AN: (sigh) Do I have to tell you again? It just makes me sad... okay.. Just to clear things I do not own Narnia, it's obvious since if I was the writer then I should have published this as a part of the series and is now a millionaire... but I'm not.. so.. just enjoy this one okay? :)

CHAPTER 3: SUSAN LEARNED HER LESSON

"SUSAN! SUSAN! SUSAN!" Lucy, Edmund and Peter called, and then she felt someone grabbed her shoulders. She felt it shaking her.

"Stop. Please let go of me" Susan said while she shoved the tight grip on her shoulders, "I don't deserve to be in your presence nor stepping here in this blessed land. Just let me go. Let me dwell in desolation."

Then suddenly other hands were tugging desperately on her, making her tremble.

"Will you snap out of it?" she heard Edmund's hurried voice.

Then her eyes fluttered. She was again in her and Lucy's room. Everything was still the same before she fell asleep except that she was not clutching Lucy's stuffed lion. And that there are 3 familiar faces staring intently at her, all wearing worried expression.

She felt tears quickly work their way out of her eyes. As she did the familiar faces grew more concerned. But before they could even ask her what happened, she hauled all of them into a tight hug.

"Am I dreaming?" she asked, and then remembering what happened in Narnia she swiftly moved away from them, "No please, don't come near me. I only cause people unhappiness. People like you don't deserve that."

Lucy, Peter and Edmund exchanged looks of utter bewilderment.

"Did she crack her head when she went on a date with that Joseph? Or maybe that bastard said something to Susan and caused her to be in this state? Because if he did, I would not hesitate to kill him for hurting our sister." Edmund stated, mainly to Peter and Lucy.

Lucy edged nearer to her before saying, "Don't be silly, you won't cause us any gloom. You couldn't, you are too gentle." She then hugged her tight.

"What happened to you?" Peter said, looking directly to her eyes. Anxiety still etched on his face.

Making up her mind, Susan said, "Nothing."

"Yeah, it's just nothing" Edmund retorted, then look at her from head to toe. Even though he said that sarcastically, worry is evident in his voice.

Susan then realized what state she is at present. Her clothes are soaking with sweat. Every part of her was perspiring. Her eyes are red due to crying too much. Her hair is all messed up. She was still quivering.

Realizing how silly it is to hide the truth (and she doesn't want to lie anymore), but still doesn't want to talk about it briefly said, "Bad dream. What have I been doing?"

"Bad dream indeed," Lucy said, "You were first calling out our names.-"with that Edmund snorted.

"Sounds more like bellowing to me." Edmund said

"-then you started crying." Lucy continued as if she wasn't cut by Edmund, "You were crying so hard so I started to get worried and I tried waking you up but you just couldn't be halted. And so I called Peter and Edmund. But by the time we get here you are already sound asleep."

"But Edmund and I stayed here for a while, just to be sure. Then when we were about to get back to our room, you started crying again. "Peter continued.

Then Edmund sustained, "You were muttering silly things like you deserve to be in misery, to be alone, and sorts of things. We thought Joseph said something bad to you." Then more seriously added, "If he said anything bad about you tell me, I swear I'm going to kill him." Peter glared at the youngest male Pevensie.

"But that wouldn't be possible." Peter said. Susan confusedly eyed him. Peter caught the question, "why is that?" in her eyes though she didn't say a thing. He glanced at Edmund and Lucy, hoping they would continue the conversation for him.

"Because you were mentioning …" Lucy trailed, unsure if she should tell her older sister that she was citing the word Narnia, which was in Susan's vocabulary is a bad language.

Susan looked puzzled for a moment. She scanned them one by one. Peter was glancing from Susan to Edmund and Lucy, sitting rather uncomfortably. Edmund was staring at the floor avoiding eye contact, his weight constantly shifting from one foot to another. Lucy was playing with her thumbs and avoiding eye contact with her too. She now knows what they are talking about.

"Narnia." She finally said. At the said word everyone shot their eyes on her.

Of course they are surprised. You haven't spoken that word for the longest time. Referring Narnia as a silly child game and dodging every conversation pertaining to it like it was some kind of an awful disease.

Then as if remembering something, she asked, "Am I dreaming?"

"No." The three of them answered. She then sighed, relieved that it was all just a bad dream.

Or maybe not. Perhaps Aslan wanted her to learn from that dream. She saw Peter and Edmund awkwardly walking out of the room. They don't seem to want to leave, but guessed she need time to think.

"Guys!" she called them out. Immediately the three pop up in front of her.

"Is something still bothering you?" inquired Peter

"Are you still feeling some pain?" Edmund asked

"Do you need anything? Is there something we can do?" queried Lucy

With all these, Susan felt loved again. She wanted to cry for joy but that could wait.

"I want to tell you something and it's going to take some time so I hope you won't get bored." Susan began; straightaway her siblings were at her side, eager to listen to her.

"I lied to all of you," she started, " I do believe, no, I do know Narnia is real. I know that the first time we get in there was when Lucy found a magical wardrobe at Professor Kirke's mansion. I know that we fought the white witch and ended hundred years of winter. I know we ruled there as Kings and Queens of Narnia for fifteen Narnian years. And that we almost forgot our previous lives here in Finchley. And that we stumbled back here in England through the same route as we enter that world."

Susan looked at her siblings' expression. Both Edmund and Peter showed complete astonishment while Lucy was in verge of tears.

She continued, "And I know that when we were in the train station, we were magically pulled back to Narnia. And again we helped Narnia to overcome the Telmarines. We aided Caspian, the true King to regain his rightful throne. And that Aslan abetted us again. I also remember he said that Peter and I could never get back to Narnia again."

"I know when we get back here in England I acted so awful and so horrible. And I'm sorry. I was so depressed, you see? I wanted to go back but I could not. Aslan said so. So I tried letting it go. But I could not either because memories of it came flooding my mind again. It was especially refreshed when Edmund, Lucy and Eustace came back from a voyage in Narnia. I wanted to join you but I let my pride get in the way. But it was like a drug so even though I snapped each time you talked about Narnia, I was quietly listening to your adventures. I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. Please forgive me. And I do wish I could make up with all the hurt I had caused. I missed all of you and all love you. Can you find it in your hearts to forgive a horrible person like me?"

Susan sat there weeping again. She let her hands cover her face. Peter and Edmund recovered from their shock and came to Susan and wrapped their arms around her. Lucy did so too while crying.

"We missed you too Susan. And of course we forgive you, we love you." the three said in unison

All of them were happy their sister, Susan, Queen Susan The Gentle, came back to her senses, came back to them. No words can explain how happy they were.

When the four broke their tight embrace, they could hear a familiar deep voice, uttering the same exact words he said during their coronation in Narnia.

"Once a King and Queen of Narnia, always a King and Queen of Narnia."

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AN: My AWESOME READERS, please review.. :) Please, please, please..

Had to rewrite this too, so many mistakes.. please point out the grammatical errors so that I could enhance this story and myself.. thank you so much.. :)