Hi thank you to everyone reviewed the other two chapters. I'm really sorry if this chapter is bad I'm so rusty as I've been concentrating on my A levels and this is to get my mind off results. So sorry in advance!!! It may not make any sense and again sorry if this is so. Also it may be a little boring.


To see the look of absolute worry on my beloved face nearly undid me. She looked so horrified over what had occurred last night, which in turn caused me great worry. Did she regret what she had said? Did she regret allowing me to hold her? I certainly hoped that she did not but knowing my Elizabeth one could hardly tell. Oh I had done it again I had called her my Elizabeth; I cannot lie in my hopes and dreams and dare I say fantasises she was mine. How I wish for her to be drunk for the rest of her days! There I had said it but Elizabeth it is true; you said you loved me while you were intoxicated so needless to say I would want you to say it again. Therefore I shall see that when we are married I have a constant supply of brandy for you. Oh I sound like a rogue!!! Do you see what you do me Elizabeth? You make me think of ungentle manlike thoughts; you undo me body and soul.

"Mr Darcy from your countenance and your unwillingness to speak of last night I am presuming that I offended you?"

Offended me?! Ha! Elizabeth you are much mistaken!

"Miss Bennet I must confess that it was quite the opposite. You were delightful and I very much enjoyed being your presence."

To this Elizabeth frowned – oh dear had I again said something to displease her?! Darcy why can you never please this woman?! Every other woman in my acquaintance would have swooned over those words. Now, now Darcy do not be too hasty the reason you love this woman is that she is unlike others and always has this teasing look in her fine eyes. Fine eyes that were now unfortunately glaring at him without that teasing sparkle. A sense of dread began to form in the pit of my stomach; this meeting was not going to go well. The dread grew larger as she raised her eyebrow and began to speak.

"Oh indeed Mr Darcy am I to understand you find my company pleasing only while I am drunk, Sir?"

I grew horrified; she had dreadfully misunderstood me. I could only hope that it was the aftermath of being so intoxicated or her illness that caused her to act and speak so.

"Certainly not, Madam I find your company most...satisfactory."

Dear God man! Satisfactory?! I had also called her Madam and from the even further change in her countenance I had not said the correct thing.

I felt like crying he had called my company satisfactory? I did not want it to be merely satisfactory I wanted it to be fascinating or alluring. I want it to be so that it kept his thoughts on me while being in my company I wanted to be a distraction to him. I may sound selfish but I could not help it and if he married so be it! But I would make sure that he would never forget me. Oh I am acting absolutely horrid! Oh Darcy if only you could still love me and I would happily become your greatest distraction. I began to bite my lip as I thought of my response to him but what could I possibly say that could not offend him as he had offended me.

Dear Lord the woman was driving him to distraction she was biting that damned lip of hers! Making it seem more pink and plump than before. Oh my poor nerves – oh good gracious I sounded like her mother. I think I needed brandy! Where was that brandy that my Elizabeth had partaken from the previous evening?

"Mr Darcy I am so very sorry that you find my company merely satisfactory. Perhaps you had best depart to find Miss Bingley for I am certain her company will prove more than satisfactory."

Oh why am I being so cruel to him? I am certainly going to regret it but unfortunately nothing seems to be going right for me at the moment. The man I love is in my room and telling me things that he did not say in my dreams. In my dreams he told me again how much he ardently admired and loved me not that my company was merely satisfactory.

"This conversation would go better if you were intoxicated perhaps I could convince you to partake in some more; my dear."

The absolute nerve of the insufferable man! The foul fiend I shall certainly have more brandy but only to do something very unladylike – by pouring it over him.

"Excuse me?!"

Oh dear Lord. Please do not have allowed me to have said that out loud. No wonder the blasted woman still hates me. I think I am the one who needs to partake in some brandy perhaps we both should....that could lead to some interesting consequences. I did not realise I had begun to smirk until I heard.

"Mr Darcy; pray tell why are you smiling in such a manner. Come you must share with me!"

He was smirking for some unknown reason and I very much wanted to know why! The man truly was insufferable just like he was when we first became acquainted however the irony was that than I despised the man. Unfortunately now, well now, I was in love with the man. I had been foolish to fall under Wickham's spell but if I was to be honest with myself it is because I was so eager to dislike my Darcy that I eagerly accepted his lies. I was such a fool as to the world I made sure that they knew I was not offended by his slight, but in truth I was. What woman would not? He was handsome, rich and by what I could tell intelligent. Of course it would hurt a woman's pride. However I held this slight against him and even though I love him so very dearly now I do not regret refusing him. For it would seem that I was a mere game to him.

"Why am I smiling?"

That was a truly great response Darcy; well done man, well done. I'm surprised she is not swooning at your way with words. I could not tell her my thoughts, well not until we were married. Now that was a very nice thought indeed and made me smile further.

"Yes, you....foolish. Now you are smiling even more; have you been practicing?"

Oh dear me I wish he would not smile so it caused his dimples to show, oh and how endearing those dimples were! No I cannot let my resolve weaken! I feel that he is laughing at me! This thought came with a wash of guilt, it's no more than I deserve I spent most of our acquaintance doing it to him. Teasing him and laughing at him; indeed I even encouraged Miss Bingley to do so. It would seem that her reluctance shows that the awful woman does have some sense. I frowned; truly I did not deserve a man such as Darcy. He had no improper pride and was a kind man; and I had been unnecessarily cruel to him and misjudged him terribly. Of course I will not accept all the blame in this his marriage proposal was unacceptable and to insult my family in such a manner was unpardonable. However I could not shake the feeling that I had done wrong things by him, not on the scale of Wickham but in my own way I had. I really should apologise to the man and if I could no longer have his love than at least I could have his forgiveness. That would do, yes it would do! Now I just had to convince myself of that.

Darcy stood contemplating his answer, her remark was obviously a reference to their conversation at Rosings and he had no idea on how to answer it. As he stood still in her room he began to notice that she was no longer aware of his presence, in fact it was if she was having a conversation with herself. To Darcy this seemed very singular and though he had on occasion also done so he was certain that it did not look quite so peculiar or enchanting. One moment she was frowning and the next she looked quite dreamily happy. Jealously ran through him as he angrily thought who is that she is thinking of?! Wickham he thought furiously, please do not let the woman he loved whole heartedly still have feelings that dreadful cur! Darcy's unwelcome thoughts were suddenly interrupted by a look of pain on Elizabeth's face. He moved forward quickly to her.

"Miss Elizabeth, are you well? You are not still feeling ill I hope?"

Oh the poor man looks quite concerned! I wish he did not look at me in such a manner as though the thought of me being in pain causes him great distress. Ha Mr Darcy it is you who is causing me this distress, the irony is rather great. I wish he would go, but at the same time I do not wish such a thing. How can such a man's presence be so exquisite yet so painful? I need to prepare myself further I should use my illness as an excuse for him to take his leave.

"Yes, I am afraid I feel quite ill all of a sudden. I hope I am not falling ill again, that would be dreadful."

My Elizabeth was still ill! She should have one of the finest Doctors looking after her; she should have the Darcy's Doctor looking after her. I shall bring up this matter with Mr Bennet immediately; but I did not want to leave her. Our conversation was not excellent but I gain comfort from her presence but if she wants it to be gone it shall.

"Indeed, you have long been desirous my absence. I shall leave now. I hope you will feel better in time"

No Mr Darcy I do not wish for you to go I just felt that you were desirous to be out of my sight as this meeting has not been successful. With that Mr Darcy bowed and left the room but not before bestowing Elizabeth with a lingering glance. Elizabeth then thought as he shut the door the blasted man had still not told her what had happened the previous night.


Mr Darcy made his way downstairs and found that Bingley was engaged in conversation with Miss Bennet he silently moved towards lest Mrs Bennet saw him. He was in no mood to give attention to her blathering or snide remarks.

"Ah Darcy, I was just telling Miss Jane of my plans to give another ball at Netherfield Park in light of our engagement! What say you Darcy?"

"I think that is a capital idea Bingley!"

Darcy truly did think it was a capital idea it would give him another chance to dance with his Elizabeth without the barrier of Wickham; and to truly discern whether she did love him like she had previously stated.

"Of course it shall be when Miss Elizabeth is well! For I'm sure we would all loath if she were not there, wouldn't we Darcy? Some gentlemen would certainly not want to miss out of not having her for their dance partner!"

Darcy did not fail to miss the sly grin that had overcome Bingley's face at these words. Were his feelings for her that clear? If so, did she still know of them? Would she even accept him, if he asked for her to dance with him? Jane Bennet noticed the thoughtful look of worry that crossed Darcy's face, and addressed him directly which she did on rare occasions.

"Oh yes Mr Darcy, I told Bingley that Elizabeth would enjoy the ball very much. I'm sure that she would take great pleasure in dancing if a certain gentleman would care to ask. That is of course if the ball is certain to take place."

A look of absolute joy overcame Darcy's features and Jane Bennet thought that if she had not found Bingley she would find herself very much in love with him also. The dimples he had were quite endearing, yes she thought I would very much like him for a brother in law he shall do very well for Lizzy. Darcy's thoughts were also not far from Jane's he was grateful for her encouragement, Jane Bennet was certainly now his favourite of his Beloved. The interruption of Miss Bingley to the conversation at the mention of the ball did not hold well with Darcy as he would have liked further encouragement from Miss Jane.

"Oh Charles that does sound like a capital idea I should very much like a ball. I should hope that my dance card will not be empty."

Darcy inwardly winced as he did not miss the look Miss Bingley gave to him after this comment; he hated the obligatory dances that he did with Bingley's sisters. Caroline Bingley always spent that time trying to entice him into marriage while her sister tried to entice him into marriage with her sister also! It really was a trying time and rattled his nerves for if I heard one more comment on how she thinks Georgiana would make an excellent I may leave the floor! Gossip be damned is what I say!

"That sounds delight a ball at Netherfield Park; a truly like a wonderful idea our dear Mr Bingley! That shall be a pleasure for our dear girls! They do so love a ball! Girls! Girls! Girls you shall new gowns."

As Mrs Bennet rambled on, only as Mrs Bennet can Mr Darcy sat thinking of the woman upstairs and what at this moment was she thinking? Would she truly like a ball at Netherfield?

Elizabeth Bennet had still not moved since Mr Darcy had left; does he care for me still? He did take the trouble of coming upstairs to see me even when it was against propriety. She was interrupted by the loud voice of her mother booming in delight.

"That sounds delight a ball at Netherfield Park; a truly like a wonderful idea our dear Mr Bingley! That shall be a pleasure for our dear girls! They do so love a ball! Girls! Girls! Girls you shall new gowns."


A ball at Netherfield Park! Would Mr Darcy be there?! Oh to think I could dance with Mr Darcy again! This time without any prejudices or misunderstanding but just to enjoy his company and have a memory that would be untainted. For if he does marry I plan to remember the pleasant time with Darcy for the rest of my days. Elizabeth soon began to lose track of time as her thoughts were consumed with Darcy. She was broken out of reverie by a slight knock on the door.

"Elizabeth it is I, Jane."

Ah the party must of left some time ago thought Elizabeth. Mr Darcy was no longer a short distance away somehow that thought left her unsettled.

"Yes come in dear Jane."

"Are you feeling much better, Lizzy?"

"I do feel much better Jane, thank you. Now tell me how was Mr Bingley? Was he still an attentive fiancé? I heard mother shout of a ball?"

"Mr Bingley was fine as you are probably well aware, and he was attentive as ever. Lizzy he loves me so much! However are you sure you are not enquiring as to another certain gentleman's reaction to this ball?"

Elizabeth could not hide her blush at these words as she was trying to see whether Darcy was still going to be here for it.

"Jane I am not sure as to what you mean for I do not care who is there!"

A knowing smile graced her sisters beautiful face as she did clearly not believe in what she had just said. Were her feelings for Darcy that obvious?

"I think you do Lizzy. You cannot hide the truth from me I know of your feelings towards Mr Darcy. Do not worry though Lizzy no one else is aware of them. I think even Mr Darcy himself will not allow himself to think you do!"

"Does this mean? Do you think?"

"Lizzy you certainly do love him! I have never heard you so unsure of yourself or of anyone else for that matter."

"Oh Jane, what am I to do? He will never lower his pride to offer for me again even if he did still care for me a little."

This thought brought tears to Elizabeth's eyes; indeed she had thought it but had never admitted it out loud to anyone. Jane noticed the tears and quickly grasped her sister's hand with a lot of affection.

"Lizzy do not think so from what I saw of him downstairs he will indeed ask you to dance with him at the ball, and I am certain he will propose to you again!"

"How can you be so sure of this?"

Elizabeth refused to allow herself to hope as she was sure a man of Mr Darcy's status could win any lady he chose if he put his man to it, and would not waste his efforts again on a mere country girl.

"You did not see his reaction to the idea of dancing with you Lizzy. Yes, I am certain he still cares for you. Now mother is declaring that we shall all be fitted for new gowns before this ball! This includes you of course Lizzy, and we shall make sure that you shall certainly tempt Mr Darcy!"

With that Jane Bennet started to giggle and her sister could only look on in astonishment! Mr Bingley had brought on this new mischievous side of her sister and Elizabeth decided that she rather liked it.

Back at Netherfield Bingley and Darcy were partaking in some brandy as Darcy had decided that it had become his favourite drink.

"I'm sure if the ball begins to bore you Darcy. You can escape to read one of your books or even to take a drink of brandy to loosen you up. Pray tell where this sudden love of brandy has come from?"

With that Darcy just smiled as he took a sip of his brandy and thought of what the Netherfield ball would bring.


I hope that some of you have enjoyed it! It is nearly finished but as some of you may have guessed Darcy himself may be found by Elizabeth Bennet in the same situation as she way. He is going to be a little tipsy.

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