Sorry I took so long to update. I just wasn't feeling very inspired. I don't know how good this chapter is because I wrote and edited it at 1:10 A.M. so…… any way, read and review please! Oh and yeah I don't own…..but you already knew that :D

Zedd's expression suddenly became sympathetic.

"Your feelings for Richard are what make you afraid child." I started to objected but found I couldn't bring myself to do it.

"I can't imagine how hard it must be to never have what ordinary young people have." He continued.

"But Richard is strong too, and if you tell him the truth he will understand, and you'll

find away through this maze together." He assured me. My crumbling resolve suddenly solidified into a iron wall. I didn't want his sympathy.

"I know Richard. If he knows how I feel about him, he won't let it go. He'll follow me, try to convince me there's a future for us!" I insisted.

"But there isn't. That's why he can never know how I feel about him. Promise me Zedd." I pleaded becoming very quiet as I stared up at Zedd. His expression was that of shock and worry. The tension between us was steadily building as Zedd didn't answer, in till I heard Richard call, "What is going on?" I looked down at my feet and briefly closed my eyes. Richards timing was horrible. I picked up my pack and gave Zedd my best Confessor death glare, before walking off hurriedly. I hadn't gotten very far when I heard Richard come bounding after me. "dear spirits no." I groaned. When Richard caught up to me he exclaimed, "You cant go I need you! Zedd needs you!"

"Every minute I stay I'm a danger to you." I countered in an expressionless voice.

"I'd be dead right now of it weren't for you!" he said, his voice taking a panicky tone.

"You might be dead soon, or worse, if I stay." I replied in the same expressionless tone.

I would not show an emotion! I couldn't break down now! I had to leave Richard.

"Worse than dead?" Richard suddenly grabbed my arm and spun me around to face him. I gasped in shock. I tugged at my once iron resolve, trying to pull it back together. Why! Why did I have to crumble to pieces every time I looked into those gorgeous brown eyes?

"What are you talking about?" Richard fairly shouted. He suddenly became calm and looked down at his feet before asking, "This is about last night, isn't it?"

"No." I squeaked, internally beating myself up on how unconvincing that had sounded. Richards expression and whole demeanor suddenly verged on becoming angry.

"Confessors may be good at reading people but your no good at lying." He continued. I scoffed at myself. I knew I was no good at lying and now I was going to have to explain everything to him.

"Kahlan, I'm sorry I kissed you! I wont do it again if it upset you, but you kissed me back." Richard said, at first sounding genuinely sorry but that quickly turned into defensiveness."

"That was a mistake." I answered coldly.

"Look me in the eye and tell me that you don't have the same feelings for me that I have for you." Richard demanded quietly. He was so innocent and honest. I knew what I had to say, I knew what I had to do. "spirits help me!" I prayed silently.

"I don't have any feelings for you." I finally said. I was so proud of myself! I had done it! I had convinced him. I could tell by the expression on his face. But some cruel part of me urged me to continue. "And I never will." I tacked on, almost spitefully. Richard looked completely surprised, but surprise swiftly transformed to hurt, pure pain that I had caused with my own tongue. I suddenly regretted those last few words. I whirled around and fairly ran off. My heart was once more torn and bleeding, but my mind rejoiced in triumph. "He believed the lie!" I glanced behind me and saw to my relief he wasn't following me. "I had won and now Richard would be safe from me forever. He would get over his feelings for me and one day, when this is all over, settle down with some woman and raise a family. That was the fate he deserved, and now he had that option if…no…when he defeated Darken Rahl. I had done it." I thought. But for some strange reason several tears cascaded from my eyes, and created watery paths down my face before sliding off my chin.

So there you go. Should I write about when she is with Laura? I'm thinking I will but I just don't know. Click the green button below and leave me a message. (you don't know how happy it makes me when I get a review) Happy New Year every body!!!!!! WAR EAGLE and GO GATORS!!!!!!!