Now, the long awaited 2nd chapter or Shiroki Yuutsu!
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Summary: I really just want to be left alone right now and remember the exact moment that happened a few hours ago. /Aoi's POV
Warnings: little yaoi, angst, pain, emo-aoi, swearing, all that.. xD
Pairings: Uruha/Aoi, Reita/Kai, Uruha/Saga Aoi/?
Disclaimer: I don't own the GazettE in any wa- KAI! THAT IS NOT A TOY!
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Shiroki Yuutsu – Chapter 2
I wake up, breathing heavily, not moving, keeping my eyes shut, but breathing heavily. Why did I dream that? I wonder, as I fail to clench my hand into a fist, brushing past something warm as I do. That was some fucked up nightmare… A thought tells me. It's true, why would I dream about that day? Some of that didn't even happen like that, so why-.. I open my eyes slowly, and as my vision adjusts, my heart drops and raises at the same time, as I realize the person I just dreamt about is leaning over me.
Uruha..
I want to touch his face, but I can't even seem to move, at the moment, because of the shock of seeing him this close. All I can do is stare at him, tears welling up in my eyes as I do, from simply seeing his beauty and knowing it might never belong to me again… ever…
I can tell he finds the whole thing a lot to take in, judging the way he was looking my stiff body up and down, worry plastering his face. I don't blame him, but still.. He made me do this. He caused this pain. I-…
"Aoi…" He whispers, his heavenly voice sending shivers down my spine. Why is this happening? I mean.. I can't move.. I can't.. Do anything.. except watch him. He seems reluctant to lift up his hand, as I can see from the corner of his eye, but he does end up putting his cold hand on my cheek. I want to swipe it away, but.. Why would I do that? I.. Want to go back to the happy times. I'm thinking too fast I know, but.. I want.. us again.
He leans closer to me, his face getting paler as he takes a deep breath and opens his mouth. It's like he wants to say something.. But.. Why? Too soon he closes his eyes and leans back, raising his hands to cover his mouth. I watch him as he leans back down again, attempting to crack his eyes open and look at me. He fails, looking at the pillow I'm lying on, but the more I stare at Uruha's bony figure the more I take in about him. He looks somewhat weak.. he's extremely thin.. It's like he hasn't eaten for days.. he's definitely paler than I remembered him to be. He looks dehydrated, but not for water.. more like.. love? But, why would he love me after what he told me that day. My Uruha.. The two words bring back so many memories between us.. I try my hardest to talk, as hard as I can possibly do, but all that comes out of my fucked up mouth is a short croak, but it's enough for him to snap out of his daydream, shake his head, look at me, and clear his throat, as if he wants to tell me something.
He takes a deep breath before finally speaking, gazing into my dark brown eyes. "I.." He starts with a quivering breath, quickly sniffing before restarting his sentence, "..I'm sorry, Aoi." He takes hold of my hand, but I make no action, except feeling the blood rush from my face. He's… Sorry? After what he did? He's probably being nice to me.. But I want to know why!
Shutting my eyes so I can't see his worried expression, I let my heart talk with a rusty voice. "Bu-… But why," I end, coughing a little, the lack of water dehydrating my throat rapidly. He pulls down the covers of my hospital-sheets, obviously examining the bandage around my abdomen. I open my eyes to see his glassy expression, full of sorrow. "..I caused this, Aoi. I treated you like a fucked up idiot and I'm sorry. I never cheated on you I-.. I'll explain later, but.. I just want you to know I still-.." He pauses while sniffing loudly, "..I still love you." He finishes, mumbling, but I catch every word of it. I watch him as he leaves the room, a small tear running from his eye as he sniffs, his expression creasing as he shuts the door with glossy eyes.
He still loves me.
I'm not sure I caught that correctly. He.. Still loves me? I repeat his words over and over in my mind. I try to sit up but my waist is killing me effectively.
I don't recognize when someone comes in and starts talking, because my mind is somewhere else. He still… I take small gasps of air, because for some reason it's hard to breathe properly. I feel someone shaking my body painfully, but I still don't notice. I snap out of it after a few seconds and stare at the people next to me, which turn out to be a rather distressed Reita and Kai. Kai looks at me, sighing. "Tell me what happened, Aoi. Wha-.. What's wrong? Are you okay?" He questions, earning a nod from Reita, as he joins the conversation. "Yeah Aoi.. we just came in and you looked.." He broke off, knitting his eyebrows as he probably couldn't find a word to express what I had probably looked like, ".. and uh.. I was worried something happened to you when…" He looks over to the door, looking as if he expects someone to come in. I still stare at them, not moving, just looking them and dazing off into my own world again.
All I want to do is sleep.. but Reita isn't letting me as he tries to shake me to awareness. A few minutes ago I collapsed onto the bed, the events and the pain tiring me out to the extreme. Kai ran off to get a nurse, but I really just want to be left alone right now and remember the exact moment that happened a few hours ago. I guess just ignoring Reita the best I can and nodding off into the depths of sleep is going to be the best I can do, but I will try doing it.
"Hey, Aoi.. Let me tell you something." A black shadowy figure whispers to the young man sitting down. "Uh-.. Sure.." The raven-head replies, strong but nervous, feeling the cold shadow lurk over him. "Heh," the figure lowers to a mumble, moving over to Aoi's ear, lips brushing over Aoi's ear lobe, making him shiver. "I just want to tell you that you're all mine now.." He says in a barely audible tone, pressing his hands against Aoi's warm body, putting a lazy arm around the dark haired man's stomach, "and no one else will ever have you." The figure ends, leaning his head over to kiss Aoi's smooth neck. "I-.. Wha-.. What are you doing?" Aoi gulps, surprised at the figures actions. "Giving you some.. special treatment." The figure grunts in a musky undertone, putting his hands up Aoi's shirt slowly. "Wait I.. Who I-.." Aoi gasps as the figure does a figure of 8 around Aoi's belly-button. Aoi screams and pushes the figure away, into the corner of the murky room, where an extremely dim glow lightens up the figure's face. Reita. Reita chuckles softly as he gets onto all fours and clambers over to Aoi. "You can't escape from me, Aoi-sama" he says, straining the 'sama' part at the end. Reita then jumps onto Aoi, frightening the shit out of Aoi. Aoi screams with all the power he has. "Hush hush.. you'll be mine soon.." Reita murmurs, lying over Aoi and trapping him under his weight. Reita suddenly leant down and licked Aoi's neck, leaving a wet trail which made Aoi shiver and cringe with wetness. "Haha, you like that don't you? I bet you'll like it even more when I-"
The black scene faded away as I'm suddenly lured into awakening. I'm breathing extremely fast, and my heart feels like it's about to explode. Did I.. Almost have a nightmare about Reita.. raping me? But why..? Oh.. Speak of the devil.. Opening my eyes, I see my nightmare walk towards me, a huge smile on his face. I feel my face pale as I remember the nightmare more clearly. What is that wasn't a nightmare.. What if that was a sign? I can't face him at the moment.. I need to forget that nightmare before anything else happens. He comes over and talks to me happily, and as he puts his arms around me, if I hadn't lost all the blood from my paling face already, it surely has now. My throat suddenly gets a lot drier as my hands start to shake. I'm staring at a wall, eyes wide open, not even listening to.. Him.
He stops suddenly and pulls away from the hug, taking hold of my arms, trying to stare right into my eye. More memories of the dream ink into my brain, and I fight the urge not to scream as loud as I can to make him get off me. Instead, I yank my hands away from his grip and push him off the bed. His head re-appears seconds later, but he doesn't' do anything. But right at that moment, Kai thankfully comes in, stares at me, Reita, then rushes over to me and clasps me in a tight but caring hug. I melt into the warmness and listen to him whisper soothing words to me. He then stops and talks to Reita. "Reita, he's probably had a bad dream about you or something, so don't go near him for a bit." He says simply, catching Reita off-guard. "But.. How do you know that?" Kai sighs and twirls a bit of my hair, holding me in one of the most comfortable positions ever. "Well Reita, if you actually paid some attention to how people express their feelings then you can tell exactly what they're thinking." Kai says in his cold, calming voice, and I hear a gasp from his direction.
"But I do! Aoi's just a hard nut to crack.. if that's even the right saying.." Reita ends awkwardly. Kai sighs, then lifts my head with one of his warm hands. "Hey Aoi.. We're going back home in a bit!" He says in his happy voice, but.. there's something about his voice that's not right. It sounds like fake happiness, if I'm honest. But I smile anyway, ignoring the trace of sadness in his eyes. I know I shouldn't, but I want to play the young scared child with him. "Ehh.. Reita? Can you tell the nurse we're ready and Aoi was just having nightmares please?" Kai says pleadingly, snuggling me close. "Fine," Reita replies, and hearing the door close, he leaves the room.
"Hey Aoi.. I bet you want to know what your new room will look like for the next month or thousand!" Kai says, again in that faked happiness that I recently noticed. I nod against his radiating chest, feeling his surprisingly raising heartbeat pound into my forehead. "Well…" He starts, erasing one hand from holding my body to scratch his eyebrow most likely, then returning it to the place he was holding me before, "You're going to sleep in that guest room that no one uses, and the walls are really light green and there's a TV and a double bed so you can have big sleeps in it, and well basically everything you have in your room but there's loads more to it because we got a huge deal on this house so we could afford more things and there's some weird cactus thing in there and-.." I listen to him blabber on about what my room looks like, staring up at his beautiful tired eyes. There were some bags under them, and his eyes seemed to be drooping a little, but he never showed any signs of tiredness. I honestly think he's my second mum sometimes. I listened to his speech towards the very end, and literally just as he finished his eccentric- over the top speech, the door opens and I hear Reita come inside the room.
I stare at him, not realizing my eyes are open wide, and that I'm not even breathing, until Kai puts a hand on my shoulder. "Don't worry Aoi, Reita's not going to hurt you.." He whispers soothingly into my ear. But what if he does? I take a deep breath and gulp, closing my eyes as I feel him come towards us and sit on the bed. "Kai.. Aoi.. It's time to go." He says, resting a hand on my back, which is surprisingly soothing.
I look up at Kai, who nods and then looks down at me. "Hey Aoi, I hope you can walk because we're going home!" He ends happily, catching a bun that came out of nowhere. I look to my left and see Reita holding two buns. He offers one to me, and I accept it, holding the warm roll. Kai leans me against the wall, then stands up, puts the bun to the side and grabs both of my hands, making me drop the bun on the bed. "Hey Reita, actually can you hold these two buns? I gotta help Aoi walk.." He ends, looking over at me. Reita nods, and goes over to pick the food up, holding the three buns in his arms, and a bag in another. "We're going to take you into the car, get some prescription and then go home!" Kai announces, as happy as anything. I nod and Reita mumbles something to Kai. Kai suddenly widens his eyes and looks at me. "Okay! Change of plan! We're gonna re-heat those buns at home, because Reita will fetch your prescriptions, and I'll take you home! Does that sound okay?" He asks me. I nod, and his face beams up. "Yay! Okay, lets go! I'm gonna help you to walk! Bye Reita!" Reita walks out the door, leaving me alone with Kai. Kai pulls gently on my hands, and pulls me upwards, which is excruciatingly painful but I try not to show it as I keep my face calm..ish.
"You're doing great Aoi!" Kai encourages happily, grinning at me, not noticing that this is actually the most painful thing I've ever done. Painfully, Slowly but successfully, Kai and I manage to lure my body into almost standing. "There.. We-ah.. Go!" Kai says, grunting as I fall against him, not used to all the body weight I have balanced on my feet. He grabs my arms and hauls me up so I stand, out of breath but fairly stable, as my shaking hands grab onto his arms. I gently pull away his hands and take a few wobbly steps around the room. God this is embarrassing.. But at least I'm walking. My steps get stronger and I get used to the weight I'm carrying, but as soon as I get confident I trip over my feet and land in Kai's arms. "Haha-.. Hold on Aoi, you're still weak! Take it easy okay! Grab onto my arm! We'll walk out!" He says, holding out an arm, which I grab, smiling a little, showing him that I agree. He smiles, then a nurse comes in. "Well that was prompt!" Kai says, laughing as the nurse joins in. "Haha, yes it was! It's good Aoi's walking, I just wanted to measure his body weight-.. Eh.. Aoi, do you mind stepping on these scales? I need to measure how much you should eat because, you seem very skinny." The nurse says, going from happy to serious, in a matter of seconds.
I nod and walk up to her, but she walks away, grabbing some scales out of somewhere, motioning me to stand on them. I stand on it, surprised at how stable I am. The nurse motions me to get off once I hear a beep, and as I do, she walks over and writes my body weight on a piece of paper, taking a short breath as she shuts her eyes to calculate things in her head. I walk over to Kai, and he holds my arm steady. "Right.. Kai is it?" She says, turning around, and getting a nod from Kai. "Okay, so Kai, I want you to start off with Aoi not eating too much because his body isn't used to it yet, probably just a few snacks, but build it up and he'll be able to eat normally soon." She says, scrawling something on a notepad, ripping it out and giving it to Kai, who holds it with his free arm. "Okay.. I can do that!" Kai says, folding it with his two fingers and putting it inside his back jean pocket, smiling as he faces me and the nurse. "If that's alright then, is it okay if we can go now? Our friend Reita's just getting Aoi's prescription from the doctors, and I know what to do please?" He says, showing his famous puppy-dog eyed look. "Fine, fine.. Go sign out at the reception okay?" She says, smiling as she folds her arms and walks out, shutting the door behind her. "Wow.. I thought nurses were supposed to be stricter than that…" Kai said in a hushed voice, but, I believed him. Nurses aren't meant to let you go like that, are they? Oh well.
After signing out at the reception, Kai and I hobbled over to the car park which seemed like miles away, but we finally got there. Kai fastened me into the car, me still trying not to show any signs of pain even though I was dying inside. "Okay.. Aoi? Are you doing okay?" Kai says, opening the driver's door and jumping in the car, putting in the key and starting the ignition. I nod, and look out the window. I really want to avoid conversation right now. Kai looks at me and laughs. "Okay, Aoi, seeing as you're obviously thinking about something important, lets go!" He says, lurching the car forward, making me feel sick. This is going to be such a long journey.
AN/ Ho-ly moly. This was so bad to write D: I mean it's ok.. But it goes random towards the end v_v But gotta love Mumma Kai :3
THIS SEEMS SO UNREALISTIC /3
DUM DUM DUUUUMMMMM URUHA HAS FEELINGS! URUHA DIDN-.. I can't say anything xD But what will happen next! You'll find out.. *anime style tension* .. IN THE NEXT SHIROKI YUUTSU!
