I didn't remember finishing this chapter at all. But, I'm sorry if it's full of non-sense drama and errors. Don't worry guys, I'm sure the next chapter will be as sweet as the last 2 chapters. If you want to suggest something, my inbox is open and you can even suggest it in the reviews. :D

Hold My Hand

"Their cupcakes are awesome!" I exclaimed as I took a bite on my cupcake. Lucy nodded, and munches on her food. We decided to go out since Shannon and Troian went out just hours ago.

"By the way, did Troian tell you were they're going?" I asked and took a sip on my juice. She nodded and wiped her chin.

"She said they were going to buy a new game. I'm sure it's all about zombies and killing again." She replied and chuckled.

"What's with zombies anyway? I honestly can't relate with those two." I said and she shrugged. We both laughed and Lucy grabbed her laptop from her bag.

"Hey Ash, I just heard this song from the playlist of Troian and thought maybe you'll like it." She said and opened one folder from the desktop. She typed some keys from the search bar and the files lessened.

"What is it?" I asked and felt giddy inside. I'm seriously addicted to music. I mean, who doesn't?

"It's by Sean Paul and I think the title's hold my hand." When she found the music file, she double clicks the icon and the music player popped out of nowhere. The music then played and she lowers the volume to avoid disturbance.

The song continued to play and when it ended, I looked at Lucy's green eyes and smiled.

"Have you seen the music video yet?"

"Nope. Why'd you ask?" She asked and chuckled. I shook my head and turned her laptop so it would be facing me.

"Can we watch the video now?" I asked. I looked at her with hopeful puppy eyes. No one can't resist this, not even Lucy.

"Yes. We should totally watch it!" She gushed and ushered me to search for the video. After typing the title on the search bar, I clicked on the first thumbnail because it says that it was the official video of the song.

"This would be awesome!" I exclaimed and let the video load for a while. I then looked at Lucy again and she's beside me now, eating her cupcakes. She was stuffing them in her mouth.

"Luce, are you alright?"

"Yesh. Whad yo ashk?" she replied with her mouth full, crumbs sputtering out of her mouth.

"What?" I asked. I can't clearly determine her sentence. She chewed faster and gulped down the small cake.

"I said, yes. Why'd you ask?"

"You were eating them all at once."

"It's not like that. I just wanted to know how many cupcakes can fit on my mouth." She explained and we both chuckled.

"Are you planning on joining a competition or something?" She laughed and I can't help myself but laugh too. What a silly day!

"Nope, not really. I'm just being my silly self today." She said and smiled. I smiled back and noticed that the video completed its loading. I clicked played and we both watched and stared intently on the screen.

"Is that…I-Is that Shannon?" I asked, completely shocked at the girl being featured in the video. I must have drooled when Lucy closed my mouth.

"Do you want flies to enter your mouth? FLIES!" She reminded and focused on the video.

He was touching her, caressing her skin, his nose brushing to her. His hands holding her hands and they were dangerously close. Like a kissing distance or something. Or maybe worse, they really kissed.

I clenched my fist, banged them to the table and stood up. Lucy, taken aback with my actions, stood up too and touched my shoulder.

"Ash, what's wrong?" she asked, her voice a little shaky. I'm not really this jealous type of girlfriend but…but I didn't know about this. She hasn't told me about this.

"I'm sorry Luce. I got to go. Catch you later." I quickly said and run through the front door to my car leaving Lucy all alone. I didn't mean for this to happen. I wasn't really aware I had tears in my eyes until I touched a wet part on my steering wheel.

I punched it, which results to the reddening of my knuckles. I then drove home, not wanting to deal with anyone yet nor interacting with them. When I reached our home, I parked the car on the garage and went straight to the door and unlocked it with my keys.

I entered and closed the door behind me. I went upstairs and went inside our room. I faced the mirror and observed my appearance. I'm a wreck. Smeared make-up from crying, bloodshot eyes from too much crying, red nose from also crying, and I'm blushing.

Not in a way that I'm embarrassed or shy or the temperature's hot but with anger. He was caressing her face and…and…I-I don't know anymore. I looked over myself again, contemplating whether or not to do this.

I decided it can't harm me that easily so I did what I wasn't allowed to do. I punched the mirror, breaking it into pieces and particles cut through my skin, wounding me. I didn't care if it was painful or not, I was too numb to react.

I collapsed on the bed, tears still streaming down my face, and fell asleep with my wounded hand on my chest…on my heart.

As I woke up, I noticed that it's now morning. Guess I slept in straight last night and didn't bother to change my clothes. Just then, I glanced at my clothes and noticed I was now wearing my favorite pajamas.

Suddenly, I remembered the memories from yesterday. I glanced at my hand and it was now wrapped securely on bandages. Okay, I didn't remember anything about me treating my wound yesterday nor changing my clothes. Oh…Right, its Shay.

As I walked down the stairs, I saw Shay lounging on the couch with a game controller on her hands.

"Good morning, babe!" She greeted and stopped her game to give me a kiss and hug. I then gently pushed her back and keep away my distance from her. She then furrowed her eyebrows and inched towards me.

"Back off." I kind of growled. She was taken aback with my action but still insisted to inch towards me.

"What did I do? Yesterday we're all happy but now, you're pushing me away? Tell me, Ash." She asked and waited for my response but I didn't. I can't do this.

"Answer me, Ash. What did I do?" She asked again and this time I answered. She's not going to stop unless I tell her what the problem is.

"My problem? My problem is you! You didn't tell me about that freaking music video you featured in!" I exclaimed and punched the wall. She then rushed towards me and held both of my hands.

"Don't do that. And what exactly- Oh, that." She said and avoided eye contact.

"Now tell me why you didn't tell me about it." I said with anger and confusion laced in my voice.

"I didn't tell you about it because I know you would react this way. I know that you would harm yourself again because you think that I don't love you and love that guy more than you but, no. I would not do such thing. I love you Ash, more than anything." Shay said sincerely and she really does mean it.

"I…I…I love you too Shay. And I thought we will not keep secrets to each other?"

"I just didn't tell you because look at what happened? You punched our mirror and got your hand wounded! When I got home, I was about to faint to the sight of you. Not because you looked like a white lady but on what happened with your hand."

"I'm sorry." I said in a small voice. I then ducked my head and I felt her walked towards me and engulfed me in a big, warm hug.

"No need to go all ninja on me, yeah?" she half-joked and I nodded. She then kissed my forehead and hugged me tighter.

"Why white lady? Did I really look like a white lady yesterday?" I asked and pouted. Shay, sensing that I was serious cupped my face and looked at me with warm, loving chocolate-brown eyes.

"Kind of but I really find you hot though." She said and we both chuckled. She then caressed my cheeks and bopped my nose.

"So, were okay now right? No keeping secrets from each other?"

"Yep. I'm sorry I got carried away with my feelings and harmed myself. I will try not to do that again." I told her and kissed her gently on her lips. She then smiled and deepened the kiss.

"Way to go Shay!" Somebody shouted from outside the window. We then both pulled away and looked at the person out the window.

"Troian!" Shay exclaimed and I chuckled. I went to the door to open it for them. Troian and Lucy then entered and they gave me both a hug.

"Luce, can I talk to you?" I asked Lucy as she pulled away from the hug. I then fiddled with my fingers and looked down.

"I'm sorry for how I acted yesterday. I didn't mean to leave you there all alone." I said in a small, quivering voice.

"It's okay Ash. But, what happened? And oh my… What happened to your hand?" she gushed out. Troian and Shay then approached us and Shay wrapped her arm around my waist, Troian doing the same to Lucy.

"Well, somebody got all dark Alessa and smashed the mirror upstairs." Shay said and both Troian and her chuckled. I then looked over at Shay and raised a questioning eyebrow.

"Who's dark Alessa?" Lucy asked and looked over at Troian. Her innocent green Bambi eyes making Troian melt.

"It's a name from the game Shay and I bought weeks ago. And Ash, Shannon isn't cheating on you. We swear it's a character name." Troian said and we all laughed.

"I didn't say anything." I said and raised both my hands in defense. Shay snorted and the other couple continued to laugh.

"But your beautiful blue eyes do." Shay commented and gave me a kiss. We kind of got carried away and we heard coughs that came from the other couple.

"You finish there?" Troian asked and smirked. Lucy then giggled and intertwined her hand to Troian's.

"Why don't we just play?" I asked and gave Shay a wink.

"Play what?"

"Video games?"

"But you don't know how."

"You can teach us. Right Luce?" I said and looked over at her. She nodded and smirked at me.

"Well, okay then. We can't let these beautiful ladies keep waiting can we Shay?" Troian said and wiggled her eyebrows at Shay.

"Totally not." Shay said and all of us then sat down on the couch and played. This is one of the best days ever even though this isn't exactly what was planned. But remember, trust is what makes a relationship tighter. So, we should learn how to trust. And don't forget also to love, because love conquers all.