"Wakey, Wakey Mitchie!" I heard Caitlyn giggle and shake my half-sleeping form. I moaned into the pillow clutching the inviting, toasty blankets closer to my cold skin. She sighed and the patter of her footsteps reached my tired ears. Finally!
6 too short minutes later I heard voice bubble around me, 3 guys, one of them grumbling about "don't wanna be here". Oh crap! Of course Caitlyn just had to bring him inside the cabin while my hair was probably looking like a tornado passed by, I didn't have any make-up on, and I was in teeny red booty shorts and an oversized black T-shirt that he just so happened to give me a while back.
Suddenly the cold air bursting from the open windows iced over my body as the blankets were ripped off of me. Caitlyn sneered before the 3 boys leaped onto my bed, jumping up and down and 2 of them laughing. "WAKEY MITCHIE!!!" I groaned loudly, thrusting me feet into the air colliding with Jason's shin so he tripped off the bed. I simply stared at Nate, scaring him off as well. Oh joy, it was Shane and I left!
I sat up attempting to get off my bed, but of course, Shane had other plans and pinned my arms beside me. I wiggled beneath his grasp scowling and struggling to break free. He smirked down at me, slowly glancing at my lips then back into my eyes. I felt the blood puff to my cheeks. "SHANE GET OFF ME!" He lifted a brow --completely not taking this seriously—and leaned a bit closer to my face. Did I mention everyone was already outside? Great friends huh?
"I like this position. On top of you … so close to your body … easily touching your lips…" Shane trailed off slipping into a distracted mood. I tensed and did the only thing I could think of. I acted on impulse, hoisting my knee to jab him in the stomach and darted to the shower when I heard his loud groan.
I swiped on the pink foundation to my cheeks, though I knew they would be color filled enough with Shane around. Tonight was the bonfire jam and even if we've been here a couple days, nothing seems to change. Shane still avoids me at all costs, so I spend most of my time with Nate, writing songs and just hanging out. He seems a little hesitant to be around Caitlyn…
"Mitchie! Are you ready yet!" Mandy wails from the other side of the bathroom door. I chuckle at her impatience to get to the Mess Hall. She procrastinated signing up for Final Jam unlike everyone else –at least her friends and brothers—that signed up on the first day. I'm pretty unsure of what to do though. Definitely singing, like I am tonight, but maybe I could play the piano too or something?
I brushed on my clear gloss and tossed open the white door smirking. "Maybe if you didn't wait to sign up, we wouldn't be worrying about an open spot now would we?" I quipped playfully as Mandy stuck her tongue out at me. Her and I had become closer and closer each day of Camp. I was so thrilled to have another 'sister' connection like I did with Caitlyn, though I wasn't found of when she spoke about Shane, like the dreams he had about me.
"Let's go!" Mandy shouted snatching my hand and dragging us down to the Mess Hall. I waited in line, eyeing Tess and Peggy arguing about something for Final Jam as usual. No doubt she was back to her "queen of camp rock" ways. I just didn't get why Peggy and Ella let her boss them around like that.
I sighed and found myself slide into a daydream about a past memory. I really needed to let last year go. Things weren't so "perfect" anymore. Mandy was chatting lively with Lola about some new dance moves, so I headed outside.
My feet traveled on their own, taking me somewhere as I continued to have flashbacks with each place I passed by. It seemed that every damn tree had a moment connected to it. Another sigh swept off my lips when I arrived absentmindedly at the dock. I watched the deep blackish blue lake water swift gently being tugged by the heavy winds. It felt like just yesterday Shane was playing his new song for me, oblivious that I was the girl he was looking for.
"So peaceful out here isn't it?" My heart shot up in synchronization with my body at Shane's deep sweet voice behind me. I stupidly blushed for no reason as he looked down at me and I tugged on my hair. See what I said about color? It's like instant red or something!
"Um …yeah." I gnawed on my lower lip desperately trying to not stare into those stunning golden eyes. I don't think my heart could handle it. My breathing was already suffering at the moment as the uncomfortable silence locked the atmosphere.
Shane pursed his lips causing me to look back up at him curiously. "Mitch, I don't want us to be like this. I was an idiot when I said those things and I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you but you did hurt me too and … I'm just … s-sorry. I-I really do care about you Mitchie, and when I'm with you it's hard to really think straight and sometimes I say things I completely don't mean and do things that I really shouldn't. Like when I blew up on you because of that kiss I … just thought maybe you um, felt that way too." He paused from the rant, a blush attacking his cheeks as well.
"Please, say something Mitch." I fumbled with my black charm bracelet fighting to collect the right words. What could I possibly say to stop things from getting worse? I really like you too? No, I did like him –maybe even loved him—but I wasn't ready for this right now. Ugh, I don't wanna break his heart again!
"Uh… don't call me that." I mumbled glaring at my boots. After counting the boundless 15 seconds in my head I carefully looked back up to find Shane once again staring me down. I felt so weak around him sometimes. He just made my whole world so confusing!
Shane rolled his eyes, trying to shake off his temper, and looked back into my eyes intensely. "Is that really all you have to say, Michelle?" I softly gasped when he called me by the name I revealed to him back during Halloween. My lips jerked into a grimace.
"What makes you thing there's anything else?" Shane exaggeratedly sighed and rested his chin over his knees, tucking them into his chest where I secretly wanted to be. I missed it so much. Right before he actually tried to kiss me, I was snuggled safely in his strong arms that protected me from everything and I would give anything to be back there again.
"Shane, I really can't do this right now ok?" I muttered quickly and hopped onto my feet, ready to dash back into my bunk for some more songwriting. Everything had to be perfect for tonight. Shane gripped my arm, throwing tingles down my flesh that I had never noticed before.
"Mitchie…" He lifted my chin gently and gazed into my eyes, begging to not leave. I tried to catch my breath, seeing that it was completely lost around Shane Gray. He bit his soft cordial lip as I frantically looked around for something to stop this moment.
"I gotta go." I whispered before running towards the trees at full speed. I could really care less if I fell into the lake I just didn't want to be near him right now. This summer was suppose to be perfect, and falling for Shane was not a part of the plan.
"So when were you planning on telling me about you and Nate?" I questioned tapping my pencil against the covered paper, layered with my deep lyrics. I already spilled to both my best friends about what happened earlier today, and had been hiding in my cabin since. Mandy went off to talk to Shane –which I was frightened about. Bad idea or is that just me? —leaving me to inquire about the real stuff with Caitlyn. Nate may be one of my closest friends, but we haven't talked about relationships, well at least current ones.
Caitlyn huffed pulling the straighter through her light brown hair. "There's nothing to share, Mitchie!" She shrieked discharging an awkward laugh. I rolled my eyes at her poor excuse to block information. Had I taught her nothing?
"Yeah right, and me and Shane are getting married tomorrow! Seriously you need to confess woman!" Caitlyn shook her head mockingly and finished up on her make-up before facing me.
"Ok, I'll tell you the story…"
"What do you think, blue or purple?" I implored holding up the 2 shirts infront of the mirror. I was already in destroyed jean shorts over black stockings, but just need a top and shoes. I decided to curl my hair, clipping it halfback with a shiny black barret Mandy lent me.
Mandy pucker her lips thoughtfully before strutting to my closet and fishing out a red flannel long sleeve shirt, which I rolled the sleeves up to my elbows and black Mignonette buckle, black boots. I colored on some light red eyeshadow, black eyeliner, and my usual clear gloss.
I turned over to Caitlyn seeing her in a black T-shirt with a cassette tape plastered on the front, the strings forming a heart, gray skinny jeans, and solid black converse. I smirked at her pin straight hair she only did back on New Years, coincidentally the last time she saw Nate. Next I turned to see Mandy wearing a white stretchy shirt, a thick red belt woven around her waist, a little jean mini skirt and red converse.
"Love the converse with the skirt!" Caitlyn gushed exchanging a high-five with Mandy. We all laughed giddily and gathered our interments, rushing out of the cabin.
"Ok, we'll be starting off with a 3rd year expert in singing, a lovely young woman named Miss Tess Tyler!" Dee exclaimed from the stage. I watched all the new girls' babble about having Tess at their camp, and how "amazing" she was.
The music started up, high tempo and quick complimented with flashing pink and blue lights around the stage, the sunset just starting to form behind them. Sure enough, Peggy and Elle strided out in matching black sequin dressed and hot pink leggings, finishing off with black platinum heels. A petite brunette trailed behind them, her deep blue eyes beaming with excitement. Wow, I guess that was Tess' new follower.
"I bet Tess paid Dee to say all those lies. Tess lovely? It must be opposite day." Mandy fired as Caitlyn and I dampened our laughter. Caitlyn gaped at the young girl glancing around the entire forest, slightly confused why she was only seeing back up. The girl was actually really pretty, and probably had talent for Tess sticking her back there. But she wasn't standing in Caitlyn, Mandy, and my way this year.
"She looks pretty confused and stupid right?" Caitlyn smirked at me, remembering how I probably looked up there last year. Eventually Tess flaunted on stage, in a silver sparkly mini dress, and light pink leggings just having to stand out. She smiled at the audience innocently, and winked at someone towards the back. I turned around when Tess began to sing, seeing Shane standing with Nate and Jason of course scowling.
I would never admit it, but I felt extremely relieved he didn't enjoy her flirtations like other guys did. It soothed me to know, I had his heart. And I kept it safely right in the spot where mine use to be, before he stole it as well. "Are you ready to perform tonight?" Mandy smiled gleaming with anxiousness. I couldn't help but smile as well.
"I'm so pumped!" Caitlyn laughed and nodded towards the stage as Tess and her followers were exiting. Sudden butterflies exploded inside me, my heart tripping over and over again at the thought of singing in front of people. Caitlyn offered a comforting smile.
"Relax Mitch, you're gonna be amazing as usual. Now go piss Tess off with that voice, and drive Mr. Shane Gray crazy!" She gave me a supportive shove though my whole body was trembling when I reached the staircase. I couldn't even remember my song lyrics, or the piano notes I was going to play. Oh good Lord have mercy! I can't do this!
Jason and Nate began to clap and cheer furiously from the crowd, giving supportive warm smiles creating the blush to flash on my face. I stumbled up the steps, my legs wobbly as jello, and sweat tickling my palms. I weakly smiled in appreciation as Dee handed me the microphone and I gripped it so tight it was pinching my hands. Slowly I ambled to the piano, settling on the wooden bench and slid the mic into its stand. Silence brushed the air as my fingers began to dance along the keys and my throat unlocked to sing.
If anyone asks
I'll tell them we've both just moved on
When people all stare ,
I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk
Whenever I see you,
I'll swallow my pride and bite my tongue
Pretend I'm ok with it all,
Act like there's nothing wrong
Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what is feels like to really cry?
Cry
If anyone asks
I'll tell them we grew apart
What do I care,
If they believe me or not.
Whenever I feel,
Your memory is breaking my heart.
I pretend that I'm ok with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong
Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what is feels like to really cry?
Cry
I'm talking in circles
I'm lying they know it.
Why won't this just stop away?
Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what is feels like to really cry?
Cry
Cry
I was met with lighting quick applause and whistles from Nate and Jason. My eyes skimmed over everyone landing on my favorite person only to see him clapping as well, but his face was emotionless and that scared me more than anything.
