AN: My beautiful, beautiful reviewers I am SO INCREDIBLY SORRY I have not updated sooner, I have been neglecting all my fanfictions and I feel just…godawful, I'm really sorry. Anyway, I will seriously make a greater effort to update more often, really I will.

ALSO, just so ya'll know, THERE WILL BE LEMON. I'm very sorry to those of you who wanted it to stay Rated T, but so many reviews came in claiming they wanted a lemon or that a lemon would be fine, so there will be a lemon in this chapter.

And akuma-chan25300, just thought I'd tell you that in Japan, the legal age to have sex is 14, a little crazy? Yes. Will I use it to my advantage? Yes.

I love you all. Seriously.

Disclaimer: I don't own Watashi Ni XX Shinasai


"Haah…" Yukina released a hot breathe as tilted her head back, sucking in air eagerly as Akira attacked her neck with searing kisses, his fingers inching up her sides, under her shirt, dragging along her soft flesh, raising goose bumps all over her body as her mind clouded and she found herself frustrated with her lack of thought, but not enough to stop what was happening.

She had always trusted Akira; they had known each other their whole lives, had sleepovers multiple times, and spent a lot of their free time together. Never before had she found herself feeling… nervous, around him, until now… but she could barely recognize that emotion as it churned and boiled with so many others right beneath her skin, making her, for once, hot to the touch.

She was melting with each kiss and stroke of skin against skin.

His lips brushed against her own and her eyes lidded as she pulled him closer, their lips molding perfectly as she drank him in, tongues twisting and teeth scraping.

She was hot, and she barely had any clothing on, but it still seemed to be too much. She pushed Akira back just a bit and he gave her space, thinking that she wanted to stop, feeling his face flush in embarrassment as he tried to come up with some kind of explanation for his actions, so suddenly attacking her the way he did. It wasn't like him.

But his mind went blank when she removed her shirt and all she had on were her panties as she sat before him, a light sheen of sweat on her skin, her full breasts bare for him to see, her nipples perked and excited as she stared at him, her gaze holding a heat that was similar to the one burning inside him. The hesitation was gone, and he moved in to finish what he started.

Their tongues extended to meet each other halfway as Akira quickly closed the distance between them and Yukina tugged him down on top of her, her legs getting comfortable around his hips as she kissed Akira passionately, arching her back to rub her breasts against his still covered chest as she growled at the barrier between their skin. She quickly grabbed the edges of his shirt and lifted them up over his head and Akira went straight back to her lips, his hands cradling her face before running over her collarbone to settle over her breasts, giving them a testing squeeze.

A gasp escaped Yukina's lips as she arched her back slightly in response, her arms latching around Akira's neck as he smiled slightly and returned to kissing her fiercely, his hands squeezing and groping Yukina's ample breasts, pinching and playing with the nipples, palming the breasts like fresh dough, earning him beautiful moans and groans, gasps and cries of pleasure. Yukina's hands slid from around his neck down to his hips, gripping them roughly as she rubbed herself against Akira's hard and completely covered length as he kissed her and mercilessly played with her breasts.

He pulled away from her lips to kiss along her jaw as Yukina gasped for air, her eyes completely glazed over in lust as she closed her eyes and let herself feel Akira trailing kisses down to her collarbone before he went even lower…

Yukina arched her back as she cried out in pleasure when Akira skipped all pretenses and bit her nipple lightly; circling his tongue around the area he bit before proceeding to take more of her soft, round breast into his mouth and suck, his tongue dancing and swirling against her sensitive nipple and areola. Her legs were tight around his waist as she gripped his hair and held on for dear life as she arched and moaned and cried in ecstasy, feeling herself become hotter and wetter every passing moment.

Akira only pulled away from her breast for a moment before she pushed herself up to her elbows and looked at him hungrily before moving to unbutton and unzip his pants. He helped her remove them from his person and now they were both only in their underwear before Yukina unceremoniously pulled down Akira's underwear, her eyes widening and her mouth watering ever so slightly at the sight of him, fully erect and so ready.

Blushing more than he ever had his whole life, he helped her remove the underwear from his body as well as Yukina inspected him, words still evading her, and she couldn't find it in herself to be frustrated at the lack of diction. The words would come later, for now, all she wanted to do was look.

In an instant Yukina had swung Akira around so he was on his back against the bed sheets as Yukina hovered over him, her mouth breathing hotly against the tip of his erection as he gripped the sheets and tried not to reveal how excited this situation had made him… at least not by the expression on his face. Yukina licked tentatively at the tip and earned herself a half strangled moan from the boy beneath her.

Yukina released a hot breath against Akira's aching manhood and he couldn't help panting softly as he watched her drag her tongue against his length, making him tremble as he tried to contain his urge to push his hips up to meet her mouth and moan deep in the back of his throat as sweat began to form on his skin with the effort he used to keep himself under control.

She steadily began licking her way up Akira's torso, her breasts dragging over Akira's exposed skin, everywhere her mouth touched, making him tilt his head back in pleasure. When she reached his lips, they locked themselves in a heated battle of tongues and teeth as Akira took the opportunity to strip Yukina of her underwear before turning them over on his bed and her legs wrapped around his hips as he rubbed his member against her core, deliciously teasing the love he's known all his life, but just recently discovered.

Yukina adopted a fierce look in her eyes that was so foreign she hadn't had a name for the emotion she was feeling when she had it on her face in that moment, but with her hands grasping both Akira's hip and length, leading him to slide inside her in a fluid motion, they both gasped in unison. Akira with barely contained ecstasy, as Yukina released a hiss of slight pain. It sparked a kind of clarity in her mind for a moment, her head a jumble of words and emotions, things so foreign and compelling she opened her mouth and panted, needing air as she felt she was drowning within herself.

But Akira was right there. His hands in her hair, his lips on her jaw and neck, cheeks and lips and she was back to floating comfortably in the sea of emotions as the pain subsided and she shifted her hips against his own, wanting him to move, wanting to feel even more, wanting to experience this to the very end.

Akira's hands dragged over her breasts down her flat stomach and stopped at her hips as he steadily began to rock his hips against her own, setting an even pace as they both began to adjust to the feeling together. It wasn't long before Yukina's arms had wrapped around Akira's neck and her hips were rising to meet his thrusts as she breathed harshly, panted, moaned and pleaded with him to go harder and faster.

He could do nothing but comply, a light sheen of sweat visible on both their skins by the light of the moon as he held on to her hips tightly, pounding himself into her incessantly, panting hotly against her skin, moaning her name, finding himself buried in the depths of paradise and feeling no need to ever leave.

"A-AHh A-Akira-k-un!" she managed to moan, her glasses fogged before she herself took them off to properly look at Akira and he stared into her golden orbs, his violet eyes an amalgamation of emotion as he whispered deeply, "Yu-kina… Aishiteru…"

And then they were lost in a sea of white as Akira pushed himself inside her roughly one last time as she clenched around him, her climax reached, and therefore causing him to release inside of her as he weakly pumped himself in and out a few more times, completely emptying himself inside her as he panted.

"Aishiteru Akira-kun." Was all she managed to say before Akira pulled out of her and wrapped her up in his arms, falling asleep together, as exhaustion claimed their consciousness.

Gold eyes opened up groggily to register that it was morning, and time to wake up. She fully remembered what had occurred the night before and therefore rose to take care of the first thing she needed to do, which was shower.

Making her way to Akira's bathroom, whilst not disturbing her sleeping silvery haired cousin, she turned on the shower and slipped in under the water once it was hot enough. Quickly washing her hair, she thought about how she would describe last night in her head and words began to string together in her mind and she wondered if she could add it to her phone story without sounding too vulgar. She knew she could figure it out. Now that would be enough romance to last her fans for a while.

Rinsing the shampoo from her hair, she coated it in conditioner before taking the time to scrub her body and finished the shower after rinsing away all the suds and the conditioner from her hair, leaving her hair soft and her skin clean and her body smelling heavenly. After putting on some clean underwear that she had in her own clothing drawer that she kept in Akira's house, she put on some cute white shorts and a black lacy tank top before drying her hair as much as she could with her towel as she heard Akira begin to stir from his slumber.

Sitting next to him on the bed she smiled as his violet eyes met her own, his reciprocated smile was such a beautiful look on his face. She caressed his cheek and kissed his lips softly, "You should probably take a shower too…" she offered as she stood up and used a hair dryer to dry her hair thoroughly. Akira groggily made his way to the bathroom to freshen up as Yukina took the blankets off the bed and tossed them in the washing machine before replacing them with new ones. She put on her glasses and made some tea for herself and Akira before she sat down with a cup of it and began typing up the update for her cell-phone novel, absolutely engrossed as Akira walked into the kitchen and poured himself a cup before sitting across from her silently, waiting for her attention to come back to him.

She updated the novel and looked up at him, and he seemed to be lost in thought as he sipped his tea.

"Yukina…what are we now…to each other?"

Akira's soft question brought Yukina to attention… she remembered that they both confessed to each other, and at the time she said it, right before falling asleep and right after they had finished such an intimate act, she knew it felt right to say it. But now, under the bright light of the morning staring at him from across the table and seeing the same boy that she's known since childhood, she knew that she cared for him, but now, she wasn't completely sure of how much. It seems that what had happened between them proved to effectively confuse her concept of her feelings for her beloved cousin.

Her beloved…

She shook her head slightly, knowing that she needed to give him an answer.

"I'm not sure Akira-kun…I don't think we're really just cousins to each other anymore… but I also don't think I know what we truly are to each other just yet… this is very new, and I know I care about you a lot, and it feels right to say that I love you, but I don't think it's the love I have for someone who is my cousin, and I don't know if what happened last night was just lust, or if I really love you as… my mate, and last night we... made love."

There was silence as both let the words settle between them, sinking in with the warmth of the tea into the pits of their stomachs.

"I'm sure I love you Yukina, I have no doubt. I doubted for a long time, but not anymore. I'll give you as much time as you want and need, because I love you." He looked up at her through his silver bangs and Yukina found herself marveling at how beautifully his amethyst eyes sparkled before shaking her head and nodding in agreement, relief and something else swirling in her heart. Whatever it was, it was warm and heavy and she couldn't place it, but she knew it had something to do with Akira's understanding and patience.

They took the time to do their homework for the weekend in the morning and once finished, they got ready and left for the subway station that would take them to the amusement park. On the subway, Yukina distracted herself by reading the comments and views her cellphone novel had received in such a short amount of time. 'Yupina' sat in first place in popularity by a very comfortable distance, and Yukina couldn't but feel supremely happy about this. Akira, ever observant to all things involving Yukina, noticed her happiness and reflected it with a smile on his lips as he gripped her hand a little tighter.

Once they arrived at the amusement park, making through the ticket scans and the security, the first ride they opted to go on was the carousel. Akira, being ever the gentleman, helped Yukina onto her chosen horse before boarding his own right before the ride began. As the carousel turned, with Yukina giggling softly as she enjoyed the ride, and Akira smiling at her cute sounds of laughter, Yukina glanced at the crowd around the carousel and caught a pair of deep grey eyes glued to her.

Akira became distracted by the changing lights and the moving parts, but as the carousel turned around back to where she had spotted that familiar gaze, she saw it again. Shigure was there, standing next to a girl from their class, and she seemed to be tugging at his arm, trying to get his attention as he stared right back at Yukina, his gaze was wide and intense, as if he hadn't expected seeing her there.

The ride abruptly ended at that point, with Yukina's golden gaze meeting the grey eyes of Shigure before she turned away and smiled at Akira as he helped her off the colorful, fake horse. They exited the ride hand in hand as Yukina made sure to steer Akira clear of Shigure, she wanted to enjoy the day with Akira and she didn't want the playboy ruining it for either of them.

After Yukina and Akira had boarded two roller coasters, Akira had politely begged Yukina that they get a snack, and Yukina, having always been ever so doting towards her cousin, happily agreed. They quickly reached a small ice cream shop near the merry-go-round and ordered a tall ice cream that they shyly shared, blushing as they both licked from the same cone. Yukina noted each and every burst of warmth and emotion in her heart from various small actions in words shared with Akira throughout the day, delighting in all of them.

After a short time, Yukina politely excused herself to go to the bathroom and left Akira waiting on the bench to work on the ice cream they were sharing on his own. She turned the corner past one of the prize winning games located throughout the park and was instantly pressed against the wall by a very familiar presence.

"No. I refuse. I will not stay away from you, you can't just walk into my life and demand my attention and then just throw me away like trash. I want you, Yukina." Shigure's gaze never wavered as Yukina stood, transfixed and pressed against the wall, her eyes wide with surprise.

"And I'm… I'm sorry for what I did to you before… for the way I acted. I'm not a saint, and you know that. I don't have to pretend around you, I don't have to put on a mask and put on an act for you. I like it. I want more of that." He murmured the last sentence as he brushed his lips against her own before she turned away slightly.

"I'm here with Akira, and you're supposed to be here with someone else too… what do you think you're doing?" It was a dull curiosity that pushed her to ask such a question. He seemed to have an answer prepared for it though.

"She doesn't really mean anything to me, none of them do… She invited me to go here with her and I decided to humor her because I needed a distraction after… yesterday."

"Then how do I know that you are actually serious about me, how am I supposed to know that I actually mean anything to you?" Yukina looked back into his eyes and challenged all his claims with the single opening she had found that he had blatantly admitted. He stared back, unafraid, unashamed.

"Because I think I might be in love with you." She looked away as he said this, her face beginning to burn as she fought the reactions that were beginning to ignite inside of her.

Yukina stared hard at the restroom signs as she contemplated what to do in this scenario. It seemed as though 'Yupina' would become increasingly more popular with the amount of inspiring romance and drama finding its way into her life.


I feel so terrible awful for making you all wait for so long, I mean really… I'm just absolutely terrible.

Thank you all so much for reading my story thus far, I'm really really sorry for the wait, I really am. Please leave me a review, they're the reason I keep updating, seriously, your kind words inspire me.

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