Title: (Don't know. I'm open to suggestions.)
Pairing: Rachel/ Santana, maybe Quinn/Brittany
Rating: PG-13 for now
Summary: I truly do love you. I know at school nothing can change.
Warnings: Attempted suicide
Disclaimer: I own nothing
A/N: I'm still looking for a title. It was suggested by SoreashaAdams37 on that it could be Bleeding Love after the song. If anyone else has any suggestions I'm open to them. This was written today. Yay for boring Biology. Thank you for all the reviews. They have made me happy. Both here and on the pezberry livejournal community.
Part 3: Sealed With A Kiss
"It's going to be okay," A voice whispers. I look up from the chair I'm sitting in. I feel like I've been sitting here, waiting, forever. Rachel had lost so much blood that it took her about twelve hors to wake up. When she finally did she was acting disoriented. I guess that's to be expected since she didn't plan on waking at all. Unfortunately, it turns out that because of how tiny she is, losing so much blood so quickly made her sick. She has been in an out of a fever induced sleep.
"I wish everyone would stop saying that. My girlfriend just tried to kill herself because of me. How is anything ever going to be okay?" I look up at the owner of the voice, hazel eyes meeting my own amber.
After the whole baby-daddy stupidity, were Quinn ended up kicked out of Finn's, she ended up living with Rachel's family. Rachel felt guilty and invited Quinn to live with her. It only took living with Puck for a month for her to accept. The Berrys ended up sort of adopting her. In the end they gave her a home where she felt good about wanting to keep her baby. Rachel calls Beth her little star. As far as Rachel is concerned Q is her sister and minie B is her niece.
It still amazes how forgiving the entire Berry clan is, not just Rachel, but her fathers as well. She forgave Q, and now they're sisters. She not only forgave, but continues to forgive, me and my cruelty At least I thought she had.
Instead she buried all the pain over everything inside. She didn't tell me she was hurting. I'm not stupid. I know she didn't like that we still had to act like enemies at school. I just wish I'd know that she thought the reason was because I was using her for sex and didn't really love her. In reality I was just scared.
I watched one of my best friends lose their family for getting pregnant. I watched how it hut Quinn to lose her parents. I was afraid that would happen to me. My family isn't just Catholic, they're Catholicholics. They live, breath and dream the bible. They still thought I was a virgin. I thought that if they knew I was gay they would send me to a special camp. It turns out I was wrong. They are just happy I found some nice person who makes me happy. Now, because of my fear, my girlfriend was in pain. Her fathers have already told me that she will most likely have to go to a psychiatric hospital.
It kills me. I don't know what to do. My fear hurt her. I should have told her the truth. I was afraid it would get back to my parents. I almost did tell her once, but then she started to tell me how strong she thought I was. How was I supposed to tell her I was scared after something like that?
I'm pulled out of my thoughts once again as strong arms wrap around my neck in a hug. Warm breath tickles my ear as the person holding me sighs.
"I don't know S," Quinn answers. "I just know that everything is going to be okay. She will be okay. What other choice is there?"
I don't know how to answer that. After a while I turn to look into hazel eyes. "You really think so?" I sound small and weak, but I don't care. In this one moment I'll allow myself to be weak and seek reassurance.
"I know so." She looks so sure. I almost believe her.
"Q, you read the note. How am I going to fix this?" I ended up breaking down and showing Quinn the note. Her and Brittany are the only ones who knew Rachel and I are together. I figured that Q would understand both where I'm coming from and what the note actually said. I was also afraid the note would make B cry.
"I haven't figured out that part yet. Well, all of that part. I know the first part will have to be to tell the truth. I think we both know what happens when you try to lie or withhold information." She hesitates for a second before continuing. " S, I think you need to show Rachel's dads the note."
I can fell my eyes go wide in shock. "Are you crazy? They'll be devastated. The note may have been for me, but she mentioned them as well."
"I know, but they need to know. I love Richard and Kevin. They are the parents I wish mine could have been. I don't want them to hurt anymore then you do, but they need to know. They can't help her if they don't know all of why she broke." I look at her trying to figure out when she went Dr. Phil, without the stupidity.
I take a deep breath and sigh. "I'll think about it."
She hugs me before looking at her watch. "I've got to go pick up Beth from Puck. After that B wants to take her to see the baby ducks at the petting zoo." I finally smile a little at that. I was so happy when I learned that B and Q had gotten together. I Q will take care of B and B absolutely loves Q and Minnie B. " See you at school tomorrow?" she asks with concern. I hadn't been to school since this whole mess began on Thursday, four days ago. I know Coach is going to kill me, but I honestly don't give a damn.
"Yeah," I sighed. "I'm being forced to." She nods before giving me one last hug and walking out the door, leaving me once again alone with my thoughts. I feel heavy as I watch over Rachel. My eyes start to close and before I know it I'm asleep.
*Dream/Memory*
I'm at the park. B dragged Q, Rachel and I here so we can show Minnie B the ducks. Brittany and Quinn are laughing at Beth's wide eyes s a little baby duck walks up to where she is sitting on the blanket and steals her cookie.
I look over to Rachel and feel my breath catch. Ever since Quinn moved in with the Berrys, and then hooked up with B, all four(now five) of us have been hanging out. Rachel is so much mellower when she is away from school. It's almost like she finally gives herself permission to breath. Don't get me wrong, she is still a diva, but the more I get to know, the more I want to make her my diva.
Q told me that she and Finn broke up. When I asked Rachel why, she just smiled and said that she found someone one that she doesn't just think, but knows she loves. She had this look in her eyes that I usually only see when Q looks at B or vice versa. Since then I have caught her watching me with that same look. That was a few weeks ago. I can't get that look out of me head. I can't get her out of my head either. I think it also might be too late for my heart.
She has some hair falling in front of her eyes. I reach out and push it behind her ears without thinking. She blushes. I feel my lips tugging into a smirk. I place my hand on top of the one of hers sitting on the blanket. Her blush deepens as she takes a deep breath and intertwines her fingers with mine. My smirk turns into a smile as I lean forward and kiss her cheek. When I pull away I catch Q looking at us. I just hold Rachel's hand tighter. Quinn smiles and gives a small nod before turning back to watch her daughter and girlfriend.
It would be a week of stolen cheek kisses and hand holding before I get the courage to ask her out.
*End of Dream/ Memory*
I wake up with my head on the bed and a too warm hand in my own. I look to see chocolate brown hidden behind closed eye lids. I reach up with my free hand and push a lock of hair away.
"I'll fix this. Everything will be okay." I seal my promise with a kiss.
