Chapter 3
Upon arriving at the restaurant, Ed instantly felt his nerves get worse. As Roy got out and closed the door, Ed remained still. It was like he'd forgotten how to open a door, let alone move.
The door opened, "coming?" Roy asked.
Ed cleared his throat and focused all his energy on getting out, "yeah."
They walked inside and were greeted by a bright smiling face, "ah hey Roy, how've you been?" The girl asked.
Roy smiled his charming smile, "wonderful and you?"
"Great! Let me get you a table for you and your friend here," she exclaimed excitedly.
"She likes you huh?" Ed teased.
Roy laughed, "who doesn't!"
"Me!" Ed yelled.
The smirk appeared, "that's not how I remember it Ed."
Their eyes met as they both remembered what had happened the previous night. It felt years gone, Ed wondered why that was.
"Okay! Right this way," the woman said leading them to a booth by the window.
"Thank you Rosaline," Roy said sweetly.
The man uses his good looks and charm to get what he wants. Damn. How many people had fallen just for that smirk?
As they sat Ed was immediately self conscious. He felt cheap and washed out compared to everyone else. He knew he didn't bring enough money for this fancy restaurant.
"You alright," Roy asked.
Ed looked up at him, "yeah just trying to decide what to get."
Roy smiled, "How about I order for you and if you don't like it I will take you out for pizza."
"Deal!"
Roy ordered something Ed didn't even know how to pronounce let alone what it actually was, but he went with it. He felt so lucky, he was on a date with the man of his dreams. He hoped to heaven that this wasn't just a trick.
"Edward." Roy said softly.
Ed jolted, "yes sorry?"
"I've been trying to talk to you, you seem very distracted," he said.
"I just..I'm sorry."
Roy smiled softly and grabbed Ed's hand from across the table. He gave it a gentle squeeze and it made Ed relax.
"No need to be nervous. You know me. I'm still just the Colonel, although I'd prefer if you called me Roy when we are alone like this," he said.
Ed smiled, "so in the office I can still call you A bastard?"
"If that'll make you comfortable."
Ed intertwined his fingers with Roy's and look into his eyes, "I just don't understand why you'd like me."
Roy rubbed his thumb softly on the back of Ed's wrist, "you're so strong, all this hardship and shit you've gone through you've remained strong. You may not be able to perform alchemy but you're more than that. You're more than just an alchemist. You are strong, funny, confident, stubborn, not to mention beautiful. I've liked you for a long ass time, I was going crazy with the need to tell you. To touch you, to kiss you."
Silence. He fell back and paused letting it all sink in. Ed was shocked, he probably looked like an idiot with his mouth open.
"Um, too much?" Roy asked.
"N-no I'm just shocked. I've liked you for so long. You saved me in so many ways. You made all those trials easier. In the darkness you were the light I clung to. I was going crazy too," Ed said.
Another silence but in no way was it uncomfortable. They sit there holding hands and staring at each other, like a love struck kid discovering a crush.
They ate and chatted about random things. Stuff they liked, stuff they wanted and needed. It was comfortable.
"Nobody knows," Ed said softly.
"What's that?"
"Nobody knows I'm gay," he admitted.
Another smile, "same here."
"It feel good..to have you, to share the secret with someone."
"I agree, especially if that someone is a gorgeous blonde," Roy teased.
Ed felt a blush rise up. Roy's hand went up and moved to his hot cheek and in a soft motion caressed it.
"Shut up Roy," he said looking down.
"I love that."
"What, your name, conceited much?" Ed asked.
"No. Hearing my name come out of your mouth Edo."
Ed shivered at the use of his nickname, "y-yeah I know the feeling."
"Shall we go?" Roy asked after they had finished.
"Yes let's," he said.
"So am I taking you out for pizza or was that satisfying?"
Ed hadn't really payed attention to the food. He was too distracted by Roy.
"I'm good thank you for dinner, shall I pay?"
"Don't be silly Ed, this is a date. I took you out," he said placing money down.
Ed nodded and followed him out the door. He had to admit, he was slightly satisfied at being taken care of.
-later-
As they pulled up to Ed and Al's hotel they had been staying at, he got out and walked toward the door. He heard Roy get out and follow.
"You both need a more permanent place to stay here in central," he said.
"It's alright though, it's been our home since we both got back."
Roy smiled, "do you know how crazy I was feeling when I got my sight back and realised you weren't there with me?"
"Sorry..we had to travel, I didn't know how to tell you. Didn't want to say goodbye," he said.
Roy looked down into his eyes and rubbed his cheek, "when you came back that day, I was so happy. You had grown so much. My crush inevitably grew stronger."
Ed laughed, "you still looked like a bastard," he teased.
"Hey! Fuck you,"Roy growled.
"Already did that didn't you?"
As Ed said that the air became hotter. The tension visibly graspable. It felt electric and warm between them. Ed suddenly felt self conscious. He looked down and bit his lip. In that moment he felt so vulnerable.
Roy placed a finger under his chin and moved his head up to meet his eyes, "may I kiss you?" He asked.
Ed only nodded and was enveloped by Roy's tender kiss. His big strong arms at Edward's back making the kiss deeper. His soft lips against Roy's felt so right and wrong at the same time. He knew they should stop but did nothing to make that happen.
Roy's tongue teased Ed's lower lip and caused his mouth to open. Suddenly Ed felt a warm tongue meet and play against his. It was getting to hot. His body was on fire. He was craving the intense heat against the man's body. It was addictive. Ed's arms traveled up Roy's back to his strong shoulders as he held on, the kiss only getting more passionate.
Ed moaned, a real deep moan as his shirt was being grasped and his lips encased. He was so into the warm body against his and couldn't help it. Roy pushed Ed against the door and heard a clicking noise.
"Hello?" A voice said. They had pressed the buzzer.
They pulled away from each other, Ed feeling embarrassed. They stood there breathing heavily and avoiding eye contact. Both their faces bright red and sweaty.
"W-well I..I guess I'd better go," Roy said.
Ed nodded, "I'd invite you in but..Alphonse.."
"It's alright Edo, I didn't mean for things to get so crazy just then I just..you do crazy things to me. I'm trying to go slow. You have to remind me," he said smiling softly.
"I'll try but..I can't help myself either."
He smirked, "well go your brother is probably worried."
"A-alright Roy goodnight," he said.
"Goodnight," Roy said with a quick peck to Ed's flush cheek.
Ed watched as he turned and got into his car, driving off. He smiled sadly and realised he missed Roy already. He really did have major feelings.
As he entered his room he was immediately bombarded with questions, "brother where have you been?!"
"Al. I've been out alright. I'm an adult I can do these things," he said turning toward his room.
"..what is with you lately, you're acting so crazy."
"NOTHING GOD DAMN!" Ed yelled.
Al was silent.
"Stop acting like my mother, if you forget she's dead," he said but immediately regretted it.
"Brother.."
"Sorry Al, I'm sorry," he whispered walking to his bedroom and closing the door.
He laid on the bed and sighed. He hadn't meant to hurt Al, it was just that he was stressed and confused. He was experiencing new things that he wasn't too sure about. He just hated how Al always asked questions.
"He cares," he whispered to himself.
Another sigh, he just needed sleep. Maybe this was all a dream. He reached up and touched his lips they were still tingling. They felt round and plump, probably swollen. Ed could still taste Roy. A sweet cinnamon taste, that was his scent. It was so warm. Just like his muscular body. Damn.
His mind filled with naughty thoughts about Roy, he eventually drifted off into sleep.
Sorry this chapter was so short and kind of boring. I'm just having writers block and a lot of depression issues. but I'm all good. Ill be more consistent once I'm done with my Job (after valentines day) so yeah. Please review? I need to hear some kind words. i only got a few for this story And I think it's pretty good.. ~tragedy
