Chapter 03

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The following morning, upon returning from the land of dreams to consciousness, she felt his body next to hers, he removed some strands of hair from her face then he started stroking her cheek with his metal arm; a symbol of danger; brutal strength and death but to her it became a symbol of safety, of feeling home in the arms of her soldier, she opened her eyes and shared a good morning kiss that led to another round of steaming morning sex. If it wasn't for her lover expressing his concern of exhausting her body or causing her harm, one round didn't suffice. Instead, they talked in order to know a little bit more about each other which led her to discover that her lover has lost all his memories; as a result of a lot of brainwashing; including his own name so they reached an agreement, after she confessed of her feeling weird if she continued to call him teacher after what transpired between them, to call him Andros. She left his room that morning feeling content and alive which wasn't the case for the other girls when she returned to the dorm; they were either crying from pain or talking about what happened to them. She felt pity for them and didn't show anything on her face about the joy she was feeling but she was exploding inside of happiness.

For eleven years, New Year's Eve represented death and a lost life but that time it gave her a chance of being alive again, of having a second chance in life with her soldier, her warrior, her love

As time passed on, their relationship progressed, it became more firm, serious, deep and passionate her soldier became more protective and possessive especially during missions as for the training sessions, he kept it serious and strict but less brutal which didn't affect the result of those trainings and she stayed in the top which was showed when she used to put in place all what she learned about espionage and infiltration in order to sneak to her soldier's room where they talked, kissed, made love or simply cuddled and slept in each other's arms but in the morning, she would sneak again to the dorm before wake up time.

Their safe haven was during the missions they both went to alone where they used to go to real dated, hold hands, spend the entire night together without the need to sneak, to be cautious or being afraid of being caught even thought that rash of adrenaline caused by the fear was exciting and made their relation more lively.

Their relationship didn't only gave her back the sensation of life but it did give something to her Andros too, something they thought lost forever, his memories. After six months through their relationship, he started regaining fragments of his forgotten past; images of two older persons whom they assumed were his parents; figures of three young girls and a lot of memories involving a blond boy called Steven, in all his dreams where those memories stroked him, English and a place called Brooklyn were the main common things in them which led them to put a possibility of him being an American especially that when he spoke in those memories or even in missions there was no British accent. The negative side of the memory's recovery was remembering all the crimes he committed as the winter soldier, adding to that not being able to remember his name.

The miracle happened in their one year anniversary on New Year's Eve, they were deeply asleep when suddenly he woke up shaking and crying. She still remembers it:

She was deeply asleep in her Andros arms when she felt him trembling then waking up breathing quickly and crying,

˝ Andros, what's wrong? ̏ said Natalia while putting her hand on his shoulder but he didn't answer her so she asked again:

˝ Andros, are you okay? Is it another bas memory? ̏ said a very worried Natalia.

Her lover stopped crying then turned himself to her, took her face in his hands and kissed her very deeply.

˝ James ̏ said a very touched winter soldier.

˝ What? ̏

˝ My name is James, I remember it now, that blond person Steven called me James. He called me with this name in three different memories. ̏ said James while still holding Natalia's face in his hands.

˝ James, James, well at least now I know with what I call you but you will always be my Andros, my warrior.̏ said the spy while putting her arms around her warrior's neck and smiling a mischievous teasing seductive smile.

James putted his hands around her waist and pulled her towards him then said: ˝ and you my Red Rose are my everything, my salvation. ̏ after that he kissed her and they made love like never before.

Three months after that night, during a regular training session, James surprised her with sudden decision.

«Let's run away» he said calmly

«What? »said Natalia with a little loud voice.

«You heard right, I said let's run away and start a new life far away from here, don't you wish that too? » said the soldier while holding her face.

« Do I wish for that? Ahh James, you have no idea of my wishes, especially when they include you and they all do.» said the red head while putting her hands on his the continued « the first time I discovered my feelings for you, I wished for them to be reciprocated , well thank god it came true because I have never been more happier in my life since our relationship began. As exciting as it is applying what I learnt here while sneaking to your room but it scares me too for I know what will happen if, god forbid it, they discovered that our relation surpass that of teacher/student relation which make me wish for us to have a normal one, a normal life where we could do as we pleas; to have a house where we don't need to be cautious, careful, sneak around and pretend so that no one discover the nature of our relation, I wish to be a real ballerina not to use ballet as a killing tool, hell at some point I imagined us having a baby for god's sake as weird and unrealistic as that can be coming from someone like me who killed a father of two children last week all his fault was crossing the wrong people. So if all of this doesn't give you an answer to the nature of my wish regarding our relationship then I don't know what will. »

« Natalia, MOE COKPOBͶЩE, you know very well what I meant with my question, I never suspected your feelings for me or your opinion about our relationship and what you revealed now make me think that iam the luckiest bastard on earth. I too wish the same things as you but think about it, why let them be just wishes, dreams while we can make them reality. As for you thinking that the wish to have a kid is weird and twisted because you killed someone who's a father is a total BS. What do you say about me becoming a father, I who killed people more than I can remember and I'm sure that I only remember half of them? But you darling, I'm sure that you can be a fantastic mother. »

« James, all those crimes were committed by Hydra, not you, don't put all the blame on yourself, we talked about this before. » said Natalia while stroking his left cheek.

« But still, they were committed by my hands. »

« The winter soldier's hands under Hydra's orders. »

« The winter soldier and I are the same person. »

« Yes, I know that, but still, you were brainwashed, manipulated and under their control, you weren't conscious when you did what you did…» said Natalia then she stopped and laughed.

« Why are you laughing!? » said the winter soldier frowning his eyebrows.

« It's just since we started our relation two years ago, this is our first argument. »

« Well it seems I'm not going to win it, so what do you say? » said the sergeant while stroking a piece of her hair.

« Even if I agree, how will we escape from here and where will we go? »

« We have a mission next week that is supposed to last for three days, of course it is expected from us to call them on the third day so we will make our move and escape in the first day which will give us two days to go away as far as we can. As for our destination, we will go to my country, I remembered my home address, I'm sure that we can get help there. »

« Ok, then until next week we have to plan our moves more carefully. »

« Ok … I just have one request from you. »

« Which is? »

« If our plan failed and they caught us, they will use the trigger words in order to control me, so I need you to run away the moment they start saying the first word "asset", run away and don't look behind you» said the soldier with a serious tone.

« What do you mean run and leave you behind? I…y.. You can't ask me to do that. I just can't. »

« Listen to me, once they start using those words, I lose control as well as my freewill, like the monsters as I know them, they will order me to kill you as a punishment for both of us. That will end me, I won't bear that, hell, I feel already sick and lost just to think of it. So please promise me that you will do as I say. » said the soldier with a pained tone at the image of him being ordered to kill his rose.

« Ok, I promise you but let's start preparing our plane so that we don't reach to that point and make our wishes come true. »

The soldier didn't reply, he just held her face again and told her « I love you» then kissed her a kiss in which he poured all his feelings and hopes.


i chose Andros as a name for him because i found that it means a warrior