Chapter 3: understanding my feelings
Beca POV
With this new realization of my crush for Emily, I decided to push it a little and, get to know her more. So I asked, "So Emily, do you have a boyfriend waiting for you back home?" She turned her face, now looking at me, and all I could do was hold my breath and for a response hoping she's single. She replied, "No... Me and my ex-boyfriend broke-up before I came to Barden. He was going to UCLA and he didn't think it was a good idea to keep a long distance relationship. So, mutually we decided to break it off, and I don't regret it." This strangely brought me so much joy, but then that joy was interrupted when I thought about Jessie. He has been by my side ever since freshman year and he is possibly the sweetest guy I have ever dated. But should I ignore my feelings for Emily and go on with Jessie, or should I accept them and pursue her? I'll figure it out when we get to Barden, but for now, I'm just going to live in the moment. So I took a chance and ask her, "Would you date a girl if you really liked her and she liked you back?" Her response surprised me. "Of course I would! Love is love, and everyone deserves a chance at love. So who's to say I can't love someone else just because she's a girl. If the opportunity of love comes, I will be willing to take it, guy or girl." She ended with a small smile and all I could do was smile back. "I totally agree with you Emily" I say. She replies, "aww thanks. Everything comes from the heart" and she brings up her hand to her chest and makes a cute puppy dog face that won't get out of my head for a while. I laugh and once we look out the window, we notice we are back at the hotel and it was late, Like 1:30 AM late.
We all shuffle out of the bus, grab our uniforms and head inside. I'm rooming with Fat Amy and we decided to have a Bella meeting in our room and go over what the plans for the rest of the week were. Amy sends out the text and next thing we know, a swarm of Bellas file into our room and sit on our beds. I notice that Emily wasn't here yet so I ask the group, "hey guys where's Emily?" They all shake their heads and Cynthia-rose said something that really shocked me. She said with a smirk, "you guys are getting pretty close huh?" Everybody in the room oohed and I was speechless. How'd they find out about my crush? I literally learned it myself like Three hours ago! Anyway, I asked her, "How'd you know!? We literally just got to know each other today!" Cynthia said, "please Beca, everyone knows that you guys have a lot of chemistry! I mean, just listen to how good you're guys collab was! It wouldn't have been that good if there were no feeling whatsoever. Face it Beca, you like Emily!" Everyone in the room nodded as if I was the only one who didn't know. Of course, I know I like Emily, but I didn't know I would fall for her this fast! I grunted at them and they all started to laugh. Fat Amy then asks, "so when are you going to tell Jessie, but more importantly, her?" Everyone looked to me and all I could say was, "guys, I don't even know she likes me back! I'll tell her at the end of the week to see where I'm at with her then and Jessie after our meeting." Everyone understood and went into our own conversations until Emily arrived.
next thing I know, someone is knocking at the door and I find myself booking it to the door. Chloe yells, "Beca she's not dying, slow down!" Everyone in the room starts laughing and I roll my eyes. I open the door to find a wet-haired Emily wearing shorts and a huge sweater for pajamas and all I could think of was how beautiful and adorable she looks. I found myself staring and she had to wave her hands in front of my eyes to see if I was still conscious. I blinked and panicked and said, "oh hi... Where have you been!" Acting like I was mad at her but making sure she knew I was just joking. She laughed and said, "sorry I was in the shower. I didn't see the text till I came out." I nod in understanding and let her pass. As we walk into the room, everyone is staring at us and fat Amy half-coughed half-said "smooth Beca." I glare at her and Emily takes her seat next to Lily. I start the meeting by saying, "first I'd like to congratulate you Bellas, we had just won the world A Capella championships. Especially to out newcomer Emily for writing that beautiful song and allowing us to add it to our set. Without it, we would probably have lost." Everyone congratulated Emily and cheered. I then said, "So now, we have a week to enjoy what a Copenhagen has to offer. So what shall we do?" Everyone gave ideas and I wrote them down on a writing pad. Stacy suggested shopping, lily suggested something weird, and Emily suggested boat rides. Hers was my favorite. We ended with a hands in and everyone left our room. Emily was the last to leave and as I was behind her, going to close the door, she turns around and hugs me and says, "goodnight Beca." I hug her back and say, "goodnight emily." We separate and she smiles at me and I smile back and she leaves for her room.
When I walk back in the room smiling, Fat Amy is just sitting there with a huge grin plastered on her face. She says, "you are literally the densest person when it comes to girls, huh shawshank?" I question her, "what do you mean?" She replies, "she's obviously into you Beca! She wouldn't stop staring at you through the whole meeting!" At first I was surprised, but then realized, "Fat Amy, she was staring at me because I was the one leading the meeting." She Immediately rolls her eyes and says, "No Beca, she was staring at you when you weren't even talking. She was staring at you like when someone had just hit gold for the first time! She was staring at you like how you stare at her." I thought about it for a second and dismiss the thought because I know it was unlikely that someone like Emily would like a girl like me. I've graduated already and she still has three more years, so it's not like it would work. I shake it off and she rolls her eyes again and I remember that I had to do something: I have to call Jessie.
