-Edward-

When her screaming stopped, I stopped breathing. Not one breath since my Bella stopped moving, speaking, since her heart stopped beating. Her beautiful, rosy skin covered in her tempting blood. Her chocolate hair soaked red. She look a terrible mess and it was all my fault.

"Is she going to be okay" I ask through a broken voice.

"She will not be human" Carlisle assured me, closing my bedroom door behind him. "It was too late and there was far too much venom." He paused looking into my eyes. "You're very strong, I'm proud of you for stopping when you did. Edward, anymore of her blood would have killed her" I knew he meant for that to me feel better, but it didn't. I almost felt worse knowing I almost killed my very reason of existence.

I sulked back to the den off our showy kitchen. I sat on an old worn salmon color chair that Carlisle favored. Esme always tried to convince him to let her toss the piece of junk, but it was our oldest piece of furniture that held sentimental value to old Carlisle. I stayed there for hours. Head in my hands, completely consciences that I was mopping. The house was full of thoughts of Bella that held me in my mournful state. Emmet was mocking me in his head, telling me 'I told you so, I told you so' over and over again. I knew better, I should have never have let things happen as they did. I hadn't hunted in over a week, I was alone with her, she was smelling particularly sweet and her blood gathering under my lips just sent me over the edge. How ashamed I was. I was sure I had control over myself.

"Hey Edward" Alice stood, carefully a the door way, leaning comfortably on the frame. I glanced at her then back to my feet. "Bella's all.. Uh.. Cleaned up now if you want to come see her"

"No thank you" I muttered.

"Carlisle loaded her up with morphine, she's not feeling a thing now"

"Now" I snorted.

"Look Edward" She took a step into the room, I glared at her, forcing her to freeze where she was. "I know you're feeling terrible about this, but moping around isn't helping anything. Bella will understand. She understood the risk of begin with. Don't punish yourself Edward, you'll make it worse for her."

"Go sit with her for a little" I asked, completely ignoring her. "Tell her I love her" She turned from me with a frown and trudged off to my room.

It had only been a few hours when Alice's mind was ringing with happiness. Bella couldn't be up already? It was far too early, or had I really injected her with THAT much venom? And then, through Alice's mind I saw cheerful, bright and dazzling Bella. A smile spreading across her pale face as Alice admired her beauty and peculiar actions. I fidgeted anxiously in my chair, wanting to see her but having no idea what to say to her. A simple apology wouldn't do. How would I make something like killing her, up to Bella? I couldn't stop beating myself up about it. Mulling over my thoughts, dreading the conversation of apology I would be obligated to have with her.

"Edward" I gentle voice called out to me. "Dear, She's awake and well."

"Thank you Esme" I nodded in acknowledgment.

"Will you se her?"

"No thank you Esme" I shook my head then let them fall back into my hands.

"She's asking for you" She whispered. "Out of any of us, I'm sure she wanted you there when she woke up" With that she turned away. Great, now I felt bad about feeling so bad that I couldn't see her. Did this get any easier? I spent the rest of the day in the den, trying hard to follow Alice's thoughts, sometimes I'd pick up crude thoughts from Emmet and often I'd hear Jasper going on about Bella's happiness and peculiar behavior for a new born. As night fell, things got very quite and I was begin to find comfort, finally started to relax my mind.

"Edward" A beautiful voice rang from the doorway. "Edward if you don't want to talk then you don't have to--"

"Bella" Alice called after her. I kept my head buried in my hands. "Bella, we should just leave Edward alone." Alice Grabbed at Bella's arm, trying to pull her away.

"It's fine Alice" I started to pick up my head, not ready to look at Bella. "Please leave us, close the door." Alice nodded at me and flashed me an 'I'm proud of you' smile. Bella Froze at the door way, looking afraid. I waved her over to sit on the couch across from me. After the door shut we sat in silence. I still hadn't decided what to say. She was white as sheet of paper and shivering, gently but still enough for me to feel. Bella kept her eyes adverted from me gaze, but still lock on my form.

"You are… afraid" I began. " Of me?"

"No" She cried sincerely, shaking her head violently. "I'm just…" She paused, struggling with her words just as much as I was. "I'm afraid that you don't love me anymore" I froze. Out of everything that had happened in the past day. After the way I had treated her, first killing her, then ignoring her, all she wanted was my love, more love. I stood up, staring down at my Bella who looked back at me with twinkling eyes. I inched over to sit next to her on the couch and wrapped my arms tightly around her shoulders. She forced herself into my embrace. Her soft, sweet hair brushed against my face. Her tiny pale hands wrapped around my neck. Her cold shivering body pressed hard against my chest. I ran my fingers curiously through her hair, bushing by her cheeks then wandering down her back. Her hands wrapped securely around my neck, grabbing tuffs of hair, holding me tightly to her. She had always been unbearably beautiful, but her new form just made her temptingly breath taking.

"Of course I love you" I choked out, squeezing her just a little more tightly to me, she squeezed harder, it almost hurt, but I could sense her restraint. She pulled her self away from me, hands still secure around my neck and searched carefully, wondrously into my eyes.

Her eye glowed, a beautiful golden color that had never been there before. I stared at her curiously, debating at first if this was really my Bella in my arms. I curved the side on my lip up to flash her a reassuring smile. Relief spread across her face as she lunged forward, crushing her soft pink lips to my own. I nervously settled into her embrace. I took a few minuets for me to realize the scent of her blood no longer held any appeal for me. I felt relief, to be able to finally hold, kiss and touch my Bella without the thought of draining her ever crossing my mind. My hands reached up to grab her face pushing her even harder to me. Our lips parted and moved in unison. My hands slid down her face, absorbing the coolness her cheeks released, caressing her jaw line then fell to her neck. Bella flinched as my hand ran across her the side of her throat. I felt the sensitive inflated pink spot that throbbed on her skin. We both withdrew in shock, pain evident in Bella's eyes, fear surging through my gaze. Curiously, I brushed her hair back behind her neck exposing my teeth marks buried deep into her skin.

"Carlisle said it will scar" She chirped trying to calm me with a smile.

"I'm just…" I looked at the mark with disgust. "So sorry Bella"

"Don't be" She whispered bring her hand up to brush my cheeks with the back of her hand.