I am so sorry for the delay - I completely forgot about this story until I got a PM asking about it. *-*

Anywho...here's what happens next, it's short and more like a filler, but enjoy anyways. (:

Disclaimer: I don't own Vampire Academy, Richelle Mead does.


RPOV

I had been yearning to feel his soft, sensuous lips against mine again for so long, and as much as it pained me, I pulled away, breathing heavily. Dimitri rested his forehead against mine, breathing just as heavily but he seemed content.

I, on the other hand was bothered. Don't get me wrong, I was overjoyed by his admission, but I was confused and needed answers; naturally, being me, I had to ruin the moment.

"Why?"

I felt him pull back and look at me with a frown on his face,

"Why what, Roza?"

My heart fluttered as he called me that, it was a sure sign that he was feeling rather affectionate, but I ignored the feeling and looked at the carpeted floor of my dorm room,

"Why would you say no to her?"

It hurt me to ask him, but I needed to know. All this time he had been adamant about keeping his personal affairs from me, so then why had he turned down the opportunity of a life time? I know he said it was because he was in love with me, but how could he be? I –

My internal monologue was disrupted as I took in Dimitri's pained expression,

"Because I love you, Roza. I love you."

He sounded desperate, almost pleading as he said that, like he wanted – no, needed – me to believe it.

I frowned, "But -"

I never got to finish as Dimitri's expression contorted further; he reached for my hands, clutching on them for dear life,

"You have to believe me, Roza. You have to believe me when I say I love you. I know I've hurt you a lot in the past, but you have to know that I would never -"

Pulling my hand from one of his, I caressed his lightly stubble-d cheek and cut him off as his eyes squeezed shut.

"Comrade," I breathed, wanting to reassure him, "I believe you, but how…how could you love, well…me?"

His eyes snapped opened as he looked at me, apparently startled by my question.

"W-what do you mean?" He asked, dumbfounded.

Drawing in a deep breath, I bared my heart to him,

"How can you love me, Dimitri? I mean, I'm just a rebellious novice who's probably going to get you fired. And, I'm so much younger than you – you've made that much clear – and Tasha…she's beautiful and she may be older but she's closer to your age and she can give you all that I can't –"

My words caught on a sob as I voiced all my insecurities. How could he ever love me? I couldn't even give him what he desired most, I couldn't give him happiness.

I felt soft, callused hands cupping my cheeks as his thumbs swept away a few traitorous tears,

"Rose. Roza, I love you because you are all those things and more, they're what define you and those endearing traits are what made me fall in love with you. I often forget how young you really are, but you, Milaya, understand things better than those elder to you. You understand me. I don't care that we can't have any kids. You're all I want – all I need to be happy, Roza. I love you."

With that, he kissed me again, pouring all his pain, longing and love into it; with that kiss, Dimitri proved how much he loved me and even though there was still a shadow of doubt within me, I felt the insecurities slide.


I know this might be a little OOC, but I kind of wanted to a more insecure side to both of them. Tell what you guys think.

The more reviews I get, the faster I update. ;)