Rehashing the Past

I shivered as the air conditioning hit my toes. The arms around me wrapped even tighter to keep me warm. It was Friday, and I had to be at work in less than an hour. If I didn't get up now, I never would. I sighed and cherished the last few minutes of bliss that ensued. I unwrapped the arms around me, trying not to wake Sebastian. I hopped in the shower and retreated back to my room with my towel on. I put my hair up and tried to quietly search for an outfit. I dropped my hairdryer on the wooden floor, and inevitably woke up Sebastian and probably everyone in the apartment under mine.

"Nice view." He mumbled while snuggling into the covers. I smiled at his remark.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to wake you. I was trying so hard to be quiet!"

"No, it's fine, don't worry about it! I should probably go anyway…" He trailed off, not knowing if he should leave before Carrie heads off to work.

"What time do you have to meet your mom?"

"She said she would call me. Speak of the devil…" Sebastian's beeper went off and he went into the kitchen to call her. I got dressed while he was on the phone. He came back in a few minutes later, pulling a t-shirt on.

"Well same old, same old. She bailed again." Sebastian gave a knowing smile to me.

"You could stay with us for the night again and come back to Castlebury and stay with my family for the holiday? Only if you want to, of course. Sorry, was that too forward of me? It's just you shouldn't spend Labor Day alone, and I'm sure my dad wouldn't mind."

"Carrie, I couldn't do that to you, I've already overstayed my welcome."

"What if I told you that I wanted you to stay tonight and come home with me?"

"Well then I would have to say that I would love to." He smiled and sat back down on my bed.

"Why don't you go back to bed, and then shower and meet me at one at Interview? We can go to lunch or something? I should be done by then, it's a half day anyway." I suggested, hoping he would say yes.

"Of course. I'll be there!" He kissed me before crawling back into my bed. I smiled and turned the light off, closing the door behind me. I explained to Walt that he was coming home with me for the weekend and that he would be around tonight. Walt said he would be at class anyway, so he probably wouldn't even see him too much. Walt was going to spend the weekend at Bennet's family's house in Cape May.

Bennett and I took the subway into the city and arrived at 7:53, seven minutes before I had to be there. Larissa wasn't even there yet, but that was no surprise. I tried to get all of my work done as fast as I could but time was going by at a snail's pace. It was because I wanted to see Sebastian so much. My stomach was churning. I didn't feel well, my nerves were literally making me sick. I called my dad to ask if I could bring Sebastian home, hoping that it would distract me.

"Hello?"

"Hey dad!"

"Hi sweetie, what's up?"

"Well I was wondering if I could bring someone home to spend the weekend with us?"

"Is this someone a he or a she?"

"It's a he."

"What's his name?"

"You'll meet him when we get there, I promise. You'll like him, I have a funny feeling." I was playing coy with him because I knew he would be surprised when it was Sebastian. My dad always asked about him, but I was always out of the know about him too.

"Alright, I trust you sweetie, what time does your train get in?"

"Change of plans, we're not taking the train. He drives." I could hear my dad chuckle on the other end. He had really opened himself up to the idea of me dating.

"Okay, well we'll see you when you get in. I love you Carrie."

"Love you too." I hung up the phone and took a few deep breaths. That managed to calm my nausea for a little while. I glanced at the clock. It was about 12:45. I had to do something to get my mind off of Sebastian's impending visit. I straightened up my desk to make myself look more professional. I straightened out my square computer and rolled around in my chair for a few minutes. I had never been this bored at work. My phone started to ring which gave me a bit of comfort.

"Carrie Bradshaw?" I answered. I was infuriated at the phone call. I was pretty sure I was yelling at my intern Joe when Sebastian walked through those doors.

"No! Joe, I need it to be at 5 on Thursday! Not 7 on Wednesday! I already have the Buch interview that night! I asked you to do one thing! One thing! That's it. Is it really that hard? And I told you to send the piece about the satin fabric not the piece about how plum is the new fall color! I need you to fix that as soon as possible before heading out for the weekend because if you don't, that's what gets sent to the printer and it's my ass that gets in trouble, not yours! So fix it!" Joe definitely was not the best intern, but if Larissa hadn't given me a chance, I wouldn't be here now, so I had to give Joe a chance. I scribbled some of his notes on a post-it before telling him to have a good holiday weekend.

"Wow, someone's in trouble."

"Sorry you had to hear that. It's just so frustrating sometimes. He can not take directions at all." I chuckled as Sebastian's presence immediately calmed me.

"You ready to head out?"

"Yeah, just let me grab my bag." I walked behind my desk and gathered my things.

"So what're you in the mood for?"

"Well let's just say that I've taken this into my own hands. I already got lunch for us. Do you want to head to the park?"

"Of course!" I was happily surprised that he spent his morning thinking about me.

We walked the few blocks to the park and Sebastian pulled out a blanket and laid it on the grass.

"This is sweet, you know? Thanks for doing this."

"Anything for you. So at the risk of messing whatever this is up, what are we exactly?"

"Um, well I don't know. What do you think?"

"I think you know how I feel about you."

"Last night made me realize that I feel the same way about you. I've never stopped loving you."

"So does that make us official?"

"I certainly think it does." I smiled and bit my lower lip after saying that. He smiled back and kissed me. The day was hotter than ever and it was starting to go to my head. We ate lunch and started to walk back to the subway station to head back to the apartment. I packed a few of my things and before I knew it, we were getting in the car and on our way home. About an hour and a half later we were pulling into my driveway. It had taken so long because of the traffic leaving the city. Everyone was trying to get out. The locals were anyway.

"Ready?" I asked him before opening the passenger side door. He nodded and grabbed my hand. I opened the front door and walked Sebastian inside. I found my dad in the kitchen dancing around with Miller. Dorrit was nowhere to be seen.

"Carrie! I missed you honey!" My dad wrapped me in a hug before looking to see who the boy I brought home was.

"I missed you too Dad."

"Oh Dad, this is my boyfriend, Sebastian." I said boyfriend for the first time in over a year. My dad was surprised to see Sebastian, but he was elated. He had always liked him, especially after he saved me in the accident.

"Sebastian, how are you?" My dad shook his hand. Sebastian replied with a "Great now."

"Well how long has this been going on?" My dad certainly wasn't expecting Sebastian to be the boy I was bringing home. He seemed sincerely happy.

"Since last night. We actually bumped into each other at The Oak Room, and we stayed up all night talking, it was magical Dad." I got a little carried away with my monologue, and I could tell that my dad didn't really care. He feigned enthusiasm for me and turned his back and rolled his eyes to Miller.

"Where's Dorrit? I want to see her!" I hadn't seen Dorrit since the fourth of July and I actually missed her when I was in New York. Walt was great to talk to and all, but he didn't understand when it came to girl things.

"She's upstairs, ignoring Miller and I bonding."

"Well you can do some more man bonding, I'm going to go find her." I bounded up the stairs and knocked on Dorrit's door.

"Dad I swear to God, if you invite me to come jam-out with you and Miller one more time…" I barged in her room and surprised her. She jumped off her bed and hugged me. I felt bad about leaving her to fend for herself with only Dad around, but she was doing okay. She had Miller to help her through it.

"Carrie, I missed you!" She hugged me back for once. I was surprised that she was showing some sort of emotion.

"I missed you too Dorr, has Dad driven you crazy yet?"

"Just about."

"Come on downstairs, I think dinner is about ready."

"So who's this boy you brought? Dad was worried he would be some New York weirdo."

"Oh you'll see." I stepped behind Dorrit as she descended the stairs. She scanned the room and saw Miller, my dad, and Sebastian.

"Sebastian's the boy you were bringing home? I should've known." Dorrit gave Sebastian a smile and headed into the kitchen where there was dinner on the table. We all sat down and engaged in casual conversation. I wondered what my dad would say about the sleeping arrangements, normally, Sebastian would sleep on the couch, but Miller was staying there while his house was under construction. After our dinner, Sebastian and I sat out on the deck where it was thankfully a little cooler than it was in New York. After eating, my nausea had come back and I felt a little faint. This heat wasn't really working in my favor today. As the night progressed, the nausea subsided, but the pain became more of a stabbing in my abdomen. I shook it off, I was probably just getting cramps. I left Sebastian on the deck to go inside and get a glass of water. I ran into my dad on my way outside.

"So, about the sleeping arrangements, I know you have your own apartment in New York and all, and you made it pretty clear earlier that you and Sebastian spent last night together, so he can sleep with you in your room, but no funny business Caarrie! That's the last thing I want to hear tonight!" My dad was half joking but half serious about the last part. I smiled and agreed that nothing would happen and both Sebastian and I knew that. I was tired around nine and still not feeling great, so Sebastian and I told everyone goodnight and headed up to my room, leaving Dorrit, Miller, and my dad to watch a movie, much to Dorrit's dismay. I led Sebastian to my room and closed the door behind us. His bag was already up there and I started stripping my clothing off because I was sweating. When did it get so hot in here? He couldn't help but stare, and I couldn't help but blush.

"Why are you blushing Carrie? You are the most beautiful girl in the world. You shouldn't be ashamed of that." He said as he shed his t-shirt and his jeans. He walked over to me and wrapped his strong arms around my tiny body in only his boxers. I couldn't help but be turned on by his body. He was so muscular and tall, and he was standing there practically naked, as was I. He pulled away and I put on a big t-shirt that actually belonged to Sebastian at one time.

"That shirt looks familiar. I like it better on you though." He winked at me and went to brush his teeth. I pulled my hair up and took a deep breath to calm my stomach pains. That only seemed to make it worse. I sat down on my bed and closed my eyes, or more like clenched them shut. Sebastian must have noticed my discomfort when he came from the bathroom and he rushed over and knelt at my side.

"Carrie, are you alright, what's wrong?"

"I'm okay, I'm fine, I just have cramps, that's all." His face twisted, signaling his discomfort in the conversation. I got up from the bed and brushed my teeth. I came back to find Sebastian already in my bed.

"I forgot how comfortable your bed is. Oh my god, this is so nice."

"Hey now, don't get too comfortable, you're going to have to move over you know?" I climbed in next to him.

"You're beautiful Bradshaw, you know that?"

"You aren't too bad yourself Kydd." Now it was my turn to wink at him. He kissed me hard on the lips and I wanted him right then and there. I know I promised my dad no funny business, but I couldn't help myself. It was like my hormones hit me like a ton of bricks in that moment. After making out for awhile, my t-shirt was discarded to the floor, leaving both Sebastian and I in or underwear. We froze in our positions when we heard my dad and Dorrit climb the stairs to go to bed. Once we were in the clear, I crashed my lips into his and bit his bottom lip, something I remembered drove him crazy. He tried to suppress his moans, and let out a big sigh instead. He sucked on my earlobe, which he knew made me weak in the knees. I bit my own lips this time to keep myself from making any more noise than we already were. I could taste the blood in my mouth because Sebastian was driving me nuts. I wanted him so bad, I wanted this for so long. It had been too long.

He softly bit the sensitive skin on my collarbone and moved to my breasts; his tongue swirling around each nipple. I knew I was going to have quite a few hickies tomorrow. His free hands pulled at the waistband of my underwear. He pulled them off and I flipped him over, so I was on top. My stomach was stabbing with pain right now, but I had to ignore it because of the pure bliss that I was in. I slid my hand down his boxers and teased him a little before pulling them off.

"Carrie, wait, should we be doing this? In your dad's house with your sister, her boyfriend, and your dad only a few feet away?"

"We'll just have to be quiet." I said shortly before I attacked his lips again. His hands were wondering to the lower parts of my body, while mine were doing the same to his. The I moved my whole body down so I was at eye-level with his penis. I sucked until I knew he wouldn't last if I kept going, and he looked at me for a moment.

"Ready?"

"Never been more ready for anything in my life." I panted as he rolled u over so he was on top. He was more experienced so I'd let him take the lead. It wasn't like I hadn't had sex before, I had, many times, but he had had sex many more times than I have. He smiled and kept his eyes locked on mine while he got closer to me. He entered me, but the only thing I could feel was the stabbing pain inside of my stomach. I screamed, not very loud, but loud enough for him to get the message. He quickly abandoned his station inside of me and looked at me with worried eyes.

"I'm so sorry Carrie, I didn't want to hurt you. Are you okay? What's wrong?" I was clenching my stomach at the moment and rolled over so I wasn't facing him. The pain was unbearable now. I cold barely breathe in between my sobs.

"Carrie, hey, look at me, what's going on? What can I do?" He was quickly off the bed, getting dressed, prepared to wake my dad up.

"Take me to the hospital, get me dressed first though." He ran around the room looking for my t-shirt and a pair of shorts at least to cover me up. I let out another yell as he was pulling my shorts up. He gathered me into his arms and opened the door, not caring how loud we were now. We had woken Miller up on our way out and Sebastian told him to wake Dorrit and my dad and come to the hospital. Sebastian put me in the passenger side of his car and shut the door behind him. He hopped into the driver's seat and put the keys in the ignition. Before he sped off, he reached around and put my seatbelt on. I cried the whole way there. I was a bit embarrassed at how hard I was crying but this pain was one I had never felt before. It felt like someone was ripping my insides out. He put his car in park at the emergency entrance and pulled me out of the car. He walked inside with me in his arms and quickly found a wheelchair. He placed me down in it and took me over to the receptionist's desk.

"Hi, my girlfriend is in an incredible amount of pain right now, I don't even know what's wrong with her, she hasn't been able to talk that much, it hurts too bad." The receptionist paged a doctor who came and took her away, telling Sebastian to join them when he parked his car. He was back in the room in ten minutes and found me in a hospital bed. Since the hospital was pretty empty at this time, it didn't take long for them to do an ultrasound and find that my appendix were swollen and they wanted to remove it before it ruptured. They put me on an IV and some morphine, which was making me a bit giggly. Sebastian sat with me and couldn't help but laugh at my current drugged up state. He left to go get some coffee while they were prepping me for surgery.

Sebastian's P.O.V.

I tried to make my trip to the vending machine quick, knowing Carrie was delusional in there and I didn't want her to be alone. I got my coffee to keep me awake and as I was passing through the hallway, I saw Tom, Dorrit, and Miller, looking around for me, I presumed.

"Tom!" I called and jogged down the hallway to them. Tom looked a little confused, panicked, and tired all at the same time.

"What's going on?" Tom asked as soon as I reached the group.

"She has appendicitis, they're prepping her for emergency surgery right now."

"Well are we allowed to see her?" Dorrit asked.

"Yeah, of course, I just came out to get a coffee, I have a feeling it's going to be a long night." I led them to the room, but before I opened the door, I heard Carrie let out a loud laugh.

"She's a little…loopy…They put her on morphine, so, there's that…" I trailed off and I'm pretty sure everyone understood what I meant since they could hear her. I opened the door and let them in, as I took the seat that I previously occupied.

"Sebastian! And Daddy! That's a weird combination. I don't like to think of you two together in that sense. Nope, definitely not." Carrie said with a disgusted face.

"Yeah, I don't think anyone does Car, but thanks for that." Tom said as he sat down, glad that his daughter was okay.

"So how did this happen? What brought this on?" I could sense a lapse in judgment coming Carrie's way, but wasn't quick enough to interrupt her.

"We were having sex and then I just couldn't breathe! It was like I was being stabbed!" Carrie burst out.

"She's joking! That did not happen! I was asleep actually and she woke me up. She was grabbing her stomach and couldn't really talk. She was sobbing and a mess. I promise you Mr. Bradshaw, that did not happen, she doesn't know what she's talking about. I wouldn't disrespect you that way." I worked damage control for my loose-lipped girlfriend.

"You're lucky, I don't think I could believe a single thing out of her mouth right now." Tom laughed at the uncomfortable situation.

"I guess I was just having sex with you in my mind then." Carrie remarked, upset that no one believed her. The nurse walked in right then and laughed at the tense situation.

"Alright, who was with her before she came to the hospital?" I replied I was and the nurse asked the rest of the family to step out of the room while finished getting Carrie prepped for surgery. They told her they loved her, knowing they wouldn't be able to see her before surgery. I was able to stay because the doctor wanted to ask me a few questions.

"Okay, so were there any signs earlier in the day that Carrie didn't seem right?"

"After dinner, she said she didn't feel too well, and then about an hour before I brought her in, her face was all scrunched up in pain and I asked her what was wrong and she told me she thought it was just cramps."

"Alright, and what activities were you two doing today that might have contributed to this?" Carrie caught my eye and winked a very obvious wink.

"She went to work, we ate lunch, we drove in from New York, we ate dinner, we relaxed a little, and then we…had sex." I was slightly embarrassed to reveal that, but he was a doctor and had to know.

"Well, we almost had sex, he put it in and I was in so much pain, I couldn't even let him finish!" My cheeks were flushed now as Carrie just told the doctor every detail about our earlier interaction.

"Car, I'm sure he doesn't need to know all of the details." I said, trying to shut her up. She just shrugged. The doctor was intrigued by this fact though.

"And she's not a virgin?"

"No."

"Have you two had intercourse before?"

"Yes."

"That's interesting, that it hurt when she was penetrated, that could mean an ovarian cyst, we'll have to check that out when we're in the OR." I shuddered at the word penetration. I really didn't want to hear that from a doctor. I nodded, before adding a last comment.

"Oh, and if it's possible, could we keep the sex part from her dad?" I was praying to God that he would say yes.

"She's 20, so legally, her dad doesn't have to know anything." The doctor reassured me. I thanked him before he left to gather his team for the surgery. I was left with Carrie whose medicine seemed to be wearing off.

"You'll be fine baby, I promise. I'll be right here when you wake up to remind you that you told your dad that we had sex in his house while everyone was sleeping." I joked and she stifled a short laugh. She was getting drowsy, so I figured I'd say my goodbyes now.

"I love you Bradshaw." I kissed her on the forehead before leaving the room to update her family. They were taking her into surgery now anyway, so I watched her off to the OR until I couldn't go any farther. I found the rest of the Bradshaw clan in the waiting room. I threw out my empty coffee cup on my way over.

"What did the doctor want?" Tom asked as I sat down next to him.

"He just wanted to know if I noticed her being a little off today or anything. I told him I hadn't really noticed anything except she told me she wasn't feeling well earlier and then she looked like she was in pain when we were getting ready for bed, but she told me it was cramps." Miller, Tom, and myself cringed at the word cramps. It was almost as bad as penetration, but not quite.

"Okay, well did they say how long the surgery could be?"

"He said about an hour and a half. He also said they are checking for an ovarian cyst, which might also be causing her pain." Tom's face went white, as did Dorrit's. I was confused.

"What, does she have a history of those or something?"

"No, well, I mean not yet, but her mom died of ovarian cancer. And it all started with a cyst." Tom said solemnly. I gave him a reassuring nod, but I was trying not to panic. I'm sure everything would be fine. We waited for the hour with minimal conversation, but we tried to keep the feelings light. Her doctor walked over to us and told us that the surgery had been successful in removing her appendix, and that they found no signs of an ovarian cyst. This relieved us all. We were allowed to visit her, but she was pretty out of it.

"Tom, you guys can go home, get some sleep. She's probably going to be out for the night anyway. I can stay. Or at least take those two home, they look like they're sleep walking." I motioned to Dorrit and Miller.

"You kidding me? You think I'm leaving those two by themselves? No way. Never." Tom replied chuckling, I had to laugh in response because his assumption about Dorrit and Miller was probably true.

"But, I think we will head home, now that we know Carrie is safe, and you'll be here. We'll be back in the morning, but call us if anything changes."

"Will do." The three of them left the hospital and I went back to Carrie's room. She looked semi-awake, but a little dazed, probably from the anesthesia.

"Hey you." I whispered as I entered the room, keeping the lights off so she could fall asleep soon.

"Hi." She was groggy, I could tell by her voice.

"How are you feeling?"

"Like I had my insides removed. Oh wait, I did."

"Bradshaw, always with the sense of humor. Want to hear something funny?"

"Sure."

"You told your dad that we were having sex under his roof while he was sleeping. You also used the phrase 'Well, we almost had sex, he put it in and I was in so much pain, I couldn't even let him finish!' to the doctor." I relayed her previous actions to her as she looked at me in horror.

"I did not! Oh my god! No! What did my dad say?"

"You're lucky I was here, I was like nope, she's loopy, I'd never do that to you Mr. Bradshaw. But just so you know, we are never, under any circumstances, having sex at your dad's house ever again." I chuckled.

"That's understandable." She was still mortified by what she said, but she was giggling too.

"Why don't you try to rest Car?"

"Hold me."

"I can't, do you see how small that bed is? I don't think I could fit by myself in it. And plus, you just had surgery, I don't want to make you uncomfortable or anything. Just relax and eventually you'll fall asleep."

"Well if you aren't going to get up here with me, could you scratch my arm? That always makes me fall asleep." I didn't need her to tell me that. I would never forget that about her. I smirked and obliged. I held her left hand in my right and slowly and lightly drug my nails across her skin. She was asleep within minutes. I sat back in the chair and eventually dozed off myself.