Mystified

To where we might go

"Why didn't you write down all the things you guys talked about?" asked a very perturbed Bra.

I sit there with this unbelievable look on my face… How can she expect me to write it all down when I have not gotten the gist of it myself?

"Bra I'm still thinking about it, I can't let that out… It's about your brother for gods sakes"

"That has never bothered you before…" she whined.

I was certain she was going to continue to pout the entire time we are sitting trying to drink our lattes… I did not really need caffeine and an over sniveling whinny Bra…. This is when our time together gets rough... and I need spar.

"Bra, why don't we go spar or something!" I asked as kindly as I could. I really needed to figure out what was happening and she was my soul binding best friend. My best ideas and realizations always came when I could get her to spar with me…

I saw the look of anticipation in her eyes…. I questioned whether she might already have an idea of what Trunks and I talked about. However, was sure that she did not… still she was hesitating…

I squint a little trying to come to terms as to what I see flicker in her eyes. She was not going to spar with me, and I wondered why...

"I wonder why you don't seem up to a spar today. You know I think clearer when we do that, I could be convinced to tell you what happened…" I cajoled her to take me up on that prospect.

"I'm sorry Pan, I cant today." She bit her lip in hopes I did not pry as to why she could not do this.

I did not pry, I did not ask, I just took a sip of my coffee… Bra took my silence as an understanding… I would have too if things did not seem to add up. However, I had a strong urge of me not really wanting to know why. In any case, I knew that all of this was connected somehow.

It was not the first time I gave Bra an out. I considered this fair play anyhow since I did not tell her first what happened yesterday.

What happened…

"I was wondering about the other day Trunks"

"Ok what's on your mind?" He opened his face for the conversation.

"I kinda knew you cared or at least I expected it… Why why did you find the need to tell me…. I was wondering what that meant?"

I think I threw him off for a second cause he creased his brow.

"I don't understand, what you mean when you say you don't know.'

Ok the conversation began stupid. We were like moving around this huge circle of knowing and meaning and I just wanted him to say it again… I wanted to hear him tell me what I meant to him.

"Does it mean more than just a friend?"

"Panny, you are more than just a friend, I hoped you knew that."

"Ah man Trunks I don't know anything. I mean I know we are more than friends, but you touched my cheek and looked at me…. I … I just .. I thought maybe it was something else…"

"What something else could it mean? I do care. Pan what's so confusing to that?"

"Uggh, am I crazy or what? I felt like you wanted to kiss me! There I said it!"

His eyes lit up. I managed to amuse him finally. I prayed he would not laugh because I was fisting my hands to begin with. I also owed him for the front leg sweep…

'Why, why would you think that?" he asked but it was so soft I barely heard him.

My face began to have the creeping burning feeling you get when you make an ass out of yourself. I looked down not wanting to meet his piercing blue eyes.

I sensed his hand before I saw it. He cupped my face gently forcing my eyes to his. Before I could really say anything, ah he kissed me. I mean a real soft sensual kiss… His tongue caressed my lips and it was awesome!

Then it was over and he pulled me to his chest, his arms cradled my head under his chin, and he kept repeating what he said the other night… "I care, Panny. I really do care… about you."

And that was all we talked about. All that happened… well except a quick kiss bye and a see you later….

I wish I had more time with him that day…. I think, I mean I could have stayed longer. Alternatively, he could have just kept me there.

What did the kiss mean? He did not say he loved me, though that was a given, considering our lives have been so close… I love him... We are like family, best friends… Of course, I love him, just as I care, just like I like him… So ok I'm a liar… there was always this urge to really have the hots for him. But have you not seen the men in our families? Gosh, if I was not related to Goten or ewe creeps my dad or grandpa… and do not get me started on Vegeta…. They are just all great looking people…. However, Trunks… he just fits me because I was not related to him and I did not think as him as old….

He kissed me. And held me and my heart nearly busted from happiness. But what does that mean.

Good day and Goodnight

Panny Son (TVB)

"Why do you find it so necessary to sign off like you do Pan?"

Bra always was annoyed at something I do in my journal.

"I didn't know my private thoughts were open to criticism, Bra"

"And why did you booger off yesterday? Not wanting to spar? You waited for me to finally write down what happened, so you read the posting"

"I was giving you time and I didn't really want my ass kicked on yesterday."

"Hmm, your father might not approve of your slacking off Bra."

"Oh please spare me... I mean no Spar me!"

"That's so stupid"

Whatever, I needed a full out spar. It was my Trunks Fix.