DISCLAIMER: The characters DO NOT belong to me!

WARNING: This fanfic contains boyXboy, swearing, angst, male Haruhi, and future lemons…read at your own risk. Oh and misa misa from death note makes a lil appearance in this chap.

Also please review im starting to lose interest in this story_honestly it takes me FOREVER to write these out!Anyways thanks for reading.3

It's currently 4 pm on a cold Saturday afternoon. Im wearing purple velvet shorts with black lace tights. My black hoodie (which fits too big) because it belongs to Neko, says enjoi in bright orange writing. My Ugg boots are tan and a bit dirty from overusing them. I put on my giant Aldo sunglasses. If anybody were to see me right now I'd die of shame. This was too embarrassing. Dressing like Brittany Spears before the comeback was not on my to do list. I gripped my boyfriend's hand tighter as we crossed the street. "Im hope you know, im very angry with you at the moment. "I looked all around me cautiously; any one of the people at the cross light could be a person I knew. Neko looked down to me smirking at how clingy I was being. I hid my face and checked all around me again just to be safe. "oh and why are you mad." He smiled shaking my death grip off. He pulled out equally large Aldo sunglasses and put them over his baby blue eyes. As the light flashed red, we crossed the crowded street. I grabbed his hand in another death grip; staring ahead I could see the ink shop. Finally arriving on the other side of the street, Neko smiled. "After all you're the one who suggested we get tattoos. I "epped" and realized how stupid I had been for letting Hikaru's dumbass choices influence me,

~~~Two years ago~~~

Hikaru was lying on top of me. His long legs hung loosely on the bed and his arms were wrapped around me. It would've been nice if he hadn't been scolding me. "Kaoru why did you do that with Haruhi today?" My twins arms loosened for a second then retightened with more force than before. I decided to play dumb. "What are you talking about?" He clucked his tongue. "You know how you finger feed him in lunch today.." Hikaru's grip tightened, for seconds I couldn't even breathe. He put his head between my head and shoulders. "d-do you like him?" When his rushed whisper came out I felt his breath on my neck. I shuddered, and pushed my body harder against his. "No , I just find him interesting…what about you?" I suddenly felt a sharp pain in my neck then realized Hikaru had bitten me. "Of course not! I only like you Kaoru." He bit me again when I didn't reply. "Oh." I blushed as his words sunk in. "That's a relief." I ran my hands down his bare back. His small shoulders relaxed under my hands, his body got heavier and I sighed. His body so heavy against mine, felt so good; so warm. I ran my hands through his orange hair that looked almost red in the dark room and laughed.

What I don't understand, even as I write this is…why did I lie? Why did he lie! I can't help but think that if we had told the truth that day we could've saved two years' worth of lies.

~~Host club at play~~

Our twinscest act had reached a new high. We had taken Tamaki's spot as number one most requested host. Our acts no longer consisted of almost kisses and longing glances. All the kissing and touching in our acts were real. (Mostly cause we were 15 year old freshman who were scared to kiss at home.) We were bolder, not bold enough to fuck; but bold enough to touch places on each other's bodies were your brothers hands should never be. We had convinced ourselves that only we could understand each other. We were sadly and unknowingly also more ignorant. "Love that blooms to fast also wilts just as fast, love that is nurtured and feed will last a lifetime". A quote I now highly believe in.

~~~Math class the next day~~~

"The projects are due tomorrow, any later and I'll give you a zero for the term." I glared at Mr. Douche, his flabby gullet giggled every time he spoke. His gross black eyes glared at me. "Kaoru come up here I need a word with you." Glaring right back I got up and walked up to fatasses desk. I didn't even try to fake a smile. "Yes Mr. Izumi." His forehead wrinkles doubled as his thick eyebrows rose questionably. "Watch the attitude Kaoru, ill happily send you to the dean's office again." I rolled my eyes. How could I possibly respect him when he himself was so gross? "I need you to work with Haruhi on the project; he doesn't seem to understand the material." His smile twisted and turned wicked. "Im only asking you because your brother refused to do it. He's good at math that means your good at it too…after all your twins you're the same person." Never in my two semesters of being in this class had I wanted to slap him so hard. Even when he called me a fag in front of mum on parents night. I had controlled my anger and handled it like a gentleman. He smiled knowingly. He knew perfectly well that if I refused, I'd be signing my own slip to the deans. Clenching my fists I walked back to my seat. I didn't want to see his double chins any longer. "Sure" was all I said before I sat down. Hikaru snickered next to me. Haruhi blushed and whispered an "im sorry"

~~~Twins Room~~~

Everywhere I looked I couldn't find it! Under the dresser; nope, under the bed; nope, in moms closet; amazingly no. Ugh why couldn't I find my blue polka dotted shorts? Without them my shirt would look stupid. I pulled on my hair and checked under the dresser again. I reached my hand down under the dresser. Feeling around blindly I couldn't find anything. I reached in deeper my cheeks were getting red from the rubbing against the carpet, my head was starting to hurt from all the blood rushing to it, and my ass was high in the air. I blushed as I realized how I probably looked. I had finally gotten my undies with the days of the weeks on them. But instead of bunnies mine had nekos. The only problem I had with them was that every time I wore them my ass checks would swallow the panties up and make them look like a thong. Which was humiliating to my "manly" self-esteem. Sadly I am a judgmental creature (blame it on my mom.) and refuse to stop wearing them because there so damn cute. Next I checked under the bed again. I found three necklaces, one ring, five shirts, and no blue polka dotted shorts. I was at my wits end until finally, shinning like the sun; was my blue polka dotted shorts! Stupid shorts gave me a headache. At least ill look cute when Haruhi comes over. I walked over to the red coffee table which was full of x-box games. I bent over and squished my hand between the two metal bars. How the fuck did they get under there? I leaned more forward and raised my ass a little higher. Almost there…just a little more…AHH..! What the fuck was that? "hehe Kaoru your giving big brother a nice view back here, I didn't think your thong could go up any higher but…" He pulled my panties up like he had done moments ago. "Ahh s-stop Hikaru…were still at home, we can get caught!" He ignored me. "but Kaoru look your ass just keeps eating your cute lil' thong up!" He slapped my ass then decided to kiss it. "S-STOP! Your being weird!" "heh alright how about if I lick it?" without warning he licked the perimeter of my ass then worked his way in. I could feel his tongue making little circles all over my ass. He slowly made his way to my hole, and began sucking it thru my panties. "m-mm Hika haaa w-hy are you doing this, haa it's weird; brothers don't do these kinds of things? He stopped immediately, almost as if my words froze him. The tension in the room was suffocating. The awkward position didn't help either. I quickly turned around the minute Hikaru let out a shaky breath. He stood up and looked down to me. I couldn't read the emotions playing across his face. He wasn't smiling nor smirking. He looked as if he was seeing thru me…it scared me. I waited for him to collect his thoughts,like a good brother would. After about three minutes Hikaru came back to life. He ran his fingers thorugh my hairthen over my eyes, my pink cheeks, and finally my lips; they lingered there for a minute then dropped. "Kaoru why would you even say that …we were never normal brothers." I now understood the faces he had made earliert…irony.

This whole situation was ironic.

"Yeah that's true.." I wanted this conversation to end, because deep down I want to believe that what I and Hikaru do wasn't wrong. Im not stupid enough to think that it's right but…if what we feel is wrong…I don't want to know what's right. Hikaru sighed and looked back down to me. He looked really tired. His beautiful hazel eyes had bags under them. I leaned forward and kissed the inside of his thigh. I want him to be happy. Don't think about things like wrong and right , Hikaru for my sake I want to keep us as normal as we possibly can be…but the lines only so thick.

~~20 minutes later~~~

"Oh I see, you make this so much easier to understand Hikaru-kun, Izumi-sensei isn't very good at teaching!" gold eyes closed mischievously as a slender hand came up to a creamy neck. The twinkling sound of laughter came out pink pouty lips. God he was so beautiful. Even sitting next to Hikaru, he still held his own. "Yaa I know right!, I don't even pay attention in his class; I just stare at his double chins flap!" Hikaru laughed at his own stupid joke. His hand unconsciously rested on top of Haruhi's knee. Jealousy is an emotion I rarely feel since I am a vain person. But staring at them all I could see was green. "Omg, I almost forgot!" Haruhi's owlish eyes turned in my direction. "Im so sorry Kaoru-kun, that I made Izumi-sensei scram at you today!" Haruhi's eyes looked so guilty. All my thoughts of green monsters flew out the window. "I-it's fine really!...that asshole just likes to pick on me." "Speaking of assholes kaoru mffm.."Before my twin could even finish his sentence I planted a big wet one on him. Which was a horrible idea. Our teeth clashed and I ended up cutting my lip …yay for dumb ideas. Haruhi laughed and Hikaru being the idiot he was licked the blood of my lips and kissed me again. This time no teeth were involved, only tongue, yes lots of tongue…and a little bit of blood. Heh my green monster was happy. It cheered me on in my head…let's give Haruhi a show!

~~~After curfew at the Hitachins ~~~

"MOM! We missed you!" Hikaru and I said in perfect unison. "Yes my little angels, I've missed you too. Mommy's very busy right now though. Where's your father, I have a client waiting for me in the garden room." Without waiting for an answer our mother went into the game room to look for him. Hikaru and I just shrugged our shoulders. She was always too busy to bother anyway.

~5minutes later~

"Im bored Kaoru."

"Don't look at me, im bored to!"

"Yaa I wanted to play with your ass a lil longer but moms here!"

"…"

"Hey, wanna go see whose mom client is?"

"Sure, why not."

~~in the sun room~~

"Hey squat a little lower, all I can see is a giant red hat!"

"Shut up! I can't even see anything!"

"Alright sheesh you don't havta get snippy with me!"

"Fuck yo.."

"HEY WHO'S THERE?"

"oh shit Kaoru drop me, let's ruuun.!"

"I KNOW YOU'RE OUT THERE, COME OUT WHERE I CA SEE YOU?"

"ALLRIGHT LADY SHESH!" we said in unison.

"Calm down were the sons of this estate, we live here." We grabbed each other's hand. This lady couldn't be a day over 20. Her hair was gold blond with two little pigtails on each side of her head. She also wore heavy Goth make-up. Her dress was violet. The top half was made up of mostly black lace and the bottom had more purple. Her waist was covered in a corset and the bottom of her shirt flared out like a mini ball gown. Sitting down she looked little, but when she stood up she looked about 5"8. Duhh obviously her tall Goth boots added to her height. "Oh I'm Misa nice to meet you." She smiled then stared at Hikaru's and my joined hands. "Um im just curious, but why are you guys holding hands?" Without hesitating Hikaru answered. "Kaoru is my boyfriend." I nearly choked on the air I was breathing. I looked at Hikaru shocked then quickly back to Misa. I didn't want her to be disgusted..! But when I looked she didn't look disgusted. In fact she was smiling. I was confused. "Aren't you shocked Misa-chan? My twin brother just told you were lovers?" Misa's smile just got bigger. Her pretty white teeth shone in the sun. "Ofcourse I'm shocked, but disgusted?...no. I believe love is for everyone. Even if that person you love is your brother. You deserve it…After all a world without love is a world full of hate." I never forgot her words. Or the smile Hikaru gave after them. "You really think so Misa-chan?" Hikaru's words came out rushed. "you think Kaoru and I are normal?" Misa's face scrunched up. "Don't push it kid, nothings normal about dating your twin brother!" I never forgot those words either. "Shit im getting irritated mind if I smoke?" We nodded our heads and took a seat across from Misa. I don't know what made me notice it but I did somehow. Three black dots on her thin wrists. "Hey Misa, what's that on your wrist?" Misa exhaled then slowly looked down to her folded up wrist. " Hmm, oh you mean this?" She flashed us her wrist. The three dots were actually three doves. She looked back down. "It's a tattoo I got when I was a stupid sixteen year old girl." Misa took another drag. Hikaru had asked the next question. "What's it mean?" "It means.." She closed her eyes and took another drag. "It means a lot of things to me…when I got it meant freedom to leave my mother and my abusive father. Two years ago, when I meant my fiancée it meant love, and last year they meant death…these doves have many meaning to me." She let only one tear drop down her pretty face, her heavy gothic make-up started to smudge. Hikaru and I were silent as Misa tried to cry without sound. We just watched her until our mother finally came out and told us to leave. That was the last time I saw Misa.

~~Present~~

"You're so conceited!" Im currently sitting on top of porcelain sink with a glob of Vaseline in my hand. I rubbed it over my still red tattoo. In the mirror I could see my boyfriend checking himself out. "Really babe, it's not even that big. Don't break the mirror." His eyes widened for a second, then returned to their normal size. "Don't hate! My star is way cooler than your dove, anyways I was gunna ask you at the shop; why a dove?" I put my new Hello Kitty band aid over my wrist, and then hopped off the sink. It still stinged. Walking over to neko, who was now had a curious look on his face, I blushed. I didn't make eye contact. As soon as I got close enough, I put my arms around his thin waste. "Umm Kaoru?" I buried my head in his back and breathed in his wonderful sent. I hugged him tighter. I wanted to cry…all these memories that washed over me, were killing me. "I-it means at the moment I love you." Neko turned his body around and hugged me back tightly. I refused to look up. I kept my face buried in his chest. If I looked up now, I'd end up crying. "I love you too Kaoru, I was thinking of getting your name inside the star." I looked up shocked, forgetting my memories for a moment, I focused on neko. On his beautiful blue eyes, his words, his breathing…anything to make me forget the moans coming from next door.

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