Indecision
IT HAS TO BE THE THIRD CHOICE, I screamed in my head again and again. Edward had left me for a little over half a minute now to let me dwindle on my thoughts. But what if it was the second? It can't possibly be the first, right? She has a heartbeat, more than that her eyes are blue. She can't possibly be a vampire. Yet again, she might.
As I lay across my bed just thinking of what possible… thing she might be, I also can't help my thoughts wander to who she might be.
I shook my head, trying in vain to clear my mind of her. I heard a knock on the door. Instinctively, I sat up on the edge of my bed.
"Come in," I said, kicking the couch to a good distance from me. The door opened, and I was surprised to see Bella.
"Hey, Seth," she said in her most soothing voice.
"Hey Bells," I greeted back. "You need anything?"
She shut the door behind her and closed her eyes as if trying to concentrate on something.
"You're using that again?" I asked.
She only nodded before opening her eyes again and taking a seat on the couch. "I have to know something," she said.
"And it's not something you want Edward finding out you were curious about." I looked at her sarcastically, and she looked back with sheepish eyes. I rolled mine. "Oh come on, Bella. You know I'd never resist not telling you something I know."
She smiled, straightening up eagerly. Her human habits never really ceased to amuse me. Either she shows a really boring face or she shows a really, annoyingly eager one.
"Start!" I closed my eyes as I mimicked someone who was supposed to get interrogated.
"This whole… Imprinting thing," she started. "What does it exactly do to the person you imprint on?"
This totally caught me off guard. I thought she's going to ask about our silent exchange earlier. "Well, first of all, Bella," I started, staring right into her golden eyes, "imprinting is like… getting yourself married everyday to the same person. You give them your everything, love them with our everything, and… Just forget about everything else.
"I don't know why you're interested, but the only effect I know of on the person we imprint on is their inability to resist the loyalty, love, affection and attention we give them…
"And once more, just like us, they become blind… Like the only person in the world they could see is the wolf they're in love with."
Her face was like a Christmas tree. Bright, I thought, raising my eyebrows and dropping them.
"Why?" I asked quickly.
Her eager smile turned to a glum one sided frown.
"Aw, come on, Bella! Please?"
"Well… you see, everyone seems to be having a great deal of worry… about you."
"Me?"
"Yes, you. I just talked about it with Leah, and she said… If you don't find someone to imprint on soon, you might end up eternally alone."
"What's that got to do with me? I got centuries to live, and I can just find one girl through the years and imprint on her, right?"
"Well, not exactly."
My jaw dropped.
"Whoever you'll be imprinting on in a century's gonna leave you as soon as she stood beside you."
"B-but I thought our venom… Wait! Bella, how do you know this much about…? Well, about us?"
Bella rolled her eyes in amusement. "I have a werewolf for a best friend for goodness' sake, Seth, and now that particular wolf is my daughter's mate!"
"Jacob."
"Black."
"But… what do you mean?"
"What what exactly?"
"What you said earlier, before the venom thingy?"
"Oh that." Bella rolled her eyes, standing from the couch and walking to the southern wall that faced my favorite snow-covered forest. "Jake said something… about expiring.
"Your venom… unlike the vampires', it sort of grows weaker the less you use it, until it's totally useless to even you."
Oh, now I remembered. "Oh that… Billy said something about that back in La Push, in one of our final bonfires… He said something like if we don't use it much, it's sort of like losing our ability to actually kill vamps."
"That's my point, Seth. I want to know how exactly your venom works for your imprintee."
"Well, it's sort of close to changing a human to a vampire with your venom. Be all we do is give our humans a chance to be with us… forever. But just like us, they grow old, too, in a slower rate, of course."
She turned back to face me, her face now blank.
"What?" I asked.
"Keep this to yourself, I'm getting the shield off in three hours," she said, flicking my nose as she passed me toward the door. "Oh," she said, facing me before she went out, "call you for dinner."
I draped myself across my bed again.
I closed my eyes, and tried to forget about my conversation with Bella.
Third choice, third choice. IT HAS TO BE THE THIRD CHOICE.
But… what if it isn't? What if Yen really is a … or at least HALF a vampire. I shuddered, trying to remember her. Her pale complexion, definitely vampire. But her eyes… their blue, for heaven's sake! But… So are Nessie's… brown, though she's a vampire. Her beautiful face, angel-like… as though she's some sort of blessing.
"Seth?" I heard Esme call out in her motherly tone.
I sat up. "Yeah, mum?" I asked.
"Dinner's ready, dear," she said, peeking in my room a bit with a smile in her heart-shaped face.
I wet my lips with my tongue—yes, like a dog—before jumping off my bed and joining her at my door.
Dinner was silent except for Emmett's endless rants about what we talked about on the run home. As expected, he was amused. Esme, Carlisle and Leah on the other hand were excited. Only that Alice and Edward were confused about the holes when it comes to Alice's visions on Yen's future.
After dinner I excused myself and slept early, unconsciously excited about school.
"Get up sleepy head," I heard Leah say, kicking my back. I moaned, but I got up as she said. "Get ready for school. I gotta get home."
"Bye Leah," I said, rubbing my eyes as I woke up.
"Bye Seth." She got out of my room and I heard her say good-bye to everyone she met on her way out. I prepared for school—took a bath, brushed my teeth, got my clothes on, and ate breakfast.
"Seth?" Edward called out from the living room as I fixed my things.
"Coming," I called back, half-running toward them.
Edward drove us in a crazy hundred fifty miles toward school. Vampire speed. I sighed.
We went to class together as usual, keeping our human charade. I almost dragged myself out of the classroom when I saw Yen sitting beside my chair.
"No you don't," Edward said, holding me by the collar and practically pulling me inside the classroom.
"Come on, wussy," Bella laughed, holding on to my arm as she helped her husband to me toward my seat.
IT HAS GOT TO BE THE THIRD CHOICE!
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