This is a long one, sorry guys. Angelwood.
She's Gone For Good.
A lone tear runs down Jack's face as the words echo in his head. "Because she is dead Captain." Jack couldn't do this again. He couldn't go through the heartache again, thinking that she was dead just for someone to prove she wasn't and then for him to think that she was dead again. He couldn't keep grieving for her, especially not after last time. Ianto put his arm around Jack's waist, standing behind him and pulling himself close to Jack, his mouth next to Jack's ear.
"Are you ok?" Ianto asks him knowing that Jack was everything but alright.
"I can't do this again Yan. I can't believe that she is dead. I need to know Yan," Jack tells him, his voice shaky and Ianto held him tighter.
"He said he would be back. You can get your answers then Jack. Why don't you come back into the office with me Jack," Ianto tells him, remembering not to hold Jack too close as he was still aroused and Jack would feel it.
Jack turned in Ianto's arms and smiled at him, only the smallest of smiles but it was a smile. Ianto released Jack from his arms and they walked back into the office. As Ianto was about to shut the door, he looked at the others who were as confused at what was just said as Jack was.
"Can you give us a while in private. Don't bother us unless it is important," Ianto tells them and they nod at him, knowing that there was a lot for Jack to work through.
Ianto closed the door and turned to Jack who was stood in the middle of the office with his back to Ianto. Ianto walked up behind him and slid his arms around Jack's waist, his hands across Jack's abdomen, the side of Ianto's face against his shoulder. Jack sighed as he felt Ianto's hair against his neck, stroking Ianto's arms. Jack turned in Ianto's embrace, Ianto lifting his head off of Jack's shoulder as Jack turned to face him. Jack didn't say a word, he just gazed into Ianto's eyes, trying to lose himself in them, not wanting to think, wanting just to do something.
Jack leant in a little and kissed Ianto gently and softly on the lips praying that Ianto would just kiss him back and not say anything and to Jack's relief, Ianto didn't say anything and just kissed him back. Jack pulled him closer but Ianto resisted getting too close to Jack, hiding the fact that he already had an erection. Jack ran his fingers down Ianto's spine, sending a shiver down his spine. Ianto runs his fingers through Jack's hair, twirling around in it. Jack slides his hand onto Ianto's butt and pulls him closer, taking his lips off of Ianto's lips and onto his neck above his shirt collar.
"Don't Jack, please don't tease," Ianto tells Jack, his erection now aching as he had had it for a little while.
"Please Yan. Don't talk. Just be with me," Jack almost begs whispering in Ianto's ear, Jack's breath against Ianto's ear and neck, arousing him even more.
Jack returns his lips to Ianto's, his tongue finally begging entry to Ianto's mouth and he gives it immediately. Their kisses grow harder, Ianto following Jack's lead as Jack kisses him harder. Then Jack stops and pulls his lips away from Ianto's and then Ianto sees why. There was a tear running down his face. Jack's eyes were filled with tears that were yet to fall.
"Please don't cry Jack. It breaks my heart to see you cry," Ianto tells Jack wiping the tear that had fallen off of Jack's face.
"She's gone for good this time, I can feel it," Jack tells Ianto as another tear falls, Ianto catching it with his finger as it ran down Jack's face.
"I'm sorry Jack. I'm so sorry," Ianto tells him putting his hand against the back of his neck and pulling Jack's head to his shoulder and Jack let it all out, crying on Ianto's shoulder as he held him close.
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A few hours later and the team was sat on the sofa's in the relaxation area, drinking coffee and eating sandwiches that Ianto had been out to get. As they all sat, eating, drinking and talking, Jack slipped his hand into Ianto's as it sat on his knee, Ianto looking at Jack and Jack looking at Ianto. Ianto smiled at him as Jack squeezed his hand, squeezing it back. Everyone was being very careful not to mention Phoenix or Javain.
"Has there been any sign of him Tosh?" Jack asks her squeezing Ianto's hand a little tighter.
"I haven't detected anything but now that I know that he is using ……..," and Toshiko's answer trails off.
"It's ok Tosh. You can say her name. Now that you know he is using Phoenix's manipulator what?" he asks her with a small smile.
"Now that I know that he is using Phoenix's manipulator, I have set a program to identify when he is coming into Earth's atmosphere, giving us a few seconds warning," Toshiko finishes.
"Good. Thanks for that Tosh," Jack tells her and he smiles at her and she returns the smile.
They carry on making small talk while they eat, Jack not having the appetite to eat, his stomach feeling delicate at the thought that Phoenix was actually dead and that he had a son with her. Jack still wanted proof that she was dead even though he dreaded that proof as it would mean that she had gone for good and wasn't coming back. He looked at Ianto and felt guilty for the fact that he still thought about her, still wanted her in his life, still wanted her. He felt guilty for the fact that he couldn't love Ianto fully while he still had Phoenix in his heart. Ianto was just about to get up and pick all the empty cups up when an alarm sounded on Toshiko's computer and he stopped.
"It's him Jack, he's coming," Toshiko tells Jack as she looks over to the screen of her computer and a second later, the hub's alarm went off and the orange/yellow light appeared.
Jack got up from the sofa, letting go of Ianto's hand and moved over to the gap between the workstations and waited, waited for Javain to come through the Vortex and eventually he did but something was wrong. Javain staggered through the Vortex, falling to his knees onto the cold metal floor of the hub, dropping his bag on the floor next to him. His top was torn, his trousers torn, his face cut and bleeding. Jack rushed to his side but Javain pushed him away, holding his hand up.
"I'm ok. Just leave me alone Captain," Javain tells him, slowly and shakily rising to his feet.
"What the hell happened?" Jack asks him as Owen joins Jack.
"It doesn't matter. Let's just say that I can't go back there now," Javain tells Jack, picking up his bag, his pain evident on his face as he dropped his bag again.
"Let me help you and I can take a look at you," Owen tells Javain, offering him his shoulder and Javain took it.
Owen helped Javain into the autopsy room, Owen feeling something wet on his arm and hand, presuming it was blood knowing that if Javain was like his mother, it would have to be one hell of a wound to bleed like that while it was healing. Owen took him over to the table in the autopsy room and Javain sat down, wincing in pain as he sat.
"Ianto. Can you give me to clean Javain up please?" Owen shouted out to him and Ianto came into autopsy room, Jack following him but standing at the top of the stairs and watching.
Ianto took off his jacket and hung it over the railing and rolling up his sleeves as Owen puts the things that Ianto would need to clean him up on the table next to Javain.
"I am going to need you to take your top off so that I can check your wounds out," Owen tells Javain who is sat on the table, his eyes shut.
"I can't raise my arms. You are going to have to cut the top off," Javain tells him, his eyes still shut.
Owen gets a pair of scissors and starts to cut Javain's top ff, revealing more and more flesh and more and more blood. Ianto pulls the top off of Javain's back slowly and what he found made him take a step back.
"Jesus Christ," Ianto simply says, dropping the material from the top on the floor.
Owen comes to where Ianto was and sees what Ianto meant. Sticking out of his shoulder, just below his shoulder blade, under so much blood was a piece of what looked like metal sticking out. There were pieces of metal sticking out all over his back, cutting through the tattoo.
"What the hell happened?" Owen asks him moving back to the front of Javain, his eyes still closed.
"What is it Owen?" Jack asks not having a clear view.
"Javain's body and torso is riddled with metal. Some are quiet big," Owen tells Jack getting the scanner to scan Javain to make sure that the metal was safe to take out as some of it was quiet deeply embedded.
"What happened Javain?" Jack asks and Javain shuddered hearing his name coming out of Jack's mouth.
"Does it matter? I got what I needed to get and that is all that matters to me," Javain replies, his eyes still closed.
"What was so important that you would risk yourself getting this hurt?" Jack asks him as Owen puts the scanner down, Jack sounding like a father and thinking it rather strange.
"Mum. That's what was so important to me," Javain replies, Owen seeing a light appearing in between Javain's eye lids, knowing his eyes where ablaze and white.
"I didn't see you bring anyone back with you so I closed the Vortex," Jack tells him very confused and worried.
"She is in my bag. Her ashes are in a stone box in my bag. She wanted me to bring her back here so that you and I could release her ashes in the bay. She told me the right spot. Once I have done that, I can fulfil her last request. She asked me to carry on the work she started as the Dark Avenger," Javain tells Jack.
"We are going to start cleaning you up now and take out the metal in your back and torso. If the pain gets too much, just let us know and we will stop," Owen tells Javain and nods to Ianto.
"Don't worry about me, just take them out," he replies as Owen and Javain start to clean him up.
"You had her cremated?" Jack asks Javain knowing now that she was dead and gone for good.
"I waited a long time before I did it. She told me once that she was dead for 2 months but came back. I waited for 6 months, most of the time staying by her side. She never came back so I knew her pain was finally over. I had her cremated and put in the stone box that was deadlocked so no-one could use her ashes to get her DNA and create another of her. Her wish was for me to be the last of the Avalonian's," Javain admits.
"Can I …….um…….," Jack doesn't finish the question, he didn't know how to say it.
"You mean, can you see her, the box? Help yourself. The box is in my bag wrapped up, just be careful with her," Javain tells Jack not looking at him as his eyes were closed as he was concentrating on the pain as Owen and Ianto pulled the pieces of metal from his body.
Jack left the autopsy room to go and retrieve the box from Javain's bag as Owen and Ianto carried on. The most painful pieces of metal to remove were from his back, Ianto being very careful not to touch the big piece sticking his shoulder, wiping away the blood as he went and there was a lot of it. Ianto gently wiped a trickle of blood tenderly off of Javain's back, trying his best not to hurt him, he didn't want to cause him anymore pain.
"How can he not scream out in pain as I pull this metal from his back, wiping the blood that trickles out of the wound? How did this happen to him? Why? This looks so painful. Wounds scattered all over his back, cutting through his skin, his flesh. This must hurt but I can't make him feel any better. I know that he can heal, Phoenix did but I want to stop it hurting now, I want to kiss the wounds better, take away the pain. Oh god, not again." Ianto thinks as he runs his fingers over Javain's back, starting to feel aroused again.
"Don't worry about the pain Ianto, it isn't that bad. I have felt worse and yes, I will heal quickly but as for kissing my wounds better, that might not be a good idea with Jack around but thanks for the very pleasant thought," Javain tells Ianto, never opening his mouth, using his mind to talk to Ianto, Ianto closing his eyes as he did.
Ianto took his hands off of Javain's back, feeling very uncomfortable that Javain had just heard his most personal thoughts about him. Ianto after a second, opened his eyes, putting his hand back on Javain's back and pulled out the remaining smaller pieces of metal out of his back, being hesitant.
"I'm sorry Ianto. I don't mean to read everyone's thoughts, it's just force of habit. It's the only way mum and I used to talk. I didn't mean to freak you out and I have to remember that human's personal thoughts are just that, personal. I will try not to read your thoughts again however nice they are," Javain tells Ianto with his mind again, Ianto briefly stopping and then carrying on what he was doing.
"It's ok Javain. I just have to keep my thoughts under check when your around," Ianto thinks and when Owens back is turn, Javain puts his hand on Ianto's hand that was on his shoulder, Ianto flinching but not pulling his hand away but as Owen turned back to them, Javain moved his hand off of Ianto's, Ianto almost not wanting him too.
Ianto looks over Javain's back, making sure he hadn't missed anything other than the huge piece sticking out of his shoulder. Owen had finished already and was scanning Javain to make sure that he hadn't missed anything and then put the scanner down. Ianto traced the skin around the metal sticking out of Javain, really not wanting to pull it out as it would cause Javain pain and Javain sensed it.
"Just pull it out Ianto. Just brace your other hand against my back, take a firm hold and pull it out. Don't worry," Javain tells Ianto with his mind and Ianto does as Javain tells him to.
Ianto takes his left hand on Javain's back, fingers closed at first but then Ianto spread his fingers, his fingers gently brushing against Javain's skin, against his slightly raise tattoo, Ianto watching as fingers slowly travelled over Javain's back. With his right hand, he took hold of the metal, making sure that he didn't cut himself on the jagged edges and Ianto closed his eyes as he pushed against Javain's strong back.
"I'm sorry," Ianto says quietly and then he pulled the metal out of Javain's back hard, blood quickly following it as Javain braced himself, hands firmly on the table.
"Jesus Christ," Javain shouted out as Ianto pulled the metal out.
Ianto grabbed something to stop the bleeding, placing it on Javain's back with his right hand, his left hand still braced against Javain's back but now gently.
"I am so sorry Javain. I didn't mean to hurt you," Ianto tells him and Javain's head drops a little.
"It's ok. I didn't realise how deep it was embedded but your gently hand is helping," Javain tells Ianto with his mind.
"Please don't say things like that Javain. I'm with Jack, your father," Ianto replies, thinking it not saying it and Javain pulled away from Ianto's touch, getting off of the table.
"Don't call him that. He might have made me but he isn't my father," Javain thinks angrily, making Ianto feel his anger.
Javain leaves the autopsy room, Owen looking confused as to why he was leaving, blood trickling down his back and Ianto looking sorrowful. Javain gets to the main hub area and he couldn't see Jack, he was nowhere to be seen and then he notices that his bag had gone too.
