Passions of my Heart
by Yukitsu
Disclaimers: YYH isn't mine. Obviously. They belong to their rightful owners.
Thanks to my dear bestfriend, Tomo-chan. Ayuro-chan, Arigato!
And to my soul sis, Ayori-neesan. Hi sis!
*text* - thoughts
_text_ - emphasis
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Chapter 3
Heaviness... the feeling that takes hold of a person between sleep and full wakefulness. So heavy in fact, that Jin could barely lift his eyelids open. Jin wanted so badly to go back to sleep that his body was craving so badly. But that damn light on his eyes were pulling him to the opposite direction.
"Argghhhh!!!" Jin roared in frustration, violently sitting up in bed.
"Stupid sun!!!!!" he stood up and stalked to the window, looking around for something to cover the curtainless thing.
"Stupid Hotel!!! Stupid tournament!!!" he stomped off to Touya's bed and, without another thought, pulled the bloody covers to hang up the window.
Wait... bloody?
"Touya!" Then, memories of what happened flooded Jin's brain.
He turned quickly around and found Touya curled up comfortably in his bed.
Which Jin found entirely strange.
Touya was usually a very, _very_ light sleeper. And it worried him that she was still asleep, even through all the racket he just did.
He looked closely for signs of breathing and was relieved to find a normal one. Just then, Touya opened her ice blue eyes.
"Jin?" she croaked out hoarsely. Looking around blankly.
"Hmm?" Jin answered, half expecting her to beat him up for what he did just a few hours ago. He took advantage of her even though she was injured. *Some trustworthy fool you are.*
"What time is it?"
Completely surprised at the nonchalant question, it took sometime for him to get his bearings. "Uhhh... late afternoon. Why?"
"Why is it so dark?" she asked in puzzlement. She winced as Jin abruptly yanked the sheets off the window.
"That's why" he shrugged then seeing her pained expression, he apologized. "Gomen."
"Daijobu... " Touya mumbled. She yawned. She wanted to go back to sleep so badly that she forgot about whatever happened. What happened...
She gasped and abruptly sat up.
And almost fainted with the sudden pain.
"Touya!" Jin exclaimed as he moved quickly to catch her falling frame.
Touya moaned. Her brain was being drowned in pain.
"Oooooooohhhhh.... Sorry Jin." she mumbled.
"Shhhh.... It's okey.... Relax.... You're safe now..." Jin whispered to her.
"Hmm...... K....." she paused "Jin?" she continued raggedly. She had to apologize. Now
"Hmm?"
"About... about last night.... ummm... I.... I'm sorry..."
"Sorry? About what?" Jin asked, confused.
"Well... about, you know, what happened..."
"You regret it?" Jin asked, hurt evident in his voice.
"Yes! I mean no! B-but, aren't you angry at me?"
"Why?" a confused Jin asked
"Aren't you? Well, I mean... I dragged you into something you didn't want to be into... and... and... I didn't do anything to stop you from making that mistake that you'd regret.... And... and... I don't... deserve you at all...." she stammered in a rush.
"Didn't want to be into? Mistake? Regret? You don't deserve me? What the bloody _hell_ are you talking about?!" he yelled at her as he put her down the bed.
"You know what I mean." Touya said.
"No. I don't. Explain." Jin said tartly, abruptly sitting down on the bed again.
"I mean... don't you find me weird? Revolting? Disgusting? I mean... especially now that you know that I'm a woman?" He should after all.
"No. Not at all. In fact, I've come to respect you even more."
"What?" *He does?*
"You are one of the bravest, strongest and admirable women that I know. To tell you the truth, I've even come to be proud of being your friend."
"Honto ka?" Touya asked, hope flickering her heart. Friend... Gamma was her only friend. He knew the truth... But he died in the hands of Kurama.
"Ah. Honto. And what about this not deserving me stuff?" *Oops..*
"Umm... Na-nandemonai.... I was just babbling" Touya stammered.
Jin raised an eyebrow. "Uh - huh... yeah right.
"Honto ni!" Touya insisted
Jin shook his head and shrugged "If you say so..."
Touya nodded vehemently. She inwardly sighed in relief. She really didn't want to explain her feelings for him. Not when she herself didn't understand it either. Did she _love_ him?
"Now it's my turn" Jin muttered
"Your turn for what?" Touya raised a thin eyebrow
Jin took a deep breath "Touya, I am so sorry for doing that to you."
"What?" Touya asked, confusion and hurt plain in her voice. Now its her turn to be confused.
"I mean... I promised myself not to hurt you. And I told you that I won't do ANYTHING to you. And I even asked you to TRUST me. And then, I took advantage of you.... I'm sorry..."
"But I did that willingly. I WANTED that too. There's nothing to be sorry about." Touya uttered softly.
"Are you sure?" Jin asked uncertainely.
"Hai." *I'll never be angry with you. I love you... I think....*
"Well, let's go have something to eat. I'm famished" Jin suggested cheerfully, happily relieved if a bit uncertain.
"Hai." Touya replied, making a mental sigh of relief.
"Ai no baka" Jin muttered. Touya didn't hear him.
Tsuzuku...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
WHOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! I can't believe it!!!!! I managed another chapter!!!! HAHAHAHAH ::jumps in ecstasy:: HAHAHAHA!!!
Forgive me ::calms down and wipes the tears from her eyes:: I'm a bit overly happy. Sorry though... it's kinda sappy. I REALLY SUCK at writing mushy and romantic and sappy scenes. It IS pretty short ne? Actually, I suck at writing, period! heheheh... ummmmm..... some comments? please? onegai?
Glossary
Gomen - sorry
Daijobu - it's alright/ are you alright
Onegai - please
Ai - love
Baka - idiot/ fool
Honto - Really/ It's true
Tsuzuku - To be continued
June 3, 2002
Disclaimers: YYH isn't mine. Obviously. They belong to their rightful owners.
Thanks to my dear bestfriend, Tomo-chan. Ayuro-chan, Arigato!
And to my soul sis, Ayori-neesan. Hi sis!
*text* - thoughts
_text_ - emphasis
~~~~~
Chapter 3
Heaviness... the feeling that takes hold of a person between sleep and full wakefulness. So heavy in fact, that Jin could barely lift his eyelids open. Jin wanted so badly to go back to sleep that his body was craving so badly. But that damn light on his eyes were pulling him to the opposite direction.
"Argghhhh!!!" Jin roared in frustration, violently sitting up in bed.
"Stupid sun!!!!!" he stood up and stalked to the window, looking around for something to cover the curtainless thing.
"Stupid Hotel!!! Stupid tournament!!!" he stomped off to Touya's bed and, without another thought, pulled the bloody covers to hang up the window.
Wait... bloody?
"Touya!" Then, memories of what happened flooded Jin's brain.
He turned quickly around and found Touya curled up comfortably in his bed.
Which Jin found entirely strange.
Touya was usually a very, _very_ light sleeper. And it worried him that she was still asleep, even through all the racket he just did.
He looked closely for signs of breathing and was relieved to find a normal one. Just then, Touya opened her ice blue eyes.
"Jin?" she croaked out hoarsely. Looking around blankly.
"Hmm?" Jin answered, half expecting her to beat him up for what he did just a few hours ago. He took advantage of her even though she was injured. *Some trustworthy fool you are.*
"What time is it?"
Completely surprised at the nonchalant question, it took sometime for him to get his bearings. "Uhhh... late afternoon. Why?"
"Why is it so dark?" she asked in puzzlement. She winced as Jin abruptly yanked the sheets off the window.
"That's why" he shrugged then seeing her pained expression, he apologized. "Gomen."
"Daijobu... " Touya mumbled. She yawned. She wanted to go back to sleep so badly that she forgot about whatever happened. What happened...
She gasped and abruptly sat up.
And almost fainted with the sudden pain.
"Touya!" Jin exclaimed as he moved quickly to catch her falling frame.
Touya moaned. Her brain was being drowned in pain.
"Oooooooohhhhh.... Sorry Jin." she mumbled.
"Shhhh.... It's okey.... Relax.... You're safe now..." Jin whispered to her.
"Hmm...... K....." she paused "Jin?" she continued raggedly. She had to apologize. Now
"Hmm?"
"About... about last night.... ummm... I.... I'm sorry..."
"Sorry? About what?" Jin asked, confused.
"Well... about, you know, what happened..."
"You regret it?" Jin asked, hurt evident in his voice.
"Yes! I mean no! B-but, aren't you angry at me?"
"Why?" a confused Jin asked
"Aren't you? Well, I mean... I dragged you into something you didn't want to be into... and... and... I didn't do anything to stop you from making that mistake that you'd regret.... And... and... I don't... deserve you at all...." she stammered in a rush.
"Didn't want to be into? Mistake? Regret? You don't deserve me? What the bloody _hell_ are you talking about?!" he yelled at her as he put her down the bed.
"You know what I mean." Touya said.
"No. I don't. Explain." Jin said tartly, abruptly sitting down on the bed again.
"I mean... don't you find me weird? Revolting? Disgusting? I mean... especially now that you know that I'm a woman?" He should after all.
"No. Not at all. In fact, I've come to respect you even more."
"What?" *He does?*
"You are one of the bravest, strongest and admirable women that I know. To tell you the truth, I've even come to be proud of being your friend."
"Honto ka?" Touya asked, hope flickering her heart. Friend... Gamma was her only friend. He knew the truth... But he died in the hands of Kurama.
"Ah. Honto. And what about this not deserving me stuff?" *Oops..*
"Umm... Na-nandemonai.... I was just babbling" Touya stammered.
Jin raised an eyebrow. "Uh - huh... yeah right.
"Honto ni!" Touya insisted
Jin shook his head and shrugged "If you say so..."
Touya nodded vehemently. She inwardly sighed in relief. She really didn't want to explain her feelings for him. Not when she herself didn't understand it either. Did she _love_ him?
"Now it's my turn" Jin muttered
"Your turn for what?" Touya raised a thin eyebrow
Jin took a deep breath "Touya, I am so sorry for doing that to you."
"What?" Touya asked, confusion and hurt plain in her voice. Now its her turn to be confused.
"I mean... I promised myself not to hurt you. And I told you that I won't do ANYTHING to you. And I even asked you to TRUST me. And then, I took advantage of you.... I'm sorry..."
"But I did that willingly. I WANTED that too. There's nothing to be sorry about." Touya uttered softly.
"Are you sure?" Jin asked uncertainely.
"Hai." *I'll never be angry with you. I love you... I think....*
"Well, let's go have something to eat. I'm famished" Jin suggested cheerfully, happily relieved if a bit uncertain.
"Hai." Touya replied, making a mental sigh of relief.
"Ai no baka" Jin muttered. Touya didn't hear him.
Tsuzuku...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
WHOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! I can't believe it!!!!! I managed another chapter!!!! HAHAHAHAH ::jumps in ecstasy:: HAHAHAHA!!!
Forgive me ::calms down and wipes the tears from her eyes:: I'm a bit overly happy. Sorry though... it's kinda sappy. I REALLY SUCK at writing mushy and romantic and sappy scenes. It IS pretty short ne? Actually, I suck at writing, period! heheheh... ummmmm..... some comments? please? onegai?
Glossary
Gomen - sorry
Daijobu - it's alright/ are you alright
Onegai - please
Ai - love
Baka - idiot/ fool
Honto - Really/ It's true
Tsuzuku - To be continued
June 3, 2002
