Whisper Regret
Author's Notes: Sorry about how long this took... I've just been suffering from a combonation of writer's block and lack of motiviation to do anything. Gomen, gomen.
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Chapter 3 - Sunset Spot
Rosary was seriously regreting her decision to not have brought her witches along, had they been there they could've grabbed Yggdra before she fled. Hell, if Yggdra's maidens were there they could've stopped her too!
But no use dwelling on the past... Can't change what's already happened.
She at least wish she brought her broom. Now the witch wasn't in bad physical shape, but she certainly wasn't used to having to run when she could just fly around on her broom. On the other hand, Yggdra had fought on foot for the entire Yggdra War wielding the Gran Centurio; there was no denying the younger girl had considerable more stamina then the older. Which hit Rosary in the face like a cold blast of ice when she had to stop to catch her breath, with a groan she mentally swore.
"Huff, huff... Dammit I... ha, ha... Lost sight of her... Where could she... ha, ha... Be...?"
The scion of White Rose wasn't very familiar with the Black Rose territory, she knew enough to get around but now she had to think of any likely places someone would take shelter in. The witch frowned as she scanned the immediate area, she knew the general direction Yggdra had taken so...
"... Could it be...?", the scion frowned as she thought, "It seems the most likely... But, damn... Never thought I'd be having to go back there..."
The sun was beginning to set as the young blonde Queen of Fantasia took a seat underneath the shade of a rather large and impressive tree. The tree seemed normal enough but... It just somehow seemed different from all the other ones scattered about the plains, she wasn't sure but she figured it was considerably bigger then the others around. The spot Yggdra had fled to seemed normal enough, it was a nice cliff that gave an excellent view of the sun setting as it dipped below the Lennesy Mountains.
"Rosary is going to be so mad at me..." muttered the blonde to herself
"Damn right I'm going to be. You should get such a spanking for running off on me like that."
"R-Rosary...!" gasped the Queen nearly jumping up, if not for the fact Rosary's hands were resting on her shoulders' holding her down, the blonde weakly looked up to see the witch grinning at her
"Seems I was right. Now come on, be a good girl and behave. Don't run off on me like that again, alright? You nearly gave me a heart attack... and at my young age!", the scion let out an annoyed sigh, "You must've taken ten years off my life.", the witch was trying to sound serious but Yggdra could obviously tell the older girl was toying with her especially by the tone of her voice, "If I get some grey hairs from you from this I'm going to just cry myself into a little hole..."
"I-I'm s-sorry... It's just I..."
"So, are you ready to talk about it now? You know I'll listen to you." inquired the witch taking a seat by Yggdra
"... Yeah. You'll be the only one I've ever told..."
Yggdra folded her hands in her lap as she rested her head against the bark of the tree. Rosary sat next to her, her pale red eyes full of curiousity as her full attention was focused on her young friend. The blonde was silent for quite a while, carefully rehersing her little 'speech' in her head until she took a deep breath.
"Well, it's not like I've been like this for a long time... After the war ended, I was my normal self, I guess I was just too busy having to plan what to do now that the war was over I guess. But as I got more freetime, I suppose what I had really done during that entire war began to really sink it. You know I'm not a soldier, I just was well... Desperate. A guess it was easy to fight a war when you're a small rebel army fighting against a larger, oppressive empire right?
I still felt bad whenever I had to kill anyone but... Well, Milanor and Durant did most of the fighting, I pitched in from time to time but really, I was still very scared of taking another human life. But as the battles grew larger and I got so much closer to my goal I just... Put that aside, I decided I had to do this, Durant and Milanor just couldn't fight this entire thing for me; they were risking their lives, all those soldiers risked their lives for me. I wanted to help, even if just a little so I put aside the fact I was killing human beings who had their own lives, they were just fighting for their own families...
It became easier then, killing people that is. I guess it wasn't until Kylier's words at Ishnad and the militia uprising until I realized now what was going on. Before we were fighting to take back our own land, but now we were invaders; I had suddenly become Bronquia. I was invading people's homes and they wanted to protect their loved ones... It was so hard to kill those people, at least with the soldiers they knew their duty was to fight and give their lives, but these people were just everyday commoners, they barely knew how to fight yet... They fought to the bitter end, even if they didn't stand a chance.
But I was still able to bury it deep down inside me, I couldn't falter so late on, everyone was doing everything for me; I couldn't break down then and there, I had to be strong and guard my heart from the horrible pain I was inflicting on so many people. So I guess, once the war was over and I finally had free time, I suddenly was overcome with horrible feelings of guilt and despair. I couldn't believe what I had done, I haven't had a full night's sleep in weeks I've been using some make-up to try and cover it up, and I guess it's been working since no one seemed to notice any change at all.
It wasn't until last night that I even tried to...", the Queen faltered here as she swallowed a lump in her throat, "I tried to... kill myself... I just wanted the feelings to go away, I didn't want to feel so guilty and depressed anymore, I just thought maybe if I died... All those people I killed would be at peace, that they could finally stop tormenting my sleep...", Yggdra chuckled weakly, "I'm such a weak little girl... I can't do anything on my own... I'm such a coward..."
"Yggdra... You're not weak..."
"Yes I am! I just wanted to take the easy way out!"
"You're not weak! There aren't many girls your age who could've done what you did, you inspired so many people to lie down their lives for your cause, they believed in you so strongly they were willing to die to see you smile. I know I did, even if I didn't owe you my life for what you did at Verline, I would've fought just to see you smile..."
"Rosary..." squeaked Yggdra her eyes beginning to water
"Not many people could've done the other things you did either. You prevented Brongaa from being revived, had he been revived by Gulcasa well... We'd all be dead right now wouldn't we?", Rosary chuckled, "And if Nessiah had started Ragnarok, it'd be safe to assume we'd all also be dead. And look, you gave up the Gran Centurio, you abandoned the weapon that gave you comfort and strength, not only that you even turned away from the phrase that had been the very foundation of Fantasia.", the scion paused a moment for effect as she spoke the phrase Nessiah had told the royal family generations ago, "'Justice lies with the Holy Sword'. You told me before, you used that very phrase to justify what had been done. You believed that the Holy Sword could only be used to slay the 'unjust', even when you had to kill the militia you still believed that."
"I was so weak... I relied on that for everything didn't I...?"
"It doesn't matter. You were able to give it up. There aren't many people who could've done that, giving up the Gran Centurio to you would've been like me giving up all the magic I have, and forever giving up the ability to even use magic ever again. I couldn't have done it, I'm much to reliant on magic now. But you can, I don't care what anyone else thinks. Too me, you're the strongest person in the entire land, no one else is stronger then you Yggdra."
"Rosary...", the blonde girl wiped at her eyes as the tears were welling up, "Thank you... So very much... I..."
"Come on now, don't cry.", the scion leaned over and wiped a stray tear that had rolled down Yggdra's cheek, "Look. The sun's setting, why don't we watch?"
"O-ok Rosary..."
Rosary couldn't have been any happier right now. She had prevented her friend from killing herself, plus she was so very close to her... Yggdra was laying down on the grass, her head resting on Rosary's lap as the two friends gazed at the setting sun. Anywhere the sun would look so beautiful setting, as it slowly dipped below the mountaintops, but right now the scion of White Rose couldn't believe the sun could be anymore beautiful setting.
"Rosary... How did you know I'd be here...?"
"Huh? Oh. Lucky guess really. You see... This place, I used to come here a lot with Roswell when we were children. Our relationship was well, a lot better back then, we'd watch the sunset here after we'd play. This place holds a lot of old memories for me, I just assumed you'd be drawn here.", the witch shrugged, "It's not magical, but I guess that tree here really draws people to it. I've found so many travelers resting beneath it's branches."
"Is it ok for me to be here...?" asked Yggdra
"Why wouldn't it be ok for you to be here?"
"Well... You know I did - "
"Just because you killed Roswell? Don't even think about it. I'm sure if he was alive, he'd have no problems with you being here. Don't ever dwell on the past like that, you can't live in the present if you're always living in the past."
"But... This place was special to him and you..."
"So? It can be special to me and you now too. I'd like that a lot, I need more cheerful memories of our friendship.", the honey brown-haired girl smiled, "The highlights of our friendship aren't normal at all. I'm sure most people didn't meet their friends during a life and death situation!"
"Hahaha... Yes, that's true. But it certainly made our friendship strong didn't it?"
"Of course! I would've never changed anything about how we met, I'm glad I met you Yggdra."
"I'm glad too Rosary."
The sun was beginning to dip out of sight, as the night's stars began to poke their heads out. Rosary felt the younger girl's body begin to relax a bit more, she wondered if Yggdra was thinking or beginning to fall asleep. Either way, she wouldn't care, having the blonde so close to her was just a dream come true. Before long, it was confirmed Yggdra had fallen asleep when she heard gentle yet steady breathing. Smiling to herself the witch looked down at the sleeping angel in her lap.
"Yggdra... You're my little angel... I wish I had just a little bit of your strength, if I did maybe I could tell you this without you being asleep...", the witch gently stroked Yggdra's hair, "I like you Yggdra. Not just friend like but... I really like you...", the scion sighed as she ran a hand through her own hair, "Who am I kidding? I don't just like you, I love you. But I guess it's for the best if you don't know... I couldn't even imagine how - "
"I love you too." muttered the Queen as her eye's fluttered open and she turned to look at Rosary with a smile
Fin
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Closing Notes: Whoot! Done! Now I need to get a new fic going... I might re-write parts of this if you think some parts need brushing up on ;o
Remember! If you have a request, that doesn't conflict with my Yggdra x Rosary, feel free to ask me! Via e-mail or whatever. p
