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Joey's worried.

There's something up with Monica, he can tell. He may not be book smart but he can read people fairly well and he knows when something's up. Especially when it comes to food.

He thinks about it all the way to his audition instead of going over lines in his head. That's unimportant right now. There will be other plays.

Even so, he gets a call back.

He'll talk to Chandler. He'll know what to do, he always does.

Monica stays in all morning. She really should go and do laundry but she's too tired. She does manage to clean the bathroom and do the washing up.

She doesn't have to be in work for another 2 hours so she watches TV for a bit, trying to focus on what's happening rather than the thoughts in her head.

It's been happening a lot recently and she just can't concentrate. It's always about food. Has she eaten too much? When should she eat next? Should she throw it up? It's a constant monologue in her head going round and round and driving her crazy.

She can't even enjoy work anymore. Strangely enough it's not the food that bothers her, it's the exhaustion and the constant planning of what she's going to eat and if anyone will be in.

She almost passes out twice.

Chandler can't get home soon enough.

The day drags on and on, the list of tasks he has to do seems to last forever. He finishes just after 5, fingers aching, head spinning.

He can't wait to see Monica later.

He gets home to find Joey sitting in his chair, flicking through the latest issue of Playboy.

"Hey, how was the audition? The Crucible wasn't it?"

Joey jumps "Yeah! It was good, I got a call back"

"That's brilliant! I'll read lines with you sometime"

"Thanks man"

Chandler puts his briefcase down and pours himself some orange juice.

"Is Monica ok at the moment?"

Chandler freezes. Does Joey know about them? "W…what do you mean? I think so I don't see her that much"

"She hasn't been eating much lately and I thought I heard her…throwing up"

"Oh" Now that he thinks about it, he can't remember the last time he's seen Monica eating a proper meal "Maybe, I'll have to watch next time we all eat together" He's worried now. How hasn't he noticed something?

"Thanks. I'm worried"

"No problem. Now let me look at this script"

Monica gets home just after 11pm.

She doesn't know what time to go round to Chandler's apartment. She decides to get changed into her pyjamas and then head over. She's exhausted but she promised Chandler she'll go over. She hates this, she can't start pushing everyone away again.

She knocks on the door to apartment 19, just in case Ross and Joey are around. Chandler opens it and pulls her inside

"Quickly!" They run into Chandler's room

"Sorry" Chandler says laughing "Ross is in the bathroom"

He pulls Monica closer and kisses her gently. "I missed you today"

"I missed you too" Monica says "How was your day?"

"Long. Boring. Same as ever. How was yours?"

"Tiring" Monica yawns. At least she can use work as an excuse as to why she's so tired.

"At least we're both off tomorrow. I was thinking, how about I take you out to that new Italian place?"

"Oh" She's panicking now "Yes that would be nice" It'll be ok. She'll think of something.

"Good, we haven't been out just the two of us for a while"

"No, it'll be nice."

"So…you wanna?" Chandler smiles

"I'm kind of tired. Sorry" She feels bad, really she does but she's just too exhausted.

"It's ok you don't have to be sorry. I'm tired too. Oh have you eaten?"

"Yeah I had something after work"

"Well if you're sure"

They settles down together in bed. Monica can't stop overthinking everything. What will she do tomorrow? Are they going to be found out? Should they just tell everyone about their relationship? That would be less stressful for her anyway…

Eventually she drifts off into an uneasy sleep.

Flashback

She's trying to stop. Really, she is.

It's hard though. She's being doing it for too long for it to be easy.

Her parent haven't mentioned anything to her. She's wearing baggy clothes and avoids them as much as possible.

Ross phones her once a week, it's easier to lie over the phone though. She is trying, she is.

She keeps scratching her arm, it keeps her focused. It's never deep, it's not a big deal.

She eats in school again, not much but it's something and her grades are going back up so her parents get off her back.

She gains 2 pounds in a week.

She panics and slips up. She doesn't care, she shouldn't be putting on any weight. She throws up her lunch the next day at school and passes out.

The nurse makes her eat some toast and lets her rest for a little while. Monica convinces her not to tell her parents, she just felt a bit dizzy it's warm out.

She'll be fine.