A.N MAJOR ANGEL SPOILERS!

Three weeks later...

Max's POV

I sat in the over-stuffed chair in the far corner of our living room. Yeah, Fang was still here. Currently entertaining the kids by lifting the sofa with only one arm, turning invisible and tickling the crap outta them, and making things like the lamps and tables dance.

It took a while (like three hours), but Demon finally forgave me for walking out on her during labour. Of course after I told her the whole story, she sent Skittle, Helsing, Lollipop, and Teddy after him. I think he still has the bruises on... well, everywhere!

Fang's flock was here, too. And guess what? Max 2.. I mean Maya was part of it. I found out that her and I have twin-like curses. We can hear each others thoughts, and feel each others pain. It sucks, like, big time. Why? Because it means that I can't kill her, that's why.

"Mommy!" I looked down. Cynder was jumping up and down in front of me. "Daddy wants to take me and you and Ari and Alex out for ice cream. Can we go?"

"Of course we can, baby girl!" I said, putting on a fake smile. "Just let me get my purse and coat, then we'll go. 'Kay?" she nodded happily then bounded back to the others.

I rose from my seat and started toward the stairs. I was halfway there when I heard Fang call my name.

"Max," he said, raising an eyebrow at me. "You know that's it July, right?" I nodded, pulling the sleeves of my shirt down to cover my wrists.

"I know. I'm just... cold, is all." then I turned around and proceeded up the stairs.

I pulled out Sara, my knife. I watched the light bounce off of it for a moment then slid her across my wrist.

Sixty.

Sixty times Fang's spoken to me, leading to the sixty scars on my wrists. I put Sara back into her hiding spot, grabbed my jacket, and turned to leave.

But I couldn't.

Why?

Because Fang was standing in my doorway.

"Move." I hissed.

"No." he said, crossing his arms. "Tell me why."

I refused to so much as look at him.

"Max..." Fang sounded like he was threatening me.

"Just leave me alone, Fang." I mumbled, trying to push past him. He wouldn't budge. "Please, Fang. I don't wanna talk about it. Especially not with you."

"Look, Max." he muttered, grabbing my arms. "You have three kids downstairs, waiting for you. Did you even consider what would happen if you committed suicide? Did you?" I nodded.

"They'll have you and the rest of the flock." I whispered. "They don't need me. I mean, God. I suck at being a mom."

"You're really stupid. Did you know that?" I looked up, alarmed. "Those kids need you more than anything else. I may be their father, but they need their mother."

"Whatever. Let's just get the ice cream." Fang moved aside and I left the room.

Ice cream was an awkward event for Fang and I. The kid's didn't notice though. We went to the park afterward. Fang was dragged into a game of tag. I don't think the kid even remembered that I was there.

See?

Told you they don't need me.

Anyway, I went home shortly after the rest of the Flock came. My excuse was that I wasn't feeling well, but really, I just needed to get away. I flew home as quickly as I could and went straight to my room. It was impossible to see so much as an inch of my wall, due to the multiple anime posters and pictures that covered them.

Yeah, I was a nerd. Deal with it.

I walked over to my closet. Opening the door, I searched for the key-pad along the wall. Finding it, I typed in the code that opened the door on the far side of the room.

Yes, room. Every bedroom in this house had a walk in closet, but mine actually used to be a room. But most of it was empty.

I strode across the space and into the hidden room. Like my room, this one was also covered with pictures. A lot of them were of me in a cheerleading outfit. What? You think I liked it? It was just something the girls bribed me into doing. But I will grudgingly admit that it was kinda fun.

In the middle of the room was a punching bag. It was well used and had a picture of Fang in the middle of it, like buried within the bag. It was the only picture of him that I hadn't burned, and I had made it my personal goal to reach the photo so I could get rid of it, too. Which gave me a new song.

State the obvious,

I didn't get my perfect fantasy

I realize you love yourself

more than you could ever love me

So go and tell your friends

that I'm obsessive and crazy

That's fine I'll tell

mine that you're gay!

By the way...

[Chorus:]

I hate that stupid old pickup truck

You never let me drive

You're a redneck heartbreak

Who's really bad at lying

So watch me strike a match

On all my wasted time

As far as I'm concerned you're

Just another picture to burn

There's no time for tears,

I'm just sitting here planning my revenge

There's nothing stopping me

From going out with all of your best friends

And if you come around saying sorry to me

My daddy's gonna show you how sorry you'll be

[Chorus]

And if you're missing me,

You'd better keep it to yourself

'cause coming back around here

Would be bad for your health...

'cause I hate that stupid old pickup truck

You never let me drive

You're a redneck heartbreak

Who's really bad at lying

So watch me strike a match

On all my wasted time

In case you haven't heard,

I really really hate that...

[Chorus]

Burn, burn, burn, baby, burn

You're just another picture to burn

Baby, burn...

I changed songs and began punching and kicking the bag.

(Dance Floor Anthem - Good Charlotte)

She's going out to forget they were together

All that time he was taking her for granted

She wants to see if there's more

Than he gave she's looking for

He calls her up

He's trippin' on the phone now

He doesn't want her out there

And alone now

He knows she's movin' it

Knows she's using it

Now he's losing it, she don't care

Everybody put up your hands

Say I don't wanna be in love

I don't wanna be in love

Feel the beat now

If you've got nothing left

Say I don't wanna be in love

I don't wanna be in love

Back it up now

You've got a reason to live

Say I don't wanna be in love

I don't wanna be in love

Feelin' good now

Don't be afraid to get down

Say I don't wanna be in love

I don't wanna be in love

He was always giving her attention

Looking hard to find the things she mentioned

He was dedicated but most suckers hate it

That girl was fine but she didn't appreciate him

She calls him up

She's trippin' on the phone now

He had to get up

And he ain't comin' home now

He's tryin' to forget her

That's how we come with him

When he first met her

When they first got together

Everybody put up your hands

Say I don't wanna be in love

I don't wanna be in love

Feel the beat now

If you got nothing left

Say I don't wanna be in love

I don't wanna be in love

Back it up now

You got a reason to live

Say I don't wanna be in love

I don't wanna be in love

Feelin' good now

Don't be afraid to get down

Say I don't wanna be in love

I don't wanna be in love

To the beat, to the beat, to the beat

You got nothing to lose

Don't be afraid to get down

We break up, it's something that we do now

Everyone has got to do it sometime

It's okay, let it go

Get out there and find someone

It's too late to be trippin' on the phone here

Get off the wire, know everything is good here

Stop what you're doin', you don't wanna ruin

The chance that you got to find a new one

Everybody put up your hands

Say I don't wanna be in love

I don't wanna be in love

Feel the beat now

If you got nothing left

Say I don't wanna be in love

I don't wanna be in love

Back it up now

You got a reason to live

Say I don't wanna be in love

I don't wanna be in love

Feelin' good now

Don't be afraid to get down

Say I don't wanna be in love

I don't wanna be in love

No, no

Now you know what to do

So come on, get up, girl

(Beauty From Pain- Superchick)

The lights go out all around me

One last candle to keep out the night

And then the darkness surrounds me

I know I'm alive

But I feel like I died

And all that's left is to accept that it's over

My dreams ran like sand through the fists that I made

I try to keep warm but I just grow colder

I feel like I'm slipping away

After all this has passed

I still will remain

After I've cried my last

There'll be beauty from pain

Though it won't be today

Someday I'll hope again

And there'll be beauty from pain

You will bring beauty from my pain

My whole world is the pain inside me

The best I can do is just get through the day

When life before is only a memory

I wonder why God lets me walk through this place

And though I can't understand why this happened

I know that I will when I look back someday

And see how you've brought beauty from ashes

And made me as gold purified through these flames

After all this has passed

I still will remain

After I've cried my last

There'll be beauty from pain

Though it won't be today

Someday I'll hope again

And there'll be beauty from pain

You will bring beauty from my pain

Here I am at the end of me

Trying to hold to what I can't see

I forgot how to hope

This night's been so long

I cling to your promise

There will be a dawn

After all this has passed

I still will remain

After I've cried my last

There'll be beauty from pain

Though it won't be today

Someday I'll hope again

And there'll be beauty from pain

You will bring beauty from my pain

I just kept singing, ignoring the torn skin my knuckles and feet.

Here's to the ones who don't give up

[3x]

This is your anthem,

get your hands up

We are fire inside,

we are lipstick and cleats

We are not going home,

we are playing for keeps

We are girls with skinned knees,

we are concrete and grace

We are not what you think,

you can't keep us in our place

Here's to the girls on their boards

with bruises and scars

Here's to the girls whose fingers bleed

from playin' guitar

Here's to anyone who never quit

when things got hard

You'll never let them say

you'll never get that far

We are fire inside,

we are an army asleep

We are a people awaking

to follow their dreams

We don't have time for your games

We have our own goals to score

There are trophies to win

instead of being one of yours

Here's to the girls on their boards

with bruises and scars

Here's to the girls whose fingers bleed

from playin guitar

Here's to anyone who never quit

when things got hard

You'll never let them say

you'll never get that far

Here's to the ones who don't give up

[3x]

This is your anthem (anthem)

Here's to the girls on their boards

with bruises and scars

Here's to the girls whose fingers bleed

from playin guitar

Here's to anyone who never quit

when things got hard

You'll never let them say

you'll never get that far

"Max?" I could hear someone calling my name, but I ignored them. Instead I moved onto a new song.

This is the last time you say,

After the last line you break,

It's not even a holiday,

Nothing to celebrate.

You give a hundred reasons why,

And you say you're really gonna try.

If I had a nickel for every time,

I'd own the bank.

Thought that I was the exception,

I could have rewrite your addiction,

You could've been the greatest,

But you'd rather get wasted.

You fall asleep during foreplay,

'Cause the pills you take, are more your forte.

I'm not sticking around to watch you go down.

Wanna be your lover, not your fucking' mother.

Can't be your saviour, I don't have the power.

I'm not gonna stay and watch you circle the drain,

Watch you circle the drain,

Watch you circle the drain.

You say you have to write your rhymes,

Whatever helps you sleep at night

You've become what you despise,

A stereotype

You think you're so rock and roll,

But you're really just a joke.

Had the world in the palm of your hands,

But you fucking choked

Should've been my team mate,

Could've changed your fate,

You say that you love me,

You won't remember in the morning.

You fall asleep during foreplay,

'Cause the pills you take, are more your forte.

I'm not sticking around to watch you go down.

Wanna be your lover, not your fucking mother.

Can't be your saviour, I don't have the power.

I'm not gonna stay and watch you circle the drain,

Watch you circle the drain,

Watch you circle the drain.

You fall asleep during foreplay,

'Cause the pills you take, are more your forte.

I'm not sticking around to watch you go down.

Wanna be your lover, not your fucking mother.

Can't be your saviour, I don't have the power.

I'm not gonna stay and watch you circle the drain,

Watch you circle the drain,

Watch you circle the drain.

Watch you circle the drain,

Watch you circle the drain.

You fall asleep during foreplay,

'Cause the pills you take, are more your forte.

I'm not sticking around to watch you go down.

"Momma?" this time it was Alex calling. I sighed.

I could ignore the others. But my kids? No way.

"I'm in here!"I called back. Demon knew the code to get in here. "In the Code-Room!" then I continued singing.

Staring out into the world

across the street

You hate the way your life

turned out to be

He's pulling up in the driveway

and you don't make a sound

Cause you always learn to hold t

he things you want to say

Your always going to be afraid

[Chorus:]

There's only hate

There's only tears

There's only pain

There is no love here

Oh so what will you do?

There's only lies

There's only fears

There's only pain

There is no love here

Broken down like a mirror

smashed to pieces

You learned the hard way

to shut your mouth and smile

If these walls could talk

they would have so much to say

Cause every time you fight the scars are

gonna heal but there never gonna go away

[Chorus:]

There's only hate

There's only tears

There's only pain

There is no love here

Oh so what will you do?

There's only lies

There's only fears

There's only pain

There is no love here

Oh no So what will you do?

Your falling, your screaming

Your stuck in the same old nightmare

He's lying, your crying

There's nothing left to salvage

Kick the door cause this is over

Get me out of here

(Kick the door)

[Chorus:]

There's only hate

There's only tears

There's only pain

There is no love here

Oh so what will you do?

There's only lies

There's only fears

There's only pain

There is no love here

Tell me what will you do?

There's only hate

There's only tears

There's only pain

There is no love here.

I heard clapping behind me. I spun around. Fang was behind me. I glowered at him and then...