Disclaimer: I do not own GLEE Ryan Murphy and Fox do.
CHAPTER THREE: QUESTIONS
Once again Rachel sat in the bathroom of the apartment, only this time she wasn't sat with her head on the toilet seat. No, this time she was sat waiting for the three tests on the bathroom counter, waiting for the 'yes' or 'no'. This time she waited for the answer to her question; am I pregnant? She just needed to know. Yesterday at the game she just couldn't get her mind off the what if, whatever the answer was tonight she would tell Finn at his band's gig.
"Rachel, are you okay in there?" Kurt's voice asked through the door, Rachel sighed, just once she'd like some alone time, just some time in silence to think.
"I'm fine Kurt, what time is it?"
"It is almost seven my dear, so you'd better hurry up if you want to make it on time to Finn's little gig."
"Okay, I'll be out in a few minutes." She stood up and went to pick up the three tests from the counter, her hands were shaking so bad she almost dropped them to the floor. Taking a deep breath she looked down at them in her palms, there laid three positives. With a second look they dropped to the floor as Rachel's body went numb and her hands flew to her stomach. She was pregnant. The baby was Finn's. Well this was great.
"Rachel? What's going on?"
"Nothing Kurt it's fine, I dropped my hair brush."
"Oh, okay, well Mercedes and I are going to the movie, have fun tonight."
"Yeah, you too." Rachel sighed and waited until she heard the front door close before she left the bathroom. She quickly got changed and caught a taxi over to the café where Finn's band was playing that night, they had just started when she arrived so she shuffled into the back, her eyes were on Finn the whole time as he played out the beats on his drums and sang the words to the songs they played. At nine they had an intermission and Rachel took this as a good enough time as any to go pull Finn aside.
"What's up Rach, you look like you've seen a ghost." Finn smiled softly when Rachel pulled him outside into the back alley behind the café.
"We seriously need to talk, like adults here Finn." Rachel said, dropping his hand and trying to avoid looking at him, Finn was confused but he stayed quiet as he watched Rachel.
"Rachel, what's up?" he asked again, stepping forward slightly when he sensed something was wrong, he hadn't known Rachel long, but he was starting to know when he'd done something, this seemed to him that he had done something wrong.
"Finn, I don't know how to say it, how can you say something so serious to someone you hardly know?" she sighed and took in another deep breath before looking up into his face. "Finn I'm pregnant."
"Wait… what? You can't be, you said you were on the pill that night."
"I was, I am, but I had a cold and the antibiotics affect the pill."
"Is it mine?" Finn's mind was blank, as mean as that question might have been, it was the only thing he could come up with. Rachel had just told him she was pregnant, she was having a baby and he was going to be a dad. This couldn't be right.
"Of course it's yours, what kind of question is that Finn?"
"I know I'm sorry… what are you gonna do with it?"
"That's what we need to talk about, but it'll have to wait, you need to get back on stage." Rachel looked away from Finn and walked back around the front into the back again, leaving Finn to collect himself and stumble back inside. He got up onto the stage and searched for Rachel in the crowd, he found her looking back at him when he handed over his drum sticks over and took center stage. The music started playing and he waited for his cue to sing the song he'd recently added to his set list, one he normally wouldn't have played but this was the first night and he hoped it'd get his message across.
I think that possibly
Maybe I'm falling for you
Yes There's a chance that I've fallen quite hard over you
I've seen the paths that your eyes wander down
I want to come too
I think that possibly
Maybe I'm falling for you
No one understands me quite like you do
Through all of the shadowy corners of me
I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop I love so much
All of the while I never knew
I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop I love so much
All of the while I never knew
I think that possibly
Maybe I'm falling for you
Yes there's a chance that I've fallen quite hard over you
I've seen the waters that make your eyes shine
Now I'm shining too
Because
Oh
Because I've fallen quite hard over you
If I didn't know you I'd rather not know
If I couldn't have you I'd rather be alone
I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop I love so much
All of the while I never knew
I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop I love so much
All of the while I never knew
All of the while
All of the while
All of the while it was you, you!
He finished the song his mind still reeling on Rachel's words, she was pregnant, he was the father, what would they do? He and the band finished the gig at ten and the second the last song ended Finn had left the stage to find Rachel. After he explained to the guys he had something important to do he left the café with Rachel and drove her to his apartment, he knew that Puck and Quinn were out with some other people and probably wouldn't be back for a long time, so they had time to talk.
Once at the apartment Finn led Rachel to his room where they sat on the bed in silence, Finn didn't know what to say and he just waited for Rachel to say something, Rachel wanted to say something too but she just couldn't find the words. They were in a tough situation and they didn't know where to go from here. Finn was turning twenty next week and Rachel would be turning nineteen in December, they were too young for a baby, they were still in University, they didn't share a place, they didn't have the money for a baby, where could they go from here?
"You're not getting an… um an abortion are you?" Finn asked quietly after ten minutes of agonizing silence, he wasn't sure what he wanted from this, he just knew he didn't want the baby to be, well aborted, disposed of like a total mistake.
"No, I could never do that." Rachel replied not looking up from her hands in her lap, she was tired of feeling so confused and stuck, but she just didn't know what to do.
"Oh, okay, good. So, ah, what are you gonna do?"
"I'm not sure, I need to know your plan now that you know, guys can run away from this Finn, I can't, I just want to know what to expect from you." Rachel sighed and looked up at Finn finally, he was sat looking at the floor. "If you go I'll give the baby up for adoption so it can have a family. If you're going to stay then I'll keep the baby.
"I'll stay, I can um… quit the parties, and try be around a lot more. I could, um, try pick up extra shifts and stuff too, I mean I know babies cost a ton. Do you want to keep it?"
I don't know Finn, do you want to keep the baby?"
"Yeah, I-I do, I want to be a-a dad to my baby. If you want to keep him or her of course." The room fell silent again as the two sat in silence, what a mess they'd gotten themselves in, this baby was just going to change everything now and there was no going back.
"I want this to work, I've always wanted to be a parent, I just didn't think it would happen like this."
"Yeah… well if it makes any difference, I really do think I'm falling for you, and I really want this to work." Finn sighed and leant back into the seat and took Rachel's hand in his. They had a lot of planning to do now, they had just over eight months to settle every little detail but it was getting late and Rachel had to get home. After they agreed to meet up for lunch Rachel left on the verge of tears, Finn had gave a her a soft kiss as she left and she wanted to know that everything he said was true. Rachel knew Finn didn't have a father growing up, but she was worried that he was just too immature to handle this, she was questioning herself now on this whole thing. She just needed to tell her friends and call her fathers more than anything.
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Finn sat perched on the end of his bed once Rachel left, he didn't know what to do, should he tell his mom? Should he call Puck and Quinn? Should he just sit and think, he wanted to know if the baby was a girl or a boy, he wanted to forward a few months and see how everything worked out but he knew he couldn't, so instead he picked up the phone and dialled his mothers number. The dial tone was there and then followed by ringing, his mom picked up on the third ring.
"Hello?" her voice said into the receiver, this alone made Finn fell better.
"Mom, I didn't wake you up did I?" he replied, he'd hate himself if he woke his mom up or bothered her if she was busy.
"Oh Finn honey it's you, no you didn't wake me up I was watching the news. Is everything alright you never call me so late."
"Mom… I've got something to tell you, and I don't want to upset you, and I'll understand if you hate me."
"Finn, honey I could never hate you, no matter what, you're all I have."
"Well I met a girl about a month or so back, her names Rachel Berry. She's cool, she's attending Julliard School, she wants to be on Broadway. But um, I was stupid, I asked her to go to a party with me the week I met her, and we had a few drinks and I-I, she's pr-pregnant. Now I know I messed up and I'm worried it's all a mistake, but I think I'm falling for her… hard and I'm scared I might mess up, I'm not mature enough for a baby…"
"Oh Finn, honey… a baby? You're so young… and Rachel, what does she think of all this?"
"She's scared mom, so am I, we don't know what to do… we don't live together, we're still both in university… we have barely enough money to pay rent…"
"Oh Finn honey… are you keeping the baby?"
"Yeah we are…"
"You know if you need any help, you and Rachel, I'm always here."
"So you're not mad?"
"Of course not Finn, honey, you'll do what's right I know that, make sure that you don't let Rachel do everything on her own and make sure everything goes smoothly. I'm always just a phone call away if you need me."
"Okay, thanks mom… I gotta go, I love you."
"Love you too honey, stay safe."
Finn hung up the phone and went to his desk and turned on his laptop, he quickly typed in Google What to expect when expecting a baby. He sat for two hours going over what he should expect, how the baby will develop and texting Rachel.
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"…. And I did some research last night on small apartments, um, you know if we decide to get our own… and they're about seven hundred a month for a two bedroom, I mean they're not the best but they'll do." Finn cleared his throat handing Rachel some papers over the table as he took a sip of his pepsi. They were out for lunch like planned, making some decisions on what to do, keeping the baby was settled, housing and financial worries were still in planning.
"Well I'm going to tell Kurt and Mercedes tonight, if you can come over… then maybe you could move into my apartment with us for a while… then we can talk more on moving into our own apartment. I mean I'm sure they wouldn't mind you staying with us for a while."
"Yeah, um, so I talked to Sam last night, he's going you talk to Joe, you know the owner of the café? And we're going to see if I can pick up more shifts. I have a bit of money saved up, not much but it's something…."
And so it went, the planning continued and made arrangements, from here it was just a foggy path with no clear vision of what was in front of them, like driving on a highway in a storm. It was working for now, but this was just the start of it all, the real world awaited outside of that weekend and they would have to face it together of weather a storm stronger than the two of them individually. It'd be a long ride, and they were hoping they could ride it to the end together.
Okay so I know this is quick to say I just uploaded it, but, the song used was Falling In Love At A Coffee Shop and itès by Landon Pigg, such a good song. I hope to hear what you guys think soon :)
