This was a nightmare, it had to be. It wasn't though, I was awake, I know, I checked. Shortly after I started metatating, and my relationship with the others was fixed, I started hearing... some man. When I heard voices telling me to burn something, they were wispering, and didn't really have any kind of reconizable or voice. Then I started hearing a man that shouted more and more if I didn't do what he demanded. Also, his demands aren't just about fire, he sometimes tells me to go up to the surface, and go to some building. Not only that, but if he starts to shout loud enough, I can see the shadow of a man in the corrner of the room, practically forcing me to leave the room to hit my head with my hand or pour water on my face without anyone knowing.
Whoever this guy is, and whatever he wants, it's changing me. Ever since he started demanding and yelling, my temper has gone through the roof, and I hardly laugh or smile anymore. Like, someone will do or say something utterly hilarious, everyone will be laughing, and I'm able to keep a staight face. Sometimes, I've had to fake a laugh to seem happy, but I mostly just forget. The others have tried to ask whats wrong but that just fuels my temper.
So long story short, my life is going down the toilet right now.
The worst part is, Raph puts up with all this. He keeps treating me good and I just act like it's nothing. I have even considered dumping him, but that will probably hurt him even more. I'm really trying to be good to him, but it's like my sympathy button has been destroyed.
This trama not only is affecting my social and mental state, but also my phisical state. I haven't taken a shower in days, I hardly comb my hair, I barely sleep, and I don't eat that much anymore. It's as though I don't care anymore.
I'm just glad I haven't killed myself, or someone else.
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I was sitting with the guys and April watching TV. It was a normal day so far, barely anything from the strange man. Which is good for the others, and my sanity.
Just as I thought that I was doing good, I heard him, "Do it, do it now. Kill Donnie."
My eyes grew wide and my head slowly looked to Donnie's derection. Their was a shadow of a man by Donnie grinning a hudge evil grin and Donnie kept looking at the TV like there was nothing wrong. Then I had vision of me strangling Donnie and... I enjoyed it. His scream, the sound he made when he choked...
I screamed.
I threw my hands on the top of my head and screamed, "NO! I WON'T YOU CAN'T MAKE ME! I WON'T! NO!"
In what seemed like seconds, everyone was huddled around asking me questions I couldn't even hear, and I saw Splinter run to see what was going on. I got up and stumbled backwards away from them as fast as I could.
"NO STAY AWAY! EVERYONE GET AWAY!" I screamed at them, tears falling down my checks, and fire practically oozing from my hands.
I opened my eyes and saw everyone staring back at me in fear and shock. My vision had started to shake and I started seeing eyes everywhere. I could see the shadow of the man right in front of me with narrowed eyes and an evil smile.
He's enjoying it. Every second of this torture he's getting some kind of kick out of it. I thought while screaming at my relization.
I was so scared that I hadn't noticed that Splinter had creeped up to me.
"What is going on!? What are you looking at!?" he said with a comanding, yet caring voice.
"H-HE'S EVERYWHERE! GET H-HIM AWAY!" I shouted.
"Who!?"
"THE SH-SHADOW M-MAN!" I yelled looking up at Slpinter. The shadow man darted toward me, now angry at me mentioning him. He rose his hand up and knocked me out cold.
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I opened my tired eyes and sat up slowly. I was in the dojo on a mat, with a few candles, and no one in sight. I could feel dried tears on my checks and my body was stiff as a brick of wood. I stretched my arms, got up on my feet, and started to walk out of the dojo.
When I got out everyone was talking to each other very quietly. I narrowed my eyes at them and of course, no bothered to relize I was right there. I walked towards them and I cleared my throat very loudly and I finally got their attention.
"Oh, you're awake." Leo said blankly.
I didn't say anything, I knew there was something that they were hiding, but of course, they didn't want to say anything to insane little Audrey. I crossed my arms, huffed and started to walk away.
"Do you have a head ache or...?" Donnie asked.
"No." I said, I stopped walking but I didn't turn to face them.
"Are you sure?" Donnie pressed.
I turned to them, "What do I look like to you? A mental patient?"
Everyone looked at the ground in shame.
"It's just that, you really scared us last night." Raph said.
"Yeah well, what else is new?" I snapped.
"Look, it's obvious that something is wrong, but we can't figure it out unless you tell us your side of the story." Donnie said.
I knew Donnie was right, but I had to hang onto the little trust that I still had.
"Yeah, sure. Just, later ok? I'm tired and I need to relax for a while, then we'll talk." I said.
Not the answer they wanted but they took it. So the rest of the day was just awkward with my metating and training, but the worst was to come. At dinner was when I had to tell them everything, and I can just imagine what the shadow man is going to think of that. Speaking of which, he hasn't bugged me all day, which scares me to death.
Then dinner came.
"Alright Audrey, we all have been waiting all day, talk to us." Leo said sternly.
I took a deep breath, and I let it all out. I told them about the whipering voices, and the shadow man. Why my attitude has been terrible, how I've tried to get it to stop, and I even told them about my vision of Donnie and how I started to feel when I saw it. All while I saw all the color from everyone's faces slowly fade.
"... I thought that metatation would help, and for a while, it did. Then it just got worse from there." I finished.
It was a few seconds before someone said anything, then Leo said, "All this was happening, and you never told us?"
"I-I..." I started, but couldn't finish, not when I had this big mocking lump in my throat.
"You what? You don't think we could've handled it?" Raph demanded.
"You don't trust us?" April's voice asked.
"You think we can't help you?" Donnie asked.
"Why don't you trust us anymore? We're your friends, dude!" Mikey's voice piped in.
All the voices seemed to mush together in one big question, 'HOW COULD YOU NOT TRUST US!?'
I couldn't handle all the noise so, I screamed on the top of my lungs, "BE QUIET!"
Everyone stopped their talking and looked at me.
I took a deep breath, "Look, I didn't tell you because I thought you put in some mental hospital, and..." I took another deep breath, and I could feel tears starting to fall down my cheeks, "I-I thought that y-you guys wouldn't trust m-me anymore. "
Everyone's gaze softened but no one said anything. Raph got up from where he was sitting and came over to me and grabbed my hand and he gave me a understanding look.
"Audrey, we're your friends, we are going to help you get through this." April said, killing the pp
"Whether you like it or not!" Casey added.
I couldn't help but smiling.
My friends, they still trust me, they still belive that I'm good and not crazy! I thought looking at everyone's happy faces. I still can't belive that they still trust me, after everything I did to them, and Raph...
I looked up at my boyfriend and he was wearing a smile on his face.
He still cares about me, and still is with me, by my side...
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Everyone had gone back to watching TV, talking happily as if it was another normal night. Raph was watching but still had his hand on mine. I let go of his hand and moved closer to him while wrapping his arm around me. He looked away from the TV and he looked at me. I gave him a big dorky grin and nuzzled his nose with mine, which he returned.
"Eww! Get a room you two!"Casey wined, making us pull away. Raph instantly got up and tackled Casey with a hudge grin on his face.
"Well, I think it's cute." April said, giving Casey a mad look after him and Raph were done fighting. Casey huffed as Raph got up and joined me again, putting his arm around me once again.
After all that happened, my friends were there for me, and for the first time in weeks, there was peace.
Ok, so I think I will try to post a new chapter every three days. I'm going to try and see if that works because I don't usually post long chapters. (At least, I don't think I do.) So, I hope you liked the chapter!
