Chapter 3

As i said goodbye to Rosalie i walked out into the cold toward the cafeteria. Rosalie was really nice and i hoped we could become friends. Of course why would someone like her want to be friends with a loaner slash loser like me right? I sighed unhappily and pulled the hood of my hoodie tighter, tucking my long hair into it as to not attract attention. I wondered about Rosalies family. She had said they where all pretty much together. Her and Emmett, Edward and Alice, and then there was Jasper. I liked his name. I said it aloud a few times quickly, licking how it rolled off of my toungue with ease. I smiled. Then abrubtedly stopped smiling as i braced myself to enter the crowded cafeteria.

As i entered with my head down looking at the ground. I could almost feel the curiousity in the air. I tensed as i made my way to a lonley table in the back corner. I sat down quietly and popped in my earphones. I flipped through my music, accidentally landing on the song I miss you By Avril Lavinge. I fought back the tears as i remmembered the day i sang this song to my deceased sister.

I miss you

Miss you so bad

I cant forget you

oh its so sad

the day you passed away

was the day i found it wont be the same

i miss you

I felt numb as the greif consumed me. She was so young when it happened, she had the whole world ahead of her and then she-...i couldnt even bear to think about the event that fatefull day. My baby sister Lilly. She was only 12. I was snapped out of my thoughts as i felt someone walk up to me.

I turned around to look at the offender who had distracted my thoughts. My gaze locked onto the four girls that i had noticed standing by the doors in the morning. They where all blonde with unnaturaly fake tans and reaveling clothes. Their hair was outragously teased up to the point where i couldnt see the cieling lights.

"Your the new girl right?" I heard a very nasal voice say. Part of me fought back the urge to laugh in her face and ask her if she needed a tissue. I resisted.

"Well, duh, you havnt seen me around have you?" How stupid could she be. I was obviously new. Couldnt she see that i just wanted to be left alone. At the momment i most definatally was not alone. I was very annoyed. As the conversation continued they asked about my sunglasses. I felt the terror quickly creep up and make me tremble with fright.

Just as i was about to speak one of the girls tore the sunglasses off of my face and threw them on the ground smashing them in the process. The people gasped as they took in my eyes. I felt the tears rush up into them as i stood grabbing my stuff. I looked to the table beside me and noticed five people. Rosalie was among them. This must be her family. She was sitting next to a big brawy guy with cute dimples and next to him was the one who must be Edward with messy bronze hair holding a short pixie like girl thin in the extreme with spiky black hair pointing in every direction, and last of all sitting facing me was the most gorgous boy i had ever seen.

Honey blonde curls glistening with drops of rain, very pale with smoldering golden eyes and a lean boyish body. I took this all in, in less than a second and ran out the door. I heard four nasal laughs coming from where i had been. The rest of the student body sat shocked and in awe of my neon blue eyes. I headed out into the cold and dropped my bag next to a tree. I kept walking toward some front steps and sat down in the pouring rain pulling up my knees and hugging them to me.

Why did this always have to happen? I cursed myself for thinking that maybe i could be friends with Rosalie. Who would want to be friends with a freak like me? I began to sob violently from the embarrasment and pain that i felt stabbing at my heart.

I thought of my little sister. I thought of when i found her, alone, pale, cold, dead. I had found her. Not Renee. Not Phil. Not the police. No. Me. And it had scared me for life. She committed suicide at the age of 12. She had been such a sweet girl. Full of life and love untill the accident with phil. After that day she turned into a mini me. All black clothing, cuts going up her wrists. I cried harder thinking about Lilly. My sweet little angel.

I didnt even hear when someone or some people came and sat next to me. I looked around me and saw Rosalie and her family. I wiped at my eyes embarrased trying in vain to stop the tears that flowed down my cheeks. I felt someone wrap their cold arms around me. I looked to see who it was and noticed the tiny pixie like girl named alice hugging me and whispereing soothing words into my ear. The boys backed up a few feet and sat on the wet concrete, to give me some space i guessed.

"You have the most gorgous eyes Bella" I heard a soft musical voice whisper, it sounded almost exactly like mine. Alice was looking at my eyes curiously. I softly giggled surprised at myself that i felt so calm and happy all of a sudden. Alice turned and for some reason glared at Jasper. He smiled sheepishly and put his head down. All of a sudden the happyness was gone but the calm remained.

I sighed and let myself lean against Alice's hard body. I felt at ease for some reason being held by a hard cold body. I took a deep breath and noticed how good she smelled. Like mint almost. I suddently realized that i had acctually been leaning and being comforted by someone i didnt know a thing about.

"Sorry, i didnt mean to cause trouble. I should go home now" I began to get up only to be held down by the surprisingly strong Alice.

"Bellsie, its starting to snow, your truck doesnt have chains, so you could slip and have a car crash." I looked up at the sky and noticed the dark clouds swirling around dropping small bunches of snowflakes and wiping the wind around. I chuckled as i realized it matched my mood exactly. Snow makes you numb, and wind pushes you to move on and let it all go.

"Do you want to come over for a sleepover at my house Bella?" This time it was Rosalie who spoke, looking at me nervously as if already knowing i would say no. I thought about this for a little while contemplating if i should go or not. I could use some friends, i had been lonley ever since Lilly...

"Well, i would but i dont have any clothes or pjs." I said honestly, i had to get my own clothes what if they saw the cuts, that would ruin everything.

"You could borrow some of mine, we look about the same size" She said hope showing in every word she said.

"Umm...well i guess that would be fine. Would your parents mind?" I asked, thinking about parents made me remmeber to text Charlie and let him know that i would be staying the night with them.

"They love when we bring friends home" She said smiling. She gave me a hug and wiped away a few loose tears with her thumb and helped pull me up.

"Ok then, so are we gonna go back to class or just skip?"

"Lets skip, Edward, Rosalie, Emmett and i will ride in Edwards Volvo and you can ride with Jasper in his porsche, if thats alright with Jazz" Alice turned and gave a meaningfull look at Jasper who nodded and gave me a crooked smile that sent my heart fluttering up into space. I shook my head to clear away those thoughts. Dont even think about it Isabella Alexandra Swan. A boy like that will NEVER be interested in you. Hes just being nice. With that my mood took a low swing once again and i followed Jasper into the parking lot to a nice looking porshche.

He went over to my side and opened the door giving me another heartbreakingly dazzling crooked smile before gliding over to the drivers side. Once we where inside he started the car with a gentle purr and sped off into the dark road. He turned toward me and opened his mouth to say...

MWAHAHAHA slight cliffhanger:D because im insanly evilll:) jkjk. lol. so how do you guys like the story so far? any pointers? i was thinking that Jasper and Bella should fall in love in the next few chappys without realizing it and something will happen with BELLA! could she possibly be more than human? and what happened to LIlly? DUN DUN DUN (horror music).

So pleaseee review:D it makes my heart flutter just like BELLAAA WITH JAZZ:]]] love you all my lovley readersss. ill love you more if you review! MUAW MUAW MUAW!

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OMFG! love this story its amazing plzz update soon!

HEHEHE...she was my first reviewer and i like how she started with OMFG! hahaha.:D You made me smileee! so ill put my favorite reviews after every chappy. But i love all my reviews! so yeah! Ill stop blabbing now:D -NATALIExoxo33