Chpt 3: Trying To Forget. (Roxas POV)

I laid on my bet, my pillow tight in my arms as I cried my eyes out. I was rather embarrassed that I told him how I felt, and to be rejected automatically.

Axel. The one person I wanted to be with, now out of the question. I laid there for hours, crying, trying to forget everything. Trying to forget about telling him how I felt, trying to forget how happy I get when I'm near him, but most of all, I wanted to forget that I love him.

Sometime during me feeling sorry for myself, I fell asleep, and woke with Xion lying next to me, stroking my hair.

"How are you feeling?" she asked in a soft voice.

"Tired," I answered as I moved to where I could rest my head on her lap.

"I heard what happened between you and Axel. Do you want to talk about it?" she asked shyly, as if that simple question was one that decided whether or not she lived to see another day.

"No. I just want to forget."

"What all do you want to forget?"

I paused for a moment before I answered her question. Did I really want her to know what was going on between Axel and me?

"Everything," I said, deciding that it wouldn't hurt to let her know. After all, I loved her almost as much as I love Axel.

I love her… That was all that I thought of after I admitted it to myself.

I love her.

"Xion… you don't think that it would be strange if…"

Did I really want to ask her if she will take the place of Axel? Could I truly hurt her that way?

"Never mind," I said.

No I couldn't. No matter what, I could not bring her that kind of pain. I didn't want to. Xion was too special of a person for me to do that to.

"What is it Roxas?" she almost cried. "Are you too afraid to let me know what it is that is bothering you?"

I lifted my head off of her lap. "Xion… It's not that, it's the fact that even though I love you, I love Axel more. To be with you when I wish to be with him is wrong and something I do not wish to do because it'll hurt you. I want you to be happy with someone who will love you more than anyone in the entire universe. Xion, I'm not that person. I can only make you jealous and hurt because my heart is with someone else."

Xion nodded her head in understanding. She knew I love her, I told her that when Axel disappeared. But I also told her that if he was to return, there would be no doubt in my mind that I would go to him.

"Roxas. I know you love him, but he even said so himself, he doesn't love you the same way. You and I both love each other. We can make each other happy. Give it a try Roxas, and if you can't forget about Axel, then I will truly know that you belong to him, not me."

I thought about what she said. If it is true that I can't be without him, then she'll be hurt. However, if I can be without him, she and I will be together and I won't have to worry about her not loving me back.

"Yes," was all it took.

Xion leaned forward and kissed me. It wasn't the rough, fiery kiss I imagined that Axel and I would have. It was sweet, gentile. It said 'I love you' with just a gentle touch and I found myself melting into it.

Xion and I broke the kiss at the same time, both taking in a deep breath.

"I love you Roxas," she sang.

"… I love you too."