A/N: Here's the third chapter. I didn't like how this turned out, so... yeah. Enjoy.

Summary: I had to erase my past, ignore my former self, and create a new persona, for her sake. But why did I have to hide from her?

Disclaimer: If I owned Shugo Chara, I wouldn't be writing this.


Day 03: Realization


"Do you ever practice for your concerts?"

It was the next day, a brand new day, so I'd thought I'd give the question another chance. My sister did practice for her concerts every time, usually right when I was around.

We were on the rooftop where my sister and I used to spend our lunch hour together. She allowed me to follow her up here where there was no other supervision. Speaking of vision, I left my purple eye contacts at home today. Seems like I forgot them when I prepared this morning. Lucky for me I had my sunglasses, otherwise I'd be late for work, and... maybe she would leave me behind. Maybe.

"Just shut the hell up."

Okay, okay, nothing to get angry over...

I leaned back against the exiting door, closing my eyes, relinquishing this time. What made this time so different? Was it because of... my disappearance? Was it because she was only comfortable practicing with me by her side? But what about Kuukai?

Ugh... Why am I even thinking about these things, anyway?

Especially...

"Why do you sing?"

She should sing because she wants to.

"Why the hell do you care? You're just my bodyguard, so stay in your place!"

Ugh, so stubborn. So I was just her bodyguard and nothing more... I guess it's better that way. Hopefully she won't come over and pull off my sunglasses, otherwise I'd be in real trouble. She would recognize me, regardless of my hair color change. It was always the eyes that gave people away...

I stayed quiet, not wanting to anger my client anymore.

She turned around, ready to return inside. "I have to get ready for my concert," was all she said.

And all I did was follow her.

I followed her into some sort of makeup room, where then I had to wait outside so she could change into her outfit.

She came out in a beautiful blue gown, marked by shining stars. No character change? So the purpose of this concert was... it wasn't to gather X-eggs... This concert must be important, or maybe... maybe it's what she's singing, the song, that's significant...

"Excuse me, we need to talk to Hoshina Utau." Hmm? I looked up, seeing a pink haired girl with golden eyes, by her side a little boy with purple orbs. Amu and Tadase... Dammit. I'd have to pretend not to know them.

"Only authorized personnel are allowed in here."

Behind my dark sunglasses, I payed attention to the desperation of Amu's request.

"Please!"

"Only authorized personnel are allowed in here."

With a melancholy expression, she walked off, her boyfriend following. This was harder than I expected, to pretend to be another person... Pulling myself together, I walked on the stage, where Utau stood, her microphone in hand, the curtains still covering her from her audience.

She looked a bit discouraged, as if singing for this concert was something she forced herself to do. I walked from the shadows, up to her, to see her intimidating stare right at me. "Why do you sing?"

She yelled at me. Again. "Just shut the hell up! Doing this is as hard as it is!"

I could have sworn that I saw a tear drop.

I wanted to comfort her, but then... I turned away, walking back into my spot on the sidelines. The concert was about to start. The roar of the fans could be heard from all the way in here.

The spotlight turned on. The curtains drew open. This was her big moment.

The musicians and instrument players were in their place.

The pianist began playing first.

Soon, she started singing.

Hiding within the stars that reflect in my eyes
I'm just confused about what I can't do

The guitar player began playing...

Even holding hands with you is awkward
But I want us to laugh in our dreams

I watched her sing, holding the microphone close to her lips, her voice captured and amplified by the speakers nearby. She looked mesmerizing, the dress shining under the pale blue limelight.

The yonder of this night echoes
And my warm chest is stirring
Whispering as I extend my hand to the Blue Moon
We'll be able to reach it

The... Blue Moon? It's like... she's singing about me - her brother. Her brother who mysteriously vanished from her world, replaced by a mere bodyguard...

You just always smile tenderly
But you won't chase me
Every second is a glowing grain of sand
I won't forget to let even a grain spill

So this was why she was looking down... All the clues were there. This song... was about me.

The disappearing moon was not pleased
So I claw it out from your defenseless back
A deep scar remains
Though I embrace the cut's evidence

She... was pouring her heart out into this song. The tears only proved it, bringing me guilt at what I had chosen to do.

Oh fleeting Blue Moon
Why did I come to love you?
While we pause in the same scene
It's too sad of a story

Her voice was beginning to crack... C'mon, sis, you can do it! I'm at your concert!

Looking up at the Blue Moon, I think about you
My time has come to a stop
The wailing of the Blue Moon doesn't end
Swallowing up in the deep darkness

I noticed how some of her fans had stopped their cheering and were almost deadly silent, as if they were a living corpse. Could it be...? Oh no, there were X-eggs! Even without her Character Transformation, she was still able to extract those eggs!

Although nothing will change, I'll still love you
Even if the sky will also be torn someday
I'll think of you for eternity

...I turned my attention back to her, noting how emotional she was...

"Colorful Canvas!"

Something attacked the stage, effectively destroying it. The audience scattered in fear of the current event, the people who had their heart's egg extracted had to be pulled off. The Guardians were here... and so was Amu.

Utau stood in the center of the stage, inert as the Guardians surrounded her from all sides. She dropped her microphone and tried to make a run for it, only to be stopped by none other than Tadase. Dammit... I had to get out there, quick! I ran towards her, the Guardians surprised at my entrance. Against her back, I whispered, "Who the hell are these guys?" Just to prove my innocence.

"The Guardians. I don't know why they're here, though." She had stopped crying, and that was a relief.

The little king stepped forward. "Hoshina Utau! We're here to stop you from extracting eggs, permanently!"

They didn't seem to care that I was there, present by her side. Amu, too, didn't seem to show any mercy.

Whispering again, I said, "You think we can take all of them at once?" I don't know, I was feeling kind of hyped up about this.

"No," she responded.

That's right... I don't remember seeing Utau's Guardian Characters, Eru and Iru...

I couldn't get caught in a situation like this. If they defeated us, my identity would be revealed, and then...

I grabbed my sister's hand, pulling her with me as I made a dash off the stage. Ugh, man, the height was too much. Deciding to be more... um, superhero-like, I picked my client up in a style that a groom would carry his bride, then jumped. I made it, barely. When did she get so heavy?

I kept running towards the exit, noting the way my client looked at me as I carried her off.

"Platinum Royal!"

I felt something strike my feet, knocking me off balance. I tripped and fell, my head landing on Utau's abdomen area.

...Dammit. This wasn't looking good. Utau didn't seem to have the willpower to get out of here, so that left it all to me to escape the both of us. I let go of her, letting her stand up on her own, myself regaining my composure. I looked at all of them, determined to stop the two of us.

I stood in front of my client, my arms spread across, ready to protect my client.

"Don't think of escaping."

Was... was this it?

It was only my second day on the job, and it would end like this...?

No. I refuse for it to be like this. I believe that Utau did not intentionally try to extract eggs from her fans, as she didn't use a Character Transformation. It just sorta happened. The Guardians, they've got it all wrong!

I saw one of them charge at me, a girl with purple hair. I turned around, holding Utau close to my chest, feeling the shots vibrate off my back, and then my head... Ugh. I felt weak, my consciousness giving way, my sister looking at me, the supposed Mamoru Mizuki with those... eyes.

The last thing I heard was my true name.


A/N: Eh... Again, I don't feel that this chapter went out as planned, but then again, that's just me talking.

As always, thanks for reading! Reviews are very much appreciated.