Little faster update, because wanted to post this as New years present :)

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Walk to the castle was harder than I expected, but I won´t ever admit that to Charming. He is glancing me worriedly enough already. Red and dwarfs are with us. They took this re-pregnancy surprisingly well, though I can see worry and sadness in their eyes too. Others went to their own homes when we split up and even Regina decided to go to her own castle for now, but she promised to come to us as soon as she gets some information what to do with this situation.

"Hey guys look, there it is!" Charming shouts and points towards the castle.

I´m totally flabbergasted because it´s whole again and stands there in all its glory like nothing has ever happened. We start walking faster. All just wanting to get there as soon as possible. When we get to the front door we stop, not sure to go inside.

"I don´t know which I fear most, seeing it in ruins like when we were here with Emma or seeing it like nothing has ever happened?" I say partly to myself and partly to others.

"Snow, we just have to take this step and go on from there. Just take my hand and all will be all right." Red say to me and I let my best friend lead me back to our home.

When we get to the entrance hall it´s clear all is like the curse would have never happened. It´s so weird for me to see that after seeing whole castle in ruins, so I can´t stop the tears. When Charming notice that, he come to me and wrap his arms around me. "I know that this must be hard and weird for you after last time you have seen it in ruins. It´s weird for me too to be here again. I just wish so much that Emma could be here with us now and see it like it should be."

"I wish that too" I murmur to him.

"I guess you two would like some privacy to make yourself at home again. We just go and find our own old quarters." Red says.

"Thanks Red, you are right I really think we need some alone time to adjust here again. We see you all at breakfast at the latest. If that´s ok with you guys?" I say to our friends.

They all agree and leave to find their old rooms and we are left alone.

"I guess we should do the hardest thing first" I say to Charming.

"I think so too. It´s time for us to return to the place where we lost all to find out how we can go forward from there." He agrees sadly. And we head to the nursery. It really is the room we should see first, because it´s the place where we were family here for the last time.

When we get there I notice immediately that it´s just the way it was before just like anything else in castle. All is fixed again and just waiting for Emma. And that´s what finally breaks me. I collapse down against the hall wall, as much as I can with my huge belly, tears falling down my cheeks trying to breath.

"Snow what´s wrong?" Charming asked with panicked voice.

"I I I can´t go in there. It just too much. It was so much easier last time with Emma when all was in ruins. Now I just feel all losses and can almost see you on the ground lifeless and bleeding." I manage to choke out.

He kneels down and takes my hands. "Look at me."

I raise my eyes to his and see a little comfort in there behind almost as much agony as I am feeling. "I´m right here with you, I´m alive. And I´m not going anywhere." He says while brushing gently my hands.

We stay like that for a while in silence just trying to find comfort from each other's eyes. Finally I feel strong enough to speak. "I know, but we still have lost everything with Emma and this room reminds me of it all just too much."

"That´s an even bigger reason for us to face this. We do it together like we do everything." He says in soft voice. I let him took my hand, help me up and lead me to the nursery.

It´s almost comforting actually after I´m inside, because I can almost feel Emma´s presence in there and when baby kicks it makes the feeling even stronger.

I walk to the crib and take one glass unicorn in my hand just like I did in Gold´s shop in Storybrooke. "We actually talked about these with Emma just before it all went down. She said that she like the unicorns." I tell Charming with sad smile.

Charming gulps and watch me with loving sad eyes, but don´t say anything. And I understand, it´s just too painful for him too.

"We actually talked about what would have happened if neither of us weren´t forced to give up our children. Well Emma´s got that chance now and I guess we should try to be happy for her. Though we don´t know how long she will be fine with this situation going on." I state sadly rubbing my belly.

"Do you remember what we talked before curse, how future can be unexpected?" Charming asks.

I nod to that, because I will never forget any of those days waiting for the curse.

"So maybe this is destiny's way to pay us some back. Let you both have a little taste of what it could have been. At least that´s what I want to believe. For Emma´s sake and for us." He says more certain voice.

"I guess I´m ready to choose hope again." I say to him with sadly smile, remembering the last time we had similar conversation in this room.

Later we find our way to our bedroom to go to sleep. It´s also a hard place to face because last time giving birth and let Emma go in there. Charming suggest that we can take another room, but I refuse because we have to face this all sooner or later anyway.

When we´re finally curled up in each other's arms in bed, Charming murmurs to me: "I really missed this."

"What? We have been sleeping like this for a year now again." I ask in confusion.

"Being in our own bed. And feeling like I´m close to Emma too. Actually I just realized now really that you're carrying her again, being able to feel her motions too when you lie close to me." He says in soft voice.

"Always so Charming." I laugh at him and give him kiss before falling to sleep.

NEXT: Snow & Regina go to little trip to find some answers.