I don't own Merlin sadly. It belongs to the BBC
This is a birthday story for my friend Cathcer1984, I hope she likes it. Happy birthday x
This story will have nine chapters. A chapter a day
Summary: All is going well at a party, that is until Merlin accidently drinks Gwen's fertility drink before making his moves on the one he is too shy to when he is sober, his best friend and flatmate Arthur.
Warnings: Angst, AU, Mpreg, malexmale. Merlin has magic. Mentions of abortion in this chapter.
I apologise in advance for any mistakes I may have made :D
When Arthur put the phone down from Gaius he was shaking in anger. How could Merlin be so stupid as to not tell the difference between drinks? And how could he have spent all afternoon with him acting as though all was fine, all isn't fine, it was far from fine.
Merlin walked into the flat. "Arthur? Got the food, actually remembered my wallet this time." he laughed as he placed the food on the kitchen table and started unloading it onto plates.
"Well at least you remembered that." Arthur snapped.
Merlin frowned and looked at his friend. "What's up with you? I got the extra spring rolls this time."
"Wonderful, you seem to be on the ball tonight. There couldn't be anything important you forgot to tell me because you never forget anything." Arthur rolled his eyes sarcastically.
"Of course I do, you know me, only forget the small things though." Merlin laughed as he filled the plates with food, "you need some food in you, here you go."
"Really? So you class being pregnant small?" Arthur growled.
"Pre-" Merlin closed his eyes and took a deep breath. "Arthur please." he said and walked over to the blond, taking his hands in his only for Arthur to snatch them away. "Please let me explain. I was scared, I had to work out how to tell you before doing so. I only found out this afternoon. Please Arthur."
"When were going to tell me? When the kid was off to college?" Arthur yelled.
"Calm down Arthur please and don't be stupid, you know I would have told you as soon as I knew how to, just like with my magic."
"Calm down! I bloody will not. You told me four weeks after knowing me Merlin, I had to earn your trust for you to tell me the big fucking magical secret. Yet after all these years I still have to wait to be let in on something that many already know. I'm it's goddamn father I should have been told before anyone else." Arthur yelled waving his arms up in the air.
"Okay be honest with me Arthur if I came up to you this morning and told you I accidently drank Gwen's fertility drink hours before letting you fuck me you would have laughed in my face and said what you always do 'don't be so stupid Merlin' just like you always say. Wouldn't you. And be honest." Merlin snapped his anger rising.
"Well at least when Gaius called I wouldn't have felt ambushed." Arthur snapped.
"I take that as a yes then. And ambushed? Gaius tells you that you are going to have a child and your first action is to shout and snap at the person who is carrying your child? Do you even know how dangerous this is for me? I am the first male to have a baby, to carry a baby, Arthur I could die, but fuck all that because poor little Arthur feels ambushed!"
"That's not what I meant and you know it. Merlin this is dangerous I had Gaius talking to me like I was stupid telling me there was a high chance you could die. I thought you would have at least told me first seeing as you're putting your life at risk." Arthur replied.
"I would have told you in a few days I needed to get my head around the fact that I am actually pregnant due to my own stupidity before telling you I have only known a few hours myself, what did you expect me to do? Get told all of that by Gaius and then come straight home and tell you? I needed to think this news has really hit me I needed time. I still do."
"What's there to think about? This is your life were talking about, get rid of it before it kills you." Arthur snapped. "I... I'm sorry I didn't mean how that came out."
"Yes you did. I am not killing my baby, you obviously don't want this child. Thank you for letting me know your true feelings, me and my baby will be just fine, I will make sure I am out of this flat before I have him or her." Merlin quietly said.
"No Merlin, I don't want you to leave, this is your home. I never meant that I'm worried for you." Arthur sighed. "I need time to get used to the idea, to come to terms with the idea of you dying."
"I won't die if I do things right which I will I love this child so much already I will do whatever it takes even if it means nine months of bed rest. Take all the time you need." Merlin said as he walked past Arthur, his food left untouched. "Just stay away from me."
"At least eat something Merlin. I'll stay away you have my word. But just eat, I don't care if you take it into your room as long as you have something to eat." Arthur asked.
"I will eat later, I've lost my appetite." Merlin answered and slammed his bedroom door shut. Merlin walked over to his bed and laid down, bring his knees up to his chest and holding them there by wrapping his arms around them he started to cry. "Damn you Arthur."
Arthur growled and kicked one of the chairs at the table before sitting down and eating. "Fine Merlin, do what you like." he mumbled.
It had been three weeks since that night and that argument and Merlin could count on both hands how many words had been exchanged between him and Arthur, he knew Arthur was stubborn but so was he, even more so than Arthur had thought, there was no way he was giving in first.
Merlin knew since they had known each other they had argued and Merlin always made the first move, not this time though, he knew Arthur didn't mean it when he told him to kill the baby as he knew Arthur but it still hurt. He had seen Arthur around the flat they shared and half the time he caught him watching him Arthur had that look on his face as though to say are you ready to apologise. Whenever he had that look Merlin just gave him a dirty look and walked away only to hear Arthur swear afterwards.
He walked into Gaius' room and sat down, frowning when the old man opened his door and looked out before looking back at Merlin. "No Arthur again?"
"And there never will be Gaius not until he apologises I want nothing to do with him."
"Apologises? Merlin you didn't tell him."
"No I didn't and what did he tell me when he knew? To kill it. That hurt Gaius, more than you can imagine, why is it he always expects me to back down and apologise even when he is wrong like now, no Gaius, please just lets get on with the check up."
Gaius nodded and started to check Merlin over.
Half an hour later Gaius sat down and face Merlin with a smile on his face, "everything is fine and in order Merlin, just keep doing what you have been doing and no and I mean no. Stress at all. Are we clear?"
"Yes Gaius, see you next week and thank you." Merlin smiled and left the room.
Gaius smiled and nodded and just as Merlin left the room he picked the phone up and dialled a number waiting as it only rang twice before someone answered.
"Hello?"
Merlin walked into his mum and dad's home and saw them both sat around the island in the kitchen. "Mum, dad."
"Merlin love." Hunith said as she stood up and walked over to hug her son. "How did it go?"
"Great, Gaius is pleased with me, says I am just to keep doing what I have been."
Hunith smiled and kissed her son's cheek. "Well just be careful love I can't lose my only son."
"You won't mum, I promise, you know dad can always help with his magic I'll be fine."
Balinor smiled. "I will keep you safe my boy."
Merlin smiled and hugged his father. "Can I stay here for a bit?"
"To sleep?"
"No no, just stay here today."
"Of course you can son you don't have to ask."
"Thank you." Merlin smiled before excusing himself to go upstairs.
Just then Balinor's phone beeped with a text, opening up he saw it was from Arthur. 'Is he there?'
Balinor text back yes before placing his phone back in his pocket.
Arthur opened the door and laughed when he saw Gwaine there with some cans of beer. "Day off tomorrow, lets get pissed."
Arthur laughed and let Gwaine in, taking a can and opening it before drinking. "Lets."
After spending the day with his parents Merlin walked into the flat to hear the telly on loud and the sounds of laughter being heard over the telly, walking into the living room he saw empty beer cans lying flat on the coffee table and floor two empty pizza boxes and Arthur and Gwaine slouched back on the settee laughing at the telly. He shouted both Arthur and Gwaine and getting no answer only more laughter he stormed over to the telly and pulled the plug out. "You are both idiots!" he snapped at them both. "You are both adults and you sit around during the day getting pissed and laughing at fuck all on the telly! Gwaine get out."
"Merlin-"
"I said get out. I still haven't forgiven you for spiking my fruit punch at Gwen and Lancelot's party, if you really wanted me you should have asked, not got me more pissed. Go home."
Gwaine didn't need telling twice.
"What the fuck is wrong with you, Merlin?" Arthur asked as he stood up.
"You! You are what's wrong with me, you always tell me to stop being such a girl or a baby and to grow up and I come home to this. You are the one that needs to grow up, you can ignore it and bury your head in the sand all you like but the fact of the matter is whether you like it or not you are to be a father in eight months time, fucking grow up and start acting like one." Merlin snapped before storming into his room and slamming the door.
"Me grow up? You're the one going over the top just because you found me doing something you can no longer do which is drink." Arthur shouted after him before picking up another beer can and opening it.
Arthur groaned when he heard music blaring from Merlin's room, he walked over and banged on the door. "Don't yell at me for having the telly loud and then turn your music right up!"
Merlin wrenched his door open. "Telly was playing away to itself as you were both too pissed to even notice what was on it and it is my room, what I do in my room is my business, plus baby likes it."
"What baby? You aren't even a month gone! It is just cells nothing more."
Merlin snatched the beer can out of Arthur's hand and threw it to the floor, not caring of the beer spilling. "And stop fucking drinking I am not going to spend another night awake making sure you do not swallow your tongue or choke on your own vomit." he snapped before shutting the door in the blonds face.
"You really do that?" Arthur whispered to the door.
As the weeks went on so did Arthur and Merlin's arguments, snapping at each other, it got to the point where they actually went out and bought their own food shopping instead of going together and just paying for it together.
When Gwen and Lancelot came by to see how they were doing when Merlin was ten weeks along they were surprised to see Merlin his usual happy self, he talked to them and laughed with them and only went quiet when Arthur was there, from what Lancelot could see his friend Arthur was doing exactly the same. They were both talking and acting the same but you could feel how thick the tension in the air was when they were in same room.
Gwen also noticing this followed Merlin into the kitchen when he went to make a drink. "Merlin how can you live like this?"
"I have no choice. At the minute I can't afford someplace else. If it comes to it I will move back in with my parents again."
"Or you can stop being stubborn and talk to him."
Merlin stopped making drinks and turned to his friend. "Why am I always the one who has to make the first move? Every time even when he is at fault just like now why is it always me?"
"Because you are the sensible one."
"Nice try Gwen, but no, I am not making the first move." Merlin said before continuing to make the drinks.
"And what if he doesn't?"
"He has until I hit my twelve week mark."
"Why? What will you do if it is still like this when you are twelve weeks?"
"I will give him no choice but to make the first move." Merlin sighed.
Merlin took a deep breath as he stared at the door in front of him he had come from his twelve week scan from Gaius who told him with a beaming smile all is well and he could now start to tell those he wanted to. Smiling Merlin thanked Gaius and went to the first person he wanted to tell, someone who knew of his magic before Arthur, who took the news with a smile telling him she always knew there was something special about him.
He knocked on the door and waited. "You can do this Merlin, just tell her, she needs to know." he whispered to himself, looking up when the door opened.
"Merlin. How lovely to see you."
Merlin smiled. "Ygraine." he said. "May I come in? There is something you and Uther should know."
"Of course."
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Chapter Four up tomorrow :D
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