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Max POV
After Fang left, I moved to sit by the electric piano I keep up here. I love batteries! This place is my escape from life when things get bad. I always have extra batteries up here so if the ones in the piano die, I can change them. I need this place. I got out my songbook with all of my favorite songs and looked for the perfect one. Then I turned on the tape recorder that I found in my closet and started playing.
All my life, you know I haven't been very love strong
There's been so many fights that I fought I've never won
So I decided that I should just give up on trying to right your wrongs
And word on the street is that she did to you what you did to me
5, 4, 3, 2, 1
Bang, bang, bang, boy
You're going down, down, down, boy
To the ground where you left my heart to bleed
Bang, she shot you, karma tastes so
Bang, bang, bang, boy
You're going down, down, down, boy
To the ground where you left my heart to bleed
Bang, she shot you, karma tastes so sweet
So unfortunately, for girls like me there are more like you
Bending and breaking the rules and we're making exceptions too
But how does it feel to swim in your own tears?
You lied and you lied, and I died, and I died and now you know why
5, 4, 3, 2, 1
Bang, bang, bang, boy
You're going down, down, down, boy
To the ground where you left my heart to bleed
Bang, she shot you, karma tastes so
Bang, bang, bang, boy
You're going down, down, down, boy
To the ground where you left my heart to bleed
Bang, she shot you, karma tastes so sweet
Bang, bang, bang, boy
You're going down, down, down, boy
To the ground where you left my heart to bleed
Bang, she shot you, karma tastes so
Bang, bang, bang, boy
You're going down, down, down, boy
To the ground where you left my heart to bleed
Bang, she shot you, karma tastes so
Bang, bang, bang, boy
You're going down
To the ground
Ooh
I finished the song in tears. As amazing as the venting felt, I still felt empty inside. I needed to talk to Fang. He sang me that heartfelt song that should've left me feeling like he cared. But now I just feel guilty, which I shouldn't. At least he could apologize. I really need to talk to him. I wonder if he actually does love me…
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I found Fang sitting in his room working on his laptop. "Hey, can we talk?" He looked surprised, but he put his precious computer down and patted the bed next to him.
"Sure, what's up?"
"I feel like I overreacted earlier. I have my emotions under control now. I just need to know…why Lissa? Out of all the girls you could've had, why her?" I asked. I could feel a lump in the back of my throat but I swallowed it. I didn't want to ruin this talk with tears. I waited for what seemed like an eternity before he turned to face me straight on and answer.
"To be honest, it was pure selfishness. I knew how much you hate her. You've always hated the preppy kind of girls, except Nudge and Ella of course. But I knew that she would piss you off the most out of any other girl. And I wanted to show you that I didn't care what you think. While I was away, I really missed you. When I came home, you wouldn't speak to me. So I did what I knew would get your attention. Lissa is a good person really, she's just selfish. She's the opposite of you. And I thought I needed that. I regret it so much now. I hope you can forgive me, but I understand if you can't…" He drifted off while I just sat there, stunned. I couldn't believe my ears or my eyes. I swore I could see a tear in his eye but it was gone as quickly as it had come.
"Fang, I really don't know what to say. I think I need time to process all of this. But thank you for being honest with me. If you need me, you know where to find me." I gave him a kiss on the cheek and left the room, leaving Fang to his thoughts. Before I closed the door, I peeked back in. I watched as Fang leaned against the headboard of his bed and closed his eye as a single tear rolled down his cheek. Until now, I didn't realize just how lonely he had been feeling. And I'm determined to fix that.
There ya go! Three chapters all loaded up for ya! Again, thanks for all of the support. My uncle Chris and my friend Emily actually went searching for my story to read it and give me support. Thanks you two, I love you so much. I don't know when I'll post the next chapter because my life gets pretty crazy this time of year. But I promise I'll try to do it soon! Don't forget to review and give me some ideas! Love you guys lots! J 3
