Well people, here I am with chapter number three! There's one chapter left. Nettie your help is wonderful sweetie, Thank you so much- as always :D Tori, Stace this chapter is for you ladies!
You should probably read a poem named Tears by Jennifer, aka BiggestSVUFAN. It goes with the first chapter of the story. I had to post it, so don't look it up in her profile page, okay? Thanks.
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Next morning, Olivia Benson woke up like a princess in a fairytale. She was awoken by the kiss of her Prince Charming, Detective Elliot Stabler. Last night was not what she was expecting, she was not expecting to make love with Elliot, she just wanted to have a normal conversation. However, if anyone asked her if she would change anything about last night, the answer would be no, definitely NO!
Olivia woke up smiling and rested her head on his chest while he stroked her hair softly. He hadn't said anything since last night and neither had she. There was a question in the air. A question she was too afraid to answer and a question he didn't have the guts to ask because he was scared of what she would answer. He had survived when she left last time but he was not sure if he would after what happened last night between them.
She was trapped; if she decided to stay here she would hurt Sean, but if she decided to leave she would kill both Elliot and herself. She wanted to escape; she wanted to run away from this decision. "Don't run away Olivia," Elliot whispered to her ear after she moved from his grip. He could feel she was beginning to be tense. "Don't run away from this," he whispered one more time.
Olivia sat and got changed right next to Elliot, she didn't want to run away, but she didn't know what to do with this; with them. Interrupting what she was about to say, her cell phone rang. "Hello," she answered turning to Elliot, who was laying next to her, staring at her. "Hi Sean." He dropped his head back to the pillow when he heard the name.
They talked for about two minutes and then she said "Yeah, I love you too," and hung up. When she turned to face him, he was not staring at her; he was staring to the ceiling. He couldn't tolerate this anymore. Elliot stood up and got changed before sitting next to her.
"Are you going to stay or not?" he asked anger and fear in his voice. She didn't know if he was going to cry or not, but it broke her heart anyway. She closed her eyes and he hugged her so tightly she could feel each one of his muscles. It didn't take long until she felt tears on her shoulder. She managed to place her hands on his chest and push away, she opened her mouth, but he stopped her. "Don't say it Olivia, don't," he whispered.
"I don't know what to do," she answered with tears running down her face. She stood up and walked to the door and stopped. Her tears had also stopped but her heart was racing and every beat was killing her. Elliot stood up and ran to her side. When she opened the door to leave he placed a hand on the door to stop her.
"Wait, this might be the last time I'll see you and I need to tell you something… Olivia… you're my reason to live and I have changed because of you, so…" His voice broke. "I love you, don't go this time." Tears were running down his face and he had to stop talking because a sob was closing his throat.
Olivia leaned in and placed a soft kiss on his lips before walking away, leaving a broken man in her wake. She caught a cab to her hotel room. Maybe that was it; they kept arguing and pushing each other away, maybe… just maybe this was the end. Maybe this was the last time they'd turn away from each other..
If this was the right thing, why did it hurt so much?
They were supposed to be simple people with a simple love. Who would think this feeling would hurt you and kill you as you say it? A love that would leave you miserable and crying. This time he didn't run after her, maybe it was the way it was supposed to be.
After a short drive to her hotel, she found someone there, someone she was not expecting to find. "Sean?" she asked, her voice still shaking from crying. He had promised he would wait for her.
"I came to see if you would come after all," he said sitting by the stairs waiting for her to join him. When she did, he took her hand before talking. He could see she had been crying and he knew which the reason- Elliot. It always was.
He was the reason for her tears. "Are you going to come back this time?"
Why was everyone asking her if she was going or staying? Olivia rubbed her face and pushed some hair behind her ear as some tears fell. She was not going to answer that question. She was definitely not going to answer that. Her heart was about to explode.
"You're not going to answer me… then I already know the answer," he whispered. This was going to be hard for Sean but he needed to tell her he loved her a lot and he was about to let her go. It is said that when you love someone you should let them go. "Love touched me this time and it lasted a while… but it would kill me to stay with you knowing you love someone else." He stopped talking when she opened her mouth to speak.
"Sean… I really care about you, and I swear that I've loved every moment I've spent with you." She paused before going on. "But I'm never going to love you as much as I love him, I'm so sorry Sean, it's just…" He stood up to find her crying. "It's just… it hurts so much… so much I …"
"It's okay," Sean whispered and gave her a short hug before walking away. Olivia stayed for a few minutes before heading back to his apartment.
When she arrived Elliot was waiting for her, sitting in his entrance. He had been crying and his face was as wet as hers. She sat by his side and waited. She took his hand and held it to her chest; it was the only safe place out there, the only place where he would feel how much she loved him. She then rested her head on his shoulder. "Long day?" he asked after a sob escaped his lips. She nodded as always. "So… where will this lead us? Are you going to…?"
"Stay," she whispered before raising her head so she could see him. "Yes, I'm going to stay." She smiled and landed her lips on his. When the kiss ended they found each other crying.
"Thank God," he muttered.
