Summary: He knew that if he decided on what felt right rather than what was necessary then he would destroy and shatter both his and Naruto's worlds. What he was about to do would be for Naruto's happiness.
Warnings: Yaoi, Underage, messed up timeline.
Pairings: KakaNaru
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto, all rights belong to Masashi Kishimoto.
"CONGRATULATIONS KAKASHI-SENSEI!" Sakura bellowed as she jogged towards the three other members of her team. "I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU!"
Out of the corner of his eye, the copy-nin could see Sasuke sigh out of annoyance and face away from the pinkette and his other student (who he tried his best to refrain thinking about) trying to recover from the almost heart attack from Sakura's sudden, yet loud appearance, while simultaneously giving him a strange look.
As for Kakashi, he really, really didn't want to talk about or even acknowledge his recent marriage to Aya. It wasn't that she was a horrible person, far from it actually, but it was more the fact that he resented being stuck by her side when all he wanted to be by was someone else entirely.
So hiding his emotions as usual, pretending that this whole setup wasn't getting to him in the least he feigned a smile, said a quick "thanks" and set his cute little students on a very productive mission; cleaning out the nearby stables in the boiling heat of Konoha's summer.
Even though the hours seemed to pass like days, the mission had gone relatively well considering that Kakashi had had to sit and watch his little blonde student stroll around topless and sweaty right in front of Kakashi's eyes. One thing was for sure though, the jounin had done a good job on the boy; he couldn't remember one thing about their history together.
It had been hard but he'd survived the first day, one thing at a time he'd told himself. Even though every minute apart from Naruto was numbing him, he could feel his passion dwindle and the familiar feeling of despair seeping into his bones; very similar to how he'd felt a few years ago.
He had to stop thinking about it, he didn't have the guts to ask the Hokage to assign him to a different team, as much as he needed to get over Naruto, he wanted to be there for him, to make sure he'd be ok. And maybe it would make his life a little bit more bearable while he could still see those bright, cheerful blue eyes looking back at him each day.
He had to head home to his new wife, he was required by law now to raise children within two years of his marriage. He would refrain to do so for as long as possible. Just in case. 'Just in case what Kakashi?' He sighed and opened the door to his new home.
It had been strange living with another being, he had to admit. Aya was lovely and kind, she made sure he was looked after, made him dinner, cleaned the house while he was away and she never fussed about him doing what he needed to do. She was a good conversationalist and very polite but she didn't interfere with his business and knew when he needed time to himself. In a way he suspected she wasn't all pleased with the marriage herself but much like him didn't really see cause to make a fuss about it. They each had their own duty and they both knew they would fulfill it to the end.
Yes. She was a lovely woman. Overall an excellent house wife, someone he could have probably been happy with in another life. But she was the complete opposite of him. He yearned to be the center of Naruto's attention again, yearned to hold him more and more each day. It made him feel like shit and it made him feel guilty to be having these thoughts when he was with Aya.
It had been weeks since the marriage and life as usual had moved on. Kakashi was grateful that he no longer had to put up with people constantly congratulating him on his marriage every time he walked down the street. He much preferred the scowls of his female admirers over the happy smiles and pats on the back.
Now though, he could carry on with his life in peace, mingling with the few jounin he had befriended over the years and taking his free time in between his duties as both a husband and a shinobi. However, it seemed that wherever he went he could rarely get away from Konoha's blond menace. Even if the boy couldn't see Kakashi, Kakashi could see him, running around, causing trouble.
This particular time though, Kakashi had had a few drinks and found himself stumbling his way down the street from a night out with Asuma, Kurenai, Tenzou and Gai. The sun had long disappeared below the horizon and the only things lighting the pathway were the dim street lanterns hanging above the stony pavement and the warm glow leaking out from peoples homes. It made Kakashi feel quite nostalgic with this being a regular path both Naruto and he would take while walking his student home.
Yes. Kakashi was walking to Naruto's apartment, just because he thought he deserved to reminisce after so long of trying to forget. Maybe it was the alcohol or maybe he was just a masorchist. Or maybe it was because it was the fourteenth anniversary of his sensei's death; in other words, Naruto's birthday.
He didn't plan on speaking to his former lover, instead he was planning on sneaking the card he'd bought earlier under the door for the boy to see in the morning. His plan, however, didn't really go to plan when he heard whispering coming from around the corner, just outside of Naruto's run down apartment.
"Shhh, someone's coming teme!"
There was an annoyed grunt followed by footsteps making their way towards the stairway that Kakashi had stopped on. Apparently he hadn't been as quiet as he thought in his drunken state. He carried on his ascent of the stairs to seem less suspicious, he wasn't there to spy on Naruto anyway. Before he could reach the top step, a familiar figure emerged from around the corner, dark eyes and raven locks. It shouldn't have been as much of a surprise to the silver haired man as it was.
Naruto and Sasuke were both team mates and as much as it came across that they hated each other, that was far from the case with these two. In a way, it was a love, hate relationship. Kakashi had always respected that when he was with Naruto, even though it did rouse his jealousy now and again. Only then, Naruto was there to reassure him, now however, that was not the case.
Kakashi nodded to his student as they passed, he could see that Sasuke had scowled at his sensei's sudden appearance but that rare sight of emotion was quickly trampled down before he gave a polite, yet stern nod. The one thing he hated about Sasuke was that he never failed to remind Kakashi of himself in his younger days.
Reaching the top step and making his way down the hall, he spotted blond spiky locks and a bright orange jump suit.
"Hey sensei!" Naruto waved, beaming at Kakashi. "What brings you here eh?" He questioned, bringing a hand up to rub the back of his head, still smiling. It filled Kakashi with joy at the sight of the boys beautiful smile, only, there was something off.
"Ah, well can I not check up on my favourite student now and then?" He gave a forced chuckle. "I also bought you something for your Birthday," Kakashi reached into his supply pouch and handed Naruto the card he'd contemplated giving the kid all day.
"Happy Birthday Naruto."
The blond smelled different, he no longer had Kakashi's scent mingled with his own, instead he smelled of Sasuke. It made Kakashi's eye twitch with the effort of restraining his anger and prossessive nature towards Naruto. Naruto had to have been spending a lot of time with the Uchiha, or maybe they'd recently...he swallowed hard, he hated the thought. Hated it with every fibre of his being, yet he was the one that brought this on himself. He was to blame, not Naruto. Naruto didn't know any different.
His body must have betrayed what he was feeling because his beloved student now had a frown plastered across his face, no longer the bright beaming smile from a minute ago.
"Are you ok sensei?" He seemed genuinely worried.
"Maa, it's fine Naruto, I'm just tired is all," Kakashi's smile was strained.
"Long day huh?"
"Yeah," where the conversation had once seemed to flow easily, it no longer did, having been replaced with small talk and patches of awkward silence. "Anyway, um, I think I'm gunna head home, y'know, stuff to do..." Naruto nodded his head, he looked momentarily disappointed before once again smiling at the copy-nin. "Yeah, thanks for the card Kakashi-sensei!"
Kakashi turned to leave, book in hand once again, even though it was too dark to read, it was purely there to comfort him. "It's no problem, I'll see you tomorrow hmm?"
"Yeah! See ya tomorrow sensei."
How could things change so much is such a short time? Kakashi had always pondered such a question, nothing ever seemed to be a constant in his life...other than the bad things of course.
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