LEA'S POV

The next morning, I woke up with the decision that I was going to leave. Humiliation was too much for me to handle right now, and everyone would know who knocked me up. Everyone knew that Sam and I were together. What would they think if they saw me pregnant and him with Emily? It would make both of us look really bad. Plus, my parents had hurt me too much. I just needed to get away, sort some things out. It was the summer, so I didn't have school. I would just wait for my parents to go to work and then bolt. Easy as that.

"Leah, honey," mom said tentatively, knocking lightly on my door, "Breakfast is ready."

I blinked back a few tears and sniffed, "Okay mom."

She was quiet for a moment and then, "Do you… do you want to talk about this?"

"No mom, I'm fine," I growled, ripping my suite case from the top shelf of my closet. A few stray stuffed animals fell out with it. One of them was the one Sam had given me for our one month anniversary. It was a small pink bear. I kicked it under my bed before I could start sobbing again.

I shoved as many sweatshirts and sweatpants as I could into the suite case. I added some pictures, socks, some toiletries. All I needed was money. I had a small wad of cash stored in my underwear drawer from walking the neighbor's dog all winter. Around two hundred bucks. But don't you need doctor's appointments and medicine and shit? That all costs money right? I dug through some more drawers, trying to round up as much spare change as possible.

"Leah?"

I spun around, gasping in surprise, "Oh, Seth. I didn't h-hear you open the d-door."

Seth eyed my face and then the suite case on the bed. My brother wasn't dumb. He could put two and two together.

"You're leaving," it wasn't a question.

I sighed and looked up at the ceiling to stop the tears from falling. How could I explain this to my baby brother?

"Seth… you don't understand. I-it's not a choice for me to stay any longer. I just… have to get away for a while," I told him.

He was quiet for a minute, "Where will you go?"

"Maybe grandma and grandpa's house… I'm not really sure," I said truthfully. I honestly had no idea where I was going to go.

"Leah, I really think you should stay here," Seth said quietly, looking at his feet.

"I can't stay here Seth! Don't you get it? I don't have anyone! I don't have Sam! I don't have mom or dad! I don't have Emily! They've all betrayed me! I don't even know who to turn to anymore!" I yelled, slamming my fist on the wall in frustration.

"What about me?" Seth whispered, looking up at me with wide eyes.

I instantly felt sorry for the way I'd talked to him. I strode over to him quickly, wrapping my arms around him. I was still taller than him, even though he was fifteen.

"Seth, I'm sorry. I do have you, I've always had you. You've always been there for me, but I can't stay. Nobody can know about the baby," I gasped and covered my mouth, quickly backing away from him, "You didn't just here that."

Seth's eyes grew to the size of dinner plates, "You're pregnant?"

I grabbed his arm, shaking it, "Please please please don't tell mom and dad!" I begged.

"But… but they could help you!" Seth protested, "And what are they going to think happened when you come back with a baby?"

"They're never going to find out. I'm giving it up, I've already decided," I told him, placing my hand on my stomach.

"You're not gonna keep him or her?" Seth whispered, looking extremely disappointed in me. Sometimes I felt like Seth was twenty years older than me.

"It's not a him or her Seth, it's an it. And what am I gonna do with a baby huh? What will everyone think? Leah gets knocked up and S-Sam has a girlfriend. They're gonna think I cheated on him, which will make me look back. Or they'll think he got me knocked up so dumped me. Nobody wins here," I said, running my hands through my hair. Please understand Seth.

He continued to look at me, thinking extremely hard. I could tell because his eyebrow was all scrunched up. He still looked like a little kid when he thought too hard. I resisted the urge to pinch his cheek; he hated it when I did that.

"Okay, go," he said finally, "But please promise me something."

"Anything," I agreed.

"Just… give the baby to a good family. People that will take care of and love him or her."

I smiled at my little brother, he would care mostly about the baby. That's the kind of person Seth was. I always wished I could be as caring and considerate as him. Maybe that's why Sam dumped me. Don't cry now! Not in front of Seth!

"Of course," I promised, pinching his cheek anyway.

He swatted my hand away, laughing a little, "I'm gonna miss you Leah."

"I'll only be gone for a few months," I told him.

He nodded and hugged me, before turning around and going back into his room. I looked out the window to the driveway. Mom and dad's cars were gone. I threw a few more things into my suite case and grabbed a pen and paper.

Dear Mom and Dad,

I'm sorry I didn't say goodbye in person. I'm going away for a little while. I can't bear to stay in La Push right now, not when Sam's everywhere I turn. It hurts too much. I need to escape for a little, escape from the pain. I'll be back soon, I promise. Don't worry too much about me, I'll be in touch. And safe.

Love,

Leah

There were tear stains all over the paper by the time I finished writing. I carefully folded the note and grabbed my suite case. When I got down to the kitchen, I set the note on the kitchen table.

"Hey Leah?" Seth said from behind me.

I turned around, "Yeah?"

Seth took a deep breath and then took my hand in his. He placed a wad of cash in my hand.

"Oh no, Seth I can't take this," I said, trying to give it back to him.

"Just take it Leah," Seth sighed, pushing my hand away.

I closed my eyes and accepted the money, "You're an awesome brother, you know?"

Seth smiled, "Yeah I know."

"And very modest, too," I joked, and then sniffed.

"Be safe, Leah," Seth told me.

"I always am," I said, ruffling his hair.

I grabbed my car keys and with one last look at our tiny kitchen, I headed out the door. I got into my rusty old car that I'd saved up for for three years and threw my suite case in the back.

I needed a plan. What next? I needed to go somewhere that nobody would expect me to be. I looked down, resting my hand on my protruding stomach. Suddenly, I got an idea, perhaps the craziest idea that would ever cross my mind. But I needed help.

I needed a doctor.

"Oh my god! I love these heels!" Jenna cried, kicking her own shoes off to put on mine.

"What color do you want your nails, Lee?" Amy asked, digging through my collection of nail polish.

"Uh… red… no, blue!" I said.

Amy continued digging, "Hmm electric love or… cotton candy?"

"Electric love," I told her in a mock sexy voice, spreading out paper so she could start painting my nails.

"Hey Jenna, what color do you want your nails?" Amy asked.

"Pink," Jenna said, coming to sit next to me.

"Which color do you-"

"OH MY GOD IS THAT SAM ULEY?" Jenna screeched, running to the window.

I followed her quickly. Sure enough, Sam Uley was leaning against his car in my front yard.

"What is he doing here?" Amy hissed through clenched.

"I have… no idea," I whispered.

He looked up and smiled at us, waving a little.

"He totally just waved at you!" Jenna squealed, "You didn't tell us you guys had a thing!"

"We don't!"

"Sure. Now go talk to him!" Jenna pressed.

"No way!"

But she was already opening the window, "What do you want?" she yelled down.

"Permission to speak to Leah?" he called up, coming a little closer to the house.

"Leah, your knight in shining armor wants to talk to you!" Jenna sang, pushing me closer to the window, "Lean forward a little so he gets a good view of your cleavage," she added quietly.

I gasped at her, "Shut up you!"

I turned towards the open window, blushing like an idiot. I leaned out slightly, "Hi Sam."

"Leah!" he smiled, "Lee-Lee actually. I just came up with it! Do you like it?"

I felt my face go even darker, "I love it!" I giggled.

He chuckled, "So are you ready for our date?" he called up.

"What date?"

"Well you did promise!" he called.

I gasped, "I did no such thing!"

"Come on Lee-Lee! Please, go on a date with me?" he pleaded.

"Bu-well-n-b- oh well fine!" I called.

"Awesome!" he called, grinning widely. There was a silence and he looked at me expectantly.

"Now?" I asked. It was almost nine o'clock.

He looked around and shrugged, "Why not?"

"Go!" Amy and Jenna whispered behind me.

"I don't know," I muttered.

"Please Lee-Lee?" he asked, looking up with puppy dog eyes.

"Okay Sam," I sighed, but added after a moment, "But only because it will get you off my property!"

What the hell are you doing here? Seriously. This is like the ultimate betrayal or something. I slowly got out of my car, looking up at the giant mansion in front of me, knowing I didn't belong here.

But it's not like the legends are real or anything. Dr. Cullen is just a doctor. And I can't afford a hospital bill. From what I've heard, he and his family are really nice. Maybe he'll cut me some slack. You can do this Leah. For the baby at least. And so, I took a deep breath and marched up to the house. Without even thinking, I rang the doorbell. I counted to fifteen.

Well nobody's here, guess I should go.

I turned to leave but heard the door slowly open behind me. Biting my lip, I turned back around to face my fear.

"Yes?" the pale girl asked. She was really pale, the palest person I'd ever seen. With blond hair, and she was absolutely gorgeous. It's no wonder the legends say they're vampires.

"I-Is Dr. Cullen here?" I asked, my voice coming out quieter than I'd hoped.

"Possibly. Why would someone like you want to see him, may I ask?" the pale girl asked, her tone accusing and condescending. I cringed when she talked.

"Well… I… because…" I just stood there stuttering, wishing I was any place but where I was. But right when I thought I was going to die from embarrassment, the blond girl was pushed out of the way by a woman. She was kinder looking, her eyes were softer and her lips turned up in a natural smile.

"Hello," she smiled, "I'm sorry for my daughter's rudeness. How may I help you?"

"Is... Dr. Cullen… is he here?" I whispered.

"He is," the woman told me kindly, "I believe he's in his study. Come, we can go find him together."

"O-okay," I muttered. She stood aside so I could walk through the doorway. The blond girl was gone thankfully.

"I'm Esme by the way. And you are?"

"Leah… Leah Clearwater," I told her, trying to smile. It may have looked more like a grimace though.

"Pretty name," she mused, walking up a flight of stairs. I followed her, looking around in wonder. Their house was so big and open. I guess I was expecting some dark, scary castle or something with constant thunder and lightning over it and a graveyard in the front. That's the way the elders explained it when they spoke about the Cullen's home.

"Are you from the reservation?" Esme asked. Her voice was sweet, it made me like her. She didn't sound accusing like the girl that opened the door for me had.

"Yes," I said absentmindedly. I was too busy looking at a crest on the wall. It was so ornate and... well old looking. Maybe it was some sort of family heirloom.

"This is Carlisle's study," Esme told me.

"Thank you," I said, giving her a real smile.

"You're very welcome."

I took another deep breath and knocked three times on the door.

"Come in," a voice said.

I opened the door slowly, looking around. The room was huge, with an ornate desk right in the middle. Shelves and shelves of books covered the walls. And so many pictures. I didn't want to be nosy, but if he wasn't here I would totally be looking through his collection of books right now. Dr. Cullen sat at his desk, but he stood up when I walked in, putting some papers into the desk drawer.

"H-Hi, I'm Leah. Leah Clearwater," I told him.

"Ah yes, from La Push, correct?" he asked smartly.

"Y-yes. But… well no hard feeling right? I mean, I have nothing against you or your family I promise. I mean… I'm not really supposed to be here but… well I just couldn't figure out what to do and… well… I mean I guess you know what everyone on La Push thinks of you guys. But I promise that I don't… I would never… I mean, the legends aren't even real right?" I babbled. I had started talking and just couldn't stop. And I finished with the most awkward statement ever. Well, it was meant to be a statement, but it came out as a question. Fucking nerves getting the best of me.

Maybe that's why Sam dumped you. You're too emotional and weak. Emily's always been the stronger one.

Don't you dare cry.

Dr. Cullen studied me for a minute, his head cocked to one side. Finally he answered "No. I supposed they aren't real. I don't have any hard feelings against you and I am happy to hear that you have none against me or my family. So, now that we have that out of the way, Leah, how may I help you?" he asked, smiling lightly.

"I… I'm pregnant," I whispered, looking down in embarrassment because tears started to fill my eyes.

"I see," he replied.

"And… well I don't have much money and you need parents at the hospital and stuff. And I don't want anyone to find out because… well you don't really care about that… but all I'm asking is… I do have money. I just need… an ultrasound or something, just to make sure it's okay. I'll pay you I swear, I just don't want my parents to know," I slowly faded off, giving him a pleading look.

"May I ask who the father is?"

I bit my lip, not wanting to say the name. But I needed Carlisle on my side, "Sam Uley."

"I see," Dr. Cullen said, a little more to himself. He didn't say anything for a while. He just turned his head a little to look at the wall behind me, his eyes glazed over a little like he was thinking hard. I started slowly backing to the door.

"You know what, this was a bad idea," I said, "Never mind. Just forget I ever came. It was stupid of me and I should just leave you alone and-"

"Leah," Dr. Cullen cut me off. I froze, about to open the door.

"I will give you the proper care you need," he said, "No cost."


Thanks for all the reviews on the last chapter guys!

Important: I'm not sure what this story wants to be yet. I'm switching between Leah and her daughter's POV (yes Samantha is her daughter) at the moment. You all probably have a lot of questions, but they will slowly reveal themselves one chapter at a time.

PLEASE REMEMBER Leah doesn't believe in the legends and she has no money. I think she can sometimes be an irrational, spontaneous person so I made her go to the Cullen's without really thinking. Maybe SM's Leah wouldn't do that, but this is before she came into Eclipse, so maybe she was a whole different person before she phased. I'm going to make her into the person she is in the books. But here's how she was first. In my mind at least.

Review! I'll try to answer questions that you might have.