Chapter 3 Second chances
Another two months went by I was already six months pregnant.I decided to stay with James a little longer. Logan has stayed at James' house every night the last few weeks. Alexa was having a little girl and I was having a little boy. I decided his name would be Liam. I loved him already. The first time he moved, Logan had felt him kick. The look in his eyes was so amazing. I almost forgot how much I used to be in love with him. I broke down in tears knowing it couldn;t happen. I was five months pregnant with someone else's baby. Logan wouldn't want me now. I should have given him the chance when he finally admitted to me that he loved me. I knew he did. I had always known it. I was too afraid to get hurt by the person I loved the most. Instead, when he started dating Demi I acted out of jealousy and began dating Jesse. Logan broke my heart. He was the only one who could fix it. After Logan found out I was engaged he had finally told me how he felt. he felt like that was the only way to let go. The last two months, he had been spending so much time around me to show me he wanted to be there. I had loved him too but it was time to tell him that he broke my heart long ago and that I would have loved to try things with him now if things weren't the way they are. James went out of town for a week getaway with Halston, they hooked up on and off. I decided to have Logan stay with me that week. Before he got there I told bridgit and Alexa what was going to happen. They wished me luck. I hung up when Logan came in the house.
"Thank you for staying with me" I said hugging him and he smiled
We had dinner that night and then things started to get tense. I felt nervous getting ready to pour my heart out to him but then he cut me off and started to talk.
"Liv, you don't understand how much this means. You giving me a chance after how stupid I was before"
"Logan, im not giving you a chance. That is what I wanted to talk to you about." I said
"What do you mean?"
"Logie, im having Jesse's baby. Jesse may never get to see the baby but he is still his. I loved you once. I also loved Jesse once. i need time to grieve. You never knew how i felt about you. I should have told you before. But instead when i found out about you and Demi I got jealous and started dating Jesse. Then I actually thought I fell for him. I feel so stupid. This could be us. We could be happy and probably married and together" I said
"Liv, we still can"
"Logan, I will not spend the rest of my life knowing your raising a child that is not yours." I said
"Olive, I am willing to do it. Do you know how happy I feel when I feel him kick or move. I feel like that is my baby. The anticipation with you at the appointments is unreal. The first time I heard his heartbeat I fell in love. Liv, I already feel like he;s mine. Please let me share this with you. We may have had a rought path together, but this is how it;'s supposed to be. The three of us could be a family and no one would be able to prove otherwise"
"Logan, I can't do that"
"Liv, You know I will never hurt you. i will prove to you before the baby is born and then you can decide on your own and however long you want. Just please don't push me away again" he said
"Fine Logan, but we will try this at my own pace. I can't lose you again but I also have to think about the baby as well"
"I know, you won't have to worry about bringing men into his life. im the only one. I promise you Liv. i love you and i love him and we are going to be a happy little family. even if it takes some time.
I text Bridgit and Alexa and told them about how it went. They were surprised I gave in. They thought I would be stubborn instead I listened to what they have been telling me. Logan had been at every appointment with me so far. He was great with everything. he hasn't left my side in weeks. I was grateful to have him around. Now while James was away he was staying with me. He finally told me he loves me too. I felt happy and at the same time I felt like i didn't deserve this. Was he really willing to spend the rest of his life raising a child that isn't his. I know we could have children of our own in the future but Im going to take this slowly. I would love to see us spending out lives together. But I felt bad. James and Logan both offered to father my child. I would feel like a terrible person letting either one do it.
Sorry this is so short its pretty much just a filler chapter
