Who am I?
Disclaimer: I DON'T OWN (YOU KNOW THIS ALREADY)
Warning: Swearing, no warnings yet guys.
A/N: Hi guys, I am back I have a month off from work and will be updating at least twice this week and will bring the Fic up to date. Thank you for your patience.
I smelled her, my lover but then there was pain, the pain came like Armageddon. My chest was on fire, I roar in anguish, I never knew of this feeling before now.
"Sookie..."
"ODINNNNNNNNNNN"
"NO fuck you Noooooooooo"
Even in my physical pain -which was bordering a level that was excruciating but still manageable thanks to centuries of war and torture, I felt her essence trying to leave me.
"I flew faster to our Bon Temps home, I don't know why, like a new born babe that seeks to suckle at its mother breast – it was instinct that had be flying home to Sookie's perhaps to just convince myself that she was okay.
Then it hit me, this familiar yet out of place force that knock me back on my arse and made me ERIK NORTHMAN heel like some common dog.
Normally us Vampires can't enter a home that we haven't been given an invitation to but we could still stand at a 200 yards (sometimes 50 yards depending your age) outside – from the front door.
The force that was preventing me from going any future in the direction of my wife's house was significantly more than 200 yards. It was a good 35 – 40 feet.
The radius of rescinding had increase- incredibly.
"Who the fuck could do this?"
"Fairies Fucking Fairies it had to be those little shits, but what had they done with Sookie and what was going on with our bond?"
As my physical pain piqued my mental pain finally arrived and two things happened simultaneously, I think.
Doubled over and out of breath that I didn't breathe; I began to cold sweat and hyperventilate. They felt like human symptoms –much like the symptoms I shared or rather took from Sookie when she fell ill that month before our human wedding.
Could it be that she was in pain now again and trying to reach me? I couldn't stay here like a defeated human man and grovel in the dust and wait for what was MINE.
"Master? Eric what is wrong? Is it Sookie? What ails you my lord?" I hear Pamela's voice but I was focus not on her words, for there was another as well
"My child your screams are too loud, I am here now Erik, let me share your sorrow?"
"Rise my Nordic blood, I your maker commands this of you; you can weather this with me, Godric."
To say I was elated and truly worried was an understatement.
Only once ever was I in such a state, did I unconsciously through our bond called (no cried out) for my maker. Well twice now it would seem
But he was right I did find the pain much more manageable and I didn't realise I was already standing looking at the only two beings in the world that could induce any emotion of love and happiness (other than Sookie) from this dead shell of mine.
"Godric" I politely tried to bow to my Master, lover and friend: but he stopped me with just a look
Suddenly Pam was upon me; in my personal space (not touching but drinking me in with her deep azure eyes).
"I am well my child; you need not carry that fear with you."
Needlessly breathing in the night air, we all waited for my answer to their summons.
"I do not know what ails me, my lord, my child"
Walking a few feet in forward I was finally stopped once again by a restrictive force.
Placing my hand upon the immovable air I demonstrated my frustration with a roar.
"I cannot go further."
My maker too, took steps towards me and to my surprise was able to get 20 feet further than me before he too could go no further.
A perfect cube of powerful magic (I assume) was hindering our advancement upon my home.
I was brought out of my private thoughts about Sookie and our latest incident by my master's tone
"What have you done Erik?"
There was absolutely no judgement in my master's tone, it was a given I was at fault and he (Godric) was only interested in helping me fix my situation rather than place blame.
" I hurt Sookie when I was not quiet myself and kill something precious to her (that she claim was mine as well) I have had no communications with her since the incident (except a message from a distant relative of hers saying she is recuperating) and I assume she was indeed healthy since I felt no real pain or discomfort in the bond until tonight, master"
"Erik, what was the nature of the incident; I do not wish to look into our bond to find my answers this is why I ask my son"
"I kill the child she was carrying." I truly try to sound nonchalant and I knew I convinced Pam but I didn't fool Godric for a second. I also was not shielded from his sorrow. He was not disappointed; he was truly saddened by what had transpired between us.
I was about to say something and then it happen, I was robbed of air, colossally stamped in the heart, blinded my an invisible luminous ray and then wretch from my grasp was every last atom of Sookie's , and as punishment something like a void was fasten to my soul an emptiness beyond my 1000 years knowledge suddenly took up residence where my light and love once lived
My hoarse scream never left my throat. This all happen with seconds if so long.
I knew Godric's presence was my "saving" grace, Sookie's bond was broken it seem, she was... she was... she... was... gone
Blood ran down like water from my eyes and in my weakened state I took to the sky with what strength I had left, I just flew up I really didn't know what I was doing.
Perhaps I thought I could fly to heaven and rip her from her God's pearly gates but I never got as far as the clouds, with this void fasten to me now, where she just minutes ago had lived in me for the last 3 years, I felt weight down, sluggish and it was like some new gravity induce entity was back handing my weak attempts to take to the sky – back down to the grave.
So I gave up and let my corpse fall, this time I was not sure I could muster the will to ever rise again.
But even I knew that was not true
With no Sookie a soul black as mine could even find work for the devil.
They would all die. EVERY. ONE. OF. THEM.
Tbc...
Another short update but I last minute decide to give Eric a short say. I know some of you wanted to hear from him as well.
gramma mistakes as usual.
