Lexas point of view.

I look around the room until I notice Raven sitting in the corner. I walk towards Raven and greet her ''Hi, Raven. I came as soon as possible'' I tell her.

She nods at me before gesturing me to sit down next to her. I see the worried look on her face. I just hope that Clarkes okay.

''How is she doing?'' I ask Raven.

Raven turns around to face me. ''I don't know, they won't tell me anything because I'm not her family..'' Raven mumbles.

''Are you serious?!'' I say way to loud, with a slightly agitation. All the people in the waiting room are staring at us, but I don't care.

Raven nods ''Yea. So I had no choice but to call her mother..'' Raven says.

''But you know how she feels about..'' I was about to finish my sentence when I was interrupted by someone who was scraping their throat.

''About, Lexa?'' Abby asks me. I notice the anger in her face.

''Nothing'' I say.

''Right'' Abby scoffs before walking to the visitor reception.

I turn my attention to Raven who's still sitting next to me. ''She doesn't like me'' I admit to Raven.

''Yes you can notice that from a distance. What happened between you anyway?'' Raven asks me curiously.

''Do you really want to know?'' I ask Raven.

Raven nods ''Yes. Please do tell'' she says with a smile. I give her a hint of a smile.

''Alright'' I tell her.

Lexas point of view.

About one year ago.

I'm walking next to Clarke when I notice the big smile on her face. We are on our way to the restaurant to meet with her mother. Clarkes notices that I am nervous before I can even admit that to myself. I know Clarkes mother never like me. She thinks I turned her daughter into something that she ''wasn't''. Like I tried to change Clarke, which isn't true.

''Are you okay?'' Clarke asks me a bit worried.

I nod at Clarke ''Yes. Just nervous I guess'' I tell her.

Clarke studies my face before stopping me in my tracks. ''Hold on'' she tells me.

''What is it?'' I ask her.

Clarke chuckles ''Come on, Lexa don't play dumb with me. I always know when something's up. So spit it out.''

I roll my eyes before answering Clarke ''I'm fine.''

Clarkes chuckles even louder this time ''You really are a pain in the ass Woods'' she says teasingly.

''Alright'' I say. ''I'm just worried about what your mothers has to tell us'' I admit.

''The great Lexa Woods is afraid of my mother?'' Clarkes asks me with a grin on her face.

I nod embarrassed at Clarke ''Yes.''

''You're such a cutie'' Clarke says while winking at me. ''Don't worry about my mother okay? I know she can be a lot to handle, but we'll leave if it gets out of hand alright?'' Clarkes says to me before leaning in for a quick kiss.

I nod at her before kissing her back.

We arrive at the restaurant about 15 minutes later. Abby was already at the dinner table. Clarkes walks ahead of me and greets her mother. I wait from a distance trying to see how Abby reacts to my presence. I see her looking after she hugs Clarke so I walk towards her ''Hello'' I say.

''Lexa'' Abby says.

I don't know what to say so I don't answer her. I sit down across from Abby. Clarkes sitting next to her mother at my right.

I see the waiter passing by so I stop him in his tracks ''Hello, can you bring me a scotch need?'' I ask him with a smile.

He nods before paying her attention to Clarke and Abby ''Do you two want anything to drink?'' he asks.

''I'd like a water please'' Clarke says. ''Same for me'' Abby adds. The waiter nods before leaving us behind at the table.

''So how are things with the two of you?'' Abby asks. I'm surprised by this question because she never asked something like this before. I feel a bit uncomfortable but I manage to keep that inside.

''You tell her'' I say with a smile to Clarke.

Clarke nods ''We've been great, mother. Lexa's amazing'' Clarke says proudly.

I smile at Clarke. It's nice to hear her speak positively about our relationship.

''Good for you honey'' Abby says with a fake smile.

The time goes slow and it isn't until an hour later when Abby finally admits what she wants.

''Clarke, I want you to stop this nonsense! This isn't who you are!'' Abby says angry at her.

I look up at Abby, trying to hide my anger. I want to walk away from this. After Costia I haven't been able to deal with parents who weren't going to accept the sexuality of their own daughter. Costia had been hiding it from her parents for a long time before she finally admitted that she was gay. The same happened with Clarke. Clarke tried to hide it from Abby as long as possible.

My thoughts were interrupted by Abby who turned her full attention on me ''You're not a good match for my daughter'' Abby snaps at me.

I look up facing Abby, while my anger is rising inside of me ''Shut up. You don't know me!'' I growl at Abby before leaving her and Clarke behind in the restaurant.

I walk out of the door, never looking back. I hoped that Clarke would follow me but that isn't the case so I decide to take a cab back home. Hoping that Clarke will come as well.

''So that's what happened between Abby and me'' I tell Raven.

Raven looks surprised at me ''That's just mean. She didn't even know you. How can she even judge you?''

''I don't know. But she did. That was the last time I ever spoke to her. Clarke came home that night telling me that she couldn't deal with me and her mom fighting all the time so I decided to stay away from Abby. Until now I guess'' I tell Raven.

''I understand'' she tells me.

She is about to say something else when we get interrupted by Abby who sits down across from us.

''Hello Abby'' Raven says politely.

''Hi'' Abby says greeting Raven but totally ignoring me.

''Do you know more about Clarke?'' Raven asks Abby. Abby nods ''Yes. She's okay. You can visit her in about ten minutes'' she says with a smile.

I can't believe my eyes. She talks to Raven but keeps on ignoring me ''Uhum'' I clear my throat ''What about me?'' I ask a bit angry.

Abby stares at me ''Nothing.''

''Are you fucking kidding me?!'' I yell at her. I can't believe what she just said to me. I get up from my chair and take a few steps towards her ''You are a horrible person'' I growl out at her before leaving Abby and Raven behind ''I need some fresh air'' I tell them before leaving towards the exit.

Clarkes point of view.

I open my eyes to find myself in a room that isn't familiar to me. I take in the surroundings to try and figure out where I am. It isn't until then when I notice Raven and Abby sitting at the left of my bedside. ''Honey'' Abby says with a smile.

I don't answer my mother because she's isn't the person I was hoping for. I wanted to see Lexa but she isn't here. It somehow hurts that she didn't care enough to visit me. But I'm not going to focus on that.

''Clarke, how are you feeling?'' Raven asks softly.

I look up at Raven before giving her a smile ''I don't know'' I admit. ''Where's Lexa?'' I ask her. I hope to hear that she's around somewhere. That she just went for a walk, but deep down I knew she wasn't around.

I noticed that Raven was about to answer my question when my mother interrupted ''She didn't want to come'' my mother tells me.

I try to take in the words that my mother is saying. I laugh at them because that's not how Lexa is. ''You're kidding right?'' I ask her sarcastically.

Abby shakes her head me ''No, I'm not.''

But I notice that my mother is hiding something from me. ''Mom, tell me the truth'' I demand.

Abby sighs ''Fine. She was here earlier but we got into some argument and she left.''

I feel disappointed in my mother but I do not have the strength to argue with her. I don't answer her. Instead I just give her a small nod before turning around ''I need some sleep'' I tell Raven and my mother.

''Of course'' they tell me before leaving me behind in the room.

Lexas point of view.

Three days later.

I'm sitting on my couch when I hear my doorbell ring so I get up and make my way to the front door. I open it and to my surprise I see Clarke standing in front of me.

''Clarke? What are you doing here?'' I ask her.

Clarke doesn't answer me but takes a few steps towards me until our lips are almost touching. I feel her warm breath on my skin. ''Clarke?'' I ask again. She doesn't say a thing but instead she leans in and kisses me. I'm taken by surprise and stand frozen in my place.

Clarke notices my hesitation and she pulls away ''I'm sorry'' she blurs out. I look up to meet her bright blue eyes. I notice the tears that are forming in the corner of her eyes so I reach my hand out to her cheek and wipe them away. Clarkes eases at my touch and I notice that she lets out a deep sigh before returning her attention back to me.

''Lexa..'' she mumbles.

''Yes, Clarke?'' I ask.

''I'm not supposed to be here'' Clarke admits. I can see the guilty look in her eyes but I don't understand her completely.

''What do you mean?'' I ask her.

''It means that we can't see each other anymore'' Clarke blurs out.

I look surprised at Clarke. I didn't know how to answer this. I just look at her, trying to figure out what she means.

''Clarke, what are you saying?'' I ask her. I'm trying to reach Clarke but I notice that she is distancing herself from me.

Clarke turns around to make way out of my house. I see her reach the door before she turns around one more time ''This is goodbye. Don't contact me again'' she tells me before shutting the door behind her.

I'm so taken by surprise that I'm standing still. Trying to deal with the fact that the love of my life just walked out of the door.

Clarkes point of view.

I shut the door behind me, leaving Lexa behind. I feel horrible about what I just did but I know that it's for the best. I walk towards the car where Raven is waiting for me. She knows what I just did. I'm trying to pull myself together until I reach the car.

Raven looks at me for a second ''Are you okay?'' she asks me.

I shake my head before I break down in tears. Raven reaches out and pulls me in for a hug. I rest my head on her shoulder. The tears are flowing over my cheeks.

Raven keeps holding me until I've calmed down a bit. ''I broke her'' I admit, feeling broken about what I did.

Raven looks at me ''I know'' she says before driving away from Lexas house.

We reach my house about 15 minutes later. Raven stops the car before turning her attention back to me ''Clarke, listen. She will be heartbroken but you saved her from a lot of pain in the future. You know what the doctor told you. You did what you could for her.

''Did I though?'' I wonder to myself. But I keep that to myself because I know what the doctor told me. I only have a few months left.

Lexas point of view.

One year later.

I kneel down at the grave in front of me. Tears are forming in my eyes and I allow the pain to come to the surface. I look at the inscription carved into the headstone ''In peace, may you leave this shore. In love, may you find the next. Safe passage on your travels, until our final journey on the ground. May we meet again.''

I put the bouquet of roses in front of the headstone. I'm about to leave the grave behind when I notice someone taping on my shoulder. I turn around to face the person behind me.