A/n: Anon, quick comment since I couldn't reply to you. I hadn't realized that it was said in the show that Reid wasn't religious growing up. I knew he had read the bible but didn't believe in God. Could you tell me what episode or season Reid mentions that he didn't go to sunday school or church?

Set sometime during the series. Based off of, "1. He wishes he could change. That he could be the kind of person to get married and have a kid. He wishes that he wasn't too broken for that kind of life."

They stumbled into her apartment. Both slightly drunk and very horny. Once the front door was closed, he pushed her against it. Franticly kissing and taking their clothes off as quickly as possible. She pushed back against him and pulled him quickly into her bedroom.

It was fierce, hot, and quick. They hadn't even take all their clothes off before they were finished. And in the moment when he was catching his breath, he realized that he didn't even remember her name. But then she was kissing him again and he quickly forget his thoughts in order to maintain this release.

They were lying on her bed, panting, when she rolled over onto him.

"Hey, what your name again?" She asked. She sounded like this was completely commonplace to her.

"Derek. Yours?" It was completely commonplace to him.

"Harriet. Look, are you staying the night?" She sounded completely indifferent to it. Although, looking closer, Morgan figured she wanted him to leave more than she wanted him to stay.

"I don't usually."

"Good. So you won't mind me kicking you out?" Morgan almost felt like laughing at the way she said that. But he didn't. He learned a long time ago not to laugh at women when you're in bed with them.

"Leaving already." He replied getting out of the bed and finding his clothes.

Once he was dressed, he quickly made his way out of the apartment and to his car. As he drove home, he tried to block out the thoughts that this kind of life is no way to get someone he could fall in love. He tried to ignore that nagging thought that he's going to always be alone if he continued like this. It didn't matter anyway. How could someone love him? He's broken and angry. And he can't figure out how to fix himself.