Name: Biggest Regret
Disclaimer: I do not own Stargate, or anything that is involved with Stargate, except for a couple box set DVD's. This is merely for fun, and I do not get paid to write this.
A/N: If anyone has any assignment ideas that you'd like to see the character answer. Just submit them in a review : This one I do believe is short than the rest, but carries a good message if you ask me. Don't do drugs. Crack is whack.
March 25th, 2024
They just keep on coming, but I'm starting to realize that this is good for me. Even Tyler, the densest person I know, pointed out that I'm not as stressed as of late. Good for me, I suppose. But I'm not sure why this is making such a difference. Is it because I'm revealing things (we haven't even gotten juicy yet) that I'd usually never tell anyone to their face? Or maybe I'm just growing up, and realizing that I can't stay a child forever. I'll be seventeen soon, I guess growing older does change people.
Biggest Regret
Slightly vague, but I seem to be packed full of inner emotion and idea's today. This shouldn't be too hard...or this could possibly be the hardest one ever. I don't know. I've never really regretted anything. I mean I know that everyone has at least one regret, but I don't. Maybe that's because of how I was raised? My parents always told me to forget regret. It just kind of stuck with me. Like, take for example, in ninth grade I was caught kissing my best friend's boyfriend. I never once regretted my decision on the matter, and we were never friends again. But that was okay with me. I know I did something wrong, but I never apologize for something I deliberately did, it would've meant I regretted doing it, and I never did regret kissing Jeremy.
Do you understand? Let me try to explain it better. I believe when you regret things you start to second guess yourself. Maybe I don't regret my decisions because I made the choice to do it, or it's because I hate feeling insecure. But since you want my biggest regret, I'm sure I could turn something into a regret for once, just for you.
Okay I've got one. My biggest regret is when I was 15, two years ago, I went to a party I was told not to go to. I was walking up the porch steps towards the party, a girl was lying on the ground. As I stepped passed her she made the weirdest, most horrifying noise ever. It wasn't like a high pitched scream, or actual words, but a groan of pain, of suffering. As silly as it sounds it made me stop in my tracks, and visibly shiver. I turned to look back at her, and found her convulsing. I saved her life. You can ask why I find this to be my biggest regret.
Saving someone's life usually isn't someones regret. I know. But there's more to it than just that. I regret saving her life because two months after being released from the hospital she O.Ded on drugs. I saved her life, and she threw it away. It was like a slap in the face to me, and I didn't even know her! After that I asked myself why she'd do that, and that's when I realized people don't have respect for themselves. I hate regret, second guessing, self doubt, and feeling insecure. I vowed I'd never be like her. I will never be like my biggest regret.
