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Sweety
Jane has a secret and he could not bear to hide it anymore. Will Lisbon understands why he didn't tell her before?
Chapter 2: Listen to me
Lisbon hesitated to let Jane in. She didn't know what he wanted to say. Finally she had an idea but didn't want to know more. She would suffer that was neither wanted nor needed. Seeing his face made her heart beat wildly. The sadness in the eyes which pleaded to her then she saw the worried face there was no way to refuse him.
She stepped aside then beckoned him to come forward. He complied and waited until she closed the door. She turned to him waiting. She would wait all night if she had to do it. He never knew how to broach the subject. It would not be easy that he knew that given all these years of lies. She would have a hard time forgiving him.
He did owe her that explanation and apology. Especially after everything she had done for him since the beginning of their collaboration. It's never been easy to live with him. He often caused her many problems. But he knew she had never been angry with him for very long. Oh there was always penitence. Her Catholic upbringing would surely make him pay. Jane knew full well there would be the price for her forgiveness.
However, she was like that, always giving him a second chance. He had to admit he had more second chances than anyone else on this planet.
Lisbon came to stand between him and her desk. She was still a little uncomfortable with his presence. She looked at him and wondered when he would broach the subject. She could see it written all across his face. She knew exactly what he wanted to talk about.
She saw Jane's hand go in his hair. He looked away then resolving himself to the inevitable. He sat on the couch inviting Lisbon to do so. Lisbon complied but remained a respectable distance between them.
Silence fell in the office. Lisbon wondered when he would finally start talking. She had others things to do. It was getting late and she thought only of one thing, Home. She then thought of all the things she could be doing once she gets there. There was her very comfortable couch which beckoned then she could watch a good movie with a pot of chocolate ice cream. When she was depressed the chocolate helped.
Finally after a very long time in her estimation Jane cleared his throat. He turned to face her then stared directly in Lisbon's beautiful eyes. He was too ashamed of what he was about to tell her. He lowered his eyes. He made himself more comfortable. Lisbon watched him Creully she knew he was just delaying. She wished he would just get up the nerve and say it! Unable to stand the silence anymore Lisbon put a hand on his forearm. This forced him to raise his eyes to her. Then he took a deep breath and began.
-" I lied to you." He started saying.
Lisbon looked at him a moment. Of course he lied, he always lies. What is different this time? Lisbon knew she could never tell if he was serious or not by looking at him. He was just that good. She sat there wondering what next would come out of his mouth? He looked bothered, this was disconcerting. He never looked bothered then why suddenly does it bother him? Or was he blaming himself for not telling her about his girlfriend?
-" I lied to you since the beginning of our cooperation," he continued.
-" What do you mean by that?" She asked. "What did you lie about?"
-" The murder of my family," he whispered.
She didn't know what to think. She knew the case of Charlotte and Angela Jane by heart. She didn't see how he could have lied to her about that. She turned over the sentence in her mind hoping to find an answer but nothing. It was a total blur and tiredness didn't help. She turned back to him and spoke.
-" Jane, listen, it's late and I'm tired then either you tell me what you have to say now or you can go then I can finally go home." Lisbon said tired of all his games.
She had used a tone a little rough but still blamed him for all his secrets. She especially blamed him to want to talk to her then not telling her anything. It was maddening and tortured her mind even more. She needed sleep. This last case was challenging. There was no way she would stay a minute longer in the CBI, even for Jane, especially with Jane.
He could not reply quickly, it was apparent he was carefully contemplating her words. Lisbon gave up since he had not decided. She got up, took her things then left the office. This action left the mentalist alone on the couch.
She took the elevator down to the parking lot where she got into her car. While driving toward home tears had reappeared on her cheeks. She did nothing to restrain them. Jane had the gift to make her too sensitive for her own good. It had to stop. She didn't want to become a weak woman. Tears in her eyes made her weak. She had worked too hard to become a strong, independent woman. No man will take that away from her.
Getting home she quickly got out of the car. It was as if she was almost running to the door. She locked the door. Her house stood silent. Lisbon moved to find the ice cream which she knew was in the freezer. Finding it she blew a sigh of relief. Plopping down on her very comfortable couch with it in her hands she turned on television. She was hoping to find a good dramatic movie. She just needed it.
No one was there who could see or judge her. She acted as if she had just broken up with her boyfriend. But for her it was exactly like that. She did have strong feelings for Jane. These were feelings which she never would accept or want. They were pushed way down inside herself. Now they are at the surface and she did not know what to do. They were too long buried at the bottom of herself. Now she had to accept that nothing would ever happen between them. How she could she even work with him now?
Every time she will see him she could not help but imagine him with Emma. Being in Emma's arms, kissing him, hugging against him then whispering sweet nothings in his ear. All these things she wanted to share with him.
She didn't pay any attention to the film. She was busy making her own in her head. The main actors were Jane, her and the other woman whose face was still unknown.
While she sat on her couch feeling so sorry for herself, there was a knock at the door. Wondering who it could be? She got up carefuly reaching for her service weapon. She approached the door. She opened it carefully and saw Jane.
She was too surprised to find him on her doorstep at such a late hour. Mostly she was surprised to see his eyes red with tears, his jacket opened and shirt wrinkled. He looked a mess! It was really hard to see him like that.
Lisbon wordlessly grabbed his hand then led him inside the apartment. He followed without protest. Together they went to the couch where they settled. Still no words it was just gestures but these actions did speak for themselves. Jane was not fine and Lisbon could see it.
Knowing exactly what to do, she went to the kitchen to prepare him a cup of tea. She knew he loved tea but who around the CBI didn't know that. She hoped he would really want to talk to her this time. She was confident he would but before that would happen he needed to warm up a bit. Hot tea would be the answer. When she took his hand it was cold. Jane's hands were never cold. Could he be coming down with something Lisbon thought as she prepared the tea for the two of them?
Breaking her thoughts she entered the room. She handed him the cup. He gave her a little smile as she sat down beside him. They drank in silence until finally Jane put the cup down on the table then turned to face her.
-" I really need to speak to you Lisbon. Please don't say anything until I've finished." He said.
-" I understand you want to speak to me Jane. However, tell me please don't leave me in the dark."
-" Well, I know you heard me on the phone. You can imagine that I have someone in my life ...You're right…there is another woman in my life."
It was as if that was the end of her world. Jane confirmed all her suspicions. Lisbon broken and despite herself, got up then walked away her heart was even heavier.
TBC ...
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Next chapter:
"Lisbon jumped, she didn't hear him approaching. The proximity of their two bodies made her really uncomfortable and Jane seemed to be amused. But why was he like that with her even though he had someone in his life? But feel his hot breath against her neck, the warmth of his body behind her back, the softness of his hand on her shoulder, she could not suppress a shiver of pleasure that did not go unnoticed to her colleague."
Until next time.
Have a good day,
Sweety
