A.N MAJOR ANGEL SPOILERS!
Three weeks later...
Max's POV
I sat in the over-stuffed chair in the far corner of our living room. Yeah, Fang was still here. Currently entertaining the kids by lifting the sofa with only one arm, turning invisible and tickling the crap outta them, and making things like the lamps and tables dance.
It took a while (like three hours), but Demon finally forgave me for walking out on her during labour. Of course after I told her the whole story, she sent Skittle, Helsing, Lollipop, and Teddy after him. I think he still has the bruises on... well, everywhere!
Fang's flock was here, too. And guess what? Max 2.. I mean Maya was part of it. I found out that her and I have twin-like curses. We can hear each others thoughts, and feel each others pain. It sucks, like, big time. Why? Because it means that I can't kill her, that's why.
"Mommy!" I looked down. Cynder was jumping up and down in front of me. "Daddy wants to take me and you and Ari and Alex out for ice cream. Can we go?"
"Of course we can, baby girl!" I said, putting on a fake smile. "Just let me get my purse and coat, then we'll go. 'Kay?" she nodded happily then bounded back to the others.
I rose from my seat and started toward the stairs. I was halfway there when I heard Fang call my name.
"Max," he said, raising an eyebrow at me. "You know that's it July, right?" I nodded, pulling the sleeves of my shirt down to cover my wrists.
"I know. I'm just... cold, is all." then I turned around and proceeded up the stairs.
I pulled out Sara, my knife. I watched the light bounce off of it for a moment then slid her across my wrist.
Sixty.
Sixty times Fang's spoken to me, leading to the sixty scars on my wrists. I put Sara back into her hiding spot, grabbed my jacket, and turned to leave.
But I couldn't.
Why?
Because Fang was standing in my doorway.
"Move." I hissed.
"No." he said, crossing his arms. "Tell me why."
I refused to so much as look at him.
"Max..." Fang sounded like he was threatening me.
"Just leave me alone, Fang." I mumbled, trying to push past him. He wouldn't budge. "Please, Fang. I don't wanna talk about it. Especially not with you."
"Look, Max." he muttered, grabbing my arms. "You have three kids downstairs, waiting for you. Did you even consider what would happen if you committed suicide? Did you?" I nodded.
"They'll have you and the rest of the flock." I whispered. "They don't need me. I mean, God. I suck at being a mom."
"You're really stupid. Did you know that?" I looked up, alarmed. "Those kids need you more than anything else. I may be their father, but they need their mother."
"Whatever. Let's just get the ice cream." Fang moved aside and I left the room.
Ice cream was an awkward event for Fang and I. The kid's didn't notice though. We went to the park afterward. Fang was dragged into a game of tag. I don't think the kid even remembered that I was there.
See?
Told you they don't need me.
Anyway, I went home shortly after the rest of the Flock came. My excuse was that I wasn't feeling well, but really, I just needed to get away. I flew home as quickly as I could and went straight to my room. It was impossible to see so much as an inch of my wall, due to the multiple anime posters and pictures that covered them.
Yeah, I was a nerd. Deal with it.
I walked over to my closet. Opening the door, I searched for the key-pad along the wall. Finding it, I typed in the code that opened the door on the far side of the room.
Yes, room. Every bedroom in this house had a walk in closet, but mine actually used to be a room. But most of it was empty.
I strode across the space and into the hidden room. Like my room, this one was also covered with pictures. A lot of them were of me in a cheerleading outfit. What? You think I liked it? It was just something the girls bribed me into doing. But I will grudgingly admit that it was kinda fun.
In the middle of the room was a punching bag. It was well used and had a picture of Fang in the middle of it, like buried within the bag. It was the only picture of him that I hadn't burned, and I had made it my personal goal to reach the photo so I could get rid of it, too. Which gave me a new song.
State the obvious,
I didn't get my perfect fantasy
I realize you love yourself
more than you could ever love me
So go and tell your friends
that I'm obsessive and crazy
That's fine I'll tell
mine that you're gay!
By the way...
[Chorus:]
I hate that stupid old pickup truck
You never let me drive
You're a redneck heartbreak
Who's really bad at lying
So watch me strike a match
On all my wasted time
As far as I'm concerned you're
Just another picture to burn
There's no time for tears,
I'm just sitting here planning my revenge
There's nothing stopping me
From going out with all of your best friends
And if you come around saying sorry to me
My daddy's gonna show you how sorry you'll be
[Chorus]
And if you're missing me,
You'd better keep it to yourself
'cause coming back around here
Would be bad for your health...
'cause I hate that stupid old pickup truck
You never let me drive
You're a redneck heartbreak
Who's really bad at lying
So watch me strike a match
On all my wasted time
In case you haven't heard,
I really really hate that...
[Chorus]
Burn, burn, burn, baby, burn
You're just another picture to burn
Baby, burn...
I changed songs and began punching and kicking the bag.
(Dance Floor Anthem - Good Charlotte)
She's going out to forget they were together
All that time he was taking her for granted
She wants to see if there's more
Than he gave she's looking for
He calls her up
He's trippin' on the phone now
He doesn't want her out there
And alone now
He knows she's movin' it
Knows she's using it
Now he's losing it, she don't care
Everybody put up your hands
Say I don't wanna be in love
I don't wanna be in love
Feel the beat now
If you've got nothing left
Say I don't wanna be in love
I don't wanna be in love
Back it up now
You've got a reason to live
Say I don't wanna be in love
I don't wanna be in love
Feelin' good now
Don't be afraid to get down
Say I don't wanna be in love
I don't wanna be in love
He was always giving her attention
Looking hard to find the things she mentioned
He was dedicated but most suckers hate it
That girl was fine but she didn't appreciate him
She calls him up
She's trippin' on the phone now
He had to get up
And he ain't comin' home now
He's tryin' to forget her
That's how we come with him
When he first met her
When they first got together
Everybody put up your hands
Say I don't wanna be in love
I don't wanna be in love
Feel the beat now
If you got nothing left
Say I don't wanna be in love
I don't wanna be in love
Back it up now
You got a reason to live
Say I don't wanna be in love
I don't wanna be in love
Feelin' good now
Don't be afraid to get down
Say I don't wanna be in love
I don't wanna be in love
To the beat, to the beat, to the beat
You got nothing to lose
Don't be afraid to get down
We break up, it's something that we do now
Everyone has got to do it sometime
It's okay, let it go
Get out there and find someone
It's too late to be trippin' on the phone here
Get off the wire, know everything is good here
Stop what you're doin', you don't wanna ruin
The chance that you got to find a new one
Everybody put up your hands
Say I don't wanna be in love
I don't wanna be in love
Feel the beat now
If you got nothing left
Say I don't wanna be in love
I don't wanna be in love
Back it up now
You got a reason to live
Say I don't wanna be in love
I don't wanna be in love
Feelin' good now
Don't be afraid to get down
Say I don't wanna be in love
I don't wanna be in love
No, no
Now you know what to do
So come on, get up, girl
(Beauty From Pain- Superchick)
The lights go out all around me
One last candle to keep out the night
And then the darkness surrounds me
I know I'm alive
But I feel like I died
And all that's left is to accept that it's over
My dreams ran like sand through the fists that I made
I try to keep warm but I just grow colder
I feel like I'm slipping away
After all this has passed
I still will remain
After I've cried my last
There'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
My whole world is the pain inside me
The best I can do is just get through the day
When life before is only a memory
I wonder why God lets me walk through this place
And though I can't understand why this happened
I know that I will when I look back someday
And see how you've brought beauty from ashes
And made me as gold purified through these flames
After all this has passed
I still will remain
After I've cried my last
There'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
Here I am at the end of me
Trying to hold to what I can't see
I forgot how to hope
This night's been so long
I cling to your promise
There will be a dawn
After all this has passed
I still will remain
After I've cried my last
There'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
I just kept singing, ignoring the torn skin my knuckles and feet.
Here's to the ones who don't give up
[3x]
This is your anthem,
get your hands up
We are fire inside,
we are lipstick and cleats
We are not going home,
we are playing for keeps
We are girls with skinned knees,
we are concrete and grace
We are not what you think,
you can't keep us in our place
Here's to the girls on their boards
with bruises and scars
Here's to the girls whose fingers bleed
from playin' guitar
Here's to anyone who never quit
when things got hard
You'll never let them say
you'll never get that far
We are fire inside,
we are an army asleep
We are a people awaking
to follow their dreams
We don't have time for your games
We have our own goals to score
There are trophies to win
instead of being one of yours
Here's to the girls on their boards
with bruises and scars
Here's to the girls whose fingers bleed
from playin guitar
Here's to anyone who never quit
when things got hard
You'll never let them say
you'll never get that far
Here's to the ones who don't give up
[3x]
This is your anthem (anthem)
Here's to the girls on their boards
with bruises and scars
Here's to the girls whose fingers bleed
from playin guitar
Here's to anyone who never quit
when things got hard
You'll never let them say
you'll never get that far
"Max?" I could hear someone calling my name, but I ignored them. Instead I moved onto a new song.
This is the last time you say,
After the last line you break,
It's not even a holiday,
Nothing to celebrate.
You give a hundred reasons why,
And you say you're really gonna try.
If I had a nickel for every time,
I'd own the bank.
Thought that I was the exception,
I could have rewrite your addiction,
You could've been the greatest,
But you'd rather get wasted.
You fall asleep during foreplay,
'Cause the pills you take, are more your forte.
I'm not sticking around to watch you go down.
Wanna be your lover, not your fucking' mother.
Can't be your saviour, I don't have the power.
I'm not gonna stay and watch you circle the drain,
Watch you circle the drain,
Watch you circle the drain.
You say you have to write your rhymes,
Whatever helps you sleep at night
You've become what you despise,
A stereotype
You think you're so rock and roll,
But you're really just a joke.
Had the world in the palm of your hands,
But you fucking choked
Should've been my team mate,
Could've changed your fate,
You say that you love me,
You won't remember in the morning.
You fall asleep during foreplay,
'Cause the pills you take, are more your forte.
I'm not sticking around to watch you go down.
Wanna be your lover, not your fucking mother.
Can't be your saviour, I don't have the power.
I'm not gonna stay and watch you circle the drain,
Watch you circle the drain,
Watch you circle the drain.
You fall asleep during foreplay,
'Cause the pills you take, are more your forte.
I'm not sticking around to watch you go down.
Wanna be your lover, not your fucking mother.
Can't be your saviour, I don't have the power.
I'm not gonna stay and watch you circle the drain,
Watch you circle the drain,
Watch you circle the drain.
Watch you circle the drain,
Watch you circle the drain.
You fall asleep during foreplay,
'Cause the pills you take, are more your forte.
I'm not sticking around to watch you go down.
"Momma?" this time it was Alex calling. I sighed.
I could ignore the others. But my kids? No way.
"I'm in here!"I called back. Demon knew the code to get in here. "In the Code-Room!" then I continued singing.
Staring out into the world
across the street
You hate the way your life
turned out to be
He's pulling up in the driveway
and you don't make a sound
Cause you always learn to hold t
he things you want to say
Your always going to be afraid
[Chorus:]
There's only hate
There's only tears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Oh so what will you do?
There's only lies
There's only fears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Broken down like a mirror
smashed to pieces
You learned the hard way
to shut your mouth and smile
If these walls could talk
they would have so much to say
Cause every time you fight the scars are
gonna heal but there never gonna go away
[Chorus:]
There's only hate
There's only tears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Oh so what will you do?
There's only lies
There's only fears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Oh no So what will you do?
Your falling, your screaming
Your stuck in the same old nightmare
He's lying, your crying
There's nothing left to salvage
Kick the door cause this is over
Get me out of here
(Kick the door)
[Chorus:]
There's only hate
There's only tears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Oh so what will you do?
There's only lies
There's only fears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Tell me what will you do?
There's only hate
There's only tears
There's only pain
There is no love here.
I heard clapping behind me. I spun around. Fang was behind me. I glowered at him and then...
