He deserved i' all."

''Is he dead?'' muttered Benjamin looking up at Nellie, tears falling from his brown lashes. He kept his hand on her leg and she moved over to Alberts' body. His mind ran away with him, images of a prision cell flashing in his head ''Im going to get hung for this...'' he dragged himself along the floorboards and settled under an open window, his arms out waiting for his pet to fall into them so he could sob out his hearts content.

She checked for a pulse but found none and bit her lip deep in thought. "He's dead alrigh' love. Ya don' have t'be hung fer this love. Noone even has t'know. I mean mea's been goin' up in price. His fa' arse would las' fer well, way over a week I'd say..."

Benjamin opened in mouth in shock ''Your telling me your going to put him into a pie!'' He had to agree that it was a good plan, but the Benjamin Barker he knew would never get into a thrift like this. He pulled Nellie into his arms and kissed her lips ''What are you doing to me woman?!'' he laughed.

I love Sweenetts! Me and Amy had a blast writing this, and it took us all day to complete it! Please review they are majorly like lovetted (: xx