Thank you for waiting! I'm so sorry for updating it this late. I revised this chapter several times. This is a very long chapter too.. Please bear it for me? I'm waiting for your review,, please? For my reviewers,,thank you so much! Hope you'll like it!


"Excuse me,Fuji-san. I have finished my work today. Do you still need something?" His assistant called.

Fuji looked at the clock on the wall and surprised. "It's already this late? Maa.. You don't have to follow my schedule,I tend to forget about time when doing my job."

"It's okay,Fuji-san. I'm proud to be a part of your team. I want to do my best and be a useful staff!"

Fuji chuckled hearing her answer. "It's okay. I'm on my way home too. Thank you for your hard work today."

"Hai! Thank you for your hard work too,Fuji-san."

After his assistant went home,Fuji tidied his desk and readied to go home. His eyes caught the photo on his desk. It was his and Tezuka's photo, taken by himself when they conquered Mount Fuji. Fuji also took many precious photos there. There were the sceneries, people they met and the most important was Tezuka and himself. He even managed to take Tezuka's photo when he smiled at him. It had been a long time. He wanted to do some adventures again with his beloved Kunimitsu.

They would have their first anniversary in next two days. He wanted to do something special about it. Something like dinner at a famous restaurant,talking about sweet nothing, back to his house to enjoy wine and do more romantic things. Fuji sighed,that was impossible. Tezuka was at his business trip across the world. He wouldn't back until next week.

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"I'll ask my assistant to go or postpone it until next month." Tezuka said when Fuji sat on his lap after their dinner.

"You shouldn't do that,Kunimitsu. It's unreasonable. We can postpone our celebration instead. I'm not going anywhere. Your business is more important. It worth more than millions Yen. I'm not as worthy as that." Fuji said as he watch the lights outside the windows blinked.

"You are right."

"So that mean we will change our plan?" Fuji tilted his head.

"No,I mean you are right that you are not as worthy as my millions Yen of business."

"Yeah,so-"

"I mean, you worth more than that. You are my life Syuu. I can't function well when you're not right beside me."

"Mou.. Mitsu,when did you get so mushy?" Fuji faked a pout.

"I do when I'm with you. You bring the best part of me out. I love you, my love."

"I love you too." Fuji hugged him. Then he added, "But you,Tezuka Kunimitsu,still have to attend the business trip. I'll give you a surprise when you come home."

This took Tezuka's attention. His eyes blinking in mischief. In the end,Tezuka agreed to go.

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And now Fuji felt a little disappointed and lonely. It can't be helped,he himself who asked and demanded Tezuka to go. He needed only to be patient and prepare his surprise.

When he walked out of elevator his phone rang. It was from unknown number. Sometimes the other division need his help too. This may be one of them.

"Hello,this is Fuji Syusuke. How may I help you?"

"Fuji-san,this is from Tokyo Hospital. There was an accident on highway,Tezuka-san was injured. We want to tell you that Tezuka-san was taken to our hospital to be treated."

Fuji's heart stopped beating and his body gone weak. "Wh..what happened? Tezuka is not with me.. I mean he is not at Japan at this moment. There should be some misunderstanding."

"Apparently he is.."

Fuji ran ro catch a taxi. He asked the driver to take him to the hospital as fast as they can. He must be heard it wrong.

"Apparently he is. He was on his way back from the airport when an accident happened."

No,no,no,nononono...

"How is his condition?"

"We are not sure because we are only ordered to inform the patients' relatives."

"What do you mean? I need you to explain his condition immediately!"

"Please come as soon as you can. That's all. We are very sorry."

"There was a big accident near this hospital,no?" the driver's voice startled Fuji.

"Yes,I need to arrive there quickly."

Please Kunimitsu,be safe. Don't leave me. I need you. Don't go. Please..please. Fuji chanted in his heart over and over.

"I heard from the radio that many people were injured. There even some in critical condition."

Fuji stopped breathing. It was not his Kunimitsu. Kunimitsu promised to stay with him.

The traffic was really crowded. They were stuck on the last row. "I'm sorry, Customer-san. But there was a traffic jam near the hospital. We can't reach it by car but you can reach it less than ten minutes on foot. Just follow this road and turn right at the intersection." the driver's instructed.

"Okay. Thank you." Fuji paid the driver and started to run.

He reach the hospital less than six minutes. The hospital was in chaos, there were so many people and reporters. You can hear people shouted,asking information, children's crying,people groaning in hurt. Fuji focused his attention to the information centre. He asked for Tezuka and was directed to a small room inside the hospital.

He ran and reached the room,he was panting. His mind was so numb. He was afraid,afraid about Tezuka's condition,he didn't want someone who was so important to him left again. Like what happened to Yuta. If Tezuka left him now,he was sure that he would fall into the deep sorrow and would never exit from it anymore.

He opened the door and saw Tezuka sleeping on his bed. He had bandages on his head,Fuji check on his hand and his body but they were only scrapped. Although his body was fine,Fuji afaid there was something wrong inside his body. Didn't they say internal wounds were riskier than the surface one?

Fuji touched Tezuka's cheek by his left hand and his right hand was placed on Tezuka's hand. "Kunimitsu..." Fuji said in whisper.

"Syusuke." Tezuka replied,he squeezed Fuji's hand.

"You are awake? How do you feel? Is there someplace hurt? Don't worry, I'll call a doctor,okay?"

"It's okay,Syuu. I'm fine."

"How is this called fine? You had an accident just now." Fuji pressed the calling button.

"They had checked my injuries, there were nothing wrong. I just bumped my head. These scratch were made when I tried to help people. I told them not to make a fuss."

"Then,why did they put you on this room? There are people who need this room more."

"Atobe."

With that one word explained everything. Atobe would never accept something less than luxurious.

"Are you sure you are okay?"

"Yes,I just need to rest my eyes for a moment just now. Now when you are here,I feel better."

Fuji were still unconvinced but he didn't want to stress Tezuka out.

"I thought you were still abroad." It was more likely a question than a statement.

"I finished the works faster and leave the rest to my assistant. I want to give a a surprise. It worked, didn't it?" Tezuka tried to joke.

"Baka." Fuji stroked Tezuka's cheek with his hand. "You don't have to push yourself. If it's not for me then.."

A doctor and a nurse arrived. Fuji tried to move away but stopped by Tezuka's hand. Tezuka knew the turmoil inside Fuji's heart. It caused Fuji was in the way but the doctor managed to do his job. They checked Tezuka once again.

"How is it?" Fuji asked. He got impatience as time ticked away.

"He got five stitches on his head. There is a lump on his head. I'll give him prescription so it won't be hurt." Fuji eyes widened by the doctor's statements.

Fuji's eyes placed on Tezuka's. You are fine,huh? But Tezuka ignored it.

The doctor cleared Tezuka's condition. He could go home the following morning. The doctor gave some instructions how take care of Tezuka's wound and his schedule to come back to check his head. Fuji thanked the doctor and walked him to the door,Tezuka had been sleeping during that time.

Fuji sat on the chair next to the bed and took Tezuka's hand. He kissed Tezuka's fingers. His tears which he held, melted and ran down his eyes. He almost lost his love and life. His traumatic experience crashed him like an ocean wave,strong and unstoppable. If it's not for him than Tezuka still would be fine. Because of his selfishness to get a happiness he got Tezuka hurt. It's better like before when he hadn't met Tezuka yet. Tezuka would be never involved in an accident.

Fuji placed Tezuka's hand back to his bed but when Fuji's hand out of his reach, Tezuka frown and he grunted,calling for Fuji as if Fuji's presence made him in peace and loved, keep him protected.

"Ssshhh... It's okay,Kunimitsu. I'm here. Sleep. Sleep,my dear." Tezuka calmed down.

Fuji remembered the times when he doubted his decision to be with Tezuka. He tried to walked away from Tezuka several times but Tezuka convinced him to stay with him.

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After the fateful night,Fuji thought he made the decision so hastily. He thought he need to slow down and let it flow by itself. He even braved himself to convince Tezuka. He had made an appointment with Tezuka (which was not easy,he had been brought through many phone lines to reach out Tezuka),he made a speech entitled 'what about take it slow and let it flow'. He even did some practices to perfect it.

What happened was beyond his expectation. Tezuka brought them to the most exclusive restaurant which unaffordable by his payment unless he didn't need to pay his rent and eat for one whole month. Tezuka also surprised him with his speech about 'why you shouldn't change your mind and be mine'.

"I.. I can't believe it. How do you know?" Fuji was speechless, Tezuka knew his intention.

"I have my own way."

"But.. Don't you think it's too sudden?"

"Have you ever heard about love at the first sight?"

Tezuka put his hand on Fuji's. His thumb stroked Fuji's hand with slow caress.

"I'm willing to wait for you but what is the need of waiting if we both want each other?"

For a minute Fuji contemplating their options. "Can I trust my heart to you?"

"Yes,as I will give my heart,my soul and my everything to you." Tezuka face was firm and full of solemnity. That moment Fuji was sure about their feeling. He wanted to try. He wanted to change.

"Okay. You got me." Tezuka smiled at him and showered him with affection and love.

His colleagues often teased his about Tezuka's adoration to him. He would send flowers to Fuji's house and office when his photobook came out. He would send food and beverages when he heard Fuji and his team were working overtime. He even delivered it by himself when he was not busy. He would buy Fuji's photobook and placed it in every room at his house,it wasn't left unnoticed by Fuji but he didn't say anything. He thought Tezuka was so sweet and he loved him for that. Fuji himself tried to give his all attention and affection when he was with Tezuka. He brought him lunch or dinner when Tezuka worked late,played tennis anytime Tezuka needed it,gave him some opinions about Tezuka's new ideas even argued about them.

One month after he agreed to go out with Tezuka,he had to go to France for his photobook. It got great response from the public. Tezuka also had some business so they couldn't celebrate their togetherness.

That afternoon Fuji had finished his works and had a spare time before going back to Japan. He brought his camera with him,while enjoying his coffee he took some pictures too. He readied his camera, focusing on the street in front of him and his camera focused on someone he missed so much.

"Kunimitsu." He gasped.

Tezuka was several meters away from him. He couldn't believe his eyes. When he thought he wouldn't see Tezuka soon but here he was.

Tezuka gave him a subtle smile, little but warm and for him only. He threw himself to Tezuka's opened arms. They stayed at that position for a moment,didn't care about people watching them,they only savored each other's embrace.

"Why are you here? I thought you were at Germany now."

"Yes,I was. When I called your office they told me you are here. I took the earliest flight to come here."

"I'm sorry. I didn't tell you because I thought I'll be back before you."

"It's okay. Are you busy now?"

"No,actually I have finished my work and I have me time before going back to Japan."

"Really? I can kidnap you,then?"

"With a pleasure."

They spent the evening walking around the street and bought things for each other. Fuji took pictures everytime he found something amusing and it's often had Tezuka in it.

When night came and getting dark they went to Tezuka's hotel. They enjoyed their meal. It was the best day ever for Fuji and Tezuka.

"It's really beautiful here." Fuji said while watching the night view of Paris. He could see the Eiffel tower clearly from his place.

"Yeah,it's truly pretty." Tezuka hugged Fuji from behind. Fuji laid his head on Tezuka's chest then sighed.

"What is it?"

"No,I'm happy. Just several weeks before,I felt like hell but now I'm here with you. It's a miracle for me." Fuji closed his eyes. Tezuka kissed his head. "I will always be with you."

Fuji tilted his head and kissed Tezuka softly. They didn't need a long time to deepened their kiss. Fuji rotated his body so they faced each other. Tezuka's tongue moved along Fuji's seam of lips and Fuji opened his mouth happily. Tezuka ran his tongue along with Fuji's. Tezuka ran his hands down to Fuji's back and stopped on his curve back. He pushed Fuji's hip to his. When their hard length meet each other they moaned. Their mouths and bodies moved in a primitive rhythm.

Tezuka raised his head and met Fuji's brilliant blue eyes which darker than usual,flushed cheek and full lips. Tezuka couldn't hold back anymore.

"Syusuke.. May I love you tonight?"

Fuji blinked and gave him a shy smile. "Yes. But before that I want to tell you something." He bit his lip.

Tezuka waited.

"I have never done it before. I mean I never met someone who dear to me to give my all. After Yuta's death my body didn't work. I'm too busy in my misery to search physical pleasure. So.. Errmm.."

"It's your first time?" Tezuka concluded.

"Ye..yeah. I'm asking a forgiveness ahead,if I don't give you the highest pleasure tonight." Fuji shifted his eyes to Tezuka's button.

Being Fuji's first time nearly made him come undone at that moment. Nobody had ever touched his beloved man. Tezuka hugged Fuji so suddenly that made Fuji gasped.

"I'll trasure you. Your first,your last, your everything. Fuji Syusuke,be mine?" Tezuka said in whisper.

"Yes,,yes. I will." Fuji said with a pleasant smile. He was happy Tezuka still wanted him after all of his difficulty. Tezuka's handsome face filled with happiness.

Tezuka carried Fuji in bridal style and walked into the bed. Tezuka's eyes never left Fuji's face,he kissed him again and again in a quick kiss. He put Fuji on the bed and watched him. "Syusuke.."

He dipped down,the bed pushed down as he made his way to Fuji. "My beautiful Syusuke.."

Tezuka put his left hand on Fuji's cheek,his right hand was used to support himself so he wouldn't befall on Fuji. He kissed Fuji with sensuality, their tongue met and fought to be dominant. When Fuji almost lost his breath,Tezuka continued his journey to Fuji's neck. His hand opened Fuji's shirt one by one, while he gave bites to the place between the shoulder and neck which gained whimpers from Fuji. When Fuji's beautiful body was displayed in front of him,Tezuka devour it. He placed his fingers on the rose pink nipple until it became pebbled while his tongue licked the other one. Fuji moaned his name, his hip buckled in the same rhythm of Tezuka's kisses.

Fuji felt the world was compresssed until there were only Tezuka and himself. His body felt so hot and he needed to unleash his need. Tezuka suddenly put his hand in front of his trousers,on his hard length doing some pressures. His whimpers became moaning. He couldn't take it more.

"Mi..Mitsu...please..please.."

Tezuka discarded Fuji's trousers with his boxer freeing Fuji's arousal. Tezuka could see all of Fuji. He then freeing himself from the suffocating clothes. He hugged Fuji again, the skin to skin feeling make them hotter than before. "Syusuke.."

"Mitsu.."

Tezuka poured some lubricant to his and and some to Fuji's entrance. He touched the tight hole,hesitant. "It's okay,Mitsu." Hearing Fuji's permission made Tezuka a little bit assured. His first digit went with a little difficulty but Fuji managed to accept him. Tezuka kept watching Fuji's expression so he could slow down when Fuji felt hurt. It didn't take a long time to reach the third digit. Fuji was whimpering and moaning under him,he didn't want to hurt Fuji.

Fuji could feel Tezuka's hand inside him. There was a weird feeling but it didn't unpleasant too. He wanted to ask Tezuka to enter when Tezuka's hand touched something inside that made him thrust his hip. It felt really good.

"Oh..that..was..Oh.." Tezuka attacked that spot again and again until he felt all of his feeling shrank into that spot,Tezuka then grabbed his arousal,licking its pouring head, bitting the rod. "Come for me,Syuu." He ordered. Fuji couldn't take it anymore,he shouted Tezuka's name and all of his seeds were released into Tezuka's mouth.

Fuji shivered,blinking his eyes as if he just got a bliss,then he gave Tezuka an apologetic smile. His body was covered by a thin perspiration. Tezuka kissed him and he could taste himself inside of Tezuka's mouth. "I want you,Kunimitsu. All of you."

"Syuu.. Are you sure? I'm fine if we end it here."

"No,please.. Let's finish it."

Tezuka gave him a peck on his lips and grabbed some lube and condoms. He sheathed his length in it and added some lube. The cool sensation made him shiver. Although he had made sure Fuji was stretched but being careful was better than sorry.

"I'm coming in."

Tezuka entered. The sensation was really different from his finger before. He felt full. Then Fuji saw Tezuka's face,it was really a bliss for Tezuka and Fuji knew that it's really difficult for him not to move.

Fuji was so tight and warm there. He gritted his teeth,trying to restraint. "You..you are perfect. So tight.. Syuu.. I'm sorry but I don't think.." His body was glistening by his perspiration.

"It's okay. You can move." Fuji put his hand on Tezuka's cheek.

Tezuka then start moving,slowly and carefully at the beginning, pulling until his head was in Fuji's entrance and thrusting all the way inside. Seeing Fuji was fine with it he increased his speed. It's getting hard and faster.

"Yes..yes.. Mitsu.. Fas..faster.." Fuji looped his arms on Tezuka's shoulder, his feet to Tezuka's hip. The sensation before was coming back to Fuji. Tezuka attacked the spot precisely every time he thrust back into Fuji's depth. Tezuka removed his hand from the bed and wrapped Fuji's length, stroked it each time he pushed. Fuji came after the fourth stokes.

Fuji's body went limp but Tezuka hadn't finished yet. He brought Fuji into his arms so Fuji was straddling him. "Again. Syuu.."

"Wa..Wait.. I haven't.."

Tezuka thrust his hip into Fuji's entrance. Fuji moaned and tilted his head giving Tezuka an erotic display. Tezuka bit the milky white skin,leaving his marks so the world knew that Fuji was his. They moved in a rythm,savoured each strokes, whispers,touches,kisses and their sweet love making. The room was hot,filled with their lovemaking scent and their voice

"Mitsu.. Mi..tsu.. I can't.."

Tezuka grunted hearing Fuji's voice, combined with his luscious body gave the pleasure tenfold more.

When Tezuka finally came Fuji couldn't feel his hip anymore. He lost counting how many times Tezuka brought him to the high. Tezuka brought a clean wet towel to clean Fuji's body before cleaning himself. He threw the towel back to the bathroom and went back to the bed. Fuji was smiling at him but his eyes starting to drop.

Tezuka hugged Fuji in his arm,Fuji's head was placed on his chest,their feet tangled each other,sated. He pulled the bed cover above their bodies. He kissed Fuji's head.

"Good night,Syuu. I love you."

"mmm.. Nite,Mitsu. I love you too."

Fuji felt so sleepy that he slept after saying those word without hearing Tezuka's next word. He was so happy because this time they truly became one.

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Tezuka felt something was really wrong with Fuji. They had gone home from the hospital. Fuji helped him to change into his suit, checked out of the hospital even helped him into the taxi. Fuji eyes didn't meet his throughout those times. When they arrived at Tezuka's home,Fuji busied himself with chores around the house leaving Tezuka alone in the living room, he even did the cooking chores (It always Tezuka's job to prepare the food, Fuji's taste buds was too peculiar). As if Fuji was readying himself to do something big.

"Tezuka,your lunch is ready. Do you want to eat it here or at dinning room?" Fuji appeared from the kitchen wearing Tezuka's apron.

Tezuka. Yup,something is definitely wrong.

"It's okay. I can wait a little longer."

"But you have to have your medicine to get better. The doctor instructed me to."

"Do you have something to tell me,Syusuke?"

Fuji stopped talking,he kept changing his support foot, his hand twisted his apron that would left an eternity wrinkle on it,Tezuka thought.

"Is there something wrong,Syuu? Please tell me?"

"I..I.." Fuji shifted his eyes on to the floor and kept wrinkling his apron. Clearly too afraid to look at Tezuka.

"I think it would be the best if we stopped seeing each other. I don't want you to be hurted again." Fuji said with a low voice,tears brimmed on his eyes but he blinked it away.

"You mean now? At this moment when I have these injuries?"

"NO! Of course no! I will help too,until you are fit again. It's my fault to begin with." Fuji wiped his tears away

Tezuka rose from his sofa and walked toward Fuji. He stopped right in front of Fuji. "What do you mean?"

"It's my fault that you were hurt. Just like Yuta. Can't you see it? If we didn't meet,this would never happened." Fuji touched Tezuka's cheek. "I don't want you to get hurt. You are too good for me. You deserves someone better." Tears were falling down from Fuji's eyes.

Tezuka understood. Fuji was still traumatized by his brother's death. "Hn..It's not your fault Syusuke. I decided it by myself and that was jus an accident which could happen to anyone. I'm fine. I'm still here,see?"

"Yes. But about in the future? I don't want to lose someone dear to me again."

Tezuka brought Fuji into his arm. Fuji's cries broke his heart too. It was not the right to explain rationally. He kept holding Fuji and swayed their body in a calming movement. When Fuji's cries went to hiccups he let his arms lose. He wiped away Fuji's tears.

They walked to the sofa. Fuji sat but Tezuka stayed standing. "Wait here." Tezuka commanded.

Fuji stood now. "Do you need something? Let me get it for you. You are not fit enough to walked around freely."

"Stay." Tezuka said in a firm voice. Fuji sat down. Tezuka dissappeared inside his corridor.

Suddenly Fuji felt a deja-vu about this situation. One year ago he also stayed as Tezuka's command. He chuckled.

"What is it?" Tezuka said when he came back.

"Nothing. Just a memory."

Tezuka then kneeled in front of Fuji. In his left hand there was a small red velvet box. Fuji eyes widened knowing what would happened next.

"Mitsu.."

"Syusuke,For a long time ago I always thought that I would never meet someone I would love. I thought that I have no ability to care and worry about someone. I just live my life to fill the calendar,to spend my life alone till my death. Then I met you. When I met you,I felt whole again. When I met you,I know the feelings that I never knew before. When I met you,I decided that I would never let you go. That's why when you asked to separate from me,you were asking me to die right in front of you." Fuji tears fell down,he tried not to breath because he would cried hard when he did. He bit his lips and put his hand on his mouth.

"We are not immortal. People will die someday. No one know when. And if I had to die tomorrow,I prefer spending my last day with you than living years ahead without you. I know it's too sudden. Syusuke,would you marry me? Would you allow me to love you,to take care of you and to kiss your worries away until the death do us apart?" Tezuka opened the box and there was a golden ring with a blue sapphire on it.

It was the longest speech that Tezuka had given to him so far. He didn't know that Tezuka had this ability.

"Oh,Mitsu!" Fuji said in a choke.

"Was that Oh,Mitsu yes? Or Oh,Mitsu no?"

"Yes..yes..yesyesyes.." Fuji threw himself to Tezuka. He couldn't say no to someone like Tezuka. He himself who wanted to change. He almost took Tezuka for granted.

"I love you,Mitsu! I love you. I'm sorry for saying something so horrible to you just now."

"It's okay. I understand. I love that part of you too. I love you. I hope someday your heart will filled with happiness and your bad memories were only memories."

"I'll try. Please don't lose hope of me."

Tezuka smiled at him,he didn't cry bit his eyes were wet of tears his face filled with happiness and love. Fuji felt he was the luckiest man alive because of Tezuka. "Put it on for me." Fuji asked

Tezuka took the ring off of its box, he moved between Fuji's tight and slid it into Fuji's ring. Fuji was amazed by its color. "It's your eyes' color." Tezuka explained,his cheeks were flushed.

"No. It's darker than my eyes." Fuji tilted his head.

"It is. When you are aroused." He coughed.

Fuji hit Tezuka playfully. "You are a pervert."

"Your pervert. Now,can we move to the honeymoon part?"

"No. You are still hurt. Saa,I don't want to explain to the doctor what caused the opened wound. It's too embarrassing."

"Let me worry about it later." Tezuka scooped Fuji into his arms. Fuji laughed and reprimanded him.

Tezuka kicked the door to open it and kicked it again to close it. They didn't go out until the next morning.

Fuji's present for their anniversary was a trip to Hawaii. People tried to hit on them if one of them was left alone and they had to calming each other consequently. It was funny seeing Tezuka's jealous face,he would frown and giving his speech about keeping their hands away from his husband. Fuji was different, he would send a deathly glare that made people ran away with tears.

When night came they would worshipped each other till they couldn't move anymore.

Fuji was still awake while Tezuka was sleeping. He put his head under Tezuka's chin. "I know it was impossible but I hope we could live a thousand year more so I can love you more. Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for healing me. Thank you for loving me. I love you,Mitsu."

"Hn..I love you too."

Fuji smiled. He didn't distress himself about Yuta's death anymore. He was sure his little brother suffer more when he did. So he thought to remember Yuta as his lovely little brother who gave him a chance to meet his soul mate, his love and his husband.

Thank you,Yuta.


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