Dear Keefe,
For your information death and life are one in the same. Me.
So yes all the times you cursed life for all that had happened that day and wondered how bad it could possibly be if death came to claim you, (it would be bad, you do important things you'd see that if you took a step back because you sure as hell see it in everyone else,) you were cursing me and then turning around and blessing, that's a truly sad thing to see no matter which way it happens,
Yes when you looked in to her dead eyes and curse death and beg for life to come back to her it is still all me, I am still the only one, (it gets lonely here by the way, they all forget to come visit me, please don't be like the others please don't forget,)
I know you won't be able to stop missing her. I know you will never be able to move on.
I am sorry for all the nights you lie in bed and wonder how you love her, you thought it was romantic but now you're not sure. Because a lot of you loves her like a sister. All you really know is you love her. A lot.
Again on the topic of life and death being one in the same. On some of these nights you will wonder why life is so painfully complex and why death is so painfully simple (mood swings on my part mostly).
Those who hurt on this world are most certainly not in my control, what is in my control is when they join the pain and when they leave it. Those who are still needed in the suffering are left on this earth, those who aren't I whisk away. The purpose of Sophie Foster joining the pain was to destroy the Neverseen, once she completed that purpose she would have been lost.
I didn't make you love her Keefe,
No more than you did.
She would have been lost, broken. It would have been worse to see her like that then it ever was to lose her.
I didn't take you too because you still had a purpose, you needed to pick up all the pieces. That when Fitz and Linh separated that they wouldn't forget they had children, and that if they did they wouldn't get left in the dust.
You needed to make sure that Dex and Biana didn't lose each other, because I knew that just because you didn't feel like you were loved, you would everyone else to know they were.
You were left when she wasn't because you were still catastrophically important.
Because she had to tear down the world to save It, but it was your job to build it back up again.
Please,
Please,
You have to forgive me,
You have to understand.
Please,
Just remember me okay,
With love,
Life
AN: Carin: that was the most Sokeefe thing I have ever written, but at the same time not. It was more supposed to be about Keefe Loving Sophie then Keefe loving Sophie like that. You can interpret it how you wish but I personally think that it is possible for platonic love to be stronger then romantic love, it should be noted I have never felt romantic love. But I have felt platonic love. That was cheesy anywaysBye!
