Title: When It All Comes Out
Author: jazmine8448
Rating: T
Pairings: Dean/Castiel Sam/Jessica
Disclaimer: Eric Kripke owns all, I'm just playing with his toys.

Chapter 2: Going Back

The next few days passed by quickly, too quickly in Dean's opinion. He had made all the necessary arrangements at his job at the local garage. His boss was pretty willing to give Dean the time off, since he never requested any off or had a sick day all the while he had been working there.

He spent his spare time packing up for his trip, after all he would be taking his beloved Impala all that way. And to say he was nervous would be an understatement. Especially with how he was going back, when he left it was because of a wedding and now it was the reason he was going back. If it was anyone but his brother he wouldn't be going at all.

When the day arrived he decided that he would leave in the early morning, which he regretted afterward because he was so damn tired. Everything had been put in the Impala the night before so he didn't have to deal with that, just grab a cup of coffee and head out.

As he was going down the highway he couldn't help but feel that little tingle of excitement along side the nerves. It had been at least a year since Sam had visited him with his fiancée, Jess, and Dean was proud of the life that Sam was building for himself. Of all the things Dan believed to have gone wrong in his life at least his little brother wasn't one of them.

Their mother, Mary, had died in a house fire when he was only four. Their dad, John, had raised them the best that he could but unfortunately when Dean was nineteen his father was in a car accident that killed him instantly.

Dean took the death hard and shut everyone, including Castiel, out. He barely ate or slept, just knowing that his father would never be around again.

It finally took both Sam and Cas to gang up on him and tell him that John would have not wanted Dean to behave like he was over his death. There had been much yelling that night but eventually Dean had broken, especially knowing that he had to take care of his little brother and that Sam needed him.

He was glad to have both his best friend and brother there for him because otherwise he would of turned into a mess permanently.

It was a long drive all the way to Lawrence, over twenty four hours, but he decided that he was going to drive straight through the night. He doubted that he would be able to sleep anyway.

It was about ten o'clock in the morning when he arrived, pulling into Sam's driveway, his hands shaking just a little so he put them in his pocket as he walked up to the door. Just as he got to the door it was flung open and he jumped back a little in surprise as arms were suddenly clinging to him. Slowly he wrapped his arms around the small figure that was Jess.

"Dean, it's so good to see you again." She said when she finally released him.

"You too." He replied with a smile. "Where's Sam." He asked. She gave him a smile of her own.

"In the shower, we weren't expecting you for another few hours." Dean nodded and Jess invited him inside.

"Do you want anything to drink? Coffee?" Jess offered.

"Coffee would be great." He said looking around. It had been a long time since he was in this house and hundreds of memories were coming to the surface as he took in each detail of the old house. A moment later Jess returned with a cup of coffee and handed it to Dean. "Thanks." He took a sip grateful for the caffeine.

Jess led Dean into the living room and he sat down on the couch, placing his mug in front of him on the stand. They talked casually for a little while, Jess absolutely glowing anytime the wedding was mentioned, until Sam came down stairs and joined them.

The two brothers shared a brief hug and Dean felt a little relieved, although he wasn't exactly sure why, maybe because his little brother still accepted him here in the same house he grew up in? He wasn't sure how all the locals would take his coming back.

"You're early." Sam said as he let his older yet shorter brother go.

"Wasn't aware I had to be here at a set time Sammy." Dean smirked as Sam frowned at the use of the nickname, but he didn't comment or correct Dean.

"No, I just thought—" Sam started.

"I figured I'd try to be here as soon as I could. You could say I just missed my brother." Dean joked and laughed a little.

"Well then boys, while you two catch up I'm going to head over to Anna's." Anna is Castiel's cousin and also Jess' best friend.

Sam kissed his fiancée goodbye and then it was just the two of them. They spent hours catching up with each other. Talking about anything they thought was worthy of sharing. Mostly it was about Sam's upcoming wedding though. Dean was, of course, Sam's best man and Anna was the maid of honor, who he would be walking down the aisle with. Then Jess' niece, Amy, was meant to be the flower girl.

Sam had always been a nervous kid, in school he would constantly worry about failing a test or a class, he even thought that he would be the kid to trip during his graduation ceremony, but in the end things always worked out fine for him. However all those times don't compare to how nervous he is to finally be getting married.

Dean just hopes his little brother will make it at least to the "I do's" before he passes out.

But that was still not for another week.

"So are you gonna ask at all?" Dean sighs, knows exactly what Sam is asking about. And the truth is, Dean's not sure if he wants to know anything at all. Maybe he could get through his stay here without having to run into him except for at the wedding, because Cas is Sam's friend too so he's sure that he'll be there.

"Does he know that I'm here?" Dean asks after a few minutes of silence.

"I haven't told him. I figured I'd leave that to you if you wanted." Another short silence fell over them before Sam continued. "He asks about you, ya know. It doesn't happen all the time, but once in a while he'll ask me how you are."

Dean lets this new information sink in before he nods slowly. He feels a lump form in his throat.

"You didn't tell him why I left did you?" It seems so insignificant to ask now after five years, but suddenly being back in his home town makes him feel like he needs to know.

"No. That wasn't something for me to tell. He asked though, many many times. I told him that you were the only one that could tell him. After a while he stopped and that was it." Sam shrugged.

Something in Dean's stomach dropped at Sam's words. He felt an extreme amount of guilt for leaving his best friend the way he did. He could only imagine what it must've been like for Cas to come back home from his honeymoon only to find out that Dean was gone with no explanation as to why.

Sam changed the subject then, talking about much lighter topics. Dean listened the best that he could but his thoughts kept staying back to Castiel. It wasn't fair to him the way Dean just left and then ignored him. Sure at the time Dean thought is was the best thing to do. Who knows what could've happened of he stayed.

At least he'll get a chance to explain himself, even if that meant lying, there was no way he was going to tell him the truth. And that was even if Cas would speak to him, it wouldn't surprise Dean if he didn't. Only time would tell how this would all play out. He couldn't predict the future, but he could sure make his own choices, and for now he just hoped that he was choosing the right ones.

Well then, there it is. Sorry it's a bit late but I hope you all enjoyed it. And thank you to everyone who reviewed/alerted, I really appreciate it. Again I have no Beta yet so any mistakes are completely my fault. Until next time.