Sigh…Am I tat bad in writing? Nvr mind. I write for pleasure LOL. And cookies. And the heading of the chap is odd, no? The dreams tell the truth but Namine didn't hear the confessions.
Confessions of a dream.
Cold. I feel so cold.
I slowly open my eyes. Light flooded my vision. I blinked. My vision focused. I see.
Them moving beings are communicating. One is holding up a glass jar full of water. There is a tiny humanoid figure inside. Like a doll with wings. What is that? He sounds happy. Not like the woman.
She wears the same skin as them all. White billowing skin. Their feet are black and shiny. They have different heads. The woman is beside the jar man. She's sobbing. Her eyes are red. She looks unkempt. Her battle is lost. The man beside her puts his arm around her. He too has red eyes.
Why am I here?
The scene changed.
I'm in darkness. I scream and scream but nothing came out of my throat. I'm in the world of silence.
The darkness is sapping my strength. I struggled for a moment before I let go. I let the darkness consume me. I'll be nothing forever more.
He came by, the savior. He is a prick of white light in the distance that burns brighter. I see his figure. It is outlined with glowing white fire.
He floated over to me and brought me close. I can feel his solidness, his heart beat, his warmth. It's chasing away the dark. I'm grateful. I look up to see the face of my savior.
Roxas' blue dull eyes look back at mine.
BOOM! Pain slashed cruelly through the fabric of my dream and once again, I'm in the world of reality. My dreams all trickled down a drain. The pain shot up from my head through my spine and then disappears immediately. How it burned!
I open my mouth and utter a pathetic cry of pain. "Ouch."
Sitting up, I rub my head furiously to get rid of the throbbing sensation that followed. Why am I here on the floor again? I stared at my bed before the answer come to me. I fell from it.
"Namine!" The shout is as loud as the hammering on my door and I frown. Who is she to disturb my beauty sleep?
As I stride clumsily to the door, I realize that the yeller must have yelled me until I awaken. Wow, a second prediction for my early wakeup call! I thought dully as I turned the knob and readied myself to shoot my anger to whoever dared awaken me.
Xion struts in my bedroom in a flash and sits on my bed, looking down curiously at my disposition. I am at that time, still beside the door with a hand clutched on the knob. I probably looked stupid, standing like a zombie and having a furry blond squirrel sitting on my head. That is my hair.
"What is it? I hate to be woken up this early!" I grumbled as I ambled to my bed and plopped beside her with a flourish. To show that I really mean it, I groan loudly.
"Namine, it is just six in the morning!" Xion chatters on brightly. The scene beyond my window is black. Just six in the morning?
"Insert your own swear word here you!" I muttered but it is no use. I'm wide awake now.
She merely chuckled as a reply and grips hard on my arm hard suddenly.
"No, seriously, I need to ask you a favor before you go off to your parents' house." Her crystal blue eyes stared back at me pleadingly and I finally calmed down enough to listen to her properly. Maybe she's asking something important. Maybe it can save the world. Maybe…
"Can I borrow your cat for some time?"
The question stumped me. Okay, so it is not so life-threatening.
"Sycorax?" I asked stunned.
She nodded and waited for a response. I pondered.
"Well, sure. I'm not planning any major prank for the moment. But why her?" I began slowly.
Xion laughed uncomfortably. "It's an experiment of observation. Nothing major changes to the subject. Don't worry," she added hastily. "I won't make any mutations to her."
I silenced myself then nodded. Xion broke into a wide grin and retreated to the door.
"Thanks!" She said gratefully and out of nowhere, she tossed me a cookie. I lift my hand and it landed beautifully on my palm.
One…two…
"WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!" I wailed.
There is a heavy thud that echoed from the next room. Kairi's voice exclaimed in an annoyed tone and a string of vulgar words issued.
"What's the matter?!" She yelled.
"I got woken up for practically a minute problem!" I moan.
There is pause.
"Me too!" She joined me and groaned. "Stupid Namine! Now I can never go back to sleep!"
I sounded so ironic, we burst out giggling until we managed to catch the sandman. His spell immediately makes us drowsy and once again, there is stillness in Block X of the girl's hostel. The cookie lay on the small table beside me, half-eaten.
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"Namine!" My mom's voice piped up to me and it brought a smile to my lips. Her bubbly attitude infected me through the phone.
"Yea? Are we still going to the park today?" I asked wistfully. I am hoping that the stroll will not be cancelled. It is the only day I can get away from school with my parents.
It is only nine in the morning, I recalled vaguely. There is time!
"No dear. I thought Sora still needed you to show him around in case he doesn't get you yesterday." She answered sweetly. "His cousin too! I know you would like to get together with them more often."
Before I can protest and utter out my deepest hatred for the 'tolerant being', she cut us off. I am left with the beeping line to answer to. Damn Sora!
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I did that. Do stuff and once again let Kairi show the way round. It is boring and monotonous.
The only bright light is seeing Roxas again. He seems to draw me in unlike the others and I suddenly find myself thinking about him more and more. His quiet nature, distinct deep eyes and slouching body. His spiky blond hair that looks like pale yellow fire. His mouth is constantly in a straight line and expressionless. You feel happy, he looks happy. You feel sad. He too looks sorrowful. I feel bored and he looks utterly in dreamland. I sometimes wonder if he's ever in the moment, in time with the universe.
As I am scrutinizing the way he walks, Mystique and her clique pop out around the corner. I scented danger at once. It came in like a wave and I felt dizzy. It felt too strong. Staggering to the nearest pillar, I leaned heavily on one shoulder and breathe in and out heavily. What's happening to me? I never feel so strongly to danger nor reacted so hard to it.
"Help!" I cried out weakly, hoping I can hear Kairi's firm and gently voice soothing me and making me okay again. I need her now. She's the one who always help me when I'm sick. She's there when I feel emotionally drained. She's my healer.
What I do not expect is a pair of strong arms encircling me. It holds me tight and cradles me gently. There is no soothing sound but the heat radiating from the body next to mine is enough to make me calm. Warmth…How I wish I can feel secure and warm forever like this.
I tried to open my heavy eyes and see a blurry face of Roxas looking at me worriedly. That smacks me right to the present that I'm leaning, buried into Roxas' arms and enjoying it too.
"Ack!" I spluttered and pulled right out. The dizziness fades. My strength comes back. I'm healed now. Or maybe it never happens. I got so confused that I stoned.
Roxas doesn't react all insulted or embarrassed or even startled. He turns around and coolly walks pass me. I am left alone.
Alone to think. Alone to wonder. The panic I felt come back fully fledged. What happened?
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April's fool Namine's day so I'm going to let it flow eventually. Please R and R.
