I own nothing! Song is Numb by Linkin Park

Kendall, Logan, Carlos, Katie and Mrs. Knight were not found in the apartment as I entered after my morning run. Strange it' almost seven and no one is home. Maybe they went out for breakfast or something. I hop into the hot,steaming shower, by the kitchen, to cool down after the run. I change quickly into black sweats and my favorite black tank my eyes shift to a note hanging on the fridge.

James,

I took everyone for early morning breakfast. We should be back by eight.

- Mrs. K

I smile softly I don't really like going out for breakfast that much. I already ate before my run anyways. I sit by the small piano upstairs by my bedroom lazily beginning pressing on keys.

Running my fingers along the black and white keys of my piano in my home. Trying to come up with a new song. It's been four months since I've written something I'm getting concerned. " Come on James think of something to write," I say out loud to myself. Ideas fly around my mind one sticks out, high school life from hell. Perfect. I hate school so fucking much. I'm considered a loner since I only hang out with Kendall, Logan and Carlos. I'm sorry that everyone is so fake, bitchy and ignorant. People have such high expectations of you it drives me crazy and I don't want to someone that I'm not.

I begin to scribble down lyrics and play chords fitting it into the song. As I finish writing I begin to play the song entirely with sining included.

I begin to play the song I wrote back when I was fifteen and singing along.

I'm tired of being what you want me to be

Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface

I don't know what you're expecting of me

Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes

I've become so numb I can't feel you there

Become so tired so much more aware

I'm becoming this all I want to do

Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me?

Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control

Cause everything that you thought I would be

Has fallen apart right in front of you

(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

Every step that I take is another mistake to you

(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

And every second I waste is more than I can take

And I know I may end up failing too

But I know you were just like me

With someone disappointed in you

I've become so numb I can't feel you there

I'm tired of being what you want me to be

I've become so numb I can't feel you there

I'm tired of being what you want me to be

That was the last time I've written a song was two years ago. Ideas are in my head but I can't find the write words to put them in a song. I don't like the feeling I loved writing songs. I've written about nine starting when I was twelve up to fifteen but I scrapped about three of them. Sadly I haven't found the courage to show Gustavo or anyone else. I only showed Kendall a few of my songs he's say they're great but I'm still nervous.

Please review they mean a lot to me! :)

I actually cried one time while I listened to the song Numb. It's been my favorite song since I was about eleven.